I feel that I was getting left out. That is what I feel until recently I have some sort of enlightenment. It is up to the purpose or you can say, some sense of meaning of life of an individual, that determine whether you had not achieve something in life or not.
So young generation (like I am a part of young generation) whether they are Western or Asian, are living in a world full of access of digital information. We can access anything we want and so on. But human have their limitation in creativity, or some sense of limited curiosity. We wanted to access information that we want, so whatever the content that has been provided to an individual was prepared of filtered as a personalization feature.
One must realize that the same technology that get us instant information is really biased because of personalization feature itself. Generally young people want to have some sense of progression, either by developing skills or gaining some knowledge. Some people want entertainment, others want to develop their self. Some people even do not know what they want (That’s me). So people like me choose a simple but fundamentally not good, a way of success.
The problem began when the choice of life came out. Me? I don’t know what to do, what to decide. I don’t want anything. Those narrative came out and i seek salvation. So my search of meaning began, for several years.
Don’t get me wrong, I am still in pursue of what I am, and recollecting some sense of things that make me grow.
So here’s the problem. People that younger than me is having opportunity to grow. At some point, i would have been overlapped. Anxiety attacked happened, short breaths, panicking and i barely managed myself.
I watched a romantic comedy movie today. It is about healthy relationship. A good relationship is reciprocal, and to know that you can love someone and someone can love you, each other must realize what they have and what they want in each other. The key point is you, me don’t have to do it alone, as long as someone important will help you, it will work.
And i realized what’s is the point of getting left out. What is the point if someone really dearly for you doesn’t care about you? Your meaning, your principle will be undermined, will be crushed by it.
At some point there will be someone who appreciate for you are, whether you realized your value or not. You will not afraid of failure, because fundamentally you are strong and resilient. People that can take failure can achieve great things in this world, and those people are among of us, the young generation.
Don’t stop. Good thing takes time.
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