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[pthewriter]

So I know I’ve been gone for awhile and I do apologize for that. life been doing its thing and also just balancing working and living. As far as the job, I love what I do. It’s not always easy but I push through and get my shit done!! At the moment things are in the middle due to a child that they hired. What would they do that you might ask. Well his mommy is in HR so that’s how the little bitch got the job. So you know how that goes. But I will not put up with the petty shit. ill take it to the right people and then we will all be in a big ass group meeting. So if that’s what everybody want then that’s what we will get. I’m way to grown to let at 20 year old little boy play with me. play with your mammy before you play with me. Other then that I’ve just been enjoying my me time and getting through each day. one step at time. But that’s all for now. I have to get back to this. but I have been doing my journaling in my note book so I haven’t reall been slacking. Just haven’t posted in monthssss. Lol.

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Update!!!!

So I started my job and it been going great so far. I picked up on thing quickly. I found that out. That's also a good thing. My boss already trust that I'll do fine on my own. Im also confident that I can do my job as well. Everyone has made me feel welcome and I thank them for that. But I do also know that this is just the start and that things wont always this easy lol. But I'm ready for it all and no one will run me away. I will be able too do my job and as long as I do that anything else is out of my control. I wont let anyone steal my blessing. God gave me this and I will succeed in every way period. But I've been super happy and excited to be apart of a team that helps people who needs it and I can finally do what I love. This is literally a dream come true y'all. God is real. I'm living proof if you ever needed any. I have may of stories of times he came through. No I didn't know it was I'm at first but come on now. We don't have genies or fairy god parents. So tell me who else is making shit happened when we tried everything we could do? If you can answer me that then maybe we can have a different conversation. But that's it for now. I'm going to relax today I'm off.

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Thank You !!

Hey I just want to thank the ones who read my post and like them. I see the love and it means a lot too me. Like I said I was only doing this just for me. So too see people actually liking it makes me smile. So thank you guys soooooooooooo much !!!!!!! Lol. I'm still learning how to use this site so bare with me I'll start commenting and following you guys back.

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Update!!!!!

Hey, its been a lot going on. I really don't want to go into detail. But if you can say a prayer for my mother. She in the hospital. She has fuild on her brain and have been having very bad head aches . To the point she cant function. I've been so worried and stressed. which is effecting me. I'm not eating and just up praying and worried about my mommy man. I know I have to let God work and trust him. I always get like this when it comes to my mom. But that's it y'all. Ill try too get back to y'all soon.

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Today's Mood

Sooo it started today. Its was fun and welcoming and I felt like home. Although there was a lady doing a lot but I over looked it due to things beyond our fix, But eventually things worked out for the best. I got my schedule and I am so excited!!!!!! But thats it for now

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Today's Mood

I get to start my job tomorrow. Im so excited and I cant wait. Its been a long wait period but its finally over. I thank God for this. This is my time top shine and do what I believe God wants me to do here on earth. Nothing will stop me . NO weapons for against me shall prosper. I will not fail because God is within me and he gives me the strength to keep fighting in his army. My sisters birthday is tomorrow as well. When I told her she sent me back '222' She's happy for me and that's all that matters to me. But that's all for now. I'll be back later.

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Random Post

So just enjoying the rest of my day. nothing major or crazy just a peaceful day and I'm so thankful for that okay. Just enjoyed my own company. I enjoyed the park this afternoon. It was just me and I was in heaven. So I've been thinking about my future more and more lately. I think I want to take a online class for CNA. Like I said I love to help so that's one way I can. So while working I'm going to start doing that as well. I want to love what I do. I don't want to be doing something just to do it or for a pay check. But yea that's what I've been up too, Ill talk to y'all later

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Today's Mood

Im up and out . Its cold out but not to the point where I'm freezing. Still dealing with this tooth pain. It's on and off. I have my mask around my neck just in case it gets really cold. I do not want to be out and in that pain. Currently I reside at the public Library. I love being here in my free time. Being inside all the time is boring. I love to switch up the location. But that's all for now. Ill update you later on.

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Its cold for a few days in my city. I'm a down south woman so this cold isn't for me. Any time it gets really cold my tooth in the back hurts so bad. so If I'm gone for a while that's why. But I do not need this right now. I'm going to be starting working my dream job. But that's all for now. Ill try to come back later.

