brooklyn baby

BABY IF YOU WANNA L E A V E, COME TO CALIFORNIA, BE A FREAK, LIKE ME, TOO. SCREW YOUR ANONIMITY, L O V I N G ME IS ALL YOU NEED TO FEEL, LIKE I DO. WE COULD SLOW DANCE TO ROCK MUSIC, K I S S WHILE WE DO IT

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lanalczar:

lana held her hands up in defense, slowly backing away from rafaella. ❝it’s all fun and games until the death threats come in,❞ she said in a sing-song voice. she nodded her head in understanding as she pulled the pasta from the cupboard and dumped the contents into the pot. ❝this is the part where it sets on fire right? because everything i touch gets real messed up.❞

rafaella let out a chuckle, rolling her eyes. “ well, you better not piss me off. ” she warned jokingly. she watched the girl’s actions, a small smile playing on her lips. “ no, you did well. now you’re in charge of the pasta, lana. in about ten minutes it should be ready so you just need to see when it’s tender and tell me so i can pour in the sauce, alright ? ” she explained, opening a jar of tomato sauce.

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lanalczar:

❝no promises,❞ lana joked, shrugging her shoulders. she rolled her eyes, feeling as if rafaella was downplaying her compliment–lana rarely complimented anyone because truly the only flawless person out there was her…and rafaella on most days. ❝i’m sure if we had access to the right shit, you’d probably make the best stir fry or something like that.❞ her eyebrows furrowed.  ❝sure, what do you need me to do?❞

“ i’ll kill you. ” rafaella joked, rolling her eyes playfully. she let out a slight chuckle, scoffing. “ you’re overestimating my skills, i think. ” she murmured, eyes on the pot with the boiling water. “ take out the pasta from the cupboard and pour some pasta into the pot, okay ? ” 

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lanalczar:

lana smiled to herself, this was how she wanted things to be, but she was too much of a stubborn ass to admit that she made a lot of bad decisions and disregarded other people’s feelings. ❝i thought i was doing you a favor by leaving, you wouldn’t have to deal with me wrecking shit.❞ lana followed rafaella into the kitchen, intertwining their fingers. she nodded her head excitedly. ❝have i ever told you that you are literally the queen of cooking? it’s literally the highlight of my day.❞

rafaella shook her head. “ i like it when you’re home. just don’t break anything, please. ”  she said, offering the girl a soft smile. she couldn’t help the feeling of butterflies forming in her stomach as the girl intertwined their fingers together. she shrugged a bit. “ i’m not that good.. i just make easy things. i’m glad you like my cooking, i guess. ” she said, letting go of lana’s hand. “ you want to help me ? ”

[rafacllas]

lanalczar:

lana immediately felt terrible. if only she knew about this beforehand, or chose to acknowledge it. ❝being out there alone is my escape, cause sometimes i feel like you don’t want me here. but now i realize i’m a fucking idiot, i’m so sorry, i’ll come home earlier. i’ll even announce my presence and everything, we’re in this shitshow together, i’m sorry it didn’t seem easy for you to tell me these things because genuinely i care about how you feel. and you’re right it is boring as hell doing nothing waiting for someone to come back.❞ she didn’t hesitate to walk over and engulf her in a hug, squeezing rafaella tightly.

rafaella didn’t know what she expected lana’s reaction to be. but she still felt a bit surprised by how understanding the girl was. maybe a part of her expected lana to start an argument, but she couldn’t be happier to suddenly feel the other’s arms wrapping around her to pull her into a tight hug. she let her eyes close momentarily, hugging the girl back for a bit. “ i don’t want you to feel like i don’t want you here. ” she said, before pulling away, taking lana’s hand to pull her with her towards the kitchen. “ i’m making pasta. ”

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lanalczar:

lana was genuinely surprised by her words. she crossed her arms over her chest and tentatively took a step closer to her. ❝i’m flattered,❞ she mumbled as her cheeks heated up and she silently cursed herself for letting rafaella have such an effect on her. ❝but eventually we’ll run out of supplies and someone has to get them.❞ running a hand through her hair, she averted her gaze from her.  ❝and i – i don’t want a repeat of a few days ago. god that was the scariest shit that happened to me since that time i tried to break into a mall with my two companions only to find it filled with freaks. my two best friends died because i couldn’t protect them - fuck, i need to be able to protect you.❞

rafaella crossed her arms, noticing the girl taking a step forward. she listened to the girl, releasing a quiet sigh. “ i know someone has to go out for supplies, but i know you just spend the whole day outside to avoid being home. i don’t want to be alone all the time, and i don’t want you to feel like you need to spend all that time outside just so you won’t have to be here. i don’t know why you like it better outside with all the freaks than in here with me, but if it’s because of something i do, then i’m sorry, but please don’t leave for so many hours every time. ” rafaella mumbled, shrugging softly. she knew that all their fights weren’t going to keep lana from spending all her days away from home.

