synopsis: female hockey player x male hockey player
song aesthetic: sugar talking by sabrina carpenter
By the time I reach the rink, itâs empty.
The overhead lights hum faintly, reflecting off the ice in that too-bright way that makes everything feel colder than it already is. The stands are dark, abandoned.
Coach Jensen stands by the benches, head down, focused on a clipboard.
I recognise him immediately. I looked over the roster before coming here - the names, their stats, anything to make this feel less like a blind jump. Chad Jensen. Mid-thirties, maybe pushing forty. Hard to tell. Heâs got that coach look. He's got short hair, a Hawks hoodie on, and a posture like heâs always assessing something, even when thereâs no one here.
He already has a solid team this season. What with Phil Grahamâs son as their star center and new captain. Phil Graham was a forward for the New York Rangers, and his son is predicted to follow in his footsteps. I only know this because my dad took me to a game years ago, when we were visiting my grandparents in Manhattan. He scored 2 goals against the Philadelphia Flyers, and the game ended 3-0.
âCoach,â I call. My voice echoes more than I expect.
He looks up, eyes landing on me like Iâm something out of place. Which, I guess, I am.
âWhat can I help you with?â Straight to the point.
I hesitate for a second. I hadnât really planned what I was going to say once I got here. Briar doesnât have a womenâs hockey team. A lot of collegeâs donât. Not unless thereâs enough interest. Not unless itâs worth the investment.
âYou here for the tryouts?â His gaze flicks to the sports bag slung over my shoulder.
âYes.â The word comes out thinner than I want it to.
âYou brought skates?â
I nod. Of course I did. Theyâve been in my bag all day, heavier than they should be. Like they knew I wasnât sure Iâd actually use them. He doesn't say anything about me being a girl.
âShow me what you got, then.â No reaction. No judgement. Nothing. He just waits. It takes me a second to realise heâs not going to say anything else. That he's waiting for me to do something.
Right.
I crouch down and pull my skates out. Theyâre still too new. Barely broken in. My dad bought them over a year ago, before everything - before I stopped, before I decided I was done.
I lace them up quickly, fingers moving on muscle memory alone, then step onto the ice. It feels wrong at first. Not having any gear on, the stands being so empty. No teammates. Just the sound of my blades cutting into the fresh ice and the echo that follows. I push off slowly, testing it. Letting my weight settle. Itâs been a while. Long enough that I almost forgot how it feels. Almost.
It comes back quicker than I expect. A few laps, then a few more. My stride evens out, edges digging in clean, familiar. My body remembers what my headâs been trying to ignore. I stop by the benches, a sharp spray of ice kicking up as I come to a halt. Coach Jensen reaches down and grabs a stick from the pile left behind. He still hasnât mentioned that Iâm late. Itâs been, what - thirty minutes since tryouts ended? I was here. I made it. I just⊠didnât go in.
I stood outside like an idiot, staring at the doors like they were going to make the decision for me. I applied to Briar fully ready to be done with hockey. Told myself it was just a high school thing. Something I used to do. Something that didnât matter anymore.
Freshman year, I didnât think about it once. Classes, parties, watching football games. Repeat. And now Iâm here. Back on the ice. In front of a coach whoâs waiting for me to prove something Iâm not even sure I still have.
I grab the stick and push off again before I can think about it too much. Grab a puck from the pile and carry it over to the blue line.
I wind up and take the shot. Itâs not my strongest. The contactâs slightly off, but the puck still rockets forward, slamming into the back of the net with a satisfying crack.
Good enough.
I donât stop moving. Forehand, quick adjustment, wrist shot high glove. The rebound kicks out and Iâm already there, shifting my weight, snapping it low blocker before it settles. I circle back, picking up speed through the neutral zone. Cut in tight. Toe-drag across my body, smooth, controlled, release. Top shelf.
My edges bite hard as I stop, pivot, and come back the other way. This time I skate in like a breakaway. Fake forehand, pull it to my backhand, and lift it just under the bar.
It slides in clean.
Of course it does. Iâve done this a thousand times before. I just forgot.
Forgot how it feels when everything lines up. When your body moves without hesitation. When the ice feels like the only place you actually make sense.
I slow to a stop, breath steady, chest rising just enough to remind me Iâm still here. Still-
I glance up. Coach Jensen is leaning against the boards, watching me. Really watching me. He gestures me over. I skate back, slowing as I reach the bench. âWhatâs your name?â He asks.
