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i have... the worst consistency.
rarrezas:
levi isn’t sloppy. he’s the best at what he does. he’s almost perfect at it. that’s a fact. but this: taking you hostage. he’s never done something like this before. never had to until now. he just did his killing, somewhere private, and the cleaning up after it all. nothing more. simple and low-key.
why didn’t you just turn the other way? stupid girl.
you know he can’t let you go. not now, at least. “what do we do with her?” he knows you’re bluffing. you could have called someone and or the police the second your eyes were violated. “she claims to not have seen anything. but i know for certain she heard everything. to me, that’s the same thing.”
he and the crew began conversing what do with you. the chief couldn’t care less what was done to you. a few wanted to go all ‘off with her head’ on you, but most, including him, agreed that you could be of some good use to them. nothing too mad. somewhat illegal. maybe.
but hey, there’s no turning back now. you made a choice. and you ended up here. now you have to endure whatever is thrown your way.
“fine, no one goes near her. she’s my problem then.” he’s moving to the car, opening the door. “please give me your phone. now.” don’t make him ask twice. “i know you’re lying.” you should’ve just kept your mouth shut and actually went through with it. probably would have had him worried then. he would’ve considered letting you go. it’s the smartasses that always dig themselves an even deeper hole when it difficult situations. “don’t bullshit a bullshitter, kid.” he’s examining your features, you’re no younger than he is. “don’t make this any harder than it already is.”
she blinked. things were moving awfully quickly - or was her panic augmenting the situation? she fought her ridiculous urge to shrink further into the car, straightening out her posture as she met the strangers gaze.
‘ phone? ’ echoed suran, as if even the _word _was foreign. ‘ i must’ve dropped it when you _manhandled _me into this car. ’
it was a calculated jab. getting out of... _wherever _it was he’d taken her didn’t seem like a near possibility. she might as well test the boundaries. by now she’d covertly shoved her cell as deep within her coat pocket as physically possible. restlessly removing her hands to massage her temples. getting kidnapped gave her one a helluva headache.
‘ you’re the one making it _hard. ’ _she countered with a frown. ‘ i’m not a liar! i swear on my mother’s- ’ _conveniently dead, ‘ - _life i wouldn’t have said anything to anyone. ’ in all honesty, she wouldn’t. it would have only been more trouble for her, now he’d unnecessarily burdened himself for nothing.
tentatively, she stepped out of the car - eager to stretch out her legs as her gaze swept the room. no five star hotel, that was for certain. she hugged her jacket tightly to herself, inching bit by bit from away from her captor. ‘ so, what do you plan to do with me? keep me hostage until... until what, exactly? ’
psa: replies/im/discord will be a bit slow moving from now on due to school & work!! i promise i’m not ignoring anyone & i still very much want to write, write, write!
ok . i fucking want dark plots.
we just fucking murdered your neighbor and you look hot with blood splattered on your face and whoops now we’re on a killing spree because i can’t stop the bloodlust. the cops are trying to find us but we’re always one step ahead. we’ll never fucking look back baby they’ll never fucking know we did it. like a literal serial killer duo who knows what the FUCK they r doing
ur a vampire who i met at a club and was dancing on and i woke up in ur bed with marks all over my neck and i’m terrified but also kinda fucking turned on and i don’t know what to do
i’ve been stalking you and i think it’s about time you know just how much i love you. we’re meant to be together. let me fucking kIDNAP you and try to do that whole stockholm syndrome thing and what do you fucking mean it’s not working we’re meant to be. you’re gonna fucking love me or you’re gonna fucking die .
we’re both fucking crazy i burned your shit last week you fucked my best friend to spite me i released your nudes you told my mom about the time i got arrested we have a sex tape and we’re never leaving each other because we tear each other apart but we don’t know how to live otherwise
we were in rival gangs and i started dating you to get information for mine and i got caught but i only realized i was in love with you when you were jamming your knife into my stomach.
anything fucking dark and stomach twisting like literal fucking sketch ass aus
muse a is very wealthy, and their parent(s) is/are always trying to set them up with their equally wealthy peers. however, they sort of have a thing for muse b, the maid/butler/gardener/etc.
