sunshine boy

the truth runs wild like kids on C O N C R E T E trying to sedate, my mind in its cage and n u m b what I see without losing a piece of me how do I get to HEAVEN ? kai. twenty-eight. vampire.

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zah’ra:

Being close to Keket was a job she knew she had been specifically tailored to do, and that’s the sole reason she was any good at it. No aspect of it came naturally, and it would be impossible for someone to jump in feet first and expect to be able to handle everything the position truly entailed. While it wasn’t all fun and games, it definitely had it’s perks. She knew things most didn’t, she had access to places and information that was considered classified. She got away with certain things, usually getting off the hook with a look towards anyone who asked the wrong questions. Z had to use that skill to get into Kai’s room, but it was only a second worth of work, and it was entirely worth their reaction as the two of them reached downtown Tuscany. She had realized that she hadn’t seen them since coming to the estate, and that was something that had to be remedied. She thought of them every now and then, not in pity… something closer to empathy. She knew what it was to live a life not entirely your own. And on the matter of Keket’s official permission… it hadn’t played a big part in this outing… or any, not that anyone at all knew so.

There was a nod of her head in agreement, “Yes, wine. There is a nice little bistro a few blocks up. Wonderful sandwiches, and vintage wine. I think you’ll enjoy yourself.” She paused, her teeth coming down on her tongue in a small smile, and an almost laugh at their words. “The ‘no offense’ was unnecessary. It’s awful and even they know it, they just don’t care. It’s cheap and it ‘does the job’, as some say…” Z eyed Kai for a moment, not entirely agreeing with the sentiment, but understanding what they meant. “Well you are welcome to have as many as you like. We don’t have to walk back if we don’t want to. As far as all of that goes… I believe it could have been worse. Which doesn’t make the stress of the events less valid, I just think its a fact that shouldn’t be overlooked.” 

Kai found themself licking their lips, “Vintage? Count me in.” They hadn’t had anything that wasn’t a few years old since their last Montreal cellar raid. Which was a few months ago. A few long months ago. Still, Kai had thought the lycans would of shelled out more for the birthday of their heir. Even more so because it was an engagement announcement. “I guess I feel bad for the heir, Sebastian, I think. Had to have shitty wine on his birthday.” Well that and other things, mostly the fact he didn’t even show up for the announcement part. Not that Kai could say anything, if they found out they were going to be engaged, they’d take off too. “Is Margaret actually getting like... married, married to this lycan?” he blurted out, still surprised by the whole ordeal. “Like with sex, sex taking place?” Mostly they’d been upset Keket even allowed it, had mentioned any other sort of information to the soon-to-be couple. Kai wanted more hybrids, sure, mostly because of their own loneliness, but hybrids were also dangerous. 

The sound of their footsteps on cobblestone almost drowned out their words. “You don’t have to tell me. If she told you anything about it.” Their gaze moved towards Z, face softening slightly. “I just... I dunno. I wonder if the lycans know what happen when the two have kids. I don’t want them to end up...” Kai almost said ‘like my parents’, but stopped short at it. Their parents loved each other and probably knew what would happen. Kai didn’t know if anyone else did. “Whatever. That whole evening was crazy. Like, lycans are crazy. I can’t believe they killed someone on stage. They looked so nice and professional and everything.” Kai would have probably hit up the assistant afterword, since they were totally their type, before they were subjected to a goddamn homicide as dessert. “Worse? I guess I could see that. Everything can go worse, to like, a certain degree.” 

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jude:

“You seem very friendly so far, so I’d say that parts are that are accurate.” Jude offered. “I’m a Scorpio. Though, I really don’t think I fit many of the characteristics of the sign.”  She said with a shrug of her shoulders. At times, she thought of how much of her personality was shaped by the absence of her mom after she was nine. Her interests cam to be so she could remember her mom and the fleeting glimpses she had of her or to make her proud in one way or another. Kindness came easiest to her when she realized she forgot something about her mom. (Forgot her laugh, the ways light changed the color of her eyes, the scent of perfume, how warm her hugs felt.)  She tried not to think about it too often. “My mom liked the stars.”

