Renly Baratheon

Member of the Westeros University RP 2nd Year Grad Student TA in the Poli Sci Department Part-Tme Muthafuckin Model

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I Need You to Need Me | Renly and Loras | December 2nd

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 ”I still have to study…” he said slowly. He didn’t want to kick Renly out, and frankly he probably couldn’t even if he did, and so he settled with a compromise. “Mind if I study while you sleep? I shouldn’t be long— I just really need to get through these last round of notes.”

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Renly couldn't remember being this exhausted after sex.  He had been up late the night before studying for his own exam, but he hadn't felt tired on his walk over.  The sinking feeling he was becoming well acquainted with lately began to set in... he was getting old.  But then he glanced up at Loras and was reminded of how long it had been since they'd been like this.  He was exhausted not because of age, or lack of sleep, or even the lifting weight of sexual frustration.  Instead, it was the overwhelming sense of relief.  He was now fully reunited with Loras, and the fear of once again losing him was finally dissipating.  He was left feeling more whole, and more capable of relaxing then he'd felt in months.

"You won't mind?" he asked, ignoring Loras' own questions.  "I could help you study if you wanted."  Even as he offered, he was yawning.  He should have drank the tea on the way over.  He felt like he couldn't stay awake another minute, even if he was desperate to spend as much time with Loras.  It looked like that time was going to have to be spent passed out beside him.  

He propped himself up on an elbow to peer at Loras' notes, "Don't bother with this section on judicial history.  I heard from your professor that it won't be on the exam," he said with a wink, before once again collapsing onto the bed and burrowing in close to Loras' side.

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I Need You to Need Me | Renly and Loras | December 2nd

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Almost better than the sex was the feeling of being tangled up with Loras, no clothing to keep them apart, and no fear of uncontrollable desires.  He felt as though he could lay here in his arms forever.  The realization that if he could follow through with his promises, forever was actually a possibility, filled him with glee.  

"I love you too," he breathed, letting out a childish whine when Loras moved to get his tea.  He smiled up at him when it became clear he wasn't actually going anywhere.  "I'd be embarrassed of my stamina today if I hadn't already shown you what I can do on a good day.  I'm going to assume you won't kick me out of bed for it just yet."  

Having enough of Loras not pressed up against him, he wrapped his arms around him, pulling him back down onto the bed next to him.  He quickly burrowed in next to him, nudging his head until it was rested comfortably on the dip in Loras' shoulder.  It seemed to fit perfectly there.  "That was perfect," he responded, "You have no idea how much I missed that.  I needed you."

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I Need You to Need Me | Renly and Loras | December 2nd

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Once the waves of pleasure from his orgasm had stopped he was left unwilling to move splayed out on top of Loras.  If this had been a few months ago, he'd likely have stayed that way until the urge to once again rejoin society came over him.  Only this time, he wasn't the same selfish brute he'd been before.  Now, he was in love, and Loras' well being came first.

Sitting up, he shot Loras a lazy smile, his wordless thanks for giving in to his unofficial vow of celibacy as of late.  Despite what Loras had meant by requesting it, they had both needed this.  

He leaned down and gave Loras a quick kiss before repositioning himself between his legs.  "Sorry for the delay," he said as he dipped down to put Loras' cock into his mouth.

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I Need You to Need Me | Renly and Loras | December 2nd

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He was able to wrap his arms around Loras chest, using him for leverage, each of his thrusts pulled them impossibly close together.  His face aligned with Loras' neck and he was able to pepper him with kisses all down the top of his spine and shoulders.  

He was also in the perfect position to whisper in his ear, finding it satisfying to repeat "I love yous," as often as possible.   It was the first time he'd been able to say this during sex, though it wasn't the first time he'd felt it.  He found it made everything feel more thrilling, more of the moment, and certainly more weighty, something that no longer terrified him.

Not one to forget about Loras' pleasure, one of his hands dropped to stoke Loras' prick along to the rhythm he had found between his legs.  He could only carry on like this for so long before he was close to finishing.  

