Intro post! after 4 years…
I’m Dylan, 5’7” (172cm), vegan, 20 yrs old and started this acc when I was around 16/17. Had an ed on and off since like 12 but body image issues my entire life. I’m pro recovery but I also appreciate realism and honesty with other ed’d people.
My initial starting weight when I was 17 was like estimated (never weighed myself back then) 65-67kg (143-147 lb) but after around 4-5 months I dropped to like ~47kg (103 lb).
Main trigger back then and still is my best friend. She is absolutely beautiful and effortlessly thin. She’s the no-appetite, has-to-remind-herself-to-eat type. I love her but I have always been insanely jealous of her which I hate :(.
Was forced into recovery and maintained around 53kg (116 lb) for around 2 years which despite still being extremely disordered I was somewhat content with. Thought I was going to maintain forever. Well, I’m 20 now and been fat (60kg to 65kg, 132 to 134lbs) for over a year now (which is insane to think about) and I blame my boyfriend basically entirely. He’s always been in denial about my weight gain, urged me to eat unhealthily like he does and can’t handle the thought that my weight has actually been ruining my life.
During this ~1 year span I’ve tried and failed to lose weight almost every month. I don’t live with him anymore but we live in the same Uni accomodation and only now (November 2025) have I actually been able to lose *some* weight.
I need to see the end of this finally. I can’t have only spent two years of my youth in a body I’m content with.
1st photo 53kg, 2nd photo 57kg, 3rd photo 63kg
