LEFT BEHIND;

"Why speakest thou to me of men, dear brother mine? I would fain ever be without a warrior's love. So fair will I remain until my death, that I shall never gain woe from love of man." Original Character Created by Sionnach AITHEANTAS

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Deep Ass Starters.

Sometimes it's hard to get in depth with your muse and their backstory, because you can't figure out how to bring those things up with others. Here are a couple of starters intended to make things a little more personal!

"What's holding you back?"

"I'm not comfortable with this conversation."

"Will you /ever/ be comfortable with this conversation?"

"Let me in sometime!"

"It's not that easy, you know."

"Help me understand."

"It's hard to connect with someone when all they do is push you away."

"Why are you always so cold?"

"Why are you always so happy?"

"Are you really happy now?"

"Who hurt you this badly to make you this way?!"

"What, did your ex mess you up that badly?!"

"Why do you keep fighting it any time you feel?"

"It's a problem, I get it."

"This is all kinds of messed up."

"That's not exactly a good coping method."

"So what happened, with your parents, really?"

"What was your childhood like?"

"Everyone has at lest a little bit of mommy/daddy issues. It's nothing to be ashamed of."

"My parents aren't exactly perfect models, either."

"You were bullied? What for?"

"Was it hard? Coming out, I mean."

"You can't just run away all the time."

"You can't just hide all the time."

"Are you still thinking about them?"

"I'm not the enemy here. But this makes me wonder who the real one is for you."

"Is the reason you're so cold and defensive because you feel threatened?"

"How long has it been since you last spoke to them?"

"You never talk about it, why?"

"How come you're so different around them?"

"It's like you don't have a care or worry in the world."

"You seem so perfect. I don't get it."

"What was your ex like?"

"I don't think I was ever good enough for them."

"Are you not comfortable being intimate?"

"Why don't you feel comfortable being intimate?"

"Letting someone see you that vulnerable, it's a scary thing."

"Are you scared of being hurt?"

"Have you ever been taken advantage of?"

"Why are you afraid of saying I love you?"

"I never understood how someone could say those words so easily."

"You're hurting others the way you've been hurt in the past, don't you think that's ironic?"

"You use people to make yourself feel better."

"I'm scared of being used again..."

"Losing someone isn't easy, but you're making it harder than it needs to be."

"How long has it been since you lost them?"

"You're too attached."

"I'm not attached, I'm just comfortable with what I'm familiar to."

"Maybe the real reason you're so controlling is because, deep down you'd rather have them in your grasp than lose them."

"Why did you ever break up?" / "Why did we ever break up?"

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❛ i lost control over it all. ❜

          “ That’s the tricky thing about life, I think. ”  There’s not a lot to choose this far out --- the nearest Walmart is a couple hours south and she hasn’t dared journey into a city in nearly a decade now. It makes shopping easy at least, picking up what she can find and hoping for the best.  “ You never have much of a grip on it. It’ll make you think you do, but things have a way of slipping through your fingers the more you try. Funny how that works. ”

@whcwashe / haim starters

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HAIM sentence starters.

❛ was my love too much for you to take? ❜

❛ honey, i’m not your honey-pie. ❜

❛ i guess you never knew what was good for you. ❜

❛ hey, you! remember me? ❜

❛ i lost control over it all. ❜

❛ you tried to bring yourself up without involving me. ❜

❛ you kept trying to prove me wrong. ❜

❛ i’ll try for you and i. ❜

❛ i tried hard not to fake it. ❜

❛ if you say the word, then i’ll say goodbye. ❜

❛ those days are gone. ❜

❛ i say goodbye to love again. ❜

❛ we were opposite lovers. ❜

❛ i know there’s nothing good in goodbye. ❜

❛ i’m not afraid no more. ❜

❛ love wasn’t what i thought it once was. ❜

❛ no. please don’t cry. ❜

❛ i could make you mine. ❜

❛ your eyes are enough to remind me. ❜

❛ the man’s his own. ❜

❛ it was a weight on my shoulders. ❜

❛ give me all your love. ❜

❛ my love is gonna be enough. ❜

❛ just know that i want you back. ❜

❛ if you want to take me, baby, please– ❜

❛ don’t it feel like that night was from a dream? ❜

❛ i promise i will treat you right. ❜

❛ your eyes are enough to remind me. ❜

❛ i’ve never felt nothing like that. ❜

❛ i wasn’t ready for you. ❜

❛ there won’t be another day i let you get away. ❜

❛ i can’t make you stay. ❜

❛ been waiting my whole damn life! ❜

❛ i’ve got something to tell you! ❜

❛ some things are long-forgotten. ❜

❛ go ahead and say it. ❜

❛ i was your lover. i was your friend. ❜

❛ when you sleep, are you dreaming of me? ❜

❛ we started something good. ❜

❛ sometimes i wish i didn’t miss you at all. ❜

❛ i am never coming home again. ❜

❛ get out of my memory. ❜

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[angstmemes]