"I need to see you," he mumbled, afraid to stop biting his tongue for too long, lest he come right without warning.  He brusquely turned Loras over, stradling him so that his hardened cock was pressing against Renly's ass.  "I want to look into your eyes and tell you once and for all how much I love you when I come," he said, grinding down hard.

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I Need You to Need Me | Renly and Loras | December 2nd

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"Umm..." Renly's jaw hung ajar, he struggled to shrug his unbuttoned shirt off, and hurried off the bed to meet Loras.  His arms wrapped around him immediately.  He felt like his couldn't touch Loras' naked skin fast enough.  He had craved this for so long, he'd almost forgot how smooth he felt against him.  He'd never encountered something so tempting in his life.  He never wanted to let go.

"I'm not going to ask again, and if I go any farther, I can't be stopped... last chance..." he offered, despite all the while he was turning Loras around and pushing him onto the bed.  

In moments his own pants were discarded and he had climbed on top of Loras, their naked bodies pressed against each other at last.  Renly started their hungry kisses up again, one hand reaching between them to place his own erection between Loras' thighs.  Once in place, he grasped Loras' prick and slowly reacquainted himself with everything he'd been missing the past month.  "Don't expect me to wow you this time, I've..." he let out an involuntary moan, overcome with how good he felt, "I'm... a bit out of practice."

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I Need You to Need Me | Renly and Loras | December 2nd

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 ”You have no idea how good it is to see you,” he mumbled. Renly smelled like Burberry and home, and he looked warm and inviting. Despite the struggles he had had with his studies, all of the stress and worry melted away as he lay under Renly, basking in his concern and tenderness. Loras felt more accepted and loved in that moment than he had felt in a long while, and it wasn’t until he had undone half the buttons on Renly’s shirt that he realized what he was doing.

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Just when Renly was about to pull away, Loras stopped instead.  Subconsciously, Renly moaned, the desire to rip Loras' clothes off not quelled just because they'd stopped making out.  He tried to sit up, but realized Loras' hands were still gripping his shirt.  It was then that he finally comprehended what he was saying.  "Are you sure?  Because I can wait.  I know you wanted to hold off until after finals, make things really special."  He flopped down on the bed besides Loras and rolled to face him, "Don't get me wrong, say the word and I'll take you right here and now, but if you need more time, I'm completely comfortable with waiting."  Comfortable really wasn't the word for how he felt right now though, the swelling in his cock becoming more painful every moment it was ignored.

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I Need You to Need Me | Renly and Loras | December 2nd

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 Reaching over he wrapped his arm around Renly’s shoulder and slipped his hand down his chest, petting hair and smooth skin. Hooking his leg over Renly’s, he sighed contently and kissed his cheek. “But my studying is doing… okay. I just keep getting distracted by other things I want to do. I’ve tried to turn myself off from the real world— I even turned off my mobile— but I’m still doing more staring than I am doing studying.”

 He pouted and took another drink of his tea. “Can I just shag you for a good mark? I wont tell anyone, I promise.”

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The proposition alone, even if it was a joke, was enough to get Renly feeling charged.  It didn't help that Loras had given him free reign to leer at his cock.  His long legs were stretched out in front of Renly, practically inviting him to crawl between them.  He had to bite his lip to keep from giving up on all the self-control he'd been practicing the last few weeks.

"Don't say that, because you know I'd oblige with just the smallest bit of provocation and we'd both end up regretting it," he snuck another peak at the expanse of exposed flesh before him, adding, "Probably...eventually."

He may have been able to avoid throwing him down on the messy bed and ravaging him completely, but he couldn't resist a few kisses.  Chancing that he wouldn't be able to stop he leaned over to give Loras a more proper hello, pleased with the fresh taste of fresh bergamot and sugar from the tea he'd been sipping.

