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people following me for zoom quiz be warned. I am terribly online and also annoying

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Time for zoom quiz 2!! I hope you all have been reheating with an eye for detail...

Lily's HR Zoom Quiz 2

Hi! There are 40 multiple choice questions with zoomed in screencaps of Heated Rivalry episodes. Please select the correct episode each scre

I will be personally sending badges to the first 500 responses and/or the first week of the quiz being live, whichever happens first, then I'll make the badges accessible for anyone!

find the original zoom quiz here

[gaynehollander]

Rules of Propriety

by acronyx (a.k.a. me)

There is a hunger that lives within Shane. An unbearable void that he carries within him. A darkness that resides in the deepest recesses of his being. Most of the time it’s manageable, just a low thrum of longing in the pit of his stomach. Most days he can get on with his day-to-day activities without thinking about it too much. But that is only because every now and then, whenever he can truly get away, he gives in and lets the hunger gorge. Or: Ilya runs into Shane Hollander in a sex club in London, deep in subspace and desperately in need of aftercare.

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im sorryyy

and literally thats only 1 person got it right bc I did it all once for the answer key to make it easier to look at my spreadsheet lolll

[allstarrocks]

do people know that calling hollanov a dom/sub relationship does not exclude the idea of them both loving and taking care of each other but rather, Explicity includes it

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and if anyone has questions about the quiz questions feel free to dm me, I dont want to spoil for anyone who hasnt taken it but im happy to Explain :)

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lily i had so much confidence going into that quiz and was STUNNED!! it being hard made it a lot of fun. i was on a discord call with a friend and we had a great time comparing our answers after and figuring stuff out so thanks for making the quiz✨

yayyy!! im glad u had fun!

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the highest score on this quiz is still 28 im sorry 😭

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I feel powerful

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snippet of a fic i was working on for mean dom ilya week but abandoned for some reason. cnc giant dildo painal w/ belly bulge :-)

Ilya clicks his phone off and sets it on the nightstand. “Your dick is hard,” he says, like he’s just now noticing, and flicks it. The glance of his nail makes Shane whimper. “Funny how often this happens when you tell me to stop.”

Shane wants to argue, but he can’t. A small, mangled sound comes from his throat.

“Maybe you can’t tell the difference,” Ilya muses. His nail returns to drag up Shane’s dick from the root, light enough not to hurt until it meets the head. “We barely use this thing. Maybe you can’t even feel it anymore.” As if to test this theory, he digs in harder.

Shane might crack his teeth if he clenches them any harder but at least he succeeds in not opening his mouth to let any sound escape. 

“Pathetic little dick,” Ilya says, and flicks it one more time for good measure.

It’s not, Shane wants to insist. It’s not little at all and if it’s pathetic it’s only because Ilya has him so broken he doesn’t need to use it to cum anymore. And that’s not his fault. Ilya should like it; he made him this way.

Ilya holds his hand out and Shane gives him the dildo wordlessly. But he makes no move to put it away – his hand starts to travel back down again.

“You said we were done,” Shane says.

Ilya rolls his eyes. “Yes, well.”

He moves his wrist and then the dildo is parallel to Shane's dick, positioned so the deepest part of its curve meets the bottom of his stomach and its head pierces the air. The base brushes his balls. The head – Shane has to crane his neck to make sure he’s seeing this correctly – would meet his belly button, if it were flat. 

Shane looks up at Ilya with wide, wide eyes.

Ilya gives him a grin and shrugs. “I was curious.”

“Ilya,” Shane says. His throat constricts around it, makes it come out funny. “I get it. It’s fucking–it’s bigger than my dick. Okay. Can you please put it away now?”

“Anything is bigger than your dick,” Ilya replies, leaving the dildo to lie there on Shane's stomach while he turns to rummage through the nightstand. A bottle of lube emerges in his hand a moment later.

It’s like watching him pick up a scalpel. Shane would probably be less scared if he had. 

“It’s too big,” Shane tries. Not his first time using that line, but the first time he really believes it.

“You like big,” Ilya says simply. 

“Ilya–please, I’m serious. You know I can’t.” 

“Shut up,” Ilya says, and finally moves the dildo, though only to set it next to Shane’s hip. “Open your legs.”

