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I had a dream about you last night.. youre going to think I'm crazy... But it felt like you were in the room with me when I woke up. Right before I woke up you told me you loved me still and I woke up so fucking happy. And looked around and you weren't in bed with me. I was made at you for putting too me but also made at myself. I would like to think that I got over you. And now I see that I didn't. Like I haven't talked to you in 6 months and that's a lot for us because we would talk everyday and night. You were my stress relief... My happy pill. And now I don't see you anymore. I know you moved but people so say distance doesn't change anything but silence does. That is so fucking true because for about the first three months you were gone we would talk everyday and night and FaceTime and now you won't even text me. I know our breakup was supposed to be for good so we wouldn't have to stay loyal from each other from Long distance because people say that's unhealthy ... But the only thing unhealthy for me right now is not being able to speak to you or see you or touch you. Feel your warmth. Feel protected and loved. I'm not saying there's not guys here trying to talk to me.. because there is but I just want you. And if I text you first I don't want to be bothering you.

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people say to surround yourself with people that love you, with people that care people that listen to you.. do you know me. really do you? okay maybe i do make you laugh maybe i do give you rides maybe i do pay for your food but even if i didn’t would you still love me.. do you know what my goals are, my dreams, my beliefs, my safe zone, my fears, my delights, even my favorite color.. if not what are you doing? why are you here.. i don’t want to hear about other peoples lives i don’t want to hear about their relationships or about their success or failure i want to hear about you.. i want to know your favorite color i want to know your dreams i want to know you… that is what friendships are. so again i say do you really know me..

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Just bc you smile does it mean your happy? Life has some fucking jokes it pulls you and and pushes you to places you don't want to be. It makes you cry and pisses you off. It makes you think you can't handle it. Life sucks man it really does but it also is funny to watch myself trip and fall tbh I will ne start medical school in less than a month I'm feeling nervous but I'm so prepared

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Why does friend zoning have to hurt so much.. I get it we're friends really good ones and you can't like me just a Lil? Like bitch I'm cute how tf do you not see this why you Trippin. I'm a mutha fuckin catch bro. I'm not only saying that bc it's me complementing myself but on the real bro I'm girlfriend material ASF

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You're the only one that makes me happy.. &Now you're not here anymore. I feel so empty and not only because life brings me down but because I would wake up every morning next to you... We would go everywhere together. We were inseparable. You told me you loved me. You told me you cared. You told me I was beautiful and then you left. You got my feels fucked up. BC you talked to so many other bitches and couldn't even tell me why you left. And I feel worthless which I shouldn't cause you're not my effing lifeline.

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What gives people the right to call someone ugly. The way you act, talk and walk shows who you are on the inside. And the inside is what is beautiful. I hope you ladies know your worth because ugly words can break an unsteady person. I saw a video of this man calling this lady ugly and fat and gross, all these boys be wanting someone perfect.. and same for the girl it's okay if you don't get a buff guy with a six pack ⚡️NEWSFLASH⚡️ no girl or boy looks like a model from a magazine chill out we all have flaws.. but beauty comes from the heart soul and mind. #

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When we were born we became costumed to speaking the language we understand today.. so why is it so hard to communicate now A days. Why does everything we say have to be so complicated.. how can things be said wrong and some right how come we perverse our words and not use it for good.. why do bad things happen to good people… well the answer to all this is that we did this to ourselves. And if you want all hate and perverse things to stop it has to start with you… stop the hate. Stand up for what you love and live from your own experience. Brake boundaries don’t let the enemy in and don’t shelter yourself too much… when will the world be perfect? (Never) but… we can start by treating others with respect kindness and love

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I swore to myself if you ever left me I would never be sad Now I'm here crying on the bathroom floor

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I looked into your eyes and I could see heartbreak as you were telling me goodbye. I felt as if I died and couldn’t breathe anymore. At that time we were just friends. But when I saw you leave I felt that you were my one true love. I cried for days and maybe even weeks hoping that this would just be a dream and you’d still be here. I hated your parents for making you leave. And also hated mine for not letting me go with you. I miss you everyday hoping you’ll come back and stay with me… you can live in my room with me too. It’ll be like the old days when we would play peek-a-boo. You have always been in my thoughts, in my dreams, in my prayers, in my heart. I can’t stop feeling so empty with out you here. I have no one to speak to, no one to laugh with, and no one to be real with. I do miss you everyday. And the funny thing is that we don’t even talk anymore. We used to be inseparable like I would get grounded because I was on the phone from like 10 pm to 7am. I would even fall asleep speaking to you. What the fuck happened. So here I lay in bed at 3AM writing a fucking poem about you bc I miss you. And your probably not even thinking about me having a good time in your new city. I know people will say “get over him”. The problem is that I can’t… I have tried so much and nothing happens. Our memories will last forever in my heart and that’s what makes me more happy. Not the liking him part but our friendship! 🖤

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You are beautiful no matter what anyone tells you. Sometimes we think that others people’s opinions matter but they don’t! Believe in who you are and be confident sis.. the way you act , walk, and talk shows your beauty..

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