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badly have the urge to fucking kill myself but im aware im on my period and that's what causing my mood to be like this but it happens so regularly that i really believe nothing matters anymore fuck this nothing even feels real recently. spending time w my friends didnt feel real im so fuckin sickkkkkkkk

there's way too much bad shit in this world, this is not what i stayed alive for

it really is so easy to fall into bad thoughts. i was doing a bit better but there's always so much going on esp now. so easy to focus on 1 bad thought and have it multiply into several bad thoughts. tiring

I feel the need to post this here because my 2013 never would have thought this would happen at all: i went to the hospital to inquire about psychiatric services. I mean. When i was walking i even had 2nd thoughts like do i rly need it, am i really doing this. And all. But i managed to go. Well, i didn't get an appointment and there were no doctors available so haahahah bit anyway i guess it was a good start. Just me going there on my own.

01.30.2020

I've been crying myself to sleep for nights now

valtsv

i’m sure i’ve missed a few things, but i can’t stand to look at it any longer. i present to you: the good, the bad, and the ugly of tumblr throughout the decade

frawgs

If you ever hear me breathe deeply it’s not because I’m annoyed it’s because I forget to breathe sometimes

2019.12.22

i tried to hurt myself today. only just scratches though. im still the same coward

2019.12.10

I am so fucking sad i have no motivation to stay alive i don't know what i want to do in life anyway and the world is too cruel i feel like i have nothing else to b stay alive for im so fucking tired of this shit what the fuck

dhdjsks told me to pray... lmao idek if i rly believe in god anymore

2019.11.11

Thinking about death yet again 🤩

mentalhealth

don’t ever let anyone make you feel ashamed for not going down a conventional path (e.g. not finishing college or starting college later in life, doing an internship in your late 20s, not having a "career” by a certain age). all of this is arbitrary. do not create a life that aims to satisfy everyone but yourself. you worked hard as fuck to get to where you are. don’t you dare let others including yourself diminish those efforts. you do not deserve that. especially if you did it all while battling mental illness.

2019.11.09

what else can i do other than "fight"

wanna fucking die ive been feeling sad again

im extra annoyed bc i cant even fully hurt myself what the fuck

really rather choke myself to death and punch myself than cry lol god i want to die im so annoyed

💭 death

posting this here just bc lmao

#me

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