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some stupid bitch, nothin really interesting here. mid twenties. holy shit, i'm in my mid twenties...

[rainbowsnoodles]

lol what the fuck is this. i love it. i just wasted several minutes of my time while i'm supposed to be doing something important but whatever this was a fun little distraction. i grew my snoodle surprisingly long. and i loved the little.. are those fanarts or people's profile pictures? i don't know, but they're lovely. wish i could like, read their names again after the game ends or something, i kind of wanted to check out a few of those accounts lol. i always appreciate nice art. thank you tumbly wumblr.

[rainbowsnoodles]

man i love testosterone. just makes me do dumb shit like watch a video purely because it had a pretty guy in it regardless of the actual content and purpose of the video. just saw a pretty dude and clicked. i mean, the video turned out to be cool, but like that WAS NOT the reason i was there and i still would've enjoyed it even if i didn't give a shit about the topic. i love men. :)

earlier today i watched a video about a trans guy talking about the effects of testosterone, and even earlier than that i saw a reddit post from a girl asking if it was common for trans guys to "turn gay" once they go on testosterone because her boyfriend dumped her for that reason and she'd also heard of another trans man who also suddenly "turned" after starting T. and like, i dunno, i just find it funny. like, i was already gay before testosterone, but like my god after starting it i became SUPER gay. when i was reading the informational papers my doctor gave me explaining effects of testosterone, right before i fully decided to start it, it said that, for some people, their sexuality literally changes, or at least gets more intense. some guys find out things about themselves that they never knew before. and like. i dunno. i just find that really interesting. and like. god i became SO much more interested in men after starting testosterone. before i started testosterone, i wondered if i might be asexual. a few years later, and now i can't get my stupid brain to stop being horny lol. almost every fucking day, for weeks at a time. it kinda just comes and goes. sometimes i'm not in the mood, and sometimes i can't stop thinking about it. lol. but the love of pretty men is ALWAYS there. the desire to just kinda stare at pretty shirtless men with beautifully flat chests. the love of facial hair. god, my love of facial hair grew. the very first moment i realized i wanted to be a man was when i realized that i wanted facial hair. i've loved moustaches and nice goatees for several years now. but FUCK when i see a man with a real nice moustache-goatee combo, a real sexy motherfucker. god damn. fuck, man.

god, part of me wants to just go on about what parts of men i love and how i like them, but like for some reason i want to stop there. just calm down a little. i feel like i might get too excited. might possibly embarrass myself if i reveal some things.

it makes me so fucking happy looking in the mirror and seeing a decent-ass moustache on my face. still trying to get the sexy goatee thing to work, it's not being very cooperative, but i'm making progress. and the moustache is a little thin, but it's getting there. definitely an official moustache by now. and that's so much better than when my face was a barren ugly little desert. i mean, shit-loads of men are still gorgeous without facial hair, but like MY face is ugly and pudgy and too round and i look like a fucking 17-year-old, so the facial hair has been a huge improvement. it still looks a little strange because of how youthful and soft i look, but it's a hell of a lot better than it was before. so that makes me happy.

[rainbowsnoodles]

i also really love getting distracted by beautiful men. thank you, testosterone. thank you for helping me better appreciate the fucking gorgeous beauty of certain kinds of men. it makes enjoying certain styles of art so much better. they're so god-damn gorgeous, god damn it.

[rainbowsnoodles]

man i love testosterone. just makes me do dumb shit like watch a video purely because it had a pretty guy in it regardless of the actual content and purpose of the video. just saw a pretty dude and clicked. i mean, the video turned out to be cool, but like that WAS NOT the reason i was there and i still would've enjoyed it even if i didn't give a shit about the topic. i love men. :)

earlier today i watched a video about a trans guy talking about the effects of testosterone, and even earlier than that i saw a reddit post from a girl asking if it was common for trans guys to "turn gay" once they go on testosterone because her boyfriend dumped her for that reason and she'd also heard of another trans man who also suddenly "turned" after starting T. and like, i dunno, i just find it funny. like, i was already gay before testosterone, but like my god after starting it i became SUPER gay. when i was reading the informational papers my doctor gave me explaining effects of testosterone, right before i fully decided to start it, it said that, for some people, their sexuality literally changes, or at least gets more intense. some guys find out things about themselves that they never knew before. and like. i dunno. i just find that really interesting. and like. god i became SO much more interested in men after starting testosterone. before i started testosterone, i wondered if i might be asexual. a few years later, and now i can't get my stupid brain to stop being horny lol. almost every fucking day, for weeks at a time. it kinda just comes and goes. sometimes i'm not in the mood, and sometimes i can't stop thinking about it. lol. but the love of pretty men is ALWAYS there. the desire to just kinda stare at pretty shirtless men with beautifully flat chests. the love of facial hair. god, my love of facial hair grew. the very first moment i realized i wanted to be a man was when i realized that i wanted facial hair. i've loved moustaches and nice goatees for several years now. but FUCK when i see a man with a real nice moustache-goatee combo, a real sexy motherfucker. god damn. fuck, man.