Though, Jude imagined that even if she grew up with her mom her naivety would still be as persistent as it was now, probably more so if she didn’t know about the supernatural world. “That sounds amazing. Flowers are really pretty, though I know a lot less about them than I do stars.” Throughout her time around supernatural creatures, she rarely ran into any vampires. She supposed that was a good thing, since her father was lycan. “I don’t think they would be all that different. The real difference between the night sky you see and the night sky someone else sees is based more on latitude and longitude.”

“Thanks,” Kai said, more than happy with the compliment the human had given them. So, they could add friendly to the list of personality traits. “I think it’s cool. I dunno, that everyone is super different. Like, how boring would it be if we were all this one personality determined by when we were born?” Kai remembered reading somewhere that personality is effected by those around you, which was something they’d rather disregard. Was the idea that they were going to become like the vampires who surrounded them? Like Z, or Keket? They felt like there was a light-years difference between them. “Did your mom teach you?” Kai asked, curious about this idea of parents. 

Still, they were sort of intruding. In more ways that one. “Yeah, flowers and plants are more my thing. Like, I used to beg my... uh, babysitters to let me go out and let me play in our garden at home. Then I got older and starting planting shit in it.” Kai’s face fell slightly with the other’s words, more sad that they sounded a little bit like an idiot than anything she did wrong. “Oh. Well, you win some you loose some. I guess maybe I didn’t look at the stars enough, back home.” Mostly because the most opportune time to sneak out was during the day, when the average vampire couldn’t chase them very far. “Pre-occupied with looking at the ground, kind of.”

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morrigan:

There were many things that Morrigan would simply never get the hang of; things her brain would struggle with for the rest of her life due to the damage inflicted on it when she was human. Her sense of direction was shot to hell, and she got easily lost if she ventured beyond familiar surroundings. Still, she’d been determined to check out the city in hopes of finding potential places of amusement for Liliana should things start to heat up on the estate. Morri had been attempting to return to where she’d parked her rented car for nearly forty minutes. She was relieved to have the distraction of another person–even more so when she realized they weren’t human. 

“I am.” She agreed, adding in an amused tone, “Though I don’t think we should go around broadcasting that.” Morrigan nodded at his suggestion, taking a quick look in both directions before choosing one and leading the other vampire with her. It was cold and wet and she just wanted to get out of the rain. Morri pulled open a glass door, ducking inside a small cafe and wiping her wet hair away from her eyes. She let out a small sigh, looking over to the other. “So… are you hopelessly lost too?”

              “Or do you always stare at street signs while walking on a crowded sidewalk?” 

It was strange to meet a new vampire, one who hadn’t been pre-approved by Keket or were part of the few that surrounded their childhood. It was almost like Kai meeting lycans or humans all over again... and these were supposedly members of their own ‘species’. “Sorry,” they murmured as the two of them hustled inside, “I uh... don’t spend much time outside of the coven.” A weak excuse, maybe. It was what Kai was going with though. Once inside the small cafe, they felt the sudden chill leave them with the warm heat in the establishment. Damn, they would have to re-do their hair later. It never rained like that in Montreal. 

“Yeah,” Kai found themself saying, it was better to keep as close to the truth as humanly possible. “It’s my first time in the city, so I was trying to find my way around. I... uh... I’m not very good at it,” they added with a chuckle. Still, she seemed nice, which was a relief for Kai. They didn’t want to start anything that might get back to Keket. “I’m... uh, Kai. Of the Montreal Coven,” they introduced themself, albeit in a soft voice so passersby didn’t hear. “It’s nice to know I’m not out here lost alone. Kind of.”