âFaith.âI hold his gaze, trying to read something in his expression. Anything. But I get nothing.
âWell, Faith,â he says, âwhereâd you learn to skate like that?â
âAshford Academy,â I answer. âI was on the varsity womenâs team. Itâs a high school in Michigan.â I add in the last bit as Iâm not sure how familiar he is with high school womenâs hockey. Most likely, not very.
âA good one too,â he says. âScott OâReily went there, right?â That catches me off guard. I nod. âYeah.â Scott was signed at 18 by the Edmonton Oilers and is one of our few alumni who currently play in the NHL. He mustâve noticed my surprise because he chuckles as he takes the stick from my hands.
âYouâre not bad, Faith.â A pause. âWhat made you choose Briar?â How come you didnât pick a college where you could actually play is what he really wants to say. And heâs not wrong for thinking that. I received an offer from the University of Michigan. Their womenâs team is relatively strong, winning their fair share of playoff titles. Itâs a Division 1 team. Playing for them had long been a dream of mine. But instead I ended up here. Trying out for a Division 1 menâs team. Itâs almost completely unheard of. No way they would risk having a woman on their team. Not with them potentially making it as far as the Frozen Four this year.
âI actually came here to study Biology⊠Thatâs my major.â I say instead. Iâm not sure what else to say. After what happened during my senior year I put hockey behind me. I focused on my studies and having a strong GPA. I barely scraped by as top 15% of my class, but luckily Ashford wasnât exactly brimming with students ready to study natural sciences. A lot of them were solely interested in hockey, and got by with a full-ride scholarship.
âBiology, huh.â Coach Jensen doesnât seem all that convinced. He studies me for a second. âMust be demanding.â
âYes, sir.â Silence stretches between us again.
âYou want to play for the Briar Hawks?â He asks eventually.
The question lands heavier than it should. Do I? I thought I had put it all behind me. But getting to step back on the ice had brought so many memories rushing back. Thereâs a reason I started playing hockey in the first place. My fatherâs always been a die hard Red Wings fan for as long as I can remember. Our home team based in Detroit. And as his only child, he taught me everything he knew on the ice. He never played in the pros himself, but he was a forward on his college team. Like me. And I know how much he loves the sport. It didnât matter that I was a girl. Out on the ice it was just me and him, and our shared love for hockey.
âHockeyâs a very demanding sport, Miss Faith.â He continues when I donât respond. âBrutal, sometimes. And Iâm sure youâve seen our boysââ he glances out toward the empty rink, like he can already see them there ââtheyâre very... aggressive.â
âIâve been playing since I could walk.â I say. A small breast of a laugh escapes me. âI know what Iâm getting into.â
He nods slowly. âSo you know how competitive it is. How hard it is to make a D-1 roster. Hell, some of the kids who come here - talented kids - donât even make it onto the team. I only allow the best of the best to represent us.â
âIâm aware, sir.â
âAnd Iâm sure youâre also aware we donât have a womenâs team.â His tone shifts slightly. More deliberate now. âAlthough technically we are required to provide equal athletic opportunities for everyoneâŠ" he sounds like he's reciting from the school's website. "Which means weâre required to allow tryouts. Not to offer spots.â I nod again. I know exactly what this is. A technicality. A courtesy.
âBut,â he adds, tapping the clipboard lightly, âas it seems, you missed tryouts.â
Thatâ that hits me harder than anything else heâs said. My stomach drops. âOh.â Brilliant response.
âIâm sorry, Faith. Maybe next year.â He gives my shoulder a brief pat before looking back down at the clipboard, like the conversation is already over. I glance at the page. Names. Lines. Decisions already made. People who showed up on time.
I unlace my skates in silence, fingers moving slower than they did earlier, like somethingâs weighing them down now. I shove them back into my bag a little harder than necessary. My eyes sting, and I blink it away immediately. Absolutely not.
Iâm not even sure why Iâm this upset. Even if Iâd made it in on time, I probably wouldnât have made the team. No way a group of D-1 guys would just accept a girl skating alongside them. Maybe as a benchwarmer, I think bitterly. If that.
