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sach-ito

i haven’t had time for this yet here i am .

trying to believe what is true whilst the lies are invading me.

trying to hold fast to what i know when my very world is isolated.

trying to remember why i’m doing this when i’m flooded with questions.

feel enclosed but the irony is that no one is as near as they have ever been.

i’m mixing up the days i’m breaking my own rules i could not care less. sometimes it’s just this way.

god is near though.

trying to believe hope holds me.

trying to believe he’s all i need.

trying to believe he raises my confidence.

trying to believe what i already know.

wnq-writers

“Sometimes you pour your heart out and nothing comes back. Sometimes you pour your heart out and the world falls onto your lap. Keep trying.”

— N.M.Sanchez

he is my battle cry. he gave me back my life.

he is my battle cry. i give him back my fight.

my battle cry in the dark of night.

we surrender to jesus.

tea-for-t

I think the more you love the more you learn about it and most of the time you learn from heartbreak. They never told me love wasn’t easy I always though that if you found the one everything would be simple and make sense and be easy, but I’m wrong. Every time it got hard or I could feel it slipping out of my hands I stopped because I thought they weren’t the one. I think you have to learn that if you think that person is worth every bit of energy and tears and fights and staying up till 3am so you can finally stop arguing but till wake up the next day and choose them. Because if everyone told us you have to stick it out and choose that person we would’ve stayed with all the wrong people. I would’ve stayed with people who didn’t appreciate me or didn’t care enough. Every time you love and every time you lose your basically winning because your learning more about yourself and how to love.

tea-for-t

Realising that your life will never be like the movie you once loved. That I have awkward silences, feelings of uncomfort and sadness. That I second guess most of the decisions in my life. That I regret half of them. That love is difficult but with the right one it’s worth the fighting, feelings of disappointment and betrayal. They forget to tell you that life will never be what it seems.