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ashton:

Ashton felt bad for Kai, it’s always been this way for them and he could never really do anything about it but help in little ways; quietly letting them know things they didn’t want them to, offering “protection” if they ever wanted to go out in Montreal. “I’m sorry, it must’ve sucked and only to come here all locked up again.” Ashton sighed but he kept his voice low as he continued, “Yeah, the humans are.. a little jumpy about all of us. And they want this DNA thing from all of us, but if we can keep you out of it…” he trailed off. As if finding out lycans and vampires exist isn’t enough to freak all the humans out. If they found out there were hybrids, and the fact that some of them were turned, they’ll probably be even more afraid.

He pondered for a few moments, trying to think back at whatever sliver of information at passes his ears. Even as someone trusted, Ashton still don’t get the privilege of hearing much, especially the hows and whys, only the what to dos. And he hasn’t really heard Romulus talk much other than.. unimportant bs. “No I don’t think so, but I’ll look out for it and see if I can find anything, yeah?” A lycan hybrid breeding program sounded almost ominous, but he could understand why Kai seemed so hopeful for one. At least that proves that they’re not alone. “You should come meet a lycan or two, some of them aren’t terrible,” Ashton grinned, somehow really wanting Kai to not be just stuck in their room for weeks, “And maybe.. we could get you outside just for a little bit if you had some security, right?”

Ashton’s concern for Kai always made them feel better, that they had at least one ally in the coven to count on. Similarly, Kai felt bad for the other vampire, always being dragged around by the leaders too. “Not like I expected anything different,” they replied, a twinge of sadness in their voice. “I honestly thought I was going to stay in Montreal anyway. Didn’t expect to come along at all.” They made their voice slightly more hush, after all, the two of them were in a quasi-public space. Any old vampire or lycan could come waltzing down this hallway. “I don’t see why. Humans outnumber like, all of us by a lot. Plus they’re all cool, like a human invented the internet. And iPhones.” 

Of course, Kai hadn’t expected any great answer. “I guess I just think having another hybrid would be fun. For me, you know. Not that I don’t love you guys because the coven is totally my family even if half of them hate me...” They rambled, getting lost in their own thoughts about the past and their own hopes for coming to Tuscany. “I’d like to meet a lycan. I want to see them transform into a wolf. Are they pet-able? Can they curl up in my lap?” Childish ignorance, perhaps. They’d only seen lycans in werewolf movies, the likes of Twilight or Teen Wolf. It was hard to parse out fact from fiction when you only had minimal contact with the outside world. “Cool, yeah. Florence sounds fun. Also you know, meeting people.”

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🎼

‘cause to love is a RADICAL act, give your brother a pat on the backand if you get a panic attack, feel like you’re at the b a c k of the pack

i’ll never let it die - watsky 

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🎼

but we're BOTH stronger than we knowin our bones

in our bones - against the current 

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@zahraamir

Surprised had filled Kai when they’d woken up that evening to Z practically breaking into their room, announcing a surprise trip into the city while they blinked sleepiness from their eyes. To be frank, the hybrid almost didn’t believe her then. Now they were walking along a cobblestone road, lit by flickering street lights. Keket’s advisers came in all different varieties, like drinks. Some who cared little, others who cared a lot. If they were particularly loyal to Keket, they usually didn’t disobey direct orders. Perhaps Z had gotten permission, taken pity on them. 

Besides, the whole ordeal during Sebastian’s birthday party had been racking their brain. Marriage? Between a vampire and a lycan? Kai knew what that created, something that caused them to shiver at the time. And Keket had been all to eager to see it through. “So...” Kai began, shuffling their feet as they walked alongside the vampire. “Wine, maybe? I haven’t had anything good since I was home. And no offense to the lycans, but they have shit taste in wine.” With all the shit that ensued, it wasn’t like they were going to stick around and find out. “Plus, I dunno. We could all use a drink, I think. Or, I need one, at least.”

