the fran lebowitz of prague @punishedalexandar - Tumblr Blog

hey guys, new url lol

slavstars -> alexandar

the forces of history have claimed another victim and upon his powdered bones i will build my throne

memories

apparently, I joined this tumblr place at 09/01/2011 7:04:27 PM.

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best quit before i hit 10 years huh 🤔🤔

#dear me and what little is left of my miserable little following‚ for reference this was queued march 2020 #god willing my blog is deleted or at least inactive by when this is posted

fwiw i will allow myself a parting moment of undignified whining

clearly the mistake i made was believing others are as invested or interested as i am, i don’t know. i’ve made some truly remarkable connections here that have since obviously moved beyond this website but also i’ve formed what are very obviously unrequited relationships.

i’ve always taken great pride in being the person to check in and message first and keep writing because i remember being on the receiving end of that very many years ago and it’s who i want to be but i simply cannot do it any longer, i can no longer tolerate people who forget to reply for a week and then don’t.

to reiterate again, this is also clearly my fault for getting too invested. sorry i find you all really interesting, sorry i find your thoughts worth reading, sorry i thought u were worth starting a conversation with, sorry i thought i was supposed to be involved. wish i could reblog some pictures and not care, but i guess im not on enough behavioral medication for that

this truly all started when i recognized a decade ago that i had to be better and then just ??? did ??? through discipline and learning from people i looked up to both in real life and on here, because ultimately we do all overshare and it is sincere and intimate cringe as that may be.

“sorry everything doesn’t revolve around you !! i have a life” yeah well literally everyone does as well and they’re managing.

some of you have truly been exceptional and have raised the bar higher than i could have hoped and i’m very glad you did and we will under no circumstances fall out of touch because i know neither of us will let that happen.

parasocial relationships ended with mutuals i once called besties. now swimming and reading are my best friends

#uh oh you posted something serious you are going to lose subscriber #the real reason one mustn't do those ''well I'll stop messaging first and see what happens'' is because in some cases that rly is the end #sowing in tears so by god i may reap in joy #i should not have gone to that concentration camp this weekend look where it's put me

you know what. the fran lebowitz of prague wouldnt be on tumblr

#consider this a notice that ill be deleting

Is it weird that I feel like you and Franz Kafka would get along

skinny bi kings alienated by prague club

#i live like 15 mins from his grave ive given him flowers but he hasn't responded to my dms

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everyone on here is so obsessed with convincing themselves that all the things they like are actually super queer and feminist and communist or something. you know you can just have fun right

#some of u only listen to hyperpop because you want to be perceived as queer #bro just go be same sex attracted idk