i love yuna and david being parental towards ilya for ilya's sake (man wants a family more than ANYTHING. he has so much love inside him!! let him be someone's kid!! let him be in a unit!!), but i also really love it for shane's sake.
i hc that david and yuna wanted more kids and just couldn't have them, and i feel like shane is aware of this and feels the pressure of being The Only One. like mom and dad wanted more but only got me, so i have to be The Best One, which i feel like plays into the bit of emotional distance there is between shane and his parents, because i think shane early on would internalize that problems have to be kept to himself because he's The One. if he has problems or isn't doing life correctly, then he's failing!! he will disappoint them!! they only got him!! if he fucks up, he's failing at being The One!!
(thus the apologizing for being gay. because he's The Only One, and they got a gay one, so he's not doing perfect son marrying a girl and giving them a daughter-in-law and grandkids thing he's supposed to do. that's how to Son correctly! and he's not doing it! and they're not going to get another one! it's just him! so him deviating from 'normal' means he's fucking up and not playing the role he's supposed to even though he tried SO hard.)
and i feel like being able to split attention and responsibility with ilya would honestly take weight off of shane's shoulders. (and also offers the ability to become more close with his parents. because hey! he fucked up! (from his pov) he didn't do The Right Thing here and guess what! he's not in trouble! his parents love him! they're not disappointed! it turns out he wasn't making The Wrong Choice! his parents still love him and are happy to get to know the person HE loves!!) like okay now we're BOTH responsible for making them proud and fulfilling The Son role, and now i can breathe a little bit better because i'm not in a spotlight by myself trying to be the most perfect child ever to make up for the fact that they only got me.
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