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@mementomorri

Florence is massive, not that Kai hadn’t seen their fair share of large cities during their brief hiatus from the coven. It’s winding like most old cities are, the sort that Kai could usually figure out after a few days. Though, they’d spent the last few years basically in one room. So, they weren’t lost. Just... confused, finding their way around by trial and error. Taking in the evening and the light flickering from the lamps, warm brick buildings and overcast sky, Kai found themselves practically walking into somebody. 

“Sorry, sorry... I wasn’t looking where I was going...” Kai apologized, before their eyes set on the other woman. Their head ticked to the side, something about them somewhat familiar. Most of the people who surrounded them in Florence were humans, though Kai found themselves stumble upon the occasional lycan. “Oh, you’re a vamp—” A thunderclap cut off Kai’s words, along with a sudden down pour of rain. They almost wanted to yell at the sky if it didn’t make them look like an idiot. “Uh, maybe... we should get out of this rain?”  

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juliette:

A birthday party. Juliette honestly couldn’t remember the last time she had attended one. There was something about immortality that pushed the idea of aging into a realm of just – who cared? At least in her own mind, that was. Another year down simply meant that she hadn’t somehow found a way to die. Of course, she wasn’t volunteering. Forever was a delicious thought. That, however, didn’t seem to apply to lycans, or at least the son of their leader. Perhaps that was what made it so important? It didn’t really matter. She didn’t really care. If somehow the party turned into a horrible tragedy she would have been more entertained.

With a drink in hand, she eyed her company and mentally took stock of each person. Some faces she knew; others weren’t recognized but she had faith she would more familiar with them before the time was up. Whatever her mind was going to offer next died silently as a certain young one came over. Tilting her head as Kai began to speak, she could feel a slight tug of amusement. “Well, you know, guardians,” her tone was straight-faced but her words were meant as a quiet tease. They both knew there must have been something more to it all. There always was. “Always thinking they know best.” There was something acidic on her tongue when she whispered the words. Her disdain lingering from the announcements that had happened more than a few days ago.

“As for their wine,” she offered with a swish of the glass she had in her hand, the red swirling dangerously but still stayed within. “There is a reason it’s free,” her lips curled slightly before looking from the stemmed glass in her hand and towards them once more. With a sigh, she tossed her hair over her shoulder and looked at them as if they rarely spoke. She imagined the cover story was something that proved few attachments to someone like her. “Not enjoying yourself?

Juliette was one of the few coven members aware of Kai’s existence, and perhaps, more pertinently, knew something about their purpose. Their guardian didn’t know of the greater plan involving the hybrid, nor did he really seem to care much. Perhaps what made Juliette stick out even more among the small selection of the coven elite was her tendency to find out all the trouble Kai would get in to. Even better, she never ratted them out to Keket, Hae Nim, Ashton... she just tucked it away. Kai was eternally grateful for that. Sending their handler a look, the kind that was supposed to cement how fine everything was, they turned back to the vampire. “It’s not the guardians who think they know best,” Kai replied, the actual person behind it’s name never being voiced. 

“I don’t know why I’m here anyway, if it’s just a birthday party.” It seemed confusing to Kai, the whole ordeal. Inviting a whole cohort of strangers to what made more sense to be a private event. Then, Keket insisting Kai make an appearance, not that they wouldn’t have jumped at any opportunity to leave their cell. “Or any of us, I guess. Inviting us vampires seems weird to me.” Maybe it was publicity or something, they supposed. Some big gesture of unity. Still, everything was going over their head. Keket had done a great job at keeping Kai in the dark about most things. 

Kai sighed, watching the liquid swirl around in Juliette’s glass. “I’m guessing it’s not as nice as the wine I stole from the cellar at home.” Whatever, alcohol was alcohol to a certain extent, and they weren’t planning on staying sober for much longer. Sighing, Kai tried to keep the same cordial look that Juliette did, but of course, the younger one was less practiced at such things. “I’m not... not having fun. I’m out of my apartment for once. So already, it’s better than anything else I would be doing. That I’ll probably be doing again until Keket decides she wants to show me off again.”