obciidian:
odium. it deserts a vitriolic acrid flavor at the tip of his tongue which he does not know how he’s yet to vomit of. they used to be corresponding beings walking the same bridleway; shoulder to shoulder, a simper to an embrace, their friendship used to mean something in this imperceptible and superfluous world… but he asserts that everything which is good must come to an end, one day. their end arrived sooner than designed to – perhaps, due to eunsoo’s own impairment; his irascible, juvenile, and vengeous intents has ensnared them in a path of annihilation and obliteration — a pit furthermore ingrained than hell which they cannot bolt.
concedingly, eunsoo is vigilant of the impact his narcissistic maneuvers has left on his former friend. he possesses, in every fiber of his being, rue. if only he could have turned time back…. but those ruminations and yearnings remain as deep slumber hankering. now, that doze no longer reconnoiters him ( for it is petrified of the monstrosities now residing in his torso, in his mind; bawling, lamenting, murdering him piece by piece ever so leisurely until there is naught remaining to bleed. and the pique – it seethes his blood, kneads his lianments in profound umbrage, faded hues of once an iniquity filled boy… now merely, retaliation driven lad with rouge ablaze and gleaming from his orbs.
❛ don’t act like you don’t know anything – you did this ! ❜ his aggravation is enough to thud the boy against the wall once more, gripping at his collar as his dull fangs are exposed in the grimace of disfigurement displayed atop his countenance. ❛ i swear i’ll fucking cut you open, i’ll drink your blood, i’ll eat your intestines… don’t try me, ambrose. fix this. fix this now. ❜ before he loses his mind, at last. before he goes berserk.
‘ i always had a suspicion you liked it rough. ’
it wasn’t the most appropriate time for ambrose to be feeling so wholly himself. but damn did it feel spectacular anyway. every hint of aggression felt like a win - he could relish in the threats, even. who knew victory could feel so dangerous?
by now he’d slithered his arms free, bracing against the other’s shoulders in attempt to push him away. eunsoo was a lot stronger than he appeared, to ambrose’s surprise, or the little friend he’d sent his way offered some perks. hands remained forcefully on the other before dropping abruptly, a quizzical expression overcoming his features.
‘ let me try to recall... ’ he trailed purposefully as his gaze jumped about the room. enough the he hoped it would perhaps distract the other enough for an opening to break free. at last, he ducked awkwardly beneath the shorter male’s arm to thoughtfully pace to his window. ‘ oh, i remember now. let me see - i believe it had something to do with my expulsion, you throwing me under the bus and then refusing to atone for your wrongdoings. sounds familiar, yes? ’
he leaned against the windowsill, arms crossed as he regarded the other warily. eunsoo had never been... pleasant but they’d always got on well enough. the man before him felt almost like a stranger, the pure venom pouring from his mouth almost penetrating his confidence. which was unheard of. ‘ one might call this retribution? ’ he mused, as if still oblivious to eunsoo’s current state. ‘ an eye for an eye, as they say. ’ in other words: there was no way in hell he’d help.
* ‘night mother prompts
‘night mother is a play by marsha norman. tw : suicide and guns.
‘ you hear me, honey? ’
‘ somebody should have them. ’
‘ don’t worry. ’
‘ it must be time for your medicine. ’
‘ very funny. very funny. ’
‘ i found the bullets. they were in an old milkcan. ’
‘ there’s just no point in fighting me over it, that’s all. ’
‘ so quiet i don’t know it’s quiet. so nobody can get me. ’
‘ you can’t do it. i won’t let you. ’
‘ and that’s all. ’
‘ well you can have it if you want. ’
‘ i’m going to kill myself, __. ’
‘ took it already. ’
‘ you don’t mean that. ’
‘ it’s mine too ’
‘ shoot myself. in a couple of hours. ’
‘ oh come on. ’
‘ where did you get those? ’
‘ that gun’s no good, you know. ’
‘ don’t you want to know what we got you? ’
‘ well, you didn’t look good enough, then. ’
‘ i’m careful. ’
‘ if you call him, i’ll just have to do it before he gets here. ’
‘ how am i supposed to act? ’
‘ dead is dead quiet. ’
‘ not in my house! ’
‘ just you and me. ’
‘ then what’s the matter with you? ’
‘ i said no. this is private. ’
‘ i’m cold all the time anyway. ’
‘ soon as you hang up the phone, i’ll just walk in the bedroom and lock the door. ’
‘ i said don’t make a mess. ’
‘ did i say that already? ’
‘ the floor’s not very steady. ’
‘ i’ll be right back. ’
‘ i don’t want anybody else over here. ’
yeri in sappy ♡
rarrezas:
& * he has his father to thank for being so blasé when stuck in tricky circumstances. but that’s neither here nor there.