god, part of me wants to just go on about what parts of men i love and how i like them, but like for some reason i want to stop there. just calm down a little. i feel like i might get too excited. might possibly embarrass myself if i reveal some things.

it makes me so fucking happy looking in the mirror and seeing a decent-ass moustache on my face. still trying to get the sexy goatee thing to work, it's not being very cooperative, but i'm making progress. and the moustache is a little thin, but it's getting there. definitely an official moustache by now. and that's so much better than when my face was a barren ugly little desert. i mean, shit-loads of men are still gorgeous without facial hair, but like MY face is ugly and pudgy and too round and i look like a fucking 17-year-old, so the facial hair has been a huge improvement. it still looks a little strange because of how youthful and soft i look, but it's a hell of a lot better than it was before. so that makes me happy.

[rainbowsnoodles]

is that.. is that side boob i see there, sir?..

[rainbowsnoodles]

Vi from Arcane just watched me do my testosterone shot.

[rainbowsnoodles]

Viktor R. Cane has now also witnessed me injecting myself. they're my shot buddies now.

[rainbowsnoodles]

i just bought a figurine of my waifu (viktor arcane) and i'm so fucking happy. it's the fucking pop mart blind box one and i don't give a shit that i've seen several people shit on the paint jobs of these things i don't care he's beautiful to me. his paint may be mediocre but i still have viktor merch sitting in my room right now, i'm so fucking happy.

this and a couple other things i bought recently are the first pieces of merch i've ever bought of something i was really into, so i'm really excited. now.. because i finally have a little extra money to spend after so much time financially struggling.. now i'm so fucking tempted to buy a full-body viktor figurine, maybe even one of his season 1 version, i saw a few really beautiful ones being sold on etsy. but there are a few problems keeping me from doing that. the packages my roommates and i have been getting have been getting dug through by some shitty thief in our neighborhood, i have nowhere to put a cool beautiful figurine because i have barely any furniture in my room & i don't know when i'll be able to finally get some kind of shelf or something to put stuff like that on, AND a lot of the figurines i want are really fucking expensive and while i may be making more money than i ever have before, i'm still not making that much and i still need to be careful with my money. so like, i'm SO happy to finally have a viktor in my room, i genuinely thought i wouldn't be able to afford something like this for a long time, but now i'm kind of getting greedy and i want more but i can't get more lol. damn it. whatever. i'm happy.

[rainbowsnoodles]

Vi from Arcane just watched me do my testosterone shot.

[rainbowsnoodles]

my phone is like a black hole with how it shlorps up any picture i find of Viktor Arcane shirtless or partially naked.

[rainbowsnoodles]

i wish my waifu (Viktor Arcane) was real

[rainbowsnoodles]

MANHANDLE THAT TWINK!

[rainbowsnoodles]

FUCK- oops i mean SMOOCH THAT OLD MAN!

[rainbowsnoodles]

i need to share these important vocabulary words, get them out into the open space of the internet in case something happens to me. i need someone to know these words.

"goochie" = guy coochie

dwink = dilf twink

i need you to remember these words. they're very important words. you need to add them to your vocabulary. don't forget these words. ok bye.

[rainbowsnoodles]

i'm so sorry to say this to you, but this fucked up thought just entered my brain and so now i also have to subject you to it.

jinx is evil hatsune miku.

[rainbowsnoodles]

jayce wearing eyeliner.

yes? no?

i'm thinking yes but i'm not completely sure. i feel like i might need to see it to really say for sure but i can't draw for shit. how sad.

i feel like i need to see it on both pre-traumatization jayce and traumatized jayce (short hair and long hair). but which one would it look better on?. hmm.. if only i could draw so i could find out...

[valtsv]

been thinking about fantasy/scifi rule systems and free will

[rainbowsnoodles]

i thought it said "angle rules" at first, and i saw the triangle, and i thought it was gonna talk about angles and triangles and shapes and stuff.

am i stupid? is this the end for me?

[rainbowsnoodles]

you want to bear his child, i want him to bear my child. we are not the same.

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Since the script for season 2 already exists, they should just film it using their phones and what not and release it on YouTube or something. I'll watch it even if they make it using the camera of a Nokia phone with a keyboard.