"I noticed the mobile thing, you had me worried there for a while.  I thought I'd said something wrong and was getting the cold shoulder.  You know how paranoid I can be since..." since I walked out this room and ruined both our lives "Since I can't stand to be apart from my darling boyfriend."  The word still felt knew as it rolled off his tongue, but he loved the weight of it and the way it made his heart flutter a bit each time he was reminded of its significance. 

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I Need You to Need Me | Renly and Loras | December 2nd

 Breaking out into a grin he tossed his booklet to the side and jumped up from his bed, bouncing over to Renly as he closed the door. Grabbing one of the teas he had placed on his desk, Loras pulled Renly in for a hug and a kiss. “You have perfect timing,” he said, wrapping his hands around the warm tea. His dorm got cold during the winter, but he refused to put on trousers. “How did you know I would be in desperate need of caffeine and brownies?” 

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"What can I say?  I've got a sixth sense for your desires," Renly said with a smile as he accepted Loras' welcome embrace.  Truthfully, the tea and brownies were just an excuse to see his boyfriend.  They'd been apart longer than any time since their break up, and Renly was finding it difficult.  Lying in bed without Loras next to him had become a painful reminder of the misery he'd suffered just a few weeks ago.  He was in no rush to go back to those days.

The time apart had been for Loras' benefit, and he probably should have made an attempt at giving him a bit more studying time, but two days appeared to be his limit.  He had to at least check up on him.

He was not surprised to find Loras barely dressed and surrounded by clutter.  Renly suspected this was as close to a "natural state" as Loras could get.  He found it incredibly endearing.  "How's the studying going?" he asked, flopping on the bed, despite all the papers that now lay beneath him.  "Want me to quiz you?" he looked up at Loras, for the first time realizing just how revealing his underwear were.  He busied himself with his own tea to prevent any obvious staring.  The last thing he needed to do was distract Loras even further with his inability to resist his urges.

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Let's Begin Again | Renly & Loras

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 Renly bringing up his course made Loras let out a childish whine. “Do I have to?” he asked, pouting visibly. “I don’t even like politics and I’m shit at it. There is no way I can possibly catch up. Plus, I’d have to get a tutor and there is no way you can be my tutor. We’d just end up wanking each other off instead of discussing politics and shit.”

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"You don't have to forget what I did, just understand that I'm sorry and it won't be a mistake made twice.  Plus, can it really be considered a break up if I was too scared to admit we were ever even dating?"  His food now forgotten he turned completely in the booth, all attention on Loras.  "I never once called you my boyfriend.  It's weird...because now the idea of that label seems so exciting."

"I have a boyfriend," Renly repeated, a wide smile upon his face, "And I love him."

He let the words set in for a few moments, liking how final they sounded, as if there was no more debate to be made.  They belonged to each other now. 

After carefully folding his napkin and cleaning up his plate for the waitress, he turned back to the topic Loras seemed to be dreading.  School.

"You aren't shit at politics Loras, you're just shit at caring about them," Renly sighed.  "There are at least one or two students in that class worse off than you.  You even managed a B on that one paper earlier in the year."  

Renly knew exactly what grade Loras had to pull on his final exam to pass, he'd be slowly keeping track with each passing day he wasn't in class, fearful of the one where he passed over the threshold.  "You can still do this.  I will write up a study guide of things you can focus on...things I promise will be on the exam."  He winked at Loras.  He might not be willing to just straight up change Loras' grade, but he wasn't above giving him a rather large helping hand.  "I might be able to find you another grad student to tutor you from the guide, but it's pretty late in the semester, they might all be too busy with their own exams.  Are you really sure you wouldn't rather me help you?" He asked.  "Besides," he added, scooting a little closer to Loras so he could whisper in his ear, "I hear a few hand jobs now and then can really help keep you focused."