paranoia is his best friend. “you and i both know i cannot do that.” he nonchalantly emerges from within the darkness. head immediately tilts to the side when glass hues land upon you. he wasn’t expecting you. of all the tiny creatures, it had to be you. “but you did hear, yeah? so, it does not alter absolutely nothing.” his tone is callously monotone. “promises are made to be broken.”
without saying another word, he’s throwing you over his shoulder and bolting toward his car.
he was expected twenty-five minutes ago. the chief isn’t too pleased about the current unnecessary predicament. could have all ( obvisouly ) been avoided. it’s his fault this is all occurring. no one knows what to really do with you. you’re in the back seat of his car, and everyone is just cracking jokes about you and him. fucking fantastic.
she was clearly taken aback as he revealed himself, for all the wrong reasons. was this... the face of a killer? she’d imagined someone grotesque, domineering - perhaps that was more her fear than her common sense speaking. she knew a pretty face could be every bit as dangerous, if not more.
‘ please. ’ her response almost breathless, as if already seceding. what was it for emergency services? the home button five times? she fumbled within her pocket for a moment as if it weren’t completely obvious what her intentions were. and in a flurry of movements she found herself in the back of an unfamiliar car.
no, this wasn’t like her. to be so flustered, so paralyzed with fear - she’d faced much worse and come out the other side, her dignity intact. of course, none were close to that of murder.
‘ _hellooooo? mister murderer, ’ she’s sat up, half wondering just how sloppy of a criminal he was to leave her with her most powerful of weapons: a phone. maybe kidnapping wasn’t his specialty. she thinks better of mentioning it out of snark. her thoughts running a mile a minute to make sense of it all. at least she’d somewhat regained her ability to speak. ‘ you know! i have people expecting me home. ’ lie. ‘ it’s more trouble to do all this than to let me go. i’m the last person to go to the cops. ’
jesus. what if she were only giving him more reason to kill her. eyes closed, she huffed sitting back. he was definitely going to kill her. he let her see his face, he drove her without a blindfold - she watched enough true crime to know the tell tale signs._ fuck _that double shift.
she wished more than anything to prevent herself from shrinking from the appearance of even more degenerates. looks of confusion turning to that of fear and finally anger, directed in an icy glare to her captor. ‘ just let me go! i don’t give a flying fuck what you jerks do for fun just let me go. ’ articulate.
obciidian:
opprobrious nights which he remains awake cannot wear him down. forcible and almighty, his hauteur resides deep and stable in the midst of his thorax. he is the one to bring it all to an end, a solidity in his own bare palm to throttle and extract the viability of anyone his morose heart hankers to – yet, recent nights of interminable terrors, malevolent ululations at his ears, indoctrinate him otherwise. forcible fangs, claws with ichor perfuse from gnawing at his skin, secant his neck until he is left vacant of blood and sprawls onto his damp bed – empty of life, of psyche, of anything that keeps him compos mentis… naught but a husk for baleful spirits to defame. they knap his brawn and lacerate it apart piece by piece as he is situated there with no valor to move an inch – leisurely, execute his mortal body to the grounds below for a repatriation to his predecessors. you will never get to die. every night, they swindle him, squealing their morbid / liverish merriment in his ears until those bleed along. and he wakes in the morning, more inanimate than he was the day prior. his demons scrutinize his every locomotion. you are nothing. he descends to the ground, trodden, opaque effluvium filling his lungs and suffocating him until he avows he can hear his mother’s pleads from an interval: ‘ – run, child, run ! – ‘ albeit, no extrication. he abhors being trampled.
and in a moment of hasty decisions as execration blurs his vision and jumbles his conscious, he strides with pique in each step to the person who engendered it all – the person who will now, make the nightmares come to an end.
