have courage, and be kind

25 //+65 // you're beautiful and you don't even know it

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really starting to feel like I made a mistake choosing you

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too scared to start over.

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Just want to be the best version of myself so I can be a better partner for E

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“you think you might want to leave me?”

“I think so.”

oh.

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recovering from an injury and surgery is tough

:-( really want to get back to climbing but I’m so scared

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Can’t help feeling like I’m being incredibly selfish.

Hate that it has come to this and I wish E wouldn’t have to go through this with his parents.

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guess the era of happy birthday’s are over

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everything is everything //

get out of my head

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Grief is so strange. You think you’re okay and past it and then one day, it hits you all over again.

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empty.

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Turns out love truly isn’t enough.

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head vs heart

I feel like I know what’s the logical thing to do but I don’t think I’m ready to give up on us yet

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I do think I deserve more. I think I deserve someone who wouldn’t even have contemplated doing that.

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just really tired of all this and I don’t want to do this anymore

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you will always mean something to me. even if we aren’t friends or on speaking terms I’ll still care. I don’t think you check this space anymore and that’s okay. maybe it’s time for me to make peace with that. 

wherever you are and whatever you’re up to, I genuinely do hope that you’re happy and doing well 

take care, you. 

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2 years clean

Oh wow, it’s already been two years of staying clean from cutting. Yeah, I definitely still get sad from time to time but for today, just for right now, I’m proud of where I’m at. 

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and i suppose that time has come right. someone has actually come and swept me off my feet.