Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin
it's the absence.. I can manage the intense feeling but the apathy.. it lasts longer and gives me temporary amnesia

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Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin
it's the absence.. I can manage the intense feeling but the apathy.. it lasts longer and gives me temporary amnesia
Concepts
I've always wanted to learn about painting ever since I was in high school. And seeing how my boyfriend is doing what he really loves to do makes me think about starting what I always wanted to do as well as a teen. I like arts, mostly visual and performing (music/singing/playing an instrument) and I'd to share it as well to the world. My passion is mostly music. I like listening.. playing, singing but I always have no time for it because of work. Maybe soon..
I'm back...
I'm back...
hmmm
kalex cutie
safe spaces
hirap din pala no if connected kayo ng crush mo sa lahat na soc med..well just twitter lng naman talaga kasi dun ako nag she-share ng mga feelings ko hahaha but ayun hehe cutie nya talaga eh bastaaaa
“The trick is to enjoy life. Don’t wish away your days, waiting for better ones ahead.”
— Marjorie Pay Hinckley
I have been trying to be open lately
I was never this free before. I used to always follow the rules, be home at this hour. I always ask permission before going out. I need to make an excuse if I stay up late. This is freeing in a sense that I am doing things because no one is telling me to do it. I did it because i need and want to. All this time I think about how I held back. Be that perfect little girl. Smile and be polite. There's no way I could just say Fuck off and leave me alone. Because what would they say? How would they feel? I always think about them but what about me? That's why now I want to know me. I owe it to me.
New Things
Apparently, enough sleep is not what I need right now but sanity. That’s why I’m here. It’s been a long while since the last time I started typing stuff here.
The previous day was going back to me like a blur. But I enjoyed it. I had things to do for most of the hours.. I didn’t exactly planned out things but somehow I manage thru it.. I should be having my quiet time now but I knew there’s just something I need to let out here.
It’s been 6 months, we officially been together and I’m so happy. I almost wanted to break up with him these past few weeks but there’s really something that holds me back from saying those 3 words. And now I’m in a different state of mind, I realized I might not even take it. So that’s it. I’m just happy and thankful. It’s more than what I asked for. <3
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Rant entry #2
I just really don’t know how to write ads. I suck at it. I know how to be conversational but that kind of writing puts me in the ropes and I can’t just find a way to make sense of it. Maybe there’s a way to kind of prep the mind into writing it. Or find some inspiration?
It really doesn’t make sense for me to write something out of thin air and magically endorse something I’m not even happy to endorse. I mean it’s my work but it also looks like rubbish. If knowing my communication skill is something that could make me better at knowing what I really want then maybe that would work. Or you know find confidence in creating things.
Honestly, I’ve been having a writer’s block for months now. I haven’t been able to read just for fun or try to write like this. It was always for something and for someone else. I’m totally not enjoying it anymore. I wasn’t even writing for the sake of content creation. I’ve been doing content for all content.
I’ve already extracted all my words and sentences. That’s how it feels like.
Even trying to paraphrase things from the internet is like a nightmare.
Maybe that’s what happens to those who never find satisfaction or can’t find something to fulfill them. I totally know what I want, what to do next and how to. I also have the guts to do it but there’s a pull that keeps me from doing it.
My thoughts even feel so blank like a clean sheet of paper.
I’ve never been this thoughtless before.
It’s just sad. What I’m doing is draining me of my creativity and mental ability to process things in a stable manner. I am going haywire.
If I don’t get to act on this soon, I’d probably go crazy again.
do me a solid and just reblog this saying what time it is where you are and what you’re thinking about in the tags.
#12:28AM #AT THE OFFICE #LMAO IM USING ALL CAPS #why my head is throbbing #i might have migraines again #need new glasses
Rants #1
Okay, I’ve been a VA for 6 months now (by Sept, 2) and so far it’s really fun. I’m the kind of person who doesn’t last that long in a job because another opportunity arrives or another venture comes into my mind and I chase after that. How stupid, right? I could’ve landed on a permanent job by now but I’m too stubborn and I prefer to do job hopping. In a span of 3 years I’ve worked as a government employee, an aquaculture technician, a pre-school teacher, a store attendant, a call center agent and now a Virtual Assistant. So far, this has been the job that I felt the most useful.
Useful in a sense that, the people, the boss and the environment tells me I could be of use. My skills are needed and I can actually contribute. That my ideas are worth to be considered. And in a span of 3 months, I’m already a Team Leader. I’m the newbie in terms of seniority compared to the other TLs.
Yes, I love my job here. There’s no denying that but sometimes I still think of things that I could do aside from being a VA. My consultant and scientist dreams and being able to contribute to the field of Fisheries and Aquaculture research still excites me. I want to go out there, engage with different people, especially the fisher folks. And that’s not going to happen any time soon.
Actually, I was hired by another company for a full-time day time job (coz I’m in the night shift as a VA) and it really is tempting to just go with that job. Aside from the high pay, it’s day shift, I get to write data based content. It’s a project under the provincial government but I was hired by a separated team. Technically, I’m going to work for them. But that didn’t start right away because of some bidding issues. So, I’m still waiting when will the job start. Well, I’m a bit thankful it didn’t start sooner because my work has been hectic these past few days. I was actually considering to give up my TL position just so I could focus on my tasks.
Well, maybe that’s the perks of having different jobs in the past 3 years. I can somehow manage and cope now. If this was my job before, I could’ve been overwhelmed by all the tasks and end up spending a lot of time on things that don’t really matter.
I was actually taken aback when my boss said that I can manage my time wisely because I just lack that. I used to cramming things. I try to schedule my tasks but it really doesn’t work, especially with a client who’s going to give impromptu tasks. I learned to adapt and be flexible in this job. Even though sometimes it’s taking me some time to adjust or to create another set of system of things.
My rant part here would probably be about some of my subordinates. Technically they’re not on my team but I have seniority now and given the power to assign tasks to them. These people are exactly just like me before but I just hate it that I can sense them being hesitant to accept some task or to accept feedback. It amazes me and makes me a bit disappointed at the same time. I just hope they improve.
This is fun. I’ll write more of this next time.
Cheers.
The last time you said you love me was also the first time I saw the sunset of what we have.
It all began with a smile.
O. Leary
Yes it did.