Stop giving temporary pains permission to victimize you like they are, warrior. None of the unpleasant thoughts you’ve shared here with me are things truly strong enough to compromise who you are as a person. Your pain and feelings are valid but that doesn’t mean these things deserve the space their occupying or the power they’ve acquired. They’re temporary pains and illusions that you could very well work with. They’re things you could dismantle and strip of the ability to hurt you this way. As far as your boyfriend goes, that’s an insecure thought that’s been left to fester and grow into what it has. Have you tried addressing the issue, actually laying things out clearly with him? That way you wouldn’t be having these worries, having cleared them away, or you could separate from him. But either way, you would be free from questioning your relationship in the way that you are. That would be one less strenuous, energy-consuming, ambiguous insecurity to carry around. One less reason to feel so threatened. You’ll only find that peace by addressing the situation, actually confronting it instead of giving it the power and space to stomp around like it is.Having no one to talk to and having no friends is something you can ease out of, as well, angel. Kindreds aren’t likely to fall out of the sky or come to our doorsteps wrapped up pretty with big bows on their heads. There has to be some level of energetic output on our end to make that connection, so put yourself in a position to make friends. Any position that is safe and conducive to connection. By doing this, you can also do away with the deluded thought of no one liking you, because honestly, that thought has no substance and is sabotaging you. It serves no purpose and is insecurity manifested — it’s far too small an idea for someone as infinite as you.If anyone needs to care right now, it’s you. I’ve no doubt that there are those who care for you but you need to be on your own side, be willing to fight for your own heart. You need to care enough to refuse to reside in as painful a place as you are; to refuse self-treatment so lackluster and harmful. These things have gone unchecked for too long and now they’re biting you, chipping away at your heart. Do something about it. Let all that you do be a declaration of self-love. It’s so easy to find ourselves wrapped up in and taken over by insecurities such as these but we can’t continue on like that. We just can’t let ourselves be minimized and lessened, not when we’ve so much personal power available for the executing. Not when we’re so grand.Sending love and so much support ♡ xx
