goddamn cummings)

Hedge . 16

[quoththehedgehog]

Five

tap out a drumbeat

on my collarbone

and I’ll watch

your jaw clench

  what a wonderful

silent melody

we’ll have

  very paradoxical

just the way you like.

[quoththehedgehog]

i will rest my lips against yours

       but i will not kiss you

i will let my hand drape into yours

       but i will not let our fingers intertwine

i will sigh into your body and fall asleep

       but you will not hold me

i am merely tired

       not in love

[quoththehedgehog]

A Haiku:

I’d lasso the moon

but you have hidden the rope

deep under your skin

[quoththehedgehog]

I tacked up a note from you because I was hopeful and I liked your handwriting the way the a’s fit nicely into the c’s the way we might if we tried.

I tacked up a picture of you because I was besotted with your face and I liked the way your freckles made me want to kiss you until every single dot on your face was blushing.

I tacked up a ticket from a movie we went to because I was nostalgic and I liked the movie but mostly I just liked you.

I tacked up a poem you told me about because I was in love with the things you were in love with and I liked the words but not nearly as much as I liked the way your voice sounded reciting them.

I tacked up a picture of us because I was in love with you and I liked that you were in love with me too.

Now my cork-board is full of holes where pushpins used to be and the ghosts of memories won’t stop haunting me and I don’t even believe in ghosts but I believed everything about us and there are as many holes in the cork-board as there are in my heart.

[quoththehedgehog]

do ya chain hang low do it wobble to and fro can ya tie it in a knot can ya tie it in a bow can ya throw it over your shoulder like a continental soldier do ya chain. hang. low?

[quoththehedgehog]

Sometimes you turn your head at the same time that they do and you catch their eyes in the hallway when you weren't planning to. And it shocks you like you've accidentally inhaled freezing cold water through your nose in a place you never expected to find water and it fills your lungs for just a second before it evaporates in their gaze, and now your lungs are not a chilling ocean but instead a desert, and you feel your steps grow slower and heavier as you fill with sand, and the hot sun glows out of your eyes and illuminates them, and you worry that someone will notice, that they'll know, and for an even smaller moment you feel like you've been turned inside out, and you're exposed and raw and you feel hideous, but just as soon, it's over, and they didn't notice and they aren't looking at your and you haven't changed at all. You're just walking down a hallway. And it's extraordinary how much can happen in a second.

[quoththehedgehog]

stain my skin with your saliva

and I'll wear it like a tattoo

and the ink will leak into my pores

and swim through my blood vessels

until I cannot tell the difference

between your love and my life force.

[quoththehedgehog]

Pushpins

I tacked up a note from you because I was hopeful and I liked your handwriting the way the a’s fit nicely into the c’s the way we might if we tried.

I tacked up a picture of you because I was besotted with your face and I liked the way your freckles made me want to kiss you until every single dot on your face was blushing.

I tacked up a ticket from a movie we went to because I was nostalgic and I liked the movie but mostly I just liked you.

I tacked up a poem you told me about because I was in love with the things you were in love with and I liked the words but not nearly as much as I liked the way your voice sounded reciting them.

I tacked up a picture of us because I was in love with you and I liked that you were in love with me too.

Now my cork-board is full of holes where pushpins used to be and the ghosts of memories won’t stop haunting me and I don’t even believe in ghosts but I believed everything about us and there are as many holes in the cork-board as there are in my heart.

[quoththehedgehog]

Pink

On day 1 you made me blush a brilliant shade of pink

just by saying my name

and I listened to you say my name

for 586 days after that.

  On day 587 I scrubbed the pink off my skin

until I was no longer blushing but instead

bleeding that rosy pigment

and it smelled like ink and you.

[quoththehedgehog]

Mistletoe

Maybe it is the red in his hair.

Maybe it is the green, barely there.

  Maybe it is the way that he smells.

Maybe it is the stories he tells.

  Maybe it is the air that he brings.

Maybe it is the reason she sings.

  Maybe it is why she can't say no.

Maybe it is 'cause he's mistletoe.

[quoththehedgehog]

An Ode to Your Hands

the way your skin

fits over a beautiful

jumble of

veins and

tendons and

bones

makes me want to

bracket myself between them

gasping for the air in your mouth

suffocating with lust

drum your fingers against

my thigh

while i kiss your jawline

with my thirsting eyes

curl your palm 

around my knee

and trap me when i’m not

watching

one look from you

means my icy

barely satisfied

death

[quoththehedgehog]

I am a plaid girl 

I've got plaid fingers

and plaid curls

[quoththehedgehog]

A Haiku:

I'd lasso the moon

but you have hidden the rope

deep under your skin

[quoththehedgehog]

i will rest my lips against yours

       but i will not kiss you

i will let my hand drape into yours

       but i will not let our fingers intertwine

i will sigh into your body and fall asleep

       but you will not hold me

i am merely tired

       not in love

[quoththehedgehog]

we were walking under the moonlight

but our feet weren't hitting the ground

and i couldn't see my hands

you were talking

but it didn't make sense

it was nonsense

but so loud

so loud

it was hurting my ears

making them bleed

but i couldn't feel it

i tried to say something

but i couldn't speak

your words were slinking through my ears

and plugging my throat

filling up my mouth

you said

clearly but muffled

like from behind glass

"look, it's the waxing gibbous"

i looked

and the moon became

a huge eye

alternating between blue and green

i looked at you

and your mouth was 

shut but you were still talking

i couldn't hear clearly though

it started raining and the streets

filled up fast

you were sitting on top of the water

floating

i was swimming

treading water

you didn't notice

i was getting tired

but if i stopped

i'd drown

i tried to grab onto him to stay afloat

but i couldn't find my hands

so my hair wrapped around his neck

and started choking him

he cut my hair off and tossed it aside

like seaweed

it grew into a new me

more beautiful

able to speak

able to float

unlike me

she sang for him and he saw her

with

beautiful eyes

the sun started coming up

the moon's eye started to cry

and as i dissolved into sea foam

the moon disappeared forever

and it was eternally daytime

a new era began

[quoththehedgehog]

The Little Mermaid

There are plenty of fish in the sea

but none of them are you

So I'll make a deal with the devil

but the devil is me

And I'll love you until my feet bleed

just to watch you love another girl

And I don't know if I'm just stupid

or if you led me on

I can't kill you for it

not even to save my own life

So watch me dissolve

Maybe you'll see then

how much you meant to me

[quoththehedgehog]

it was the story of a beautiful girl

with the ocean in her eyes

and seaweed in her mouth

  it was the story of a forbidden boy

whom she kept

in the face of her watch

  she burnt her lips

on his blood

and slit her wrists

with his love

  and he stayed locked up

blissfully choking on

his own ignorance

  and radiating from his tower

like a lighthouse in her mind