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When I am panicking about a project or assignments, I can't seem to work. Help.
Hi, everyone! My brother broke my laptop so I couldn't update my blogs yet. But as soon as I get it back. I'll start composing right away. Anyway, here's me, updating my planner before moving on to september!!
Gah, wake me up when September ends. Lol, anyway… Christmas season is near!!! Stay full and hydrated ppl
Update: Time Blocking System
Hello, everyone! After months, I could say that I really enjoyed using the “time blocking system”. But! It needs extra dose of discipline. For time blocking, I used the apps Accomplish [It is a to-do list app and a calendar(day view) in one], Google Calendar, and Sectograph {It’s a widget where you can see your agenda in a clock view or style). Okay, so during school days, it was really helpful and forces me to be productive because I can see that I have a lot on my plate, if I haven’t discovered this system i might have cram on.
I could almost say that it’s a success but summer vacay happened.
So I suddenly had a lot of free time and there’s almost nothing to do (which felt weird because as a medtech student, I got used to a lot of academic overload) except for house chores like sweeping the floor, mopping, washing the dishes, doing laundry, and some self-care deed like nail cares, and some routines.
I tried to time block these chores (mostly in the morning) but I ended up cramming the whole thing before evening gah! I kept on moving the chores to a later part of the day (just because I can) and binge watch on netflix. It lasted for two weeks! TWO WEEKS! And that’s when I said to myself I SHOULD STOP DOING THIS OR IT’S GONNA BE A HABIT and it’ll never be a good thing because, well, I’m a believer of the quote “We first make our habits, and then our habits make us. (John Dryden)” and I don’t want to spend a semester removing such a bad habit.
So I declared war to myself. “I’m gonna discipline you, self, whether you like it or not. I’m sorry for I will never be sorry because it's for your own good and you know it.”
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So here are the things I’ve done:
Problem: I found out that it’s not really working for me if I time block every chore, because I could see that my whole afternoon is vacant and I tend to reschedule my chores to afternoon. (Procrastinating)
I did not time block every chore I had, instead, I kept them on the to-do list part.
After doing the chore, I move it back to the calendar part of the app so I could keep track how much time I need for every chore so I could improve my scheduling accuracy.
I only scheduled the essentials or my goals for that day and stuck to it, or sometimes, I started doing it earlier than scheduled so I could have a head start and finish the goal ahead of time.
If a task popped up in my mind and I know I could do it quickly, I do it right away. (Yass, wastes more energy, but I’m trying to hone “discipline” so yeah).
I advanced my time settings to 17 and 19 mins ( too much, aye? That’s how tardy I am. Lol). (I intended to forget which has the advanced minutes between my phone and my watch so I wouldn’t really have a clue what was the time.)
Problem: Lack of discipline
I schedule my break times. ( yes, I gave myself break times. So I could motivate myself and look forward for the recesses I set). And it’s not a big chunk of hours, it’s like 40-90 minutes several times a day.
I made a distraction list
I restrained myself HARD from my distractions. Huhu
I am in bed by 8:30 doing nothing but calming my mind and let my body clock wake me by tomorrow (any time because I sleep for 5 hours minimum and 12 hours at the maximum, my brain shall dictate how long my body needs a rest teehee)
Because I wake up really early and there’s nothing to do in the morning, I do myself a favor and do some self-loving chores and some house chores or cook breakfast, whatever.
That’s all for this blog post. Hope this could help to anyone else. Make sure to practice self-discipline and self-awareness. Also being mindful helps too. Have a nice day!
My Grades are Out!
Hello, everyone!! My grades are finally out! Yey!
I was so nervous to see because I’m not really sure if I passed every course and I know to myself that I haven’t given my best on one of them. I was so scared. I failed a course last semester and I don’t want that to happen again. It was 8 in the morning when I woke up, the first thing I did was pray. I thanked God for everything that happened last sem and for the wisdom and the knowledge I gained. I also prayed, not to have the highest of grades, instead, I asked Him to give me what I deserve. And then...
I reached for my phone.
I opened the school site.
I nervously looked at my grades...
