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just a useless aroace consumed by queerplatonic yearning :') cosmo | any pronouns icon credit: birchtreecrown (pinterest) banner credit: unknown :(

[queerplatonicdiaries]

intro post!

hello!! I'm cosmo, welcome to my silly squish sideblog :)

I essentially made this as a way to rant about my squish and about queerplatonic stuff in general without annoying my moots on main (and also because I got paranoid about irls finding my blog lol)

please feel free to share your own squish/queerplatonic rambles or stories, I'd love to hear them, but I am over 18 so minors Keep This In Mind.

some things to note:

bigots/homophobes/racists/transphobes etc kindly fuck off, I will block on sight

same goes for "qprs are just friendship!" people. this is a space for folks to talk about queeplatonic stuff, if you want an argument take it elsewhere, you won't find it here <3

i am very much in love and often refer to my feelings as such, however this is not strictly romantic or platonic (secret third thing??? I usually just refer to it as queerplatonic for convenience)

my inbox is always open!! feel free to some say hi!

having said that I can sometimes take forever to answer asks and messages, please bear with me!! if I haven't responded chances are it's probably just my adhd doing it's thing, I'll get round to it eventually :')

welcome to the chaos <]:)

[foolishgremlin]

They weren't joking about having that oh. Oh. feeling guys this shit is crazy

[queerplatonicdiaries]

oh to be slow dancing in the kitchen to old jazz songs with you

[queerplatonicdiaries]

oh to be driving aimlessly with you at night with our favourite songs playing; your eyes on the road and mine on you, drinking in how beautiful you look under the city lights

[queerplatonicdiaries]

oh to be slow dancing in the kitchen to old jazz songs with you

[tattoovonbeardy]

Say that again? I'm sorry. I got distracted by your little mannerisms, how you pronounce certain words, and the way your eyes light up when you talk about something you're passionate about, and started day dreaming about spending my life making you laugh, and feel loved and cherished

[queerplatonicdiaries]

I've reached a new level of pining and silliness where I saved a post to my pinterest board bc I know they'd enjoy seeing it and it would make them smile, but I didn't want to be clingy (bc I've already messaged them today), and I know chances are they stalk my pinterest

[stuckinapril]

I love people who’re just safe. People who will always be there for you even if ur an imperfect human being. People who acknowledge the fact that ur trying. When you’re a person w anxious attachment/who’s had their fair share of people who poorly communicate or do not care enough to or would rather just walk out, that is literally so healing. I love my safe people

[nothingbutloveforyou]

a love that feels like the sun in your chest

[queerplatonicdiaries]

you make the heavy easier to carry

[queerplatonicdiaries]

i made some extra rice if you'd like some (I love you) did you sleep last night? (I love you) please remember to take breaks (I love you) this reminded me of you (I love you) I bought you cookies to lift your spirits (I love you) let me do the dishes, go rest (I love you) I'd love it if you were there (I love you) text me if you're feeling sad (I love you) I'll buy it for you (I love you) I miss you (I love you) I love you (I love you)

[chaoticats3]

Bro what if we kissed platonically. What if I looked at you and just kissed you. What if we kissed and we didn't think about it or assign any meaning to it haha. No, like, it's just cuz your lips look really nice and like. It's a shame they aren't being kissed. What if I was looking at you as you spoke and then you noticed me looking and I smiled and just kissed you softly and then we continued the conversation like it was nothing.

[queerplatonicdiaries]

yall I'm so in love

that's it that's the post, there's just so much of it that I need put it somewhere

I didn't know it was possible to feel like this

[mushroomzeauxie]

wait wiat i made this a while ago but its so real omg

(loveless by alice oseman)

[queerplatonicdiaries]

we talk softly in the kitchen and, in a way, it's everything I've ever wanted.

it's been a bad day. I'm reheating dinner when you walk in, not to grab anything, but just to talk to me because we haven't seen each other in a while.

you know things aren't going well but you don't immediately ask why I've been distant (i'm silently grateful for this small grace). instead we talk about this and that, and the microwave pings distantly in the background but I couldn't care less. you show me the tattoo that you got today, and I can't help but be excited at your excitement despite despite despite the raging black hole inside of me. I can't help but smile at your easy radiance.

I wasn't planning on it, but I make myself a cup of tea, just to have an excuse to stay here a little longer. to bathe in the fragile peace and bask in your presence.

I always did ache for your company.

you ask me how my day's been, eventually, and whether I want to talk about it. I laugh and say it wasn't great, and the light admission balks in comparison to the storm of the last week, but its an admission nonetheless. it's more than i thought i'd be able to give. its nothing compared to what i want to say but can't.

you see it anyway. in the way my hands shake and my smile is brittle around the edges, I meet your eyes and I know that you know.

and so we stand there, in the warm light of the kitchen nestled in a long, tight hug, and in a way, it's everything I ever wanted. there are a million battles raging in my heart and maybe nothing's okay at the moment, but you hold me close and tell me to take care of myself and for a moment I can breathe again, I can remember my own name.

there's a long way to go to get out of this mess, but when we softly say goodnight I carry the memory of your gentle smiles and warm embrace all the way to my bedroom and think maybe, just maybe, things will be okay.

in a way, it's everything I've ever wanted.

(you always were gentle with my heart.)

[noidedbf]

movie marathon where we cuddle in bed and switch between horror movies and animated movies,,, hot chocolate may or may not be involved

[queerplatonicdiaries]

my qpp will be back in town for thanksgiving (i'm american. i know. i am sorry) and i really want to kiss him, but i think that's the last thing he'd want to do. or even discuss, really. it could be just the idea of it that i'm into. regardless, it'll still be great to see him. :)

oof I feel that, but yk, maybe one day! and even if he never wants to, I'd argue that figuring out those boundaries and building a relationship around them is even better :)

good luck with the reunion, I hope it goes really well!

[queerplatonicdiaries]

my Friend (i have zero idea what to call him but we've called our weird silly dynamic a qpr before) and i have been sending each other goofy little "us" photos and posts for weeks, as he moved to another state recently, but we've been doing it the past like four hours straight and he told me today that he things we're platonic soulmates im going to SCREAM. also im an aroace trans man and hes a trans man too, i always wanted an mlm relationship but thought id never get that chance. but now im LOWKEY IN ONE ? im going to FREAKKKKK god i fucking love him so much i get to see him again soon and im going to tackle him i just wanna smooch his forehead so bad

anon this is SO CUTE!!! long distance is tough but I'm glad you guys are making it work, this sounds like an amazing relationship 🥹