By the time I get back to my dorm room, itâs empty. The room feels quieter than usual without Alexa in it. Too still. Too⊠mine. Weâve been roommates since freshman year. Met during freshers week when we realised weâd been assigned the same room. Sheâs a biology major too, somehow surviving the same workload I am, but everything about her is the complete opposite. Alexa lives like nothing bad has ever touched her. All sunshine and rainbows. Someone who doesnât automatically assume the worst.
Itâs only 5pm, so sheâs probably still at the library. The place where we unfortunately find ourselves most evenings these days. Organic Chemistry 1 has really been kicking our asses lately. Which makes me even more worried for Organic Chemistry II next semester. Our professor seems adamant on breezing past the topics without stopping long enough for anything to actually sink in. Then assigns about two hundred pages of reading like thatâs reasonable. And the labsâ Three hours of recrystallization this Tuesday. It was brutal. And Iâm pretty sure I still smell like ethanol.
I drop my pink sports bag by my bed and let myself fall back onto the mattress, staring up at the ceiling. I should probably change, but after my disastrous tryout that wasnât even really a tryout today, I canât be bothered. Instead I grab my phone and find a bunch of unread messages from the group chat. Livvy and Isla are already talking about some football after-party tonight. Itâs Friday night and the team just got back from some game. Judging by the noise I passed on the way here, Iâm guessing they won. Iâm not really in the mood. But maybe thatâs exactly why I should go. Some cheap tequila to drown my sorrows in, and a cute guy to hookup with.
I havenât been going out much lately. Not that Iâm super against them, I just donât have the time. Or energy. It seems like I donât have much time for anything these days. I tried the whole relationship thing last year. It didnât stick. We barely saw each other much during the semester, and when summer came around, I realised I didnât actually miss him. Not in the way youâre supposed to. James was⊠fine. Nice. Too nice, sometimes. Like he was waiting for me to turn into this version of a girlfriend that didnât exist. Someone whoâd show up to all his games, smile on cue, stand beside him while he showed me off to his teammates.
Heâs a wide receiver for Briar football. Which is exactly why Iâm not thrilled about the idea of a football frat party tonight. Heâll be there. And if the rumors are true, he wonât be alone. Not that I blame him. Itâs been two months.
Iâm just about to come up with an excuse not to go when the door slams open.
âFay!â Alexa bursts in like sheâs been holding in energy all day and finally has somewhere to put it. She drops her books onto her desk in a messy pile that definitely isnât staying contained for long. While Briar U might be known for their extensive sports programmes, theyâre not exactly the best when it comes to housing. While freshmen usually have to share rooms, thereâs not enough suites to go around for the older students. Which means a lot of the sophomores still have to share a room. Luckily, they were lenient enough to let me and Alexa share a room this year too. The room is split cleanly down the middle. Her side is chaos. Clothes draped over her chair, her desk covered in makeup and hair products she somehow uses all at once, fairy lights strung unevenly along the wall. Polaroids taped up above her bed â friends, family and a few of her familyâs dog Camille. Her bed is unmade, as it is most days. She claims thereâs no point fixing it if sheâs just gonna mess it up again. I gave up arguing about that months ago.
My side isâ different. Everything has a place. Clothes donât touch the floor. Ever. My desk is clear, my bed made, everything where itâs supposed to be. If itâs not, it feels wrong. Like the whole dayâs off before it even starts.
âYou coming out with us tonight?â Alexa asks, already halfway across the room. She must see the hesitation on my face because she rushes to add, âI promise itâll be fun. And I wonât leave you. At all. And Iâll make sure James doesnât come anywhere near youâ unless you want him to, obviously, I mean do youââ
âIf I say yes, will you stop talking.â She freezes. Then grins.
âYess!â She launches herself onto my bed, and I immediately shove her off. She barely even protests as she tumbles onto the floor, laughing. Absolutely not. God knows where her clothes have been. Probably all over that senior sheâs been hooking up with lately. Apparently the hottest man alive, if Alexaâs to be believed.
âIs Dean gonna be there?â I ask, raising an eyebrow. She lights up instantly. âOf course heâs gonna be there. Thatâs how I found out about the party.â
Of course it is. I bite back a comment. Iâve heard enough about Dean to know exactly how this ends. Heâs been all sheâs been able to talk about lately. I donât want to ruin things for her, but from what Iâve heard, heâs a massive player. She says she doesnât mind, but Iâm not so sure anymore. I know as soon as he moves onto the next willing puck bunny, sheâs gonna spiral and be heartbroken for a year. And then Iâll be left to pick up the pieces. Not that I mind. After only knowing her for a year, Iâve learnt that thereâs not a lot I wouldnât do for this girl. And if that includes kicking some hockey playerâs ass then so be it.
