Lonely girl
She wakes up every morning and grabs her phone to see no messages. doesn’t phase her as she is used to it. She lives with people but feels like a ghost. She has people she talks to but not friends and not people she can tell her darkest secrets to. She holds everything inside and it comes out in bursts every so often. then nights like this come along and all she can feel is heart shattering emptiness. The thoughts play over and over in her head “who is going to notice if I disappear?” Family never call or visit. All she has is herself and it’s not enough, all she has had is herself for 13 years and it gets damn lonely. Something good happens and there is no one to tell. she’s happy to be sleeping because it’s a break from her dark thoughts and the pain she feels inside. She wants help but doesn’t know how to get it. She want’s what everyone else has. Loving friends and family. Someone to share her thoughts with but all she has that’s remotely close to human contact is her computer. It gives her a false feeling that people care because they like her facebook posts, reblog tumblr posts and share her things. She obsesses over video games because it’s her escape from reality. She doesn’t know what to do anymore but she fights through another day, all the pain and feelings she goes through. Maybe there is something out there for her and I hope she finds it before all hope is destroyed….Before she gives up.