Shane slides his soles over the mattress until his thighs are spread. “I’ll be good,” he offers, voice trembling. “So good, Ilya, I’ll do anything else, just–”

A hard smack to his inner thigh interrupts him. He shrieks and almost clamps his legs shut before he remembers where he is.

Another slap lands on each thigh, even harder this time, and Ilya lets the sensation linger for only a second before pressing two dry fingers to Shane’s hole.

“Stupid fucking whore,” he says under his breath.

Shane’s dick throbs. 

Ilya’s fingers press harder. There’s not a lot of give. It’s too dry, too thick, too everything. Ilya keeps increasing the pressure anyway. 

“Does it hurt?” he asks, still watching Shane’s hole instead of his face. He doesn’t sound especially interested in getting an answer.

It does, but Shane’s taken much worse. He says nothing. 

When the moment to respond has passed Ilya goes still and pulls away to grab the lube. Wait, we can do the fingers again, we can do anything else, he thinks, not that Ilya would care, not that Ilya would want to. 

“I’m scared,” Shane says instead. He may as well bare his neck, say you can bite here and be done with it. It doesn’t matter anyway. There’s no response but the click of a plastic cap opening.

The first finger is always easy for him; no fun there. It probes him for only a second before another pushes in. 

Shane’s spine goes rigid. His pulse hammers. “I could suck on it.” (Although, having gotten a better look at it, he’s really not sure that he could.)

A third finger. It burns. Ilya’s not trying to make Shane feel good, and probably doesn’t even want him to. He still does, but only because he’s a broken little thing.

Shane tries to think of anything else he can offer, anything at all – please don’t break me, please don’t ruin me. He comes up empty. 

“Open up for me,” Ilya says, annoyance bleeding into his tone so it sounds more like he’s talking to a defective product than a lover. His fingers spread as wide as they can inside Shane, and he keeps them that way as he pulls them out, tugging horribly on Shane’s rim. 

Shane heaves. He sounds ugly. “You’re hurting me. You’re gonna hurt me,” he pleads, crying now. “You won’t be able to fuck me if I get torn, Ilya. Please.” 

Ilya pushes four fingers into him. The only way Shane can convince himself he isn’t torn wide open yet is that he’s pretty sure that his fiancé wouldn’t do that to him.

“Have you ever considered,” Ilya says – his breathing labored, which can only mean he’s getting off on this even more than usual, because it’s stunning how little physical exertion it requires of him to ruin Shane forever – “that I like hurting you more than I like to fuck you?”

Shane doesn’t even have the chance to gasp at that because Ilya’s fingers curl together to drag across his prostate so hard he pisses a little onto his stomach and groans, his body contorting.

Ilya looks away and curls his lip in a show of disgust, like he can’t even stand to look at Shane while he does this to him. “Look at you. You think this is what I want to fuck?”

“No,” Shane says. He really doesn’t think that, not right now. He takes a trembling breath. “No, and I’m really really sorry, I fucking swear.” 

“Sorry for what?” Ilya pulls his fingers out and all the air leaves Shane’s lungs. 

“Oh my god–please, Ilya, please, I don’t know,” Shane warbles, watching Ilya pick up the toy again. “I’m sorry for–for asking you to fuck me, and that I was being rude, and I’ll be so good, I promise. Just please don’t.”

“You will be good by taking what I give you,” Ilya says, matter-of-fact, and starts to pour lube onto the dildo.

“Fuck,” Shane whispers. His head swims, and he can’t, he can’t look anymore. He lets his head fall back onto the pillow. “Fuck. Oh my god.” 

The head presses against his hole.

“Wow,” Ilya says. He doesn’t sound bored anymore. “This will really fuck you up.” 

Shane’s cock twitches weakly. “Please,” he breathes, but it’s so quiet that Ilya probably doesn’t even have to ignore him not to hear it. Either way – he pushes the toy forward.

There’s almost no give at first. Shane can feel the movement shift to rough corkscrew motions, like Ilya is trying to drill him open. The head feels impossibly big. There’s no way, Shane thinks, that it’s really going to go in. He almost finds comfort in that for a second until Ilya starts to apply more pressure.