âFine,â I sigh. âBut only because I need to forget how terrible today was.â
Her expression shifts immediately. âOh shit. That was today?â I stare at her. Not like I had spoken about it almost everyday for the past week. âYes.â
âWhat happened? Did they not want you?â
âI was too late.â The words come out flatter than I expect. âI couldnâtââ I stop, exhale. âI couldnât get through the door. And when I did, the coach let me skate, but⊠that was it. Said I could try again next year.â There it is. That tight feeling in my chest cracks just enough for everything else to slip through. I blink hard, but it doesnât help. âI know I wasnât going to make first line or anything,â I add quickly, like I need to justify it. âBut I thought maybe â bench, at least. Something.â Because I know Iâm good enough. Even now. Even after a year off. âI couldâve played,â I say quietly.
Alexa sits up from the floor, frowning. âThat really sucks,â she says. Then, after a second, âIs it because youâre a girl?â
âNo. I donât know.â I swallow. âMaybe.â
âThatâs so messed up. They should have a womenâs team. Hockeyâs huge here, thereâs no way youâre the only girl who wants to play.â Sheâs not wrong.
âCan we just get ready?â I wipe at my eyes before anything actually falls. âI wanna get drunk.â
Alexaâs grin is instant. âYou donât have to ask me twice.â
Two hours later, we end up at Islaâs boyfriendâs house. His parents live in Hastings, only a 30 minute drive from campus. And even closer to Greek Row. They live in a nice Victorian house, and are currently away for the weekend. Which makes for the ideal pregame spot.
Music spills out the second we step onto the porch, bass heavy enough to feel in my chest before we even get inside. The front door is wide open, people coming in and out like itâs a revolving door.
The house is already packed. Not in an overwhelming wayâjust enough people to fill every room with noise and movement. Leoâs friends arenât all football or frat guys, but they carry the same kind of energy. Loud, easygoing, already a few drinks in. Iâm still on my first. Vodka cranberry, mostly ice at this point. I take small sips, letting it last. I know myself well enough to pace it. It doesnât take much for me to go from fine to tipsy, and Iâm not trying to peak before we even get to the actual party.
Alexa, on the other handâ Already gone. Sheâs halfway standing on the coffee table, arguing with some guy over the speaker. Theyâre both leaning over it like itâs a life-or-death situation, voices raised over Pitbull blasting through the room. âYou cannot skip this!â she insists, pointing at the screen.
âItâs been playing for three minutes!â
âAnd it should play for three more!â
They both have such similar taste in music, Iâm not sure what the point of this feud even is.
Livvy drops into the chair beside me, her curls bouncing slightly as she settles in. She opens her mouth to say something, but Iâm not in the mood to talk. Not yet. I down the rest of my drink instead and stand up. âRefill,â I say, gesturing vaguely toward the kitchen. She nods like she gets it.
The kitchen is blissfully empty. No music blasting directly into my skull, no bodies pressed too close. Just the hum of the fridge and the faint echo of the party bleeding in from the other rooms. I hop onto the counter, legs tucked in slightly and grab the nearest bottle. Vodka again. This time I mix it with the lemonade sitting by the sink. Itâs warm. I canât seem to get myself to care.
âFaith, right?â The voice comes from the doorway. I glance up, blinking once as my eyes adjust from the bright overhead light. Itâs harsher in here, washing everything out, making him look sharper around the edges. Heâs leaning against the frame like heâs not sure if heâs interrupting or not. Dark hair, slightly messy. Clean jawline. The kind of face thatâs just⊠easy to look at. Heâs holding a red cup loosely in his hand, fingers relaxed around it like heâs not paying much attention to it at all. Heâs cute. I donât say that out loud.
âYeah,â I answer after a second, not moving from where Iâm sitting. Thereâs a small pause before he pushes off the doorframe and steps closer, stopping just in front of me.
âYou into football?â he asks, nodding slightly toward my shirt. âI think Iâve seen you around.â
I huff out something that almost passes for a laugh. âHockey.â That gets a reaction. His eyebrows lift slightly, like that wasnât what he expected. âI donât really know much about it,â he admits. âSeems fun though.â
âIt is.â Short. Simple. I take another sip of my drink, letting the silence stretch just enough that itâs not awkward, but not comfortable either.
