Miwako

cw: 41kg lw: 41kg ugw: 30kg

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Sorry if I haven’t been active but it’s getting worse

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Getting tired of life. I really want eat all my feelings and binge

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Woke up hating my self. Why can’t I be perfect?

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T. W. : SELF HARM

I feel like cutting my torso again.

I feel like I deserve it.

I’m starting to feel depressed, everyday be the same thing.

I’m living on autopilot and I don’t know how long I can take it. I feel like doing drugs again to get a stimulus out of it.

I wish I didn’t had these disorder god gives me.

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I feel like the world hates me.

Do I ever get to be anyone but me?

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I’m tired of hating my own body

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Yesterday I thought I was under control.

Went out with my friends and we grabbed dinner I was planning to skip it, but I couldn’t.

Binged on sushi Starbucks cookies and a Venti Java chip Frappuccino. 

I was at 90lbs but I know I gained, I already know it.

I was doing so lovely. But I always fuck up and see failure no matter how much I try. I wanted to binge today too but I stoped my self.

Learn from my mistakes.

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Just burned about 500 calories. I feel alive but dead

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My own Thinspo collarbone showing check 🙈

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Dear diary,

My daydreams are a lot better than my reality believe me.

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Dear diary, I’m really mad I wanted to end this Friday on a good note talking to my crush. I had everything planned and guess what?

Didn’t even show up i deprived my self from food just to look cute in this outfit.

And the thanks I get???

I’m really giving up on this guy. Why can’t the universe just be nice for me this one time?

I feel like binging on every sweets and giving up.

I’ll be posting my own Thinspo real soon so I won’t ruin my progress stay tune

Yours truly Diet coke princess

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Just bought my vape Yk what’s bangin shawty

They try to ID me but I acted like I didn’t hear them and kept pushing

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Guess who drop so much weight only in one day?

Me!

I’m 91 lbs my lowest weight!

(I don’t promote anorexia but this gives me happiness, however, I know this joy won’t last forever)

At least I’m swag 😌

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I wanted to talk him today but he didn’t even show up to class :(

The day I had so much courage doesn’t even want to show up to class

He saw some of my model pictures and I’m kinda insecure because how thin I look to an average person.

Someone kill me. I’m looking back at my model pictures and I want to puke 🤮

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Y’all those manifestations crush subs work.

I just got my class changed to my crush and I caught him staring at me multiple times.

I should have said hi.

I love being skinny

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Hey besties

Why are the classrooms so cold this year?!

I did not sign up for this

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Guys me and my crush kinda talked today I manfiest it but I do feel a bit weird it feels like I did a ton of acid

I have to do a model photoshoot with him this weekend but I’m scared because we have to model as a couple

Any tips or help? This really does motivate me to keep fasting and working out that’s the benefit but I’m scared because I don’t know his type of girls I hope its dainty girls cause I’m dainty.

It’s kinda is making me very much insecure of my self because I want to be perfect for him and the photoshoot