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lanalczar:

lana looked up from what she was doing, making eye contact with rafaella. she took a deep breath as she pushed the backpack away. ❝why are you sorry?❞ she furrowed her brows in confusion. ❝i kind of deserved it, i’m so useless that i’d probably be better off far away from home., i’ll get back into the grove of things tomorrow, so i’ll get everything you need.❞ she played with her hands nervously, unsure of how she felt on leaving rafaella.

rafaella nibbled on her lower lip as lana’s eyes met hers. she didn’t like the sight of the girl with her backpack, knowing that she was planning on leaving home again. “ no - you’re not useless. please stay. ” she let out, sighing before continuing. “ you’re not useless. you being home that much is making me feel better - the best i’ve felt in a very long time. i’m sorry i got mad, i’m just - frustrated, that’s all. ”

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lanalczar:

lana waited a bit before going into the bedroom to change. she preoccupied herself by staring out the window at the abandoned street. this had to be a sign that she didn’t belong at home and was better on the move. rafaella obviously found her to be a burden. once rafaella left the bedroom, she slipped into the bedroom to also get dressed. lana dug through her pile of clothes - she never bothered to organize it because it was just a waste of time. she pulled on a flannel shirt and leggings that she was sure she hadn’t worn in a while because it didn’t smell like a freak. lana emerged into the living room and sighed loudly, making her way to her backpack and unzipping it rather roughly.

rafaella found some pasta in one of the cupboards, placing it on the counter. as she was waiting for the water in the pot to boil, she heard lana walking into the living room. she sighed, before walking over to her. “ i’m sorry. ” she said quietly, shrugging softly. she didn’t want to scare lana out of the house more. the girl was already barely home, anyway - and rafaella didn’t like it.

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lanalczar:

lana stood there jaw agape. she was unsure whether she was totally frightened by rafaella’s outburst or totally turned on. lana liked a girl that wasn’t afraid to put people in their place. the teenage boy part of lana’s mind was desperately trying to come up with a crude remark, but nothing came. ❝okay, um, i’ll go do that. you should get changed first cause you know, it’s not sanitary for the cook to be all wet right?❞ she laughed nervously once more and left the room, taking her shirt off in the process. The last thing she wanted to do was piss rafaella off more than she just did. so maybe leaving her alone for the rest of the day was the best plan.

rafaella just crossed her arms, not saying anything in return to the girl’s words. she watched her leaving the room, releasing a sigh the moment she was alone. she didn’t mean to get so mad at lana, but she couldn’t stand it anymore. it was clear that the other didn’t care much about anything and she was done with lana making a joke out of everything. she closed her eyes momentarily, taking a deep breath - feeling regret washing over her. rafaella liked it when lana was home. despite how annoying she could get, something about her presence just made rafaella feel better. she probably shouldn’t have gotten so mad. she made her way to the bedroom, picking a dry shirt and jeans. she changed her clothes before making her way to the kitchen, opening the fridge and the cupboards in search for something she could cook for them.

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lanalczar:

lana chuckled nervously, covering her mouth afterwards. this clearly wasn’t a laughing matter. ❝rafi, are you crazy. i’ve basically taken a shower right now–try again next week!❞ she smirked, shaking her hair out like a dog. her eyes lit up at the prospect of getting food sometime soon. ❝fuck yeah! who knew getting wet meant such amazing treatment? i should break household objects more often.❞ she pulled her wet jacket off.

rafaella shook her head at the girl, rolling her eyes. “ well, then change your clothes. you can’t eat like that you’re soaked. ” she muttered. at the other’s next words, she felt her anger rising, taking a step closer to lana to bring her face close to hers. “ you listen to me, if you break anything more around this house - even the smallest thing, like i don’t know, your fucking toothbrush - you can pack your bags and go find another fucking house to stay in ! do you hear me ? now i’ll go change my clothes because they’re all wet because of you and guess what - you’ll be doing the same because if you wet the kitchen floor and i find one drop of water that fell from your clothes you’re cleaning the whole house until it’s cleaner than it was the day we moved in here ! ”

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lanalczar:

lana groaned, focusing her full attention on the sink. she hit it several more times before eventually deciding to actually try and turn it off regularly. it turned off, they still had a broken sink. ❝oh my god,❞ she mumbled in embarrassment, wrapping her arms around her cold and wet body, trying to warm herself up. ❝on a scale from one to ten, how mad are you at me right now?❞

rafaella let out a sigh of relief as the water finally stopped. she closed her eyes momentarily, running a hand through her wet hair. “ ten. ” she said, then brought her eyes to the girl, who seemed somewhat embarrassed. her posture softened a bit, as well as her expression. “ maybe take a warm shower - if you didn’t break the shower too. or just change your clothes. i’ll make something to eat. ” she let out, releasing another sigh, looking at the wet girl. “ just - let me know when you’re done here so i can do the same. ” she muttered, gesturing to her own wet body.

