weeping

personal vent account. if you follow me I WILL BLOCK YOU.

[pyrus-salicifolia]

being a hypochondriac with a needle phobia is the best!!

[pyrus-salicifolia]

fuuuuuuck iso no one should’ve let me take it

[chestersbraincell]

This is how I look into the mirror after a picking episode around my lips btw

[axymoron]

whenever someone w dermatillomania is told "just stop picking/biting at your skin!!" they immediately get 100 moneys. from said person who made the comment. no i dont make the rules god themself told me this was true

[pyrus-salicifolia]

my back hurtssss

[pyrus-salicifolia]

fuuuuuuck iso no one should’ve let me take it

[pyrus-salicifolia]

actually, being blocked by someone you like with no warning or explanation while in the process of making plans feels horrible

[pyrus-salicifolia]

I resent exercise

[pyrus-salicifolia]

talking to doctors is humiliating, I'm never doing it again

[puppygirlirl]

you aren't insane you just live with your parents

you aren't insane you just live with your parents

you aren't insane you just live with your parents

you aren't insane you just live with your parents

you aren't insane you just live with your parents

[elbiotipo]

why bother caring about the environment when 1. It’s so obviously a lost cause and 2. There’s definitely going to be a nuclear war?

And what are you doing about it Anon? Learn about ecological restoration or get out of my way.

[pyrus-salicifolia]

It’s so embarrassing feeling like you care way more about someone than they care about you

[pyrus-salicifolia]

Listening to my depression playlist again after leaving it dormant for like three years. fml

[pyrus-salicifolia]

People when they say something mean to you and you have the justified human reaction of getting mad/crying: are you on your period :)

[pyrus-salicifolia]

If I wait long enough it might just go away

[intersexbunny]

ASAB is so often used to neglect chronically ill people seeking a diagnosis. it hurts intersex and perisex people alike.

we need to get rid of the sex binary for so many reasons and disabled liberation is one of them.

lupus is a disorder with a ratio of 9:1 people who were AFAB to people who were AMAB. it is a disorder that is wildly dominated by people who were AFAB.

doctors often treat lupus as a "women's disease" and when they're not treating it as a "women's disease" they're treating it as an "AFAB disease." there is no room in the system for intersex people (no statistics on our prevalence in the lupus population) and no room for people who were AMAB (despite them being 10% of people with lupus) the biology of trans people, particularly those who have medically transitioned, is of course not taken into account.

this leads to neglect of people who were AMAB, intersex people, and trans people (particularly transfeminine but not exclusively) who have a dangerous, often life threatening autoimmune disease. doctors don't bother looking because "how could you have it? you don't fit this narrow presentation of lupus that I created in my head." people have died from this. lupus kills, especially when left untreated.

abolishing the sex binary would largely fix this problem.

the reason so many people who were AFAB have lupus is because of estradiol. (read more about why here) estradiol is a major determining factor in who develops lupus and who doesn't. it's the theorized reason for the sex disparity. .... but people who were AFAB aren't the only people with estrogen-dominant endocrine systems, and not all people who were AFAB have estrogen-dominant endocrine systems. you can develop lupus with a testosterone-dominant endocrine system but it is far less common.

so why do doctors look at ASAB instead of that actual cause, estradiol? (rhetorical question but the answer is transphobia and intersexism)

sex abolition says that in replacement of overarching categories of sex we instead identify individual traits. lupus is one example of thousands where focusing on a specific trait rather than a sex would actually be more helpful in narrowing down diagnoses.

intersex and trans people will continue to have their diagnoses missed until we abolish the sex binary and replace it with something more useful. there is no disabled liberation without intersex liberation.

[pyrus-salicifolia]

Been reading about autoimmune diseases in general and noticed that a lot of them seemed to be much more common in “females” and after becoming more aware of the ways human sex varies “female” just feels so vague. So I looked it up very quickly, what it is about being female that increases your chance of developing an autoimmune disease and I found (again after a very quick search) that people think it may be connected to sudden hormonal changes. Like menopause for example which is why some think women are more at risk. But like, wouldn’t that be more productive to say? Instead of “females”? Please, I can’t stop thinking about this. Please please just specify what part or mechanism or whatever increases your risk. If you notice the pattern that a certain demographic has a higher chance of getting a certain disease, check why exactly that happens?? And tell people that?

[chronicillnesshumor-deactivated]

I don't think my body realizes how healthy my labs say I am