Time Blocking System
Hi everyone! I decided to give “time blocking system” a try. I spent for like 2 hrs to get the basics done, like my schedule and preparing a morning routine (okay, uhm, so, thinking about it, I haven’t done yet about my night routine oh gosh). Anyway wish me luck!
I think the pro here is that, I get to see a visual of my time (which is good, I could prioritize more) and I could see my appointments ahead of time.
However, there are also I don’t like yet. Well, as a newbie, I love the idea, but it’s kind of a challenge for me to arrange my day. But I knew that there’s a challenge in every opportunity and an obstacle in every path of success.
Hopefully, I will be committed to such task. WISH ME LUCK! And, have a good day!
Rewarding Oneself
Hi, everyone!
It’s really hard for me to focus! I have mentioned on my previous blog post that I’m taking our finals this week and right now, I am trying to review for my Phlebotomy finals. I already finished up three chapters yey! Yes! I am celebrating because it has only been the second time I was able to finish a chapter.
At first, I really wanted to watch a movie as a reward for myself but I realized, “why the heck should I reward myself for? For studying? It’s what I should do in the first place! Plus, watching a movie is just an escapade on continuing my study”.
Obviously, I am reminding myself that small victories are important but it’s better to celebrate after the whole process-- which is after achieving my goals.
And I should be happy that I have LEARNED three chapters not FINISHED studying it.
Lesson:
Watching a movie is not a true reward, but the sense of fulfillment is.
Recap
Hello, everyone! It’s been almost a month since I last posted. My month of April was hell of a month! I found new friends, I drank alcohol for the first time,I got drunk the second time (and I was speaking in fluent english), I had internal issues, I got addicted to computer games, I spent all of my savings, I ate a lot, I went home at dawn. To sum it all up, my April was akin to a roller coaster ride. And uhmm… I forgot the purpose as to why I am away from home, to learn and study re my program.
I am trying my best to recuperate (and I think I’m doing well).
I’m trying to get a hold of myself, it’s kind of hard now since I’m being addicted to computer games but at least, I can now hear a voice in my head telling me to stop. I think that’s a progress.
This month, We will be taking our finals exam. I need to achieve higher grades because my mom applied me to a scholarship program. And to make sure I am being productive, I bought a notebook to write something I have done for that day, I call it “My Productivity Diary”. So far, I haven’t missed a day since May started. I hope to be consistent insert crying emoji here as I have mentioned on my previous blogs, I really have trouble being consistent.
Also, I can’t really pay attention to studying because I am watching the MCU in chronological order. I. AM. SO. HOOKED. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I need to stop. I’m spitting random things.
Anyway, I just hope I could resume back to how I wanted to become a better person. Wish me luck for our exams!
I am planning to journal my April month because it was breakthrough for me, I learned a lot, I gained a lot of first times, and I think those memories should be kept as a treasure, but I’m afraid because my mom might read it. But since these memories are still a part of me anda part of me in progress, I think I should still post it. Maybe on my main tumblr site :)
Have a good day, everyone! Sorry for the trouble you have to read on your feeds :(
Hi, everyone! These were my last week's goals!!
I am so glad that my body has already adjusted on waking up early in the morning. Plus, instead of waking up at 6, I was already wide awake by 5 in the morning, which made me felt awesome every time. It feels so nice exceeding the goals you set for yourself. But I hope I could be consistent with this
However, I am still having trouble on my goal with “self-management” because it's not just making a habit but it's partly honing my character. BUT! I am so proud to say that I can, at least, see progress and improvements on this aspect. I just need to be more wary of how my mind works so I could fully control it and not let the distractions around me have a grasp on my brain work instead.
I hope to be better each day!
I guess my next week's goals are to be in bed by 10 PM coaxing myself to sleep to get a full 8 hours of rest. In my opinion, sleeping is a must. If we care for our skin (face, body, physical appearance), I think we should also care for our brain. Sleeping can do soooooo much for us. Also, hydration is equally important. I think everything regarding our health is important 😂😂
What a productive day
Even though I was feeling down, I actually did more tasks than usual. I actually finished drafting my speech, started research about our reporting on Turner's Syndrome, and went to a clinic for screening. I had done a lot of things today, but tonight I still want to finish reading 5 articles for one of my courses and to review for my Phlebotomy Quiz for the day after tomorrow and make a powerpoint presentation for my speech.
