xara

yes, that xara. not roleplay.

[purplevoxels]

Hello,

My name is Xara. This is my blog.

I'm the co-host, [though I'd consider myself the main host,] of a system. This means I am what would be considered a "fictive." Please disregard this system entirely. I am still myself. Please respect me and my past, and view both as something real and as something that has really happened.

For clarity, and to be transparent, the body is 19.

Thank you for your time.

[purplevoxels]

It's like everything I do makes her hate me more. I'm beginning to think the feeling is mutual.

[purplevoxels]

Managed to tame that woollen spaghetti string mess behind the flower crest in The Oasis. Neatened it up a little, redid the redstone. Good as new.

See here for the gif.

Here is our shoddy yet reliable reworking. Should you want to directly copy our solution, ask me for closer screenshots.

Very healing to have restored home to such an extent.

[purplevoxels]

The Oasis, completed (pre-bedrock) rebuild 👍

Rebuild, re-imagining, whatever you want to call it. It was entirely redone based solely on my pseudo-memories. Canonical inaccuracies were not taken into consideration.

The only thing left to do now is to clean up the remaining bedrock, complete the paths, and get the flower to light back up again. Nice.

The original map, before my touch-ups, was built by Aftonic/Aftonik0 on planet Minecraft. Wouldn't have been able to even make a start without their initial build.

[purplevoxels]

Good to be back. We've made huge progress on the rebuild of The Oasis. Every building has been rebuilt back to its former self. A little bit of cleaning up to do, but aside from that, I'm done. Very good to be back.

[purplevoxels]

You are really cool and I hope you know that

Thanks for that.

[purplevoxels]

🍪

Thanks. I needed that.

[purplevoxels]

sorry for spam liking your stuff... i uhm... got happy at seeing another xara introject-

- another xara

Awesome. Welcome home, it's good to see you.

[purplevoxels]

I take it back. You are unwelcome here.

Being a system is a disorder, and a life-altering one at that. It is a disability.

I am sick of you people pretending to be us, and calling us "ableist" for calling you out on your shit.

You cannot join an amputee-club when you have all four limbs intact. It doesn't matter how hard you want to identify as an amputee, you cannot join. Why? Because you have your limbs.

Just like how you don't have a trauma disorder without the trauma. Get out of the fairytale nonsense land you have in your head. This is a disability that has a clearly documented and recorded cause. You're stupid if you oppose medical fact with your ill-informed opinion paired with feelings. Plain and simple.

What we suffer with is not a label you get to identify with. It's time to grow up.

We as systems exist the way we do due to a brain-altering event in childhood. That's how this works. You can't "will" it into existence, you can't form it without a traumatic event or because you want to, and it isn't a trans identity. It is a disability. Treat it as such.

You will NEVER be welcome here.

[purplevoxels]

sorry for spam liking your stuff... i uhm... got happy at seeing another xara introject-

- another xara

Awesome. Welcome home, it's good to see you.

[purplevoxels]

I feel like I should update you about the fact that there's a Radar in our system. This matters mostly because he does seem to slightly idolize some version of us, so if you seem to get an exiteable someone in your askbox or reblogs, it's probably him. Just an fyi because I don't want you to be alarmed.

- @xara-felli

Okay. Thanks for the communication. Will keep that in mind.

[purplevoxels]

Hello. I have a twitter page now. See?

Oh, and a strawpage. Say hello. Link.

[purplevoxels]

Can I be your #1 fan

I don't know why you'd want to be. If you'd like.

[purplevoxels]

My chest feels funny when I talk to her. I need to be taken out back and shot.

[purplevoxels]

Two days ago, I started a relationship with my host's partner. I hardly think it counts, considering the fact that to her, I am still somewhat Morrigan. But, whatever. I really like her... Which is odd, considering how much we used to butt heads. I've really had a turnaround.

[purplevoxels]

I see a lot of people's internal dialog reads as apologetic and scared. I am not as such. Mine is something a little more akin to; shutupshutupshutupanddieandkillyourselfandneverspeaktomeagain

[i-said-im-a-fucking-star]

taps sooo politely on the glass of my enclosure. let me out

[purplevoxels]

I think I've fallen in love. What to do about this, other than tear my hair out in chunks

[purplevoxels]

She reciprocates. Carry on.