I just read a short poem about why you should date a poet and I’ll tell you that every reason listed had its truths, but it also had its share of damn and fuck. If you date a poet, a writer or anyone who could write something to make you feel. They’ll find every reason for you to be perfect and not at all, at the same time. I could write about your smile and how it’s my favorite curve. I could write about your smile and relate it to the sun, sunset to sunrise; grins and tears. I could write about your soul and how it’s different– how I’ve never seen anything quite like it. How I’ve never met anyone like you or fell in love with someone this pure, but everyone changes. The leaves fall and they fall, but if people aren’t leaves and they aren’t flowers, I guess they don’t really wither, they don’t really fall. I could say that your words were the pit of every flame, the lighter fluid oozing into my anger. Love isn’t always happy.
It isn’t. There are ups. There are downs.
You have happy moments.
You have ‘fuck this shit’ moments too.
When you fall in love with a writer,
you don’t think about immortality.
When you fall in love with a poet
and they compare you to celestial bodies–
It’s almost like a big fuck you.
Look, people. People aren’t stars,
but we still write about them
as if they lit up the night.
People feel like stars,
that’s why I write.
Some brighter than others, some twinkling over the city lights, some far, far away–
A light year of pain and regrets.
I just read a short poem about why you should date a poet and I’ll tell you the truth. I hate myself. I hate the letters. I hate the little lies I tell myself. I hate the things I tell myself, so that sleep is close to possible. I hate the way pillows and blankets wrap around ghosts. I hate the four walls of my mind and how empty these tear filled poems seem. How to be more than what you are, but late at night–
The mortality of being just human…
It’s scary.
We make up tales. We read bed time stories.
We write metaphors. We think about comparisons to lessen the dulling of how we truly were. We were a mess.
Love is messy. Love is truth.
Love is a liar, but love is real.
We put thoughts and emotions into such words because it’s the only way we can sleep at night.
I just read a short poem about why you should date a poet and I had to write my reasons as to why you shouldn’t. And it’s the exact same.
Don’t date a poet if you aren’t prepared to live forever. Don’t date a poet if you’re human, if you’re growing, if you don’t understand love, if you think that they don’t, because baby, even poets are human. They are flawed. A comparison, the warmth of the sun, a comparison to the cold of the moon– I’m hollowed. I’m cratered. When you fall in love with writers there is a certain level of depth that will bust open the levees of your tears– when you fall in love with a poet there’s a certain expansion of your soul that delves into the shallowness of how we can’t be more–
So we write
about it.
So we fall
in love with it.
Who doesn’t want to be a planet?
Who doesn’t want to be searched
for by one person in a room
filled with people?
That’s the thing.
I’ll always look for her in everyone,
but the sick truth is–
The truth of all writers, poets and authors.
They are no longer here.
They aren’t.
So we write about you because missing you gave us room to breathe, but it also gave us a chance to suffocate because we still remember the smell of your breath– no matter what part of the day, the sweetness blowing from your chest, the way you twirled your hair, the way your lips played our favorite instruments, the way we couldn’t be true, the way it had to end this way or if it’s still there and it’s still happening, we write stories and pray that it never ends… because the truth is… it might.
And that scares us.
So we write.
& we write.
& we write.
& we write.
& we write.
Our love flows through lava peach veins
and if we could love forever,
if the purity of not knowing
could solve the world’s hunger
for sex sells and true love–
Writers are the bane of all heartache.
We can make sorrow feel unreachable.
We can make tomorrow feel possible.
Poets are the creators of sunset and eclipses.
We can make a smile cover the sky.
We can make held hands yours.
If you fall in love with a writer,
if you fall in love with a poet–
be careful.
They’ll take you to the crypt.
They’ll take you to the graveyard.
They’ll take you to a coffin.
They’ll take you home.
They’ll take you into poetry.
They’ll take you into a book.
You’ll live there and forever,
you’ll dance and dance and dance.
We dance with the devil
with two left feet
because love isn’t amazing
all of the time–
We blur out the bad times
with how your smile
made up for them–
How the good times
were our favorite memories…
But it doesn’t last.
Not forever. Not always.
Humans break.
Humans fold.
Humans wither.
Humans fall.
When I fell in love with a writer, I didn’t know it would come to this. I didn’t know I would become one myself. I didn’t know a thing about poetry. I didn’t know a thing about words. I didn’t know about immortality. I didn’t know I would be stunned for half a decade. I didn’t know smiles accompany every sunrise. I didn’t know pens could write dreams. I didn’t know paper made nice blankets. I didn’t know that by becoming such an ill fated thinker would mean I would also live forever and not just her. It works both ways. When you give someone immortality–
You’ll live forever too.
And it’s such a terrible fate to be dracula
with a pen, it’s such a tragedy
to want to be written into the stars
and city lights, it’s demanding
and it requires effort to love
like this and yet–
Here we are. Here you are.
In every sentence.
In every letter.
In every poem.
You can’t ask for death.
You can’t ask for life.
You are undying.
You are lifeless.
Just words and poetry,
Just letters and books,
Just another good day to breathe in ink,
just another sad day that didn’t work out.
I know we couldn’t be forever,
but it’s still nice to write about it.
That’s my sin and well,
you provide the pens.
When I fell in love with a writer,
I knew…
That falling in love with a poet,
when you fall in love with poetry–
There may be a chance
that you may never
return to simple things…
The complexity of being just humans
without the extension of the universe
reaching into your heart and soul–
without losing the art of love.
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