darkness awaits

not well

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Shits getting hard to cope with, its like no matter what I do I can never get ahead.

I barely get to see my son and ill never get my ex back

I don't wanna sound so depressed but I'm just so defeated. I feel like just giving up

I hate this shit I don't wanna feel this way anymore I can't do it any longer

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How can there be beauty in death when the prettiest thing I ever saw was you

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I hate when we talk because your voice stays in my head all day

I hate when we fight because last words shouldn't end that way

I hate that this happened because I'm starting to realise its true

I hate everything about us

Except the two of you

It's me, it always was

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I just want to rebuild our love

It hasn't died and I know it

I can and will be that man again

I'm just so scared that you're gonna find a better guy in that time

I just want the chance to prove to you that you are appreciated I'm sorry I hadn't done a good job of that

You're the only woman I want in my life and just not being near you is so draining

I wanna get my life to where you're comfortable with being with me and we can put our little family back together

I want you to know that I'm gonna do this for us

I want you to believe In me again

I haven't been handling the well and I'm sorry but I literally lost everything I love in 5 minutes

I just hope I can get to me in time to get to you

I wanna say all this to you but I'm trying to give it time

Just dont give up on us please

I love you always

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Poems & Words

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Poems & Words

[he-is-trapped-in-a-past-life]

Placed in an old library

A book now burned with change

Cover now torn and frayed

We reread our conception

Drenched in boredom

We felt discomfort in ever changing words

We Loosened our grip

As we took it off the shelf

Memories fell as dust reclaimed their home

We Let the distance pull us away

We left love to rot in those pages

I’ll miss the nothingness we created

But we’ll be okay

[qualitypiratetiger]

You were my bee

You pollinated me

Then flew away so I could grow pretty

Then sun went down

And came up today

All bright and shiney on my new found face

So thank you bee for being my found grace

You must go now and make another new shiney face

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Where do I go from here

I lost it all

I can't picture you with someone new

I wish there was something that I could do to show you how sorry I am

You both deserve a better man

I wish you'd let me show you that I can

Maybe someday we could be us again

I love you and I'm sorry

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Another night

High as a kite

While you sleep alone with a pillow clutched tight

It's not right

Why am I like this?

With the un-realistic thought that it sucks to be sober

Why am I colder

To the one person who could make me bolder

Why do I scream in me head

Begging myself for a change

Why do I go back

To begin selfish and estranged

Why do you stay

When the time will only seal our fate

I want what you want for me

To rid myself of my increasing self hate

But time moves and the wind blows and we can't change at what rate

I guess its hard to believe

That you love me for me

Just know that I would kill for you

Any and everybody

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Legends in the Sky

Yesterday I found out Neil Peart died and my father in law made a comment that between him and John Bonham Heaven had one hell of a percussi

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The rest of my life

New year is hear, 19 was frightening

Ups and downs with some life altering lightning

It's been so exciting

To watch us grow as lovers and parents

To see you and otto be so happy and careless

So 2020 is here and I can't wait to see what we'll do

Will we live

Will we die

Will I ask to marry you

Wherever we go I know one thing we'll bring

All of our love

It's our biggest thing

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I woke

I woke today with these thoughts in mind

You, our son and how the Sun shines

Through cigarette smoke I gather these feelings

Of how those 3 things have gave my life meaning

The Sun opens up and shines a new day

You lift my heart full of love in your own special way

And our son is the future the 2 of us in 1

I hope he can wake up one day with 2 perfect thoughts and the Sun

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And for you alone I'd change the stars

I'd stop the wars

I'd break through bars

Chain's

Locks

Nothing could make me stop

For you alone I write this poem

Hoping your heart forever stays my home

My peace

My serenity

My love struck entity

And for the two of you now

I'll never be alone

Finally found what I spent years on a roam

Looking for your light

It now shines twice as bright

I now have a family with the love of my life

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My life in a blanket

I sit here watching you sleep

My whole world wraped up tight in a blanket

The keeper of my soul, my love runs so deep

My safety net

My blanket

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Love snooze

I sit here watching you sleep

With all the love I ever had to give sitting firmly on those lips

I could fill a volcano with the feelings I have for you, and theyd burn twice as hot

The best day of my life is the day you have me a shot

I'll forever give you all that I've got

Our love tied tight like a string in a knot

I need you baby for the rest of my days

To make the bad days good so the good days stay

My sunrise in human form

My full moon in a t shirt

My northern light in jeans

My everything that works