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Today's Mood

So I woke up and better spirits thank God. Let me some up last night. Long story short, the man that stays under me apartment caught on fire and he wasn't even home I might add!!!!!! So he left a lamp on and his cat jumped and knocked it over causing a park. Then there was a loud boom and the smoke alarm. I heard the loud boom and smoke alarm but I thought he was cooking something. Whole time the cat I tail is cooking. Crazy as hell. This that apartment living lol. Anyway I woke up, prayed, smoked and washed my clothes. After that I cleaned my house and then I showered, Now I'm updating you guy or whoever reads. But that it for now. Ill be back later fasho

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Update

Im back. I'm going to start choosing me from now on. I say this all the time but I mean it. I always put others and how the feel before myself. That"s long gone. People will shower you better then they will tell you how they value you. I'm with much more then what I've been reviving and I'n fucking tired of the bull shit. I don't have to put up with it and I'm DONE putting up with it. Fuck how they may feel as well. Im the one in my room feeling sad and crying. A person will be in your shit and doing and saying whatever the fuck they want. If is was reverse and I was the one one fuck shit I would've been dismissed and blocked and the worst way, So why is it okay for other so do so? It's because I LET THEM. Im no fool and tired of playing this role for the sake of being who I am. I cant keep letting mtf play in my fucking face. I had to let that out. This has been going on for years with different people and some for recurring people, Its time to put P first. But That's all for now. I'm going to work on my book too let off steam.

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Today's Mood

Hey yall, I know I'm late. It's that time of the month. It's been two long days. But for the most part I'm getting through it. I' so ready for this to go off. My emotions have been everywhere. Also I'm so more tired then normal. So hopefully I can spend most of the day, today sleeping and trying to feel a little better. I have this bad pain on my left side of my stomach. I'm hoping it's gas. But if its not, I guess I'll go be seen. I have stomach problems already. So that's why I'm a little worried. But I'm going to pray about it and let God handle it. But that's it for now. If I feel up too it I'll come back with an update.

[pthewriter]

Today's Mood

For the most part I'm okay. I'm alive and breathing. Nothing else matters. Just getting through the week. My anxiety has been okay so far as well. Just maintaining it as much as possible. I'm getting through it. No major melt downs and i'm so thankful for that. I saw my bio brother yesterday and it went well. He was happy too see me an I was happy to see him. We are working on fixing our relationship and that's something I've been praying for. He wants to do better for himself and his kids. I will be there every step of the way to help him as long as he put in the work. I want all my bio siblings to win as well. This is our time. We are all we have. Our birth giver is no help or hope. She's actually on the run at the moment. That's what I was told and that has nothing to do with me. But that's all for now. I will try to post more today.

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Today's Mood

Hey , hey , heyyyy, lol. new week and new opportunities. Woke up with a clear mind and head. I got out yesterday and did some retail therapy. It was much needed and soo fun. I waled 2 miles and it was worth it. Just doing the simple things in life can be so much fun. As an adult we tend to forget what real fun is . So I'm making my business to do simple things. Anyway Im blogging and doing my daily smoke session and I spent time with God. Im always feel better when I put the time in with my Father !!!!! Ill be back later

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Today's Mood

Im back. Yesterday I spent the rest of the day deep cleaning my apartment . I enjoyed my me time. But that's all. So far today is going okay. We will see what today brings. Im waiting on a call for orientation soon and in super excited for that. It's all in God's timing. I'm still in my season of learning and working on patience. It's a very hard lesson. But I'm up for it because it will help mold me into the woman I want to become. I'm just moving at the speed God wants me at. But that's it for now.

Love always P

[pthewriter]

Today's Mood

Grand rising, I hope everyone's valentine's was good. I don't part take in that day. But I had a good day. I love love and I loved seeing all the lovers out. I'm making progress on my book and I'm super happy about that. Getting back into my writers bag is one of the best things I've done and a long time. It's a good feeling. I get lost when I'm writing and hours would pass me by. But once I'm in the zone, Theirs no stopping me. I feel like I'm using my time in a better way. Instead of scrolling like we all love to do. But that's all for now I'll be back later with an update on my book.

Love Always P

[pthewriter]

Update

Im in a better mood. After a good prayer session and then a smoke session I went back to sleep. Yes I do partake in the smoking . It its with my anxiety. Not only that I'm in a better mood when I smoke, and it also gives me a boost. Like coffee does to everyone. Anyway, Im in a better and im happy about that. Still have some of the day too go ill be back soon. Love always P