I would like to “expose” my school, but it’s not just my school that’s a problem. Many schools have affected students in negative ways. Students have been harassed, bullied, and abused. I would like for the tumblr community to help me out by sharing their stories as to how school has harmed them. My school is not the only one affecting students around the globe. Yes there may be schools that try to help their students but many are still affected.
please tumblr help me out my spreading this idea into other schools. Sharing on social media is one of the many ways I can get people to pay attention and see what harms schools have caused.
My name is- well i don’t have a specific name but most of my followers and mutuals know me as either Silly/A/Mod A! :]
and knowing people you probably already read the #tags :p so yes this is some sort of vent.
So let me vent out my feelings and then I shall explain why am I doing this and how this connects to my “situation”
Vent Wanring/mentions of: S!H, Emotional Abuse, Mental/psychological abuse, and maybe a little bit of cuss words yk?
(there might be a part 2)
Definitions and stuff:
Anyways let’s begin… (no more blue text cause serious talk means serious conversation lolz)
About 2-ish years ago I had a situation with a “friend” where this said friend is autistic. I like said friend. However I didn’t know that I “liked” them. So I did dumb stuff, I acted rude and things like that. So one day I got called over to a “teacher” she helps said friend because they are autistic. I’m lying to said teacher saying dumb stuff like: “Oh [Friend] doesn’t do their work” and I admit it right now, that was super dumb on my part. But what could you expect from someone who didn’t understand their feelings?
(background information: I have severe Trust issues and Abandonment issues. My teachers were racist to me because I was Mexican and I was “smart”.)
So I lied. I was dumb. It was the dumb thing to do. Back to the vent… Cut to like a year later. My friend let’s give fruit names now! This friend is a she/her and will be called mango! Friend who I got in a problem with will be called Blueberry. And let’s introduce some new characters shall we? Blueberry is a he/him and his two friends are Grape and dragonfruit. So Grape accidentally finds out mango’s address and proceeds to dox mango to blueberry and dragonfruit. Dragonfruit and blueberry proceed to actually dox Mango to a total of 12 others. Not including me btw. I only find out bc of strawberry. I then with the help of strawberry go to tell Mango. Then mango had to talk with grape, dragonfruit, and blueberry because they doxxed her. You remember that teacher blueberry has/had? Yeah let’s name her Ms.R- oh and new teacher! Ms.A. Ms.A proceeds to make two comments.
1: “Boys will be boys” excuse me? And the only reason they got let off with 2-3 days of detention was because they are autistic. Yes you read that right because Blueberry, dragonfruit, and grape are autistic… not fair really huh?
2: “You know your friend (A) and blueberry have weird history together. Ms.A did not have to mention that honestly.
oh did I forget to mention I went to therapy for 2-3 months because of Ms.R? Yes she scared me permanently. Blueberry later found out I liked him and made fun of me because of it. ? (This all happened before the Doxxing situation)
anyways- I find out and luckily I didn’t have to talk with them but the teachers are very nosy, Mango told only 1 teacher and then 2 more find out. Weird how schools work huh?
now cut to recently as of late 2025 to as early of today. I’m now dating blueberry because we have put our differences aside or whatever it’s very complicated to explain but blueberry loves me very much I love him to he’s so silly <3 but anyways enough of that.
Ms.R got pregnant. She left for paternity leave. Back during Christmas I saw her one last time and I cried because I was afraid I hid under a table while Mango was comforting me. Cut to 02/05, Ms.A calls my teacher Ms.L. Ms.L is about to write me a pass when I see the room number. I panic, I cry, I sob, and I feel terrified, knowing them they would gaslight me (SHE DID BTW) and I wouldn’t have anyone to help me. So I cried and cried, everyone saw, I felt so pathetic, but what could I do? Mango took me to the restrooms and I had to calm down there. I eventually had to talk to her and mango was forced to leave. Ms.A began to ask me questions about Blueberries mental health (He isn’t really emotionally stable right now- or he’s doing fine right now but not during that time.) Then after that conversation is over she proceeds to gaslight me by saying: “We never had this conversation, you don’t know me and I Don’t know you.” She did this to mango too. So I was there terrified. And the thing is… (here’s the S!H part heh…) I had cuts on my arms because of something that happened before, when Ms.R was around I would bite myself, stab myself with a pencil, starve myself, and not sleep. I can do better but knowing Ms.R will be back soon it causes me to not eat well again and continue to cut my arms. Eventually I’ll get better.
Cut to Friday of 02/27. I see Ms.A I run away and cry I begin to hyperventilate. Sob, and my other teacher Ms.S somehow knew about my situation!?? I didn’t tell her, but hey teachers are nosy.
i am missing a lot but that’s just the basics.
so I am stressed out. Not only that but I felt odd about my relationship with blueberry. I felt like I was being used, like he’s playing with my feelings, but no. It’s just my trust issues 😭 blueberry has done stuff to prove that he genuinely cares for me. He checks up on me, he takes care of me, and will gift me things that I like :3 and sometimes will flirt with me pwq gahhhhh he’s such a weirdo in a good way tho ;3
but yeah this will be part 1 of explaining and then part 2 will be me connecting the dots as to why I’m doing this and explain my plan of what to do next on tumblr and other social media platforms yk :3
Alr remember when I said I wanted to do a weird thing with you all either anon or regular asks? Well yeah so it’s gonna be a Valentines special.
I will take 14 asks and once 14 asks enter anon or not that’s it.
So onto the Valentine’s Day special; I take a long time to make art plus I have a busy schedule. Asking you guys late September to early October will give me about 4 months.
I struggle with colors so this will be very helpful.
I’m also working on a Halloween thing over here.
But here’s the concept: A silly dumb Kissing booth.
Who’s in it? Ruin ofc.
If you enter as your regular tumblr account if you have an oc and you would like me to add it I can either reblog here or message me through the tumblr app :3
You are allowed to throw in the asks over at @sociopathic-ruin :>
Okay so, uh, not doing anything right now, but I want to say some stuff…
I am no longer Solar, or at least the TSAMS Solar.
I will still have the same uh @ which is “silly-Solar” so that means I will probably will have the name or will go by Solar; just that I will no longer be following the canon lore. Meaning this Solar, is not dating nebula (at least not yet maybe, canon lore is so far fetched for the mod)
Anyways, lore wise, not canon Solar, just a different Solar.
Same goes for us two, we were bloodmoon but then the mod thought we were too different. Since I was the only one, there never really was another me until Carmine came along.
Didn’t they drop me off at Star’s place as a baby-?
Warning: this post does contain cussing and it might come out as a vent.
Meanings:
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Text: Really mad
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I am so sorry, I’m really pissed off… forgive me for my bad mouthing here.
I’m so fucking pissed off right now… I don’t like having enemies, I am a minor and a student. I love to do stuff but, I liked him too. I felt bad for the things he went through. I don’t know why I did those actions they were bad you and me admitted it. I just want to let that go why can’t you move on why do you have something against me? I like you… or liked you, I give up you hurt me too much.
I just need a break… but I worry too much about you guys here on tumblr… I really am so sorry. I promise I will come back I really will. I just don’t know what to do…
Like why the fuck can’t you move on?!
“I never hit you”
You just don’t remember…
“If anything you hit me”
I know.
“Many times”
I really am sorry…
“Why did this all even start?”
I don’t know…
You can remember the bad stuff but not the good things that happened between us…
“I’m trying to move on, please get out of my life.”
…Wait what?!
So he didn’t move on…? But… why…? Wait how…
No I can’t think about that now.
He hurt me a lot, and I hurt him back somehow… Yeah I will move on…
