kya pata

26 M & desi

[professionaltraumabonder]

Just my personal diary ig, I'm a loner who's tired of his loneliness

TW : Could be depressing

will post some of my pins and maybe the songs I've recorded here hehe 🙂‍↕️

[professionaltraumabonder]

It's crazy how i used to crave for intimacy but now I don't care about hugs or anything lolol even so I've isolated myself? How weird na? Maybe I finally made peace with the fact that I'll forever be alone ?

[professionaltraumabonder]

Me I just finished cleaning up my house and I'm lying down now. Lowkey need icecream but Maine kal hi poora tub finish kardiya yawr ☹️

[derwahresuperman]

In another life, I’d find you sooner.

[planetmagic]

[professionaltraumabonder]

akelapan akelapan emptiness emptiness procrastination procrastination avoidance avoidance

I didn't even feel all that happy even when RCB won, that's like the team I've loved ever since I was a kid. They won it after 18 years last year and I enjoyed it only for a few hours. This year not even for a couple of minutes because the anxiety of watching them and stress of my life never lets me enjoy anything. Haha, what a pathetic existence.

Will I ever be happy again? Will I ever be calm again ? Nobody knows. Not even god.

[books-of-insecurities]

[flowerytale]

Susan Sontag, from As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks 1964-1980

[justsomeguycore]

#mycorner #mymonstrousneeds

[professionaltraumabonder]

The lonely one offers his hand too quickly to whomever he encounters.

- Friedrich Nietzsche

[professionaltraumabonder]

its scary to me how temporary everyone is

[professionaltraumabonder]

no suicidal shit or whatever but sometimes i look at this world and i don’t just feel like participating

[professionaltraumabonder]

i think the worst part of struggling with mental health is the self isolation it necessitates because of just how fucking embarrassing it is to tell someone i can't get out of my own mind and how it has ruined me

[moonlightunderthehaze]

I am mental and there is no health.

[professionaltraumabonder]

Don't wanna be a burden on anyone.

[professionaltraumabonder]

It's not right that you call someone your closest friend and then they block you without ever explaining anything. I put that person's needs, wants & desires over mine and in return I get this.

It was expected tbh, ever since I was a kid I was the disposable one in any friendship or relationship like that, but it still hurts when someone you consider close and are attached to does this. Maybe if I weren't ugly or thin as a stick, people would value me more.

[professionaltraumabonder]

i feel destroyed.

[professionaltraumabonder]

It's not right that you call someone your closest friend and then they block you without ever explaining anything. I put that person's needs, wants & desires over mine and in return I get this.

It was expected tbh, ever since I was a kid I was the disposable one in any friendship or relationship like that, but it still hurts when someone you consider close and are attached to does this. Maybe if I weren't ugly or thin as a stick, people would value me more.

[professionaltraumabonder]

Got blocked by a girl after she saw my face on Instagram. She said you're an interesting person.... asked my insta and blocked me from both twitter & Insta. Basically confirming my insecurity that I'm ugly. I hate myself now.