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jude:

Jude was no stranger to awkwardness. More often than not, her tongue stopped working when she was around a pretty girl or anyone who intimidating her. The times these categories overlapped often left her biting her tongue or completely silent. She knew not to judge someone and judging someone over something so innocent felt wrong. There were people who harmed other people—she saved her judgment, often based upon lofty and unwavering morals, for those who did harm. 

She laughed. “The beauty of the stars is so wholly incomparable to any other type of beauty.” Best not to half a liberal arts degree go to waste. “People used to attach myths to them, and people used to love them so wholly they assigned aspects of their personality to them. Now people strive to explore them.” She said in an awestruck tone. “The countryside really is amazing.” A pause. “A garden?” Her eyes shined with excitement. Most of her time was spent hidden in her room so far, but she had books to organize, pictures to place on shelves and her nightstand, and clothes to unpack, so she wasn’t too hard on herself for the lack of exploration. “I’ll be sure to check it out soon.”

Kai’s eyes were wide as he listened to the human talk, almost as if she’d studied the stars her entire life or something. Like an old friend, knew the sky in and out. It was kind of cool to them, to know something so intimately. They were definitely jealous. “I mean... I’m a Pisces. Pisces are supposed to be like... super friendly and be artistic or whatever. I’m like, not that at all.” Of course, Kai’d like to think they’d be like that, if given enough time outside of the reigns of the coven. “You know a lot about stars though. I know they’re like, flaming balls of gas millions of miles away and that’s about it.” 

Truth be told, they didn’t think much about things like stars anymore. Maybe as a child they’d counted them or drew pictures in the sky, but Kai left that naivety behind. “Yeah. It’s so big you could host a party in it.” Supposedly. Of course, Kai wasn’t about to admit it to a stranger. They weren’t about to get their short leash choked up more. “I’m Kai. I’m... a member of the Montreal coven. Scary vampires and all that. Which is like, super far from here. So I guess all the stars are different”

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@ncnpareil

Kai felt as if they’d been briefed for twelve years before they’d been escorted to the party. Even then, they arrived fairly late, everything completely in full swing around them. It felt a little like being in a spy movie, the sheer number of times their handler made Kai repeat their ‘cover story’ out loud. Kai Levesque, a late arrival from the Montreal coven, a personal adoptee of Keket. Born vampire, lived all their life in Quebec. Hell, they’d even given them a fake cover story about a lycan girlfriend to explain away any non-vampire scents. Still, Kai wasn’t at all happy being watched like some sort of asset by the guard the coven assigned. After meandering around the garden, the hybrid caught sight of someone that might just make their escort go away. 

Waving to Juliette, a vampire who’d been uniquely aware of Kai since their young age, they send a look to their babysitter. “Can I hang with Juliette? She’s like, trustworthy and stuff. Please.” It seemed the vampire watching them wasn’t too keen on playing keeper all night either and let them make their way over to her. “I hate this,” they told her, lowering their voice so passersby didn’t hear. “I don’t need a babysitter to watch me. Especially after they drilled this crazy fake story for me for the past hour.” Honestly, they were surprised the dynamic duo even let Kai out of their room. “I heard there’s free wine. I guess the lycan heir has it made.”

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ashton:

Seeing the name he landed on brought a small smile up, clearing his throat to sound very official and grinned when he saw their face light up. “Hey you. How was your move from Montreal?” It felt as if it’s been forever since he last saw Kai, not travelling to Montreal as often as he’d like. If anything he’s really glad they brought them here, being able to look over Kai, Ophelia, Lili, everyone he needed to in one place, that was a small relief in moving here. He frowned as they continued, he disagreed with the ways the leaders handle Kai, not telling them anything isn’t any better at all. “Have they not let you out yet? Did you at least hear the announcement?” With M looking as if she’s taken full control, he understood the need to hold Kai under wraps, if they could keep anyone away from the humans, it’d be the children and the hybrids.

