𝖆𝖓𝖆𝖍𝖎𝖉

if Richard Papen was a woman. 𓆏 𓃢 𓂀 Slytherin 𓆗 infp 𓆉 aquarius 𓈗 she/her

[queenofthedemigods]

the thought of you being with anyone other than me brings my blood to a boil. I curse the hand that touches you in my absence.

[queenofthedemigods]

do you hear them whisper? the wind carries the sound. if you listen closely, it's a sign. disappear disappear disappear. I love falling as the leaves fall.

[feral-ballad]

Courtney Marie Andrews, from Old Monarch: Poems; “Watercolor”

[Text ID: “If I were a paint, I’d be a watercolor. / Indecisive and hard to control, / no one wants to handle watercolors / unless they are brave, patient, or mad.”]

[snqg-v-slunchev-den]

If I had nine lives

I’d spend the first one drowning

feel the water seep into my lungs

stealing my oxygen and stripping my breath

maybe after I become unconscious,

I’d find peace and would no longer fear the ocean.

I could spend the rest if my eight lives living by the water,

living with no fears.

For my next two I’d spend each one with my parents,

living in their shadows,

learn their deepest secrets and listen to their regrets,

just so I don’t fuck up lives four through nine.

I’ll hold their hands gently and watch them take their last breath.

In my fourth life

I’ll run away, I’ll run away from myself,

the person I cannot change, because I am still too naive to understand that

I am all the things that are wrong with me.

I’ll chase butterflies and try to find myself,

I’ll look at all the wrong places, wrong cities, wrong people

and before I know what I’ve ran through three of my nine lives.

My seventh life

I’ll listen to my parents advice,

I’ll work a 9 to 5, make a stable income,

settle down with a man I’m not sure I’m in love with

but he’s a good father to my children.

We will have a white picket fence, red door and a big fluffy dog,

one that barks at the mailman.

For my eight life,

I’ll live it alone, I’ll write books,

live in a little apartment in New York City.

Spend my days writing in a cafe around the block from where I live,

and drink wine before bed.

I’ll do yoga and eat clean and have an occasional cigarette off my balcony.

I’ll raise a cat by myself and he’ll watch me take my last breath before my last life.

In my final life

I’ll look for you

I’ll wait at bus stops

move back to our hometown,

try and find you at a shitty dive bar and write letters I’ll never send,

I’ll realise that after living eight lives

something was missing,

going about life without the person I loved made it all seem meaningless,

but I don’t have nine lives,

I just have this one,

So I guess I’ll spend it sitting by the ocean and waiting for you.

[ashstfu]

i'm sitting on my bed reading. it’s almost midnight. it’s summer. my window is open and the cool wind is blowing. it's cloudy but i can see the moon shining through the clouds. the crickets are very loud but very soothing. my room smells dusty and warm and no one else exists. the feeling never goes away. everything is quiet and i'm at peace.

[pink-inthenights-blog]

“Morbid longing for the picturesque at all costs” is such a banger line. Need that engraved on my tombstone.

[patrochillesvibes]

Achilles sacrificing to Zeus for Patroclus’ safe return, from the Ambrosian Iliad, a 5th-century illuminated manuscript

[queenofthedemigods]

i want to kiss your eyelids.

[roseforviolet]

Female rage ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

[withastorytotell]

Take me to the lake where all the poets went to die

[urheartslullaby-deactivated2025]

An Observer.

[urheartslullaby-deactivated2025]

An Observer.

[primulaceas]

Mary Oliver, "The Fourth Sign of the Zodiac." Blue Horses

[cherrieblade]

what do you mean i can’t read every book, study every academic subject, taste every food, live in every city in every country, visit every museum, listen to every single song ever produced, learn every language, meet every interesting person, memorize every particle of knowledge to ever exist ???

[latibule-e-deactivated20231012]

— Paul Guest, from “1987.”

[queenofthedemigods]

The school of rock is just dead poets society with a different font.

[dionyrtal]

— Dion Anja, from Motion Sickness (2022)