lonely sentence starters

“Long time no see! How’re you holding up?” “You clearly weren’t expecting me.” “I came here to help you, but if you’d rather I hadn’t, I will leave you alone again.” “I thought I’d just stop by and see how you were doing… It’s been a while.” “You’ve been quiet lately.” “How are you? Honestly. Don’t give me the usual crap.” “Why’re you sitting here all by yourself?” “This is supposed to be a party. You are supposed to dance, not sulk.” “Has nobody come to see you?” “Do you want me to leave?” “When’s the last time you went outside?” “Do you even want to see anyone?” “You seem lonely…” “Don’t you have any friends?” “I don’t mind keeping you company.” “Do you really have this place all to yourself?” “Maybe if you tried being nice every once in a while you would actually have people who cared about you.” “I’d visit you more often if I had the time…” “I am your friend. You’ve got me.” “Are you lonely?” ———- “I just want to be left alone.” “I’ve been so alone.” “You’re the first person to visit me in ages.” “I wish you’d visit more often.” “I’m just so sick of being alone all the time.” “No, of course I’m not lonely.”

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Gretchen finally has a proper theme~~

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and then suddenly tumblr decided im not allowed to edit it further gfdi

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Gretchen finally has a proper theme~~

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I don’t think Gretchen really ever wants to see Jack again. Like... yeah, she was ready to defy the Program for him and break free and go somewhere and make a better life than what they had been given, but. He also betrayed her out of fear. When the guards caught onto their escape plan, he surrendered instead of fighting with her. He got to stay, and remained (relatively) intact. They shot her and left her to die, and it was sheer goddamn luck that she survived.

Gretchen has never really forgiven him for that, and it’s made worse by the fact that Jack doesn’t remember her at all.

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I’ll write a better timeline later but quick explanation is this. (Subject to change bc there are bits and pieces I am still working out.)

[1985] Gretchen is born Rachel Pankar in Chicago Illinois. Her mother is a professor of sociology. Her father is a business consultant.

[1990] Rachel Pankar is kidnapped from her elementary school. She is declared missing by authorities.

[1997] Rachel and Jack are placed in the same training group, and become close friends during this time. Outside of Suna, Rachel is the only person he’s really grown to trust.

[2000] Rachel makes an escape attempt, taking Jack with her. They make it to the outer perimeter of the facility before catching the two. Jack submits willingly. Rachel resists and is shot, presumably killed; she regains consciousness just before her body should be incinerated and uses her power to escape.

[2001-2003] Rachel hithchikes from Virginia to Maine, trying to put as much distance between herself and the Program as possible. Changes her name to Gretchen Heidrich.

[2004] Gretchen meets Jonathan Talbot, a widower living in Portland. He takes her in and begins teaching her about living off the land.

[2006] Gretchen moves with Jonathan to Anchorage, Alaska and helps him start up his fishing business.

[2008] Gretchen leaves Jonathan and moves further north, finding her own place just outside of Talkeenta. In a few years, she will all but cease contact with Jonathan.

[2009-present] Gretchen lives alone in her cabin, living off the land and trading work for money for anything else she needs.

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          They were bound to show up on her front doorstep sooner or later --- they think they don’t stand out, but they do to each other. It’s something in the way they carry themselves, she thinks. It was why she left the city for her sanctuary this far north. No electronics, barely any sort of paper trail if she can help it. She knew how to live off the grid.

Gretchen spots her almost instantly in the convenience store, when she goes to place her annual grocery order and pick up a few odds and ends. Not a woman she’s met, as far as she can remember, but there’s something familiar in her gaze that unsettles the woman. She moves through the few aisles the store has, considering her options. It could be paranoia. Hopefully it is.

@coffeemughero / starter call

[americasgreatoutdoors]

A nearly full moon rises over the snow-laden landscape of Alaska’s Lake Clark National Park and Preserve. It’s a magical park to explore no matter the time of year! Photo by W. Hill, National Park Service.

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Gretchen’s birth parents consisted of an Indian father and a Jewish mother, though she has very little recollection of either of them. Her father wasn’t around as much, but her mother passed on much of her heritage down to her daughter. In some ways she’s very hesitant to embrace this part of herself due in part to her self-imposed exile and the Program’s utter removal of identity during her time there, but she still finds herself longing to find a means of bridging that gap.

As for her father’s side, she has an even more difficult time trying to find a connection to that simply due to not remembering him all that well. He worked a lot from what few memories she has of him, but she hasn’t seen either of her parents since she was five, so.

Anyway, she’s still learning these parts of herself and finding ways of integrating them into her life.

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very slowly addin content to this stupid thing like lmao what am i doin