He chuckled at their excitement, it’s the same every time he goes to Montreal, until the training kicks in. Ashton shook his head, denouncing any speculation their wild imagination was creating, “No, nothing major has happened yet. Keket hasn’t said anything to me, and which lycan? I’ve seen.. a couple.” He always tries his best to answer all their questions as truthfully as he could, perhaps letting on more than he should sometimes but Kai deserves to know.

There was a warmth in Kai’s chest at seeing Ashton, like seeing an old friend after too long apart. A breath of fresh air from the usual people he saw. Which wasn’t many, maybe a handful of high-ranking coven members. “Boring,” they complained. “I haven’t seen anything. If Keket could of put covers on the airplane windows she would of.” It was tiring for Kai, constantly being under lock and key. Like some sort of asset, a trump card. They knew that now. “So, no. I haven’t been out yet. I think they’re waiting for the humans to calm down a little. Overheard a few people talking about DNA being collected.” Kai huffed. They could understand that worry, the humans getting a hold of hybrid DNA. Other people finding out that the coven was hiding a hybrid in their mist. Kai understood, but they still hated it. 

“You know? The leader? Remus... no, Romulus. I was just wondering if he hinted at anything you know, like maybe a secret lycan hybrid breeding program?” It was a long shot, of course. Kai had constantly been told they were the only one, something special and rare. They thought maybe, just maybe, the coven and the pack coming together would mean a few more hybrids coming out of the woodwork. But maybe it was just childish. “Also, other lycans I guess. I’ve never met a lycan, so I don’t know what they’re like.”

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@notdavidstea

When Kai originally escaped via window, they didn’t really think through getting back up. Unlike the Montreal estate, the outside walls were relatively smooth and didn’t have much in the way of footholds. When creating a makeshift rope failed, Kai pretty much resigned themself to sneaking back in via front door. Getting in undetected was easy, they threw up a hood and quickly passed by the few guards at the door. It got harder inside, when coven members were milling about under the cover of night. Then, Kai saw someone who looked like Hae Nim, quickly panicked before rushing in to the closest room possible. 

Breathing heavily, back square against the door, Kai’s eyes narrowed in on another person in the room, looking directly at them. “Uh, um. Sorry. For intruding. I’m just, hiding?” It was the truth, yet somehow Kai felt more like a caged animal coughing up a lie. That was, well, until they noticed something familiar. They just couldn’t put their finger on it. “I uh, I’m Kai. I’m with the Montreal Coven. And they told me uh, not to go out tonight. So I’m trying to sneak back in without getting in trouble. Are you... uh, I dunno.” Kai motioned with their hands to themself, as if looking for a decent way to get the words across. “Affiliated... with anything?”

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jude:

After less than a day at the Tuscany estate, Jude already felt out of place among the lycans and vampires. Her father asked her to watch and see how the treaty played out and tell him what happened, while she wanted to offer testimony that the non-human creatures whose fate was in the hands of other humans. Yet, she stood out among the lycans and vampires and the humans who saw her upbringing as something less than desirable. 

She sat on the porch of the estate and looked upwards towards the sky. In New York, she never saw many stars. Her mother sketched constellations onto napkins and then explained the stories behind. She held onto any of the memories she had of her mother, tried to remember the sound of her voice as she explained myths and stars in the same breath, tried to remember the ways her eyes shined when talking about things she loved, tried to remember every detail that slipped from her mind in the eleven years she spent without her. Her father’s manor’s secluded location left the stars visible, but she lost the stars once again when she went to college in the city.

Footsteps pulled her away from the delicate beauty of the solar system. “The stars are quite beautifull tonight. I’d say that every night though.”