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lanalczar:

lana just groaned, finding herself getting agitated by the minute. ❝oh my god, can you please just shut the fuck up? you’re not helping by yelling please fix this at me, rafaella.❞ she reached for the wrench and contemplated what to do, being soaked by the minute. her mind told her to stick to her original plan–but maybe hitting it again would do something. ❝if this doesn’t work, i’m carrying you out of here and we’re going to the pool house.❞

rafaella just stopped yelling, crossing her arms, looking at the girl. they both were pretty much soaked by then, and she hoped lana could fix what she broke. “ lana, you gotta fix this. we can’t just move because of this ! this is our home. ” she said, desperation obvious in her tone.

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lanalczar:

❝oh come on, yes we can, no one is stopping us!❞ lana whined, as she gently pushed rafaella to the side so she could get better access, or because she didn’t want her to get wet. ❝does it look like i know either? i’m the one who ran out and panicked. i didn’t even try turning it off!❞ she moved her hand towards the cold water tap to try and turn it off, but before she could do anything, she got water sprayed in her eyes. ❝i’m dying!❞

“ i’m stopping us ! ” rafaella yelled in return. letting the girl push her to the side. “ lana, please fix this ! ” she was in panic, hoping that the other will manage to fix what she broke. “ you’re not dying - jeez, just fix it somehow, you broke it, so now you have to fix it ! we’re not moving anywhere. ”

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lanalczar:

lana slowly lifted her head up whens he heard rafaella in distress.  ❝oh my god, no, you should have left it. i was about to pack our things and find another apartment,❞ she groaned, forcing herself to rush to the bathroom. she took a deep breath and tried to keep a level head.  ❝i mean seriously we don’t have to pay for this. lemme just–❞ her eyes lit up in realization. ❝oh my god am i the biggest idiot in the world?❞

“ we’re not just gonna leave this apartment ! ” rafaella refused to give up on the place they’d been living in for so long. they had to stop the water. she kept trying to stop the water with the towel, as the other stepped into the room. “ yes ! yes, you are. help me, i don’t know how to fix this.. ”

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lanalczar:

lana groaned, hearing rafaella come in. she was so stressed out as it was and she didn’t want to make her also feel stressed out because she broke the sink. this was why she didn’t spend time at home, she always seemed to mess something up.  ❝i broke the sink trying to get it to have more water pressure–and now it’s spraying everywhere,❞ she admitted meekly, not lifting her head up to look at her. ❝the good news is the shower still works?❞

rafaella’s jaw dropped at the girl’s words. “ you did what ?! ” she yelled, running to the bathroom, opening the door, her eyes widening. “ no, no, no.. ” she mumbled, walking into the room, trying to use a towel to plug the place where the water sprayed from. by then she was very much wet. “ lana ! come help me, i don’t know what to do ! ”

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lanalczar:

a few days later and lana’s arm injury was slowly recovering. and this was probably the longest she spent at home. each day she’d come up with more excuses to not go on her daily supply hunt. her arm hurt, or she was scared rafaella would spontaneously combust, or she didn’t feel like walking that far. so to pass the time she decided to try and improve things about the house. the shower sucked, no wonder she liked the pool even if it was nasty–at least she had a constant flow of water. and now the faucet in the bathroom barely had any water come out. lana’s solution? to hit it continuously with a wrench. needless to say that didn’t work out and soon water was spraying all over her. ❝shit, what the fuck? i’m gonna fucking drown!❞ she didn’t have the desire to try and fix the faucet again so she stepped out of the bathroom and slammed the door. ❝nope, nope, nope,❞ she grumbled under her breath and stormed into the living room and plopped down onto the couch, hiding her head under one of the cushions. // @rafacllas

for the past few days, rafaella could say she wasn’t miserable. far from miserable, actually. their injuries turned out to be a blessing to rafaella, in some way, because it made lana stay. the girl had been fixing things around the house, or at least trying to, and rafi didn’t bother her. she knew lana was in the bathroom, as she washed the dishes in the kitchen. she thought she heard yellings, and soon after that she heard the bathroom door slamming. she raised an eyebrow, leaving the dishes in the sink, and walking over to the living room, to find lana with her head hidden under one of the cushions. “ what did you do, lana ? ”

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lanalczar:

lana smiled, once again resisting the urge to do something super affectionate. instead she wrapped her arms around rafaella. she always slept better with her in her arms. ❝god, you’re the best,❞ she mumbled into her ear as she shut her eyes.

now that the two were relaxing in bed, the pain became a little more bearable. she sighed quietly as the girl’s arms wrapped around her, cuddling into the other. she smiled a bit, letting her eyes flutter shut.

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lanalczar:

lana didn’t like to make promises because most of the time she wouldn’t keep them. every other day if rafaella asked that, she would have definitely went out against her will. but this time she didn’t feel like going– it was her arm’s fault–she told herself. ❝i promise.❞ she yawned softly and then let out a groan. ❝fuck, i’m tired and i never got to eat my famous burnt mac n cheese.❞

a wave of relief washed over rafaella as the girl promised to stay. she let out a soft sigh, scooting a little closer to the other. “ let’s sleep. i’ll make you some of my famous not burnt mac n cheese tomorrow. ” she murmured, not wanting the girl to leave the bed.