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The Rat Race

#digital art #art #my art #fanart #illustration #deltarune #spamton #spamton g spamton #I was spiraling from work and like #this is kind of a vent post?#mostly about my feelings with work as of late and needed to constantly be this perfect worker cause my boss is literally an 80s yuppy #so I make spamton struggle #I probably shouldn't relate myself to spamton #but here we are BABEY

So like with getting more serious with my transition, I finally decided to purchase some new binders because my old ones are a little too small.

I also started a new workout routine and I'm so fucking exhausted.

#geo rambling

I'll take some better pictures, but I been working on some charms for an event I'll be vending at!

#digital art #my art #deltarune #utdr #spamton #spamton neo #jevil #sbr #jjba sbr #jjba diego #jjba gyro #jjba johnny #jjba hot pants #diego brando #gyro zeppeli #johnny joestar

I feel ill.

#geo rambling #i'm excited but i feel so gross ;w;

I just don't think people understand being a young trans person questioning their gender at 16 while feeding on a supply of leafyishere, onison, and kalvin garrah videos. All the meanwhile, your mother is supplementing your education with Fox News. Particularly— Bill O'Reilly and Jesse Watters.

You become this self-hating, misogynist mess that stops believing your trans because you're not trans enough (your dysphoria isn't textbox). Believing that people are too woke, but still attending your school's gsa where the teacher makes you feel bad for wanting to be view as a boy.

#geo rambling #tw vent

So I decided to talk to my doctor about starting T because I feel like I will never be the person I want to be if I keep pushing it off so I can grasp at the "love" my family provides. At the same time, it's scary knowing how my family is about lgbtq+ issues.

I hear how they talk about gay and trans people. I had my own mother tell me that she couldn't love me if I transitioned because she has to mourn the "daughter" she had. My cousin once beat me up and laughed at me just for assuming I was a lesbian.

It feels like I'm either going to be hurt by them or continue to suffer by waiting to start my life.

It's stupid to write it here, but I needed to write it somewhere. I been feeling nauseous about it.

#geo rambling #tw vent