Once night had fallen and it seemed as if Kai was given some breathing room, they’d quickly decided that sneaking out was a solid option. It was the only way they were going to see anything, or anything that Keket didn’t explicitly give her permission. The Tuscany estate wasn’t completely unlike their home in Montreal, so getting out the window wasn’t too difficult. Getting to the ground, that was a different story. Kai was just glad they’d gotten away with just a few scrapes and brambles. During their night walk, they’d come across a human sitting on a porch, surprising enough that Kai tried to avoid her with soft footsteps. It didn’t seem to work. 

“Uh, yeah,” they agreed, head turning up to confirm her previous statement. “They are. Really nice.” Shuffling awkwardly between their feet, Kai decided to bite the bullet and sit. No harm in getting to know someone, especially since it was unlikely she’d be able to rat them out. “Perks of being in the countryside, I guess? There’s a garden too that I hear is...” they quickly stopped, clearing their throat. “I mean, it’s nice too. Everything here is pretty... nice.” 

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ashton:

To be honest, Ashton has no idea why he’s been sent here for this truce. He wasn’t of much use here, and it was confusing. The quietness and lycans and humans around with awkward idle chatter was unsettling. They’ve moved in on the very first day together with those that came from Moscow and Ashton have been really antsy with no direction. He needed a purpose, he needed orders, and he’s pestered Jonathan long enough for the leader to take pity, being hounded once more outside the conference room after M made her speech, and gave Ashton some minuscule work to do around the estate. Take the list of residences and check up on them, keep tabs, make sure anyone who is supposed to be in is and who isn’t suppose to be here, isn’t. It’s not a fight, but it’s something. And Ashton hungrily took it, a small relief to keep him on a task. 

He took his time with it, knowing it was a pity order and Jonathan probably won’t need any report any time soon, the humans maybe so. But he worked his way around the building, gingerly knocking on doors as he did now, going through the list of people, some more familiar than others. When a door opens, Ashton peeked up from the list in hand to greet with a small smile, lowering his head, “Hi, I’m here to just make sure you’re settled in. And I hope you have no problems?”

Pacing around their apartment, a few rooms that felt more like a cage than a home, Kai felt more on edge than anything else. Their eagerness to join the festivities was met with stern words from Keket and apologies from Hae Nim. It was always like that. Ever since there quasi re-entry into the coven, they’d been kept on an even tighter leash than before. Which meant being dragged to Tuscany, being kept from doing anything that could be considered fun, and basically spending the next few months in isolation. There was a soft knock at the door, something that Kai could of easily looked over. Instead, they were bounding towards the entrance, craving any sort of human contact. 

Kai was all smiles when they saw who was standing in front of them, it was nice to see a familiar face in such a turbulent place. “Ash!” They practically yelled, all but ignoring the older vampire’s question. Mostly because they were afraid if they stated they were pretty well settled in, he’d move on to the next door. “Nobody told me you were coming. Actually, nobodies told me anything.” Stepping out of the doorway, Kai sent Ashton a devious smile. “What happened? Who spoke? Did Keket say anything? Did you see the lycan?” 

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I’m confused. Really confused. And it’s a lot deeper than you think. Deeper… darker… colder.

Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood. (via thephoenixwrites)

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THE DAMNED ♱ HYBRID ♱ ALFRED ENOCH

This wasn’t a life you chose for yourself, but it’s the one you have. You try not to think about all of your past sins, but somehow they always seem to catch up with you. You always knew you were lost, but now you just feel damned.

Biography

Kai doesn’t remember a time without Keket, Hae Nim; the dreary clouds and heavy snow of Montreal. Since birth they remembered chubby fingers on cold windows, hurried down hallways of the large estate, the strange looks from other coven members. From a young age, they were special, but Kai had never known anything other than vampires. So they were a vampire, a weird one who could walk in the sun.

