Pansy’s emotions were running wild within her chest; unsure which one to let him see first. She had so much to say, to show him from keeping her emotions held so closely to her chest. ❝The others.❞ Pansy gave a small laugh as she let go of his hand. ❝I was so worried about other things that faking a conversation became second nature.❞ Pansy sat back against the diner booth, folding her hands on the table top. Her insides cringed when he said he loved the other girl but hid her physical reaction. ❝I don’t blame her. I blame myself after what you’ve told me. I need to explain myself to you. I don’t care if you want to hear it not. I’m telling you, Draco.❞ Pansy said, her attitude starting to return to her normal collected self. ❝I suppose I always seemed distant around you because I didn’t know how to show how I felt, I still don’t. It’s my father’s fault. But, you were always on my mind. There was hardly a day that passed when I didn’t think about you, or your well being. It got considerably difficult when we were in our sixth year. I remember your head in my lap on the train, and I thought you..—❞ Pansy cut herself off, clearing her throat as she blinked, trying to hide the tears that were welling up. ❝What I thought doesn’t matter now. I don’t expect you to give some sort of verbal answer to all this. I just, I need to tell you.❞ Pansy swallowed thickly, lifting her hand to swipe under her eyelashes to wipe the tears away. ❝Growing up my father was cold and my mother a drunk. It isn’t something I’m proud to admit and I carry a lot of shame within myself. I suppose I leaned on you for support more than you realized, more than I realized and I..—❞ Again, she stopped. Her green eyes looked at his face and she could see the boy she loved was a man, a different person. Her heart felt like it was being consumed by a blackhole, leaving nothing but a hollow shell. She felt as if her Draco had died, never to be heard from again. Pansy got up from the booth, taking a few steps before she stopped in front of him. Leaning down, she raised her hand to his cheek, her touch delicate but cold. Pansy pressed her lips to his in a simple kiss, pulling away after a few seconds. ❝..—and I realized if I didn’t do that now, that it would never happen.❞ She said in a whisper, surprised by her own boldness. ❝I would very much like to try and be friends with you too, Malfoy.❞ She said, changing his name to his last, attempting to make a clean break for herself. Pansy knew she needed to if she wanted to truly be friends with him. ❝Do you mind calling me Parkinson, like you used to? I want to give this friendship a chance and being a bit more formal might help.❞