The tip slips in and Shane goes taut, his body trying to reject the impossible intrusion. 

“I am not going to stop, so you better fucking relax,” Ilya says. 

Shane tries. It must work. The tip digs in deeper, and the stretch goes from aching to unbearable in a split second. 

“Wait, please, holy fuck,” Shane begs. His fingers dig into the sheets and twist helplessly. Sweat trickles down his neck.

“Fuck,” Ilya says, voice strained as if it’s his own dick splitting Shane open, and pushes again with a twist of his wrist.

An inch or two more goes in and it burns like nothing Shane has ever felt before, not their first time when Ilya opened him up so carefully and not even when they spent an hour getting Shane loose enough to take Ilya's fist. Ilya doesn’t let up, doesn’t give him a chance to breathe, just keeps pushing, twisting the toy until its head is pointed upwards and then letting it go straight in. 

Ilya pauses, finally, then pulls back a bit, and Shane feels the rim of his hole tug outward. It’s worse than when it pushes in. “There,” Ilya says. “The head is in.”

He tugs again, harder, until Shane finds his breath and sobs. “How does it feel, Shane?”

“Hurts,” Shane moans, the syllable cracking in two. “Oh god. Please.”

“Fuck,” Ilya says. He starts to push in again, which almost feels merciful now. “Your hole is so red,” he tells Shane, tracing a finger over it with his free hand so the skin there burns even more. (Shane tells himself if there were as much blood as he's imagining Ilya would stop, would have to stop.) “Maybe you will only be able to take toys like this after, hm? Everything else will be too small, slip right out.” 

Shane can’t speak so he shakes his head: no no no. It doesn’t matter. All that matters is that Ilya keeps forcing it inside, that just from the position of Ilya’s arm Shane can tell he’s only taken a fraction of the length.

Then the head starts to drag over his prostate, and he loses control of his body entirely. 

Piss spurts over his stomach immediately, and he arches his back and writhes so violently that it floods down his thigh and over his sides. His knuckles go white where he’s still clutching the sheets. Ilya says something, but he can’t hear it. 

Shane stays suspended in that state for he doesn’t know how long. He feels aware only of the burning pain, the horrible pressure dragging endlessly against his prostate, and the way he pisses on himself in short, hard bursts until he’s empty and his cock can do nothing but drip and jerk helplessly against his abs.

His head swims. It takes him a while to come back to awareness, to feel how rigidly he’s contorted himself, to notice that Ilya is speaking again. 

“Fuck, Hollander,” he hears.

He makes a noise that resembles Ilya’s name. 

“Is almost all the way in,” Ilya tells him. “I knew you would take it.”

“No,” Shane gasps. He starts to push up onto his elbows, and his arms feel weak and wobbly but he forgets about it immediately when he sees what Ilya is looking at. His stomach –

“Oh god,” Shane says, collapsing onto his back again. 

Ilya laughs. “Can you feel it?” 

A hand encircles one of Shane’s and drags it up his side, through the remnants of piss covering his skin, to land on his lower stomach. And yes, Shane can feel it: there’s a bulge protruding through the skin there. Ilya has forced the dildo so far up into him that he’s speared on it. Shane imagines what must be happening inside of him to make any of this physically possible and starts to feel like the room is spinning. 

“Take it out,” he says. His voice sounds very small. 

“Like it would make a difference now,” Ilya says. "Your hole is ruined."

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the dildo i was imagining btw but like really really big and without the shit at the base.

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I love that the quiz is hard!! Like it’s for Staff Only lol the hardness makes it even sweeter when you can figure out something from an insane corner of pixels :)

ok yayy

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no bc I am making this quiz like "ah yes everyone knows this fuck ass sculpture" "everyone can recognize this scene from just the corner of an ear" "this graphic is too recognizable so zoomed out, lets zoom in more"

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sighh next time ill make a baby easy zoom quiz w only recognizable scenes

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ilya dropping shane off in the middle of the woods and telling him the challenge is he has to find his way home with no supplies or guide tools but actually ilya is hunting him 🥰🥰🥰

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so far theres only one question no one has gotten right so i need someone to get it right rq so i dont feel bad

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nobody knows the amatuer bagel...