witching hour is merely upon his back, shadows swift away from his own. his fumed agitation mantles his figure, and he crawls inside a window he recognizes just slightly too well for his own favoritism. once inside, he senses the jabbing onto his flesh ( claws clutching onto his spine and his ribcage, rending out his bones one by one ). you’ll never make it out alive. ❛ missed me,little shit ? ❜ he locks eyes with a pair he’s known too well, too soon, but now no amiability or fright electrifies the air between. solely, obscenity. he menaces his figure, thudding the boy to the wall until his back crashed raspingly, essentially suffices to demolish a hole in it if it wasn’t so staunch. ❛ i came here to politely ask you to make this fucking stop. ❜ you don’t know what you’re getting yourself into. they’re wrong. his voice grows and now a repine – inflicting the affliction upon his neck with the teeth which devour his dermis once again, his own ; bare and clenched as a savage brute near its quarry. you’ll never get rid of us. but he will, he has set his mind to it and so it shall be, even if the next quietus must be of the person in front of him. ❛ i cant take this shit anymore… make it stop— now… ! ❜ / @profiile
his nights were his alone. spent in solitude with quiet reflection. though his thoughts were anything but peaceful. revenge was a petty affair ambrose could never imagine himself taking part of. yet there he sat, contemplating the fruits of his efforts. just how successful had he been? not that he had much desire to check in.
this wasn’t like him. loneliness. though he preferred distance in most forms, physical was not one of them. nights like these were ought to be spent pressed against a stranger or two. he deserved his fun, didn’t he? after all the unwarranted punishment eunsoo had abandoned him to endure. except something, almost similar to regret, weighed heavily on his conscience. which was laughable - ambrose lived without regret. or so he tells himself.
his hands smoothed over the yellowed pages of a book that by no means should be in his possession. he wondered how long until the academy would miss it. or how easily they’d trace it to him. in that moment he couldn’t find himself to care, busying himself with the sinister distraction of scheming more atrocities he could inflict on those that had foolishly wronged him. how they underestimated his malice.
too absorbed with vengeance, he only noticed the others presence a second too late. standing only at the sound of breathing that was not his own to find himself pressed to his wall seconds later.
so, it had worked.
his inital reaction should not have been to grin but he couldn’t help his lips from twitching upwards. oh, it was far more satisfying than he could have ever imagined. for eunsoo to be the one suffering for once, eunsoo begging for his help. ‘ when i imagined myself getting pinned to a wall tonight, this isn’t exactly what i had in mind. ’ he was in no hurry to break the other’s grip, there was something sickly thrilling about it all. ‘ regardless, i’d really love to help you. ’ pout. ‘ only i haven’t the slightest idea what you’re talking about. ’
rarrezas:
it was not his choice in doing such a loud deed out in the open, behind an abandoned church, of all places. it isn’t quiet, clean: his style. even though he calls bullshit upon the instructions he was given, time was of the essence, he was also told.
oh, he heard you. but levi isn’t easy to unsettle. so, he’ll wipe his knife clean and slip it back into its velvet case. &* the cigarette from seven minutes ago is still intact between his lips; taking a long drag, he gives his surroundings a quick glance before heading toward you.
“come out. i won’t hurt you.” if you don’t give him a difficult time that is. even though he is a very patient man, everyone has their moments of weakness. — flicking the fag, he puts it out with the tip of his boot. hands will make home inside the pockets of his faux leather jacket. he’ll lean against the opposite side of the wall. “don’t be dumb about this. show yourself.”
he spoke calmly for someone that just committed murder. should that maker her more or less afraid? one thing she knew for certain: she couldn’t sit there forever. maybe if she’d found a better hiding spot than the ground.
suran took a ragged, no doubt audible, breath in as she considered her options. making a run for it was the most ideal, though she doubted her endurance and coordination under pressure. screaming for help wouldn’t do much good, not on a quiet non-residential street. texting for help? who could she even rely on?
she supposed there was no plausible way out. not yet, at least.
‘ i’m right here. ’ she managed to choke out, shakily finding her way to her feet. one hand tightly gripping her phone within her pocket, as if it would at all help her. ‘ i-i didn’t see anything. swear on my life. ’ she made no effort to make out his face in the darkness, eyes glued to the street beyond the shadowy figure. ‘ and i don’t know what you look like. if you let me leave i won’t say anything. i promise. ’
hello i am a recently re-vamped literate, semi-selective mumu looking for new writing partners. i’m also too lazy to make a promo but if you could give this post a like i’d happily hop into your ims for plotting!!
