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#1 america (never been) fan | basically my diary | they/them| !minor!

[r4spberryz]

i have so many finals this week im actually gonna die

[r4spberryz]

i lowk broke my hand but i dont have health insurance… wtf do i do

[r4spberryz]

i love reading sm. i actually cannot wait for school to be over so i can read for longer and not feel guilty for not studying or doing hw instead :(

[r4spberryz]

i feel like that hate on the remake of teens of denial is so dumb. genuinely who fucking cares if will doesnt wanna curse anymore bc of his religion or if he wants to album to be available in public libraries? its his music he should be able to do wtv he wants with it. its never that serious, and if you dont like the new version then js dont listen to it. imo i think some of the remade songs are kinda good, some people are js so overdramatic.

[r4spberryz]

OMG MY MOM ACTUALKY MIGHT LET ME FINALLY DUE MY HAIR PURPLE!!

i was js gonna dye it anyways even though she said no but not getting my phone taken and my ass beat makes jt better

[r4spberryz]

i love car seat headrest so much. every time i hear one of their songs play in my headphones i wanna throw up bc of how excited i get. theyre actually taking over my life..

[r4spberryz]

i wanna be in a relationship so badly but i also hate everyone and i dont like that lovey dovey bs. i hate texting, calling, and pet names. also, i never leave my house and forget to text people back for days. i would feel horrible for the person dating me. i think what i really want is js someone who understands me that i have a connection with that i can sometimes kiss.. ykwim?

[r4spberryz]

i want to go home. i hate this school and this dumb fucking town. i cant wait to get out of here forever.

[r4spberryz]

im actually going insane. my mom keeps asking if im okay but instead of getting me help she just ignores it. i dont know whats wrong with me, why do i feel like this??

[r4spberryz]

i dont believe im real. i look in the mirror and js think like wtaf why do i look and act like that.

[r4spberryz]

i wish i was born straight so badly sometimes or i wish i was fine with just being a girl. i love being gay and i love trying to express my gender but its so hard sometimes. i dont feel good enough to be like that ever. i have so much internalized homophobia and transphobia its insane. my parents arent even homophobic or anything, they support my brother and i know they will support me when i come out. i just cant let myself be happy, theres always something holding me back. kids at my school are so horrible, no one knows im gay or nonbinary because i dont want to lose the few friends i have right now. i believe everyone should live out their life how they want to, but i dont believe that im allowed to do that.

[r4spberryz]

ive been watching pose and oml its so sad but so good

i also finally watched paris is burning and but im a cheerleader

[r4spberryz]

i was feeling good in fem clothes like literally yesterday and now im back to wanting to be a boy holy fuck

[r4spberryz]

im lowk genderfluid asf like i always wish i was born a boy but rn im being feminine asf and im so happy. like im dressing cute instead of like a little boy and i dont feel dysphoric like i usually would. i fucking hate gender why cant i js be both..

[r4spberryz]

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[r4spberryz]

being a loser but lowk having a lot of friends who are more popular and normal is so crazy to me. like they clown on kids for being weird but i lowk have the same interests as them… the only reason i dont hang out with any of them is bc my friends would clown on me and i love my friends i dont want them to think im js some weird ass kid ykwim

if ANY of my friends knew i had this account i would be flamed for eternity.. no one knows my pronouns and most dont even know im gay as shit too

[r4spberryz]

i wanna go to a party i wanna drink 🙁 drinking alone or w js a few friends isnt the same… i need more ppl to be there so i can socialize