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Let's Begin Again | Renly & Loras

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 ”Hey, Renly— calm down,” he said. Putting his fork down he turned to Renly and grabbed his hands in his own. Shifting, he curled his leg under himself and rested his knee on Renly’s legs, making it so he could look straight at him without twisting awkwardly. “There isn’t some guidebook to relationships that you missed out on reading but everyone else has read. Relationships need to grow organically. I mean, I’ll always be here to help you, but there isn’t some special code or a guideline. We’re just going to have to take this step by step— support each other and figure out one another’s ticks. It’s kind of the fun in dating someone; learning all about them and figuring out how well you click. And I think we click awfully well.” He smirked and moved in for a slow, easy kiss. When they parted he squeezed Renly’s hands gently. “If you think you fucked up just ask me, yeah? We’ll figure it out and move on. Same goes with me. If I fuck up, I’ll come to you and not bury it away.”

 His comment about the state of his room made Loras laugh. “You have been in my room, Ren. You know clutter doesn’t bother me. I’m the one with the mountain of clothing sitting right beside my laundry basket.”

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"Sorry," Renly mumbled, a bit of a flush going to his cheeks when Loras stopped him.  He knew he had a tendency to ramble.  He just liked to express himself, and when he finally had someone that cared enough to listen...he took advantage of it.  Perhaps he sometimes abused that advantage.

"I know, and I trust you to help me," he lowered his head and leaned in to rest on Loras' shoulder, "I just worry a lot.  It seems like everyone else has a bit of a leg up on this sort of thing...growing up watching their parents, aunts and uncles, older siblings...it's like have examples of how to do this sort of thing engrained from a young age..." he stopped himself, not liking how he was making this about his "horrible" home life again.

"But, I guess, what I had could be beneficial too.  Stannis and Robert definitely showed me everything not to do."  He looked down at their interlocked hands, "Though I did a pretty good job of that myself."

He sighed, realizing they needed a topic change.  This was quickly becoming a really heavy breakfast.  "So, do you think you're ready to maybe come back to class?" He asked, "Cause you missed the drop deadline a few weeks ago...so...you kind of have to?"  He'd never forgive himself if his behavior made Loras fail his very first semester.

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Let's Begin Again | Renly & Loras

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He went back to his food and cut up his eggs benedicts. “Although seeing you in such piss poor condition did give me a bit of satisfaction if I’m going to be perfectly honest. Knowing you were feeling shit for your dumb-ass mistakes takes the edge off a bit. Did you really spend all your waking hours smoking pot and lying around like a lump? In non-ironed clothing?”

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“You aren’t weak,” Renly quickly interjected.  “Not kicking me directly in the balls the moment I tried to speak to again proves you have more strength than most…because that’s what I deserved.”  He wondered if perhaps it wasn’t a good idea to be voicing just how horribly he’d fucked up to Loras on the off chance he’d come to his senses and walk away again.

His food went ignored once again as he turned to look at Loras, “Thank you for giving me a second chance.”  Deciding against elaborating further for once, he left it at that, his attention once again on his eggs.

As always, he was unable to remain silent for too long, tagging on to his previous thought once he finished a few bites, “I’m not going to leave again…I promise that, but I am going to need a little help figuring things out.  I’ve never been in a real relationship before.  There’s a whole new world of etiquette and expectations that I have no experience with…I’m going to try really hard, because I love you and I want to give you the world…but I’ll need help figuring out anything that can’t be learned from sappy movies.”

He made a face as Loras mentioned his “lump” state, not really feeling like admitting to the full extent of his depravity.  “Yeah…it’s been rough.  I haven’t been to the gym at all.  And I know it’s hard to believe… but I am close to running out of clean clothes…I haven’t done laundry once.  I showed up to class in a shirt I wore the day before.  I think my students debated having me committed.  And my room…well, let’s just say you aren’t invited over for a few days until I can get it sorted.  You’d seriously debate if taking me back was a good idea if you saw the state of it right now.”

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Let's Begin Again | Renly & Loras

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 ”How long did it take for you to realize you loved me?” he asked quietly. He stared down at his coffee. “I mean… what changed? Why did you come back?”

