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"Live for the little moments" Like when you realize those closest to you keep you farthest away Like when you remember that you're all alone in the world and the only people that care aren't around

And when it's over and I hover above my bloody corpse I will be at peace Finally

I really need to control my drinking...

I absolutely abhor toilets that aren't purge-friendly Screw your toilets that flush long and have no side to puke on This is possibly the oddest post I've done

To everytime you want to run away and leave everything behind

I just feel like I'm only worth as much as I can make on the corner (and... Time passes by Looks fade as with stride My beauty goes leaves me with loathing as boyfriend's gaze strays My prices do fade Philip's left with nothing but nothing)

I need to have a few drinks and crawl into a hole for awhile

Sober Me: Don't sweat the small shit. Tomorrow will be better, just make it through today. Drunk Me: Take action!! Do something!! Maybe kill yourself!!

I've decided I'll kill myself when it starts heading downhill Not the best thought, but it's something

The truth is I know my future I'm either let go to find another man to deal with my problems or I'm stuck in a relationship with someone that does not find me attractive anymore is love real?? Part of me believes I've worked too hard on looks to believe in real love The other part knows the nitty gritty "he'll always want a cuter younger boyfriend" So I'm trapped in an odd situation Hold on till I'm not cute anymore Until I'm manly Or kill myself before then Die young Die beautiful Then again... I'm not much to look at I haven't much to give My mind is racing in so many ways One thing is certain One wish is always on my mind "make me younger, make me beautiful forever "

Feeling useless

To-Do List STOP giving a shit Kill yourself, they'll be better off They'll stop worrying They'll move on They will live

Long sleepless nights Long tired days