an unimaginable hell

{Independent Nic Silver (host of the Tanis podcast and co-producer of The Black Tapes podcast) RP blog. Semi-selective, always ready to plot, check my rules and drop me a line. UNAFFILIATED WITH PNWS.}

[radionicsilver-blog]

How much of our reality is manufactured?

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I don't know if it's me talking, or the Breach

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I'm thinking of writing a book.

[radionicsilver-blog]

Have you ever felt the deep exhaustion of being completely out of energy? It's not just your eyes falling closed, but your whole body... down to the bones, just drifting--or trying to drift.... Sometimes, in those depths, you feel lighter, more alive than you ever did before.

[radionicsilver-blog]

Occult stuff has never interested me, nor has it bothered me. I always sort of assumed it was the fringes of society, trying their best to access something that would put them on top, instead of skirting the outside of what is... or what could be. I'm not really sure. But that's kind of changing, in a big way. Especially since I entered the breach--I still feel lucky to have walked out alive..

[radionicsilver-blog]

Can’t sleep. Keep me company? Alex used to accuse me of sleeping at the worst times, so maybe if you guys want to talk to me, I’ll pass out.

[radionicsilver-blog]

People talk about the founding fathers having their hands in occult stuff… all that freemasonry and things like that… I’ve been to DC, and it’s pretty–err pregnant with occult symbology. I wonder if they were after Tanis too. It just seems like everyone with even a passing interest in the occult is chasing some form of Tanis, is all…

[radionicsilver-blog]

All this searching and I feel like I'm no closer to Tanis, which is odd, since I've actually been there. It's just that... nothing feels any closer. Every time I turn over a rock, so to speak, there are six more just like it underneath.

[ladyzadie]

I don’t even know what’s going on in TANIS anymore I just listen to hear Nic’s voice and MK’s snark

[meerk4tniphackedu]

thanks, babe ;)

[radionicsilver-blog]

Oh that's so kind. If it makes you feel any better, I also have no idea what's going on.

[wondersmith-and-sons]

There are magical things There are wondrous things.  There are dangerous things. We get what we deserve.

[radionicsilver-blog]

Sorry for the inactivity. Things have gotten…. hectic. You’re all so patient… I really ought to reward you, but I can’t think of what to do.

also a friend of mine recently alerted me to a few of these Tanis and black tapes roleplay blogs being flagged and/or deleted.

This is just a reminder that I am in no way affiliated with PNWS, just a fan who snagged a good url. I have an entire page of the blog dedicated to explaining this.

If you are affiliated with Pacific Northwest stories and you would like me to cease and desist, I will, immediately. But please message me before reporting this blog to Tumblr. Doing otherwise would be unjust and, frankly, rude.

I have made it abundantly clear in both my blog description and my legal page (reachable by a link on my blog’s primary page) that I am in no way affiliated with PNWS. I am just a lucky fan.

[radionicsilver-blog]

Hi everyone. Thanks for all the new followers. This blog is meant primarily to keep you guys as updated as I can manage with regards to my daily... eh... struggles. It’s not been an easy time for any of us at Pacific Northwest Stories, but we’re absolutely committed to bringing you the details of our current investigations--or in my case, immersions--as they unfold. Thanks for hanging with us. If you have any questions, check out my blog page. There are plenty of links to explore. 

[howtobehappyagain-deactivated20]

Sure, right… but you believe in weird, mythical forests?

Alex Reagan to  Nic Silver (The Black Tapes Podcast S2E05)

I died. 

(via howtobehappyagain)

[radionicsilver-blog]

Phaeleh - Afterglow (feat. Soundmouse)

soft vocals, deep bass, gentle beats

Something to help you sleep... or to help me sleep. 

[radionicsilver-blog]

I’ve been really preoccupied... worrying myself silly about Alex. This whole upside-down face demon thing--and now fallen angels? Azazel? I don’t know what scares me more, the fact that I’ve been to Tanis, or the fact that my best friend might have started to believe in demons...

oh, right, you’re probably wondering about lunch with Dr. Strand. I’ll give details as soon as I can. I promise

[radionicsilver-blog]

I’ve realized I kind of like being hypnotized. I understand I need it, to remember what’s going on…what went on… at the time, it feels like it’s happening–so I don’t like it. I can’t get away from it for… while afterward. 

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I’d like to amend this and say that, while I sort of enjoy the odd, uninhibited clarity, there is something.... that holds me back. The farther forward we move in my memories, the closer we are to the Calm--the cabin. I don’t know if I want to know.

[radionicsilver-blog]

I’ve realized I kind of like being hypnotized. I understand I need it, to remember what’s going on...what went on... at the time, it feels like it’s happening--so I don’t like it. I can’t get away from it for... while afterward.