Okay this feels insanely shaky and brand new and uncertain so I know this is something different.
An...exhibit designer creating an exhibit wherein it is impossible for the animal inhabiting to enact its compulsion.
To limit the exhibit so severely that it is impossible to follow the yearning impulse to DO THE THING that the animal recognizes this and gives up acknowledging that it is futile.
Applicable here in that the exhibit (colors) are so alien to the reference that it is fundamentally impossible to now recreate the study. (Purple and green do not make soft and subtle shades of browns and reds.)
Exhibit (value) gradations so soft and fluffy and delicate are impossible with a big round brush and two colors. "Recreate this in these two garish colors with this one brush."
Oddly, I am incredibly good at exhibit design elsewhere (context design, constraints, etc.) but actually that is simple. They are real-world actual things wherein so much of it already has been constrained. I am fantastic at noodling and finetuning. Option paralysis is crippling.
As there are absolutely NO parameters or frankly any reason at all for me to be doing this shit in the first place, how do I put constraints on something that's just a fart in the wind, frankly?
I do art because if I don't do art, I might as well be dead. So we have to do it. BUT THE THING, THE FUCKING THING!!!!!
You know what I'm talking about! It's insane! I don't even LIKE doing this but I can't find the way OUT OH MY GOD THIS IS DRIVING ME NUTS!!!!!