Childhood was lonely and secluded, other than the few who were cleared to see them, Kai had little outside interaction. They’re whole life was Keket, the beating sun on their skin, and the soft dirt that enveloped their fingers. It was a hobby, the green thumb. They always seemed to get their way, so the coven let them plant and trim a whole tract of the garden out back. It was beautiful.

The first time they heard ‘hybrid’ was in passing, running down a corridor unattended to see out one of their caretakers.  That’s when they heart it, ‘dirty no-good hybrid’, saw the stares of disgust from the older coven members. It was a mistake, it had to be- it didn’t stop them from showing up on their caretakers door sniffling and in tears. It was then, they learned- Kai was a piece. A pawn on the chessboard in a war that seemed eons away from the confines of the Montreal estate.

The conflict that their kind (well, sort of) was embroiled in felt like oceans away, in a different time and place than the one Kai could understand. There was the internet and cellphones and the United Nations- it seemed like a write of passage for a vampire to go to Russia for training. Kai wanted to go, they did- but Keket said no, Hae Nim agreed. So they were tutored at the estate, but that didn’t stop Kai from wanting to go. All they wanted, all they craved was to be like everyone else. A normal vampire, not some monster.

When Kai turned sixteen, everything changed. A strange stirring in their chest, a feeling they were around some sort of threat. Everything was too hot, clothes felt too rough; they’d lash out in a way that broke more than just dishes. Then, the unthinkable happened- they transformed into a wolf. They couldn’t remember much, just thrashing and wetness and heat, but when they came too, it was a grisly sight. They’d attacked another vampire, almost leaving them for dead. Kai cried, couldn’t stop crying even when the other said they were alright.

The coven controlled Kai’s life, in a way that started to get on their nerves. They wanted to know about their biological parents, Hae Nim said no. They wanted to know if there were other hybrids, another vampire would laugh. It was cold stares and hushed voices and it was the sort of shit Kai had dealt with since day one. So they packed up their stuff and left.

Kai left Montreal to run around the globe, unsure of what they were looking for. A lead on their birth parents? A group of people who were like them? Kai wasn’t so sure. They started in Greece, after all, their name was Greek. It took them to places Kai had only dreamed about; Egypt, Thailand, France, Estonia. They sort of went everywhere. After two years of searching, Kai ended up back in Montreal with some sort of lead. A Quebec missing persons case had recently been opened again, with a brand new, aged up sketch of what that child would look like now. Eloi Claude Deniau looked strangely like themself. So much so, it was uncanny.

After talking with police and investigators, Kai determined they were this missing child. So many things fit the timeline that it couldn’t be a coincidence. So why couldn’t they remember this? Kai looked for a psychic, someone who could help them work through their memories. Of course, finding someone legit took a little while. But three years after leaving, they finally had an answer. So, they finally sat down, ready to delve deep and uncover the truth.

Kai remembered, their small frame covered in thick red liquid, staring in horror at their family, ripped to shreds. They remembered someone cooing them and asking them to stop crying. It was better not knowing. Knowing they were kidnapped, taken from their real family. Of course, it didn’t help the situation that their parents were killed during said event. Kai broke. They killed the psychic after transforming under duress. Covered in blood, bawling their eyes out again like back then. One call and Keket was there, picking up the pieces for them all over again. Like she knew it would..

Connections

THE WANDERER: You’ve always thought of the world as a dangerous place, one to be explored with caution. So maybe somewhere along the way you became more concerned with staying alive than actually living your life. They stumbled into your life in a tangle of laughter and serenity, determined to show you what you’d been missing. You may not have traveled together for long, but the memories you made mean the world to you. 

THE PACIFIST: You made a bad situation worse, only to save your own skin. The deaths you caused were a mistake, and maybe you’ll learn to forgive yourself for them over time. But there’s no excuse for what you did afterwards. Someone needed to shoulder the blame, and they happened to be perfect for the job. You only hope you never see their face again.

The Damned is taken.