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 Renly chuckled as Loras passionately made his opinion of his new facial hair known.  He was glad Loras liked it.  Knowing he still found him attractive in various states was reassuring, even if Loras had never shown any sign of repulsion before, even when Renly was at his worst (mid September: he had gotten a bad cold and tissues had rendered his nose a raw red color, his lips chapped, and his hair completely untamed from the blanket fort he’d spent the better part of two days hiding in).

“Okay, as long as I can trim it,” He said when they broke apart from the kiss.  “I feel like people are going to start offering me change at the bus stop pretty soon.  Which was fine before, when I felt like that was an appropriate representation of how I felt inside, but…now I have someone to clean up for again.”  He would have gone in for another kiss, but their food had arrived.  Opting instead for a hand squeeze, he reluctantly released his grip on Loras so he could begin digging into his eggs.

He was glad the arrival of their food gave him some time to mull over an answer to Loras’ question.  He had no idea how to quantify something he wasn’t sure about himself.  Looking at Loras now, it felt like he’d always loved him.  He had no idea when the feelings of initial attraction had morphed into something more.  He guessed the best thing to do was just tell Loras exactly that.

“I don’t know when I realized I love you,” he said, despite a mouthful of bacon.  “The feelings were there from almost the very beginning, and they kept getting stronger and stronger every moment I spent with you.  But because I’d never felt anything remotely close to them before I didn’t know what to think.  I didn’t know it was ‘love’, I just thought I was desperately drawn to you.  The realization started a few weeks before I left, but I was knee deep in a denial period when you laid everything out for me…and I panicked.  I knew I’d made a mistake the moment I shut that door, but again… I’ve never done this before so I thought the feeling would pass.  Clearly I was wrong because it got more and more painful the longer I spent apart from you.”  He took a breath, turning in the booth so he could take Loras’ hand again and look at him as he spoke, “When I saw you again for the first time yesterday I reached my breaking point.  I tried to be strong and work through the pain of losing you on my own and give you time to get past me too, but seeing you…I just wasn’t strong enough to endure it all anymore.  I kind of lost all the self-control I’d been practicing in staying away from you, and here I am…and I’m so fucking glad I’m weak and I gave in, because yeah…I love you.  I’ve loved you all along, I’m just really stupid, that’s all.” 

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Let's Begin Again | Renly & Loras

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 Snapping his head around, Loras grinned up at her and resisted the urge to wipe his mouth. “Sorry,” he said, sitting normally in the booth. She shrugged and pulled out a pen and paper. Loras ended up ordering the eggs Benedict with a side of mushrooms and a glass of water to wash down the coffee and starch. As Renly ordered, Loras sipped his coffee innocently as she collected their menus and left. “We are fucking horrible,” he said, laughing. “I hate people who do this sort of thing in public,and yet here I am… I just can’t help but kiss you.” He shifted again to look at Renly better, leaning his shoulder against the plush backing of the chair. Reaching up he ran his hand along Renly’s cheek. “Why did you grow a beard?”

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Normally Renly would have felt awful about being so inappropriate in public, but considering 24 hours ago he was lying alone in bed completely sure he'd never see Loras again, he didn't really care who saw their affection.  As far as he was concerned, they were the only two people in this diner.

He quickly ordered scrambled eggs and bacon, hoping to get these formalities out of the way so it could go back to just being him and Loras again.

"Kiss me all you want," he said once the waitress left.  "I'm never going to stop you again."  He leaned in to give Loras another soft kiss, savoring the taste of coffee and sugar he left behind.  

As Loras began to stroke his beard, he reached up to play with his now much shorter hair, "I imagine it's a similar reason to why you no longer have any hair," he mused, "You hate it though, don't you?  The beard?  I'll shave as soon as I get home.  I just...didn't feel like bothering to keep up appearances when I didn't feel like seeing anyone for awhile.  It helped me blend in, no one notices the sad dude who obviously doesn't quite have a grasp on personal hygiene.  But yeah, if you don't want to be seen with a mountain man, I'll get rid of it."

