Space and Time

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You

Your bold brown eyes, the crease you get on your forehead when you smile, your unsure pursed lips, your warm steady hands, your strong legs, that look you give me, all this cracks my soul. How are you so faultless ? Your warm hugs, the way you hold me, your power to have an effortless conversation, your love for romanticism, your old world charm, your authoritative hold on me. It's like a spell you put in me. I don't see anyone else where you are, I don't see anyone. Your dark soul, your weird fetishes, your stupid ideas, all of it seems like good stories that one would like to hear over and over and over again tirelessly. You removing that strand of hair from my face, you kissing me on my forehead, you letting me stand on your feet to dance, all this feels like a lighting bolt. You struck the lock to my deserted old heart so persistently, I let you in. You moved in and I'm dissolving in you. I love how you scream our song into the dead of the night and I love your impulsiveness. I love your strong mind, the mind where you've locked me in.

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Wait for me to come home. #goodhairdays #braids #themcurls #iwearredalot #somethingaboutthis

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Don't say words you're gonna regret Don't let the fire rush to your head I've heard the accusation before And I ain't gonna take any more Believe me The sun in your eyes Made some of the lies worth believing I am the eye in the sky Looking at you I can read your mind I am the maker of rules Dealing with fools I can cheat you blind And I don't need to see any more To know that I can read your mind, I can read your mind - Eye in the Sky, The Alan Parsons Project <3 (at DKS)

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They never said a word about forever to each other as they knew it was too short. "Never ever" was that infinity that felt like home. His smile felt like home.

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I'm an unnecessary necessity. I'm poison, but the kind that'll save you. I'm so bitter you'll want to spit me out but you won't because the aftertaste is so irresistible. I'll fill you with rage but love will run down your eyes. I'll steal the hazel colour from your eyes and fill them will Hell. I'm like the stormy sky but the brightest you'll ever see. I'm like coffee, the strongest type but I'll put you to sleep. I'm fire. I'll burn you every time you touch me but the pain will invite you in. You'll look at the scars I gave you not as injuries, but as art. I'm the horizon, farthest from you but nearer than you think. I'm water, not the kind that'll quench your thirst, but the kind that'll drown you. Save yourself from me, run.

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Don't you wanna give me a chance to miss you ?

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An open letter to the guy I once loved.

I don't know what's more excruciating. Being with someone because you love them or leaving them because you love them more. I still remember that day. God, it was hard. Leaving was so damn hard. I can't even express it in words. It's like my heart was set on fire and then the fire was put out and the burn was cooled and it was set on fire again. It was continuous. The pain kept growing. It started eating me. The next few days without you were brutal. Not waking up to," Good morning baby!" Or "I love you so much." was unnerving. I kept touching my phone and checking for messages. Rereading the old ones, listening to your voicenotes at night on loop just to get some rest, waiting for a call. What if I had just called you and told you I was sorry and I missed you ? What if I said I wanted my life with you for as long as possible ? What if I said you were the only one I wanted to be with in all infinites? We didn't lie, we didn't cheat, then why did we break up? Why did I break up? Why did I lose you? I miss you, I love you but no one's ever going to know that except me and you. It's a secret. Darling you're my everything. I'm sorry. This is unbearable. This pain. You're away from me, but it's fine, I'll go through anything to see you happy and you are. That's the only thing that keeps me going. Maybe I don't love you now, maybe I love you and me together and maybe I'm still in love with the idea of being in love with you. I'm not unhappy. I'm not miserable, I'm just fine. I'm living through each day and I trying to do something fun everyday but sometimes the most fun thing I do is eat chocolates. Lots of them. I miss you but I hate you for accusing me of things I haven't done. I've done lots of bad things to you, as you have to me but I didn't once point a finger at you. That pains me the most. You lying. I broke up for something you did after the break up. I love you and unfortunately always will but I never want to be yours again. I love you the most but no.

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Desperation repels happiness. Be reluctant once in a while, instead of over thinking. :)

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Vulnerable and rare.

Sensitivity is like a birthmark, you're born with it. No matter how much you try to get rid of it, you just don't. Then why try so hard? Why apologize for being polite and emotional? It's an art. Being sweet is a rarity and you're rare. There's just one of you out there in the breeding barn of growing crowd. So why inflinct inferiority upon yourself along with the pain that follows for being sensitive? It's unnecessary. Not everyone is capable of politeness or to smile at a stranger or to forgive or for that matter cry. So don't be apologetic for being able to express so well. For crying, for forgiving but not forgetting. Cherish your vulnerability for everyone can take advantage but not everyone lets people take advantage of them with a smile. Let people go and wave with a smile, thank the Lord for the memories and send him some love once in a while. Smile, be happy, be relentless.

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You broke me that evening.

The rain made me think of you. The way the raindrops raced down the glass window, it reminded me of your anxious restlessness. The sound of the rain reminded me of the way you speak to me, in poems and in rhymes. The way the rain touched the glass, it's like how you touch me, mapping out my face with your every touch. The rain reminds me of us, so fresh and pure. The lightning reminds me of the sparks that fly between us when we're together. The thunder so loud shakes me up and agitates me like during our fights. The wind that blows through my hair during the rains feels like your fingers tugging gently at my soft curls. The tamed storm caresses me like your arms on a dark silent night. The silence after the storm reminds me of the silence we share after we kiss. The cool breeze after the rain touches my face like the way you kiss my forehead and hold me tight. The rain brings me closer to you, it cradles me in your love. It heals all the wounds I had from another love.

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You, yourself are a masterpiece.

Don’t cage yourself. Set yourself free. Sit by the sea and breathe in the salty wind. Let the sound of the sea stop you from hearing your own thoughts. Swim with the fish, be the wave. Don’t restrict yourself to human form. Be like the swift air racing through your hair. Don’t leave yourself. Love yourself. Stand on top of a mountain and watch the waterfall being drawn towards Mother Earth. Embrace the sight and jump into her arms. See the bubbles you breathe out. Don’t restrict your form. Watch the air you breathe out turning into small bubbles. Things change form. They’re not always bad. Don’t abandon your body. Love it. Visit the forests and touch the barks of trees. They’re all different with different forms. Some big, some small. Some dark, some light, some thick, some thin. Don’t judge just breathe in the differences. Let your fingertips caress the coarse body of that tree you see. Touch your face and feel the smoothness. Don’t compare just feel different textures. You are the tree. You are life. Leave all attachments behind. Be all you can be. Change your form and explore yourself. Love the form you adorn. You’re versatile like the sea. You’re adventurous like the waterfall. You’re colourful like the forest. Every season is an excuse to change.

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Don't let go just yet. Stay a while, break me some more.

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You and I are platonic.

Cliched romances are not our forte, extraordinary and excruciating pain is how we show unfathomable love, by leaving we show love.