give me fucking royal!aus
🍊 muse a is betrothed to muse b’s sibling bUT GUESS WHAT MUSE A IS A GAY AND FALLS FOR MUSE B 🍊 servant and royal falling in love???? muse a is next in line for the throne but muse b their best friend and personal servant has been with them since childhood and they share everything together anD MAYBE MUSE A IS HARBORING A CRUSH FOR THEIR SERVANT AND SO IS MUSE B 🍊 bickering ass royals who are forced to get married because their countries are about to go to war and so their parents are like FUCK OK WE DONT WANT WAR MARRY and muses are constantly bickering bUT OK MAYBE THIS OTHER ROYAL IS FUCKIN HOT cue angsty hot makeout sessions 🍊 lANGUAGE BARRIER MUSES muse a is betrothed to muse b but muse a is pissed about this and refuses to learn muse b’s language and so awkward interactions and broken languages but the effort muse b puts into learning muse a’s language makes muse a maybe sort of like muse b 🍊 ROYAL MUSE A HAS NEVER BEEN OUT OF THE CASTLE BUT MANAGES TO SNEAK OUT AND MEETS MUSE B WHOSE A SHOP VENDOR AND FALLS IN FUCKING LOVE AND THEY HAVE A GRAND OL DAY BUT THEN MUSE A DISAPPEARS BC RESPONSIBILITIES AND MUSE B IS LIKE FUCK THEY WERE CUTE AND THEN THE NEXT DAY THEY SEE THEM WAVING TO THE PEOPLE AND MUSE B IS LIKE WHAT THE HELL I JUST KISSED THE ROYAL OF MY COUNTRY I 🍊 muse a is known as the playboy royal and bangs everyone thats willing and then muse b comes along and is muse a’s tutor in like fencing or something and muse a is like IM GONNA GET IN UR PANTS and muse b is like what the fuck no focus on your fucking sword
also just nice ass fucking dresses and shit i’m such a hoe for royal aus like pLEASE GIVE ME ALL THE ROYAL AUS
give me an apocalyptic hateship // it’s the end of the world, and muse a and muse b are the only two people alive, and they hate each other, but it’s either stick together or face the apocalypse alone. and slowly they start to do little intimate things like holding each other while they sleep, etc., but only at night when they’re feeling really vulnerable, and the darkness hides them from the world. and they have this unspoken agreement that they never talk about those intimate moments, but go right back to hating each other afterward/in the morning. bonus points if they finally give in to their unwanted feelings because they think the end is near, and almost immediately they run into more survivors. can be any kind of apocalypse.
some things couldn’t be helped. like, for instance, walking home alone. at night. though it wasn’t as if she could simply refuse a double shift, she needed the money. which was exactly the reason she couldn’t even afford an uber home.
a night stroll would almost be soothing if not for the constant inkling of danger. the smallest of sounds, the littlest of movements - all enough to make her jump. and, catch her attention with morbid curiosity. at the very least she was on the home stretch, the creepy abandoned church she passed nearly everyday felt more like a beacon of hope as it marked her proximity to home. just a few more blocks.
huh?
voices? or voice singular. she took pause, hesitating before she rounded the building. seriously, the one night her parking lot short cut would come in handy and there had to be junkies spoiling her convenience. suran shook her head, setting her shoulders back in preparation. mistake number one. whoever they were, she doubted they’d take notice - it was dark, after all, and she could use to shave her journey time down ten minutes. she just had to be quick about it.
one foot after the other, head down, don’t make eye contact. she nervously edged around the building, refusing to look up until curiosity got the best of her. mistake number two.
naturally, she screamed, frantically clamping a hand over her mouth. maybe they didn’t hear? she turned, running blindly back the way she came. mistake number three. she tripped, skidding painfully across the pavement though she could hardly pay mind to the pain. shakily pushing herself flush against the wall, knees tucked tightly into her chest as if she could fold into herself and disappear. if she weren’t so paralyzed with shock, she might have thought to call for help. instead, she hid (stupidly, in plain sight) waiting like a clueless, sitting duck. @rarrezas
muse a purchases a new home and it has an attic. in the attic they discover a photograph of someone. muse looks at the frame of the photograph and it has a letter. The letter states “you found it, it was meant for you and you must read this aloud” or something like that. Your muse thinks it’s crazy and says they’re not doing it.. but they read it in their mind and that was enough to make the chant on the letter work and do its thing. when muse a wakes up the next day, the person in the photo (muse b) is sleeping beside them ready to thank muse a for freeing them.