âFaith, there you are.â I turn at the sound of my name. Isla walks in, Leo right behind her, his arm already settling around her waist like it belongs there. She looksâ effortless. She really does look beautiful tonight, her reddish-brown hair pulled up into a slicked back ponytail. Sheâs got a black minidress on that compliments her body perfectly. I canât help but feel a bit underdressed compared to her. Iâve got a denim mini skirt on, with a cropped Detroit Lions shirt. I thought the football shirt would be fitting. While Islaâs got her platform heels on as always, I chose to wear my beat up white sneakers.
âReady to go?â Leo asks, pulling her back against him slightly. They make a cute couple. They started dating during freshman year, after becoming lab partners.
âYeah,â I say, hopping down from the counter and finishing my drink in one go.
Stronger than I thought. The room tilts for half a second, just enough to throw me off. I steady myself with a hand against the counter. Out of the corner of my eye, I catch the guyâs hand lifting slightly, like he was about to help, but he stops himself. I donât even know his name. I forgot to ask.
Alexa and Livvy appear as we head out, falling into step with us as we move through the house and out onto the patio. Halfway down the steps, I stop. Wait. Did Iâ âWait, I need to-â I forgot to check if I forgot to turn off the lights.
âFay.â Alexa cuts me off instantly. âI watched you turn them off.â I blink at her. Sometimes I swear she can read my mind. âRight.â I force the uncomfortable feeling away and keep walking.
The partyâs already in full swing by the time we get there. Music so loud it drowns out everything else, bass vibrating through the floor, through my chest, through my ribs. The whole place feels like itâs moving, like the walls are barely holding it together. Alexa leans into me, her voice loud in my ear. âSoâ how do you feel about Luke? Isla said you two were hitting it off earlier.â I laugh.
âI didnât even know his name until just now.â
She gasps like Iâve offended her personally. âSo what? Heâs hot. And he clearly likes you. You should go for it.â She nods toward the ping pong table. I follow her gaze. Heâs already looking at me. And the second he realises Iâve noticed, he looks away.
Subtle.
I look him over properly this time. Tall. Athletic. The kind of build that screams sports without being overly bulky. Strong arms, broad shoulders. He looks like he could be on the football team, but I donât recognise him. Not that I go to games unless I have to. Footballâs never really been my thing. Isla and Livvy dragged me into that world. Theyâre both varsity cheerleaders, thatâs how we met.
Back when I was still playing the role of supportive girlfriend, showing up to Jamesâ games, clapping at the right moments, pretending I cared. Isla introduced herself like sheâd known me forever. The rest just⊠stuck.
âGo,â Alexa mouths, nudging me toward the table. I go.
Luke grins when I step up beside him, handing me the ball. âYou wanna play?â
âIâm not very good,â I say.
Itâs a lie. A complete one. Iâm actually really good. It just feels weird stepping into their game like this. Like I donât quite belong here. They donât seem to mind. If anything, theyâre a little too interested. I lean over the table to line up my shot and catch one of them staring. Heâs looking down, clearly trying to get a better view of my ass. I scoff under my breath. Subtlety really is a dying skill.
He stands out immediately. Not because heâs trying to. Because he doesnât have to. Heâs bigger than any of the other guyâs crowded around the table. Not taller necessarily, though he has a few inches on most of them. Just broader. Built like someone who spends most of his life throwing his body at people for fun. His navy t-shirt stretches across his shoulders in a way that feels unfair, sleeves tight around biceps that look ridiculous under the dim frat-house lighting.
When he catches me looking, he doesnât even have the decency to look embarrassed. If anything, the corner of his mouth twitches.
Asshole.
His eyes are what catch me off guard, though. Bright blue. Theyâre fixed on me with an intensity that makes it obvious heâs not paying attention to the game anymore.
Or maybe he wasnât even paying attention in the first place.
I lean over the table to serve, and sure enough, when I glance up again heâs still looking. Not at my face.
My grip tightens around the ping pong ball as I pick it up from the cup it just landed in. Some men truly have no survival instinct.
âLogan,â one of the guys beside him says, snapping his fingers in front of his face. âYou gonna drink it or what?â
A few of them laugh.
Logan finally drags his attention away from me, and reaches for the cup. He downs it in one go. I roll my