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Let's Begin Again | Renly & Loras

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 He reached down and snatched Renly’s free hand in his own, interrupting his own coffee prep. “I like the thought of this lasting, though,” he said, locking eyes with Renly. He missed the depth of those blue hues. They were having another disgustingly sweet ‘moment’, and he pulled away before things got too intense. “Besides,” he said, smirking, “it seems I’m the only one who can drag you out of your pot den to greet the day.” Drinking his coffee, he flipped open the menu and began to scan. “One of your roomates called me a while ago. Told me you were turning into a hermit.”

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Renly sighed as Loras rebuked his attempt to demonstrate his intentions, "I'm not just saying it," he could hear the tinge of whining in his tone and tried to correct it as he went on, "I need you to see that I'm not afraid of our future anymore.  I've seen what it would be like without you, and I'm not in any rush to go there again."

His faint smile turned to a real frown when Loras mentioned his roommate.  No one had told him they'd called Loras.  Those fuckers.  "Which one of them did it?  Royce?  He's such a dick.  I'm sorry he did that, you didn't deserve to be reminded of me...everything I became was my own fault, and shouldn't have been something you were worrying about."  He ran a frustrated hand through his hair.  It was refusing to stay put after his extended time in Loras' bed, might as well embrace the messy look.

He made a mental note to have a stern talking to about 'boundaries' with his roommates next time he saw them, but let his initial anger slip away, instead replaced with a smirk to match Loras' own.  Being in Loras' presence again meant he couldn't stay upset for long.  "But I do think I personally paid for my dealer's entire semester in the span of about of a month.  I don't really want to see another joint for long while.  My voice might be sexier at this octave...but the coughing, not so much."  He smiled back at Loras again, "Unless of course you're into that?"

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Let's Begin Again | Renly & Loras

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 ”Hope you don’t mind. I just… I dunno, feel like being particularly sickeningly sweet in public today.” Grinning, he grabbed a few packets of sugar and tapped them on the table as the waitress went off to grab them their complimentary coffees. 

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Renly had missed this.  Not just being around Loras, because of course he missed that, but also just the feeling that he was participating in life.  He'd spent far too many hours cooped up in his room, and he'd forgotten just how picturesque campus could be in the late fall.  The uncharacteristically warm morning had brought many students outside.  Some just lounging on the quad among the fading green grass and multi-colored leaves.  Others hurried off to the library for some pre-finals reviewing, dodging the few that were ditching studies for an early game of football.  Still fewer, like Renly and Loras, were finally getting around recovering from the previous night's activities and headed to breakfast looking rumpled.  Only for Renly, it wasn't alcohol that had put him in this state, it was an overwhelming flood of emotions.  All of them welcome, of course.

He was finally starting to feel like he belonged here once again.  The sight of happy, laughing students didn't make him want to ruin their fun anymore.  He belonged again, all thanks to Loras.  Happiness required Loras, and Westeros University was supposed to be a happy place.

Upon arrival at the diner, Renly felt his heart leap a little when Loras slid into the booth after him.  He wondered when that reaction would wear off for even the tiniest signs of affection.  He hoped that day would never come.  He'd taken Loras' love for granted once before, he wouldn't be making that mistake again.

"Why the hell would I mind?" he asked with a chuckle, slipping his arm around Loras' waist.  "It means I don't have to lean over a table every time I want to kiss you," he closed the small distance between them to give Loras a peck on the cheek.

"Everyone in here is going to hate us, aren't they?" he asked, not bothering to look around to meet the aggravated stares he knew they were earning.  

He watched with amusement as Loras readied the multiple sugar packets he required for his coffee.  It was the little things like this he had missed the most while they were apart.  He loved how after his morning coffee Loras' kisses always tasted even sweeter than usual.  He craved one of those sugar-coated kisses as their coffee arrived.  "So is this technically our 'first date?'" he asked with a smile, "I mean... if we are starting new?  Should I mark it down now? ...so in fifty years when I'm too old to remember our anniversary I'll know it's the time of year to litter our home with dozens and dozens of roses again."  How's that for commitment? The old Renly would scarcely mention two days from now, let alone decades into the future, but he needed Loras to know the kind of things he dreamed about for the two of them.

