My friends, i have something to share with you.
Through out of the year 2016 i came here to tumblr, in not knowing what to expect, in this place of art, opinions, but most importanly people. It was like jumping into a sea without really knowing how to swim.
Over the months i spended here i was able to trully be myself and speak out, do things, and being allowed by many magnificent artist to learn from them, to study under theyre wing in order too improve myself as an artist. I have been gifted with many beautifull drawings and even more warm moments that i was able to share with you all.
And believe me, this feeling that you guys gaved me, this connection that i can always relate too and i always know off, is something i never dreamed of being possible.
Two days ago, i turned 25 and i can, after all of those years tell you, that this year was the first that i could honestly call a birthday i enjoyed. It maybe doesnt really make sense, and i am sorry if i dont explain properly.
My birthday was for most of my life a day of depression or nervous discomfort. I always had problems with joining my family during these times, for i never felt as if the people that surrounded me trully made me feel like i wished to spend my birthday with them. Always filled the house with many members of my family, only to spend around fifty minutes at the table, before hidding back in my room. Starting as a kid, and saldy continuing till adulthood, when all i have left at this moment is my dear mother, and my older, beloved sister, who sadly is always busy and away on travelling around the world.
What i am trying to say, is that you guys allowed me throughout the year to be happy with myself, and because of that you got me into a position where i can stand and honestly say that i loved the day of my birthday.
I never ask for gifts, for a hug is more then enough for me. I dont ask for money, for a message and a simple wish from someone i call friend is more precious then that.
Today after i returned from the con, where i broke my record in playing DnD for two groups of people around 8 players for one group, for 32 hours straight, i tasted the cake my mother made for me.
It was the first cake i really felt the taste off. Even if my mother said she didnt add any sugar, it was the best cake i ever ate.
And you guys made such a cake as well. For you allowed me to enjoy the taste of my life, and true happiness.
Many of you sended me amazing gifts, and some of you even sended me a dear wish to my birthday. I thank you all.
And i thank especially @xxmileikaivanaxx for not only being the love of my life, not only being the person on whom i wont give up no matter what fate tries to throw in my way, but most importanly for being the person that touched my heart and healed me where i hurt the most. You are my beloved snuggle-bun, honey bun and many, many more wonderfull names that belong only to you !
@keru-the-green - Dude, i never thought i would get to know a badass buddy manga-comic-artist from Malaysia, but you are the best buddy a guy can wish in this land of madness and chaos :D
@azy-arty - Azy, you have been my friend for only a short time, but in that time i grew a deep respect for you as a person and a artist. You are a dear and lovely friend to me and i thank you for everything you did for me.
@neofox67 - Pepper lady, lovely friend, outstanding artist, outstanding nerd and a incredibly supporting monna-mi !. :) You are the greatest Neo :) Thank you as well for being in my life. Really hope i can meet ya one day, and get you that bottle of Dr.Pepper i promised :D
@ravnicawatchwolf - My bestest mate from Greece, Wolf has been with me from the beggining i showed my butt here on Tumblr, and he has always been an undefeated bookworm and theory-maker i ever met. Thank you as well dude :)
@chronictale - Ali i often dont know what to say, when i see your art, but i can proudly say that to me, you are a dear friend and i am filled with joy, whenever i think i can call you a close friend of mine. Thank you for being here :)
@kiacii - Havent really talked in a while Kiacii, but you are still my lovely chicken-baby and i will always call you that :D I think in 2016, back in september you were the person that really got me into art and tumblr as much as i did till this day. Thank you so much for also being part of my life.
@moonphyr + @firereddragon - Guys thank you both, incredibly for being my friends that have always had my back, when i had a hard time and i had to deal with a lot of my depressions and stuff, back in 2016. I quess you were the first really lovely and nice people i met here on tumblr, and i wont ever forget what you did for me :) Thanks a lot guys. Love ya both !
@psukho - Im always pretty shy to talk to you Psukho, but it doesnt change the fact, that you are absolutely lovely and an awesome person ! Thank you so much for hanging around and answering whenever i decide to send you another text-bomb.
Lastly…this is this kind of artist-to-i-look-up-to-you-no-matter-what-you-say-you-are-awesome-artist-sorry-for-tagging-you thinge.
@yoralim - Through out the few message bubbles i had the privilage to send to you and recieve from you, i learned trully very much not only about myself as artist, but also as a person. You have always been very generous with your time, even though i imagine you have quite a lot on your own mind as well.
Thank you for your time and for your words of advice Yoralim. I wont ever forget.
@blinddetermination - Blind you and your art has been my goal since i ever came to the UT community and tumblr. Your tenacity and will with which you deal with everything in your life has been more than a backlash and motivation to me. You are like this shining person right in front of my eyes, i always try to run behind, inspiring me to give everything my all, pushing myself to a point where i one day may trully look at my progress and say that it was worth it.
I never really talked with you, for multiple reasons honestly, which is pretty bad, i know. But at this point, i can only promise i will try to change that, and thank you, for being who you are not only to me, but to all of your other fans and supporters out there. You are absolutely amazing, not because of your skill with art. But for “who” you are. Thank you.
And to all of you that have made it till here, thank you for reading and staying on this blog, reading my stuff and listening to my unending venting, complaining, sobbing, yelling and burping in your general direction.
You my dear reader are awesome as well, even if you might not believe it, and i thank you very much for being here.
THANK YOU ALL FOR ALLOWING ME TO FEEL A-OKAY ! XD
And to those who wanted to draw something for me, but did decide to respect my wish for not drawing anything for me, i thank you guys as well.
With love and a flaming high-five, while praising the sun and hailing the Emperor,
