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[remanence-of-love]

[inkwish]

[psy2go]

Thursday 12 04 25

Lord, God, na dakila sa lahat, pinupuri kita, sinasamba. Salamat sa panibagong araw na ito, salamat sa walang hanggang biyaya, tinubos mo ang lahat ng kasalanan ng sanlibutan. Salamat sa panibagong araw, sa iyong ibinigay na trabaho, salamat sa lahat na biyaya sa araw-araw. Guide me, Oh, Lord for this day. Ikaw po ang aking kalakasan. Cast all of my anxiety. Magampanan ko lamang po ang aking trabaho sa Philrice. Nawa'y mas matuto pa po ako ng mga bagay bagay, spiritually and emotionally. Sapat na talino lamang po sa mga bagay bagay. Heal my pain, heal my Christian life. Tulungan nyo po ang mahina kong bibig sa pag express ng nais at tama. Maraming salamat po sa lahat. You are my Lord, You are my strength. Bless this day. This I ask and pray in the name of Jesus who truly love us and saves us. Amen.

[psy2go]

I liked you. 

I realized that some feelings aren't meant to tell. Because if you did, you’ll face the consequences and you’ll suffer. It’s not enough that you only like someone. If you are already there you’ll see and you’ll feel how to be loved by someone. But you don't feel the same feeling, because liking someone isn't enough. It's just you thought it will just grow..but the more you’re into it the more you’ll realize that this is not going to be deeper. So you felt suffocated, you felt not yourself anymore. You felt more anxious and wanted to just withdraw and disappear. And you don't want this feeling so you run away and everyone sees you like a villain, questioning you and no one could understand. 

[anxietyproblem]

[nature-hiking]

Mountain stream appearing out of the fog - Tour de Monte Rosa, July 2021

photo by: nature-hiking

[eliisiconic]

‧₊˚ 🪷 . 𓂃 You're Already living your dream life - you just haven't accept it yet.

Stop waiting, stop hoping, stop wishing, stop doubting, you Already have everything you desire - right now, there's already a version of you that already living their dream life and have everything that you ever Wanted, the only thing that is stopping you is fear, doubt, not believing in your power and in yourself, and the only standing between you and your dream life is your refusal to accept that you already have it.

Manifestation isn't about 'getting' something, it's about embodying the Version of yourself that already have your desires, shift your state and think as the version of yourself as if you already had your desires for example:

Wanting a car? ➜ i think of how beautiful my car is and how comfortable it is to drive in it.

Wanting an appearance change?➜ i think of how my appearance is perfect and beautiful, and how i feel confident and comfortable in my own skin.

Wanting money?➜ i think of how i have the freedom to buy whatever i want and that no price surprise me.

Wanting my dream life? ➜ i think of how comfortable and happy i am living my dream life and how grateful that i have everything i wanted.

You don't need to see movement, you don't need proof, you don't need anything because if you had your dream life you wouldn't wonder where it is.

This is called the Law of assumption for a reason, you made an assumption and you believed it that it's a fact without looking for proof, because the real proof is in your mind, in your imagination.

There's no such thing as time delay, this is a limiting belief, decide that you have your dream life right now and the 3d will reflect it instantly, you make the rules, you can just decide that you get your manifestation instantly and that time delay doesn't exist.

Manifesting isn't a job and isn't a process, it's the most natural and easiest thing ever, it's a lifestyle, you just need to keep it simple.

YOU'RE already LIVING your DREAM LIFE, you have it right now, not tomorrow, not in the year after, not in 2026 or 2027, start assuming that you're already living it, you're just going to embody that version of yourself.

Persist in your assumption, the 3d is just testing you, it's testing if you're going to keep being loyal to your assumption or not, DO NOT GIVE UP.

AFFIRM, PERSIST, AFFIRM, PERSIST, and let's the work to your subconscious.

You're the creator of your reality and you decide, you make the rules, and you make the change.

Xoxo, Eli.

© scentedpeachlandcreator.

[fairyminnie444]

Close your eyes and imagine a lemon 🍋

Now, imagine yourself cutting a lemon. Bring it close and take a bite. What do you feel? Is it sour? Did your face instinctively contort? Does it seem real?

This proves that you don’t need to believe something for your mind and body to experience it.

Now, do the same with your desire. Close your eyes and create a scene where your manifestation is already yours. How does it feel? What thoughts run through your mind? How do you act now that it’s real?

It’s done. It’s yours. Treat it like a memory. Return to this feeling whenever doubts arise.

If you can imagine it, you can have it.

[jodykb]

[psy2go]

Orange cat forevuh🍊

[puppetstringed]

[wheresmyphonemp3]

OUROBOROS WRAPPED:

you consumed yourself 74 times this year

you ended 4 cycles and started 13 new ones!

you did not break the pattern today, so the loop will repeat tomorrow

try again next year?

[imgladyourehereholdme]

thinking about middle aged gay love is like. we have a future and we have time

[lycaonswolves]

my mother divorced my father when i was 7. it wasn’t because she was gay, though she did discover this later (another reminder that it’s okay to find out who you are at 40, at 50, etc, and also for who you are to change) but because she had thought he was the great love of her life and he turned out to be a shitty person.

my mother married my ma when i was 11. i think they do have a great love. i think they love each other the way you can when you’re middle aged – having seen the world, being able to see each other’s flaws, knowing themselves. they see each other in full, and they love each other and the world for it. 

they dance on the street to buskers (very embarrassing when you’re twelve; very cute when you look back on it as an adult). i shit you not – they pass me their purses and dance on the sidewalk, laughing. i thought was something that only happened in movies.

my ma makes my mother eggs every morning because my mother can’t cook for shit. my mother presses my ma’s work blazers for her because my ma still can’t figure out how to work the new iron. 

when it was warm, high-school me would wake up on the weekends and wander downstairs to find them sitting in the backyard in the sun, drinking coffee together and splitting the newspaper in a surgical, exact process since they’d worked out who wanted which sections years ago. 

my mother is happier than she’s ever been. my ma, too. there is a future out there for every gay person who’s always known they’re gay, like my ma, and for everyone who figures it out later, like my mother. there’s time. 

they’re growing old together. i cannot express to you how much they are leading happy lives, loving each other, with a huge family surrounding them. i cannot express to you how much they have this beautiful future that they are living and will live. 

i want you to know, if you don’t have any older gays in your life: they’re out there. and they’re living these full, happy lives.

sometimes i look to my moms and i think, i want a life like yours. and looking at them makes me believe i will get it. 

[thoughtkick]

“Things didn’t go exactly as planned, but I’m not dead so it’s a win.”

— The Martian by Andy Weir

[psy2go]

Can I borrow 100usdfor my acads???😭

[psy2go]

i need a sugar daddy but like i need one of those sugar daddies who just want someone to talk to lmao

[psy2go]

i need a sugar daddy but like i need one of those sugar daddies who just want someone to talk to lmao

[determinate-negation]