[professorrenly]

Let's Begin Again | Renly & Loras

[midfielderloras]

 Scrunching the fabric between his hands, he was back in that moment for a second, remembering how much it fucking hurt to be told he wasn’t loved… Finding this a day ago would have been hard, but now… Turning back around with it still in his grasp, he soaked Renly in— from his stripey socks he’d given him to the muss of hair at the top of his head he was trying in vain to make look somewhat styled. Renly was back. Renly loved him. Renly wasn’t leaving again— or so he said. And so Loras believed.

 ”Here,” he said when Renly turned back around. He held out the scarf. “I think this belongs to you.”

[professorrenly]

Renly eyed the shirt, a bit skeptical that it would fit, but ultimately deciding to give it a go.  It was tight, but he'd survive, and he'd give Loras a bit of a show by bulging out of it.  "I promise not to rip it...I'll leave that up to you," he rose an eyebrow and sent Loras a devious look.  "Hey, you just said no touching...nothing was mentioned about overzealous flirting."

He worked on getting his shoes and pants back on as Loras continued to dig through his dresser.  When he finally looked up he saw Loras holding the one item that encapsulated his guilt.  He'd thought about that scarf a lot over the past few weeks.  How he wished he'd not left it behind.  How he'd wished he'd accepted both it and Loras into his life.

"Yes, I think I forgot that last time," he took the scarf from Loras and wrapped it around his neck.  Taking a moment to look it over and trace the crest at the end, he threw his arms around Loras without warning.  Pulling him into a tight hug, he just held on and whispered, "I'm so sorry."

[professorrenly]

Let's Begin Again | Renly & Loras

[midfielderloras]

 Sitting up, he straddled Renly’s waist and noticed that there was definitely a bulge pressing back. Scooting off of him, he laughed nervously and ran a hand through his hair. Looking Renly in the eyes, he continued. “I know I’m going to sound really bloody… I dunno, naive and kind of girly, but… can we take this slow? I mean start from scratch? Act like we’re starting out again? Do boyfriend things before we go to boyfriends who shag a lot. I just… I need to get everything back on track and I know I’m going to just get distracted if we start right back up with the excessive shagging.”

 I also need to trust you again. 

[professorrenly]

A feeling of anxiety, almost as if a panic attack was threatening to come unleashed, washed over Renly as Loras pushed him away.  It wasn't because of anything he was actually consciously feeling, it was his body's unwarranted response to being told wait despite all the ramped up sexual desire.  Renly felt like he was a spring coiled up ready to snap, but he did his best to stay calm.  A deep breath helped, so did Loras moving from his lap to the bed.

His voice was steady, despite what he was saying, and how much he wanted to do the exact opposite, "Slow is fine...I didn't really give you that option the first time."  He took another deep breath, letting his nerves cool down a bit.  At least he no longer felt like need to pin Loras to the bed and convince him why waiting was a bad idea.  "It'll be fun.  I know I never really showed you my romantic side, but I promise it is there.  I'm going to romance the shit out of you," he added with a sly smile and a quick kiss applied to Loras' cheek.

"Thought if we are really going to do this...start fresh, like we've just met, I'm going to need to make saying 'I love you' an exception...because I don't think I can go back to not feeling that little flutter in my stomach every time I hear it." Though truthfully, the feeling had been there all along.  He'd gotten it just by seeing Loras' face.  The time spent without it was only the month he'd kept them apart.

Slowly standing from the bed, he stretched to his full height, he hands reached far above his head, heels raising off the floor.  "Speaking of flutters in my stomach... what was this about brunch?" He looked back at Loras, still sat on the bed, hair a mess from their earlier kisses and smiled again.  How the fuck am I going to manage not shagging this kid's brains out every chance I get?