As you can see, I am trying to finish most of the given tasks ahead of time. As much as I could. I think I have been traumatized with my midterms. I am still hoping our professor could accept my late submission :(
Anyway, here's my tasks list for tomorrow:
Pick-up results
Vaccine
Finish UTS presentation
Start RPP term paper
Learning My Weaknessess and Setting Goals
I really wanted to practice focusing.
Since college, a lot of factors have been distracting me and pulling me away from what I should be doing and prioritizing; also, I am a really lazy person.
I envy my classmates who could already relax because they're done with the requirements yet I am cramming and stressing about those because I’d rather choose instant gratifications.
I lost all my abilities to prioritize and these days, I always choose whatever I wanted to do instead of what I needed such as sleeping the whole day, eating snacks, strolling around where I should have been brainstorming or starting my term papers or to review.
And if I ever started doing those important tasks, I easily get distracted with the messages I receive from my friends and I think my brain has started to give me a long list of options to do instead of doing something productive and important.
I know I can discipline myself, I could do it (at most) but I have trouble focusing on something and I tend to forget what I was doing if I shifted on doing an urgent task that can be done in a minute. Do you guys feel me? For example, if I was reading an article and the washing machine beeped, I have to pull down the tube-something for it to drain, and when I come back to the living room, I'd totally forgotten that I was reading an article so I would watch TV while eating snacks instead. That's how I easily get distracted. And it's no fun.
I knew all of these that's why I chose “focus” as an everyday goal. If I achieved this, I know to myself that it will help me to be more disciplined and to achieve my long-term goals and my ambitions. Hope me luck!
I Missed My Deadline
Hi. Today I am really disappointed with myself.
I had a midterm project and it was due last night midnight (11:59 PM). The project was by pairs and should be created with a powerpoint to paste the photos, label the details, proving of answers and to pass it as a PDF. The course was walled art appreciation. For our Midterm exam, we went to a certain church and museum (San Agustin Church and Museum) to find and take shots of different types of sculptures and statues that was given by our professor.
I was totally done with it before 9 PM but I'm not sure if I answered everything correctly so I waited for my classmates since we were helping each other out and we were sharing our opinions and any knowledge we know about the types of arts and if our shots can be accepted.
By 11 PM, I was converting the ppt (powerpoint) to PDF and I'm stressing and scolding myself why I did it so late and close to the deadline. By that time, I already know what mistake I have done. My laptop was quite a Jurassic (old model) so the conversion of the file was taking a long time and I want to smash the keyboard every passing minute. THE INTERNET CONNECTION WAS SLOWER THAN USUAL and I still have to upload it. It was already 11:50 PM when the file was converted. I SWEAR I AM SO STRESSED and when I opened the browser.
My laptop crashed.
And so my heart died.
It was 11:59 PM when my laptop opened and when I was to turn in my work, the submission button has been locked.
I was so close to breaking down. I had doubts if I should just send my work in her email because she doesn't give second chances to one because she said others will also do it. But after crying for an hour, I sent her my work and I sent an apology message to my partner.
I am so sad. Because I've done my best and actually finished the project. If I was the only one implicated, I won't mind. But my partner will also get a grade of zero because of me. My conscience is killing me. I feel so sorry because I was a burden. I don't want to talk to anyone right now.
But at least I learned something from this experience.
Lesson?
About Me
Hi, everyone! My name is Merghie Mallare, but you may call me Grei. I am 18 y/o. Filipina. I am currently studying at Far Eastern University and is 1st yr college. I'm turning 19 this March 21
I am a very lazy student and I hope to change my habits and lifestyle. I failed a course on the 1st semester so I was hoping that by changing my bad habits, i would pass all of my following courses, best if I could ace them *chuckles
I hope by having this studyblr, I'll stay consistent and committed on changing for the better