I’ve been into v/ore for the longest time and still am and I love it, I wanna express the way I like to do it but it’s hard without worrying something might go wrong. How would it go wrong? For some reasons.
Ocd, my ocd is very bad and reminds me of things that make me uncomfortable and I worry making a post or exploring others posts my ocd will see something it won’t like and freak out. And by no means am I shaming anyone what they like, you do you! I just wish my mind wouldn’t treat it like it’s a threat.
Ptsd/trauma, sadly I’ve been through trauma from people who said stuff that I didn’t like nor consented to. I was also forced in rps and one guy in person got touchy with me. Basically they force me to be submissive when that is extremely not my thing and triggers my ocd and ptsd. One person called my preferences the r word slur.
I play both pred and prey but I’m only pred on this blog because people forced me to be prey in a submissive way so I can’t be express being prey worrying I’ll be more vulnerable to more people hurting me. (Which could still happen even if I’m a pred) I’m very strict how I like to be treated and people I’ve talked to didn’t like it and threw my preferences away.
For prey, I like to be treated gently, the pred is sensitive to my feelings, they will take care of me, and they won’t hurt nor dominate me in anyway.
For pred like my username says I am protective, like a mom, caring, and wouldn’t want prey who is good get hurt. However despite that I do have I mean side. I probably won’t share it on this blog but who knows, I have a mean side as a way of keeping myself safe pretty much like “get them before they get me” and all of this is consensual of course.
A bunch of people force into things I don’t like and tell me what I am and what I’m not without my thoughts and feelings involved (and sadly that recently just happened) it’s like forced to like something I’m not into for other people’s needs.
I wanna really wanna be on this blog to show that I’m allowed to have my own thoughts, feelings, preferences, and be my own individual and I am not obligated to give into what makes me uncomfortable. But the paranoid part of me worry someone might take that away and I’ll be reliving that again. I still feel vulnerable and worry something bad will happen but I’m I’m still doing it and not letting it stop me.
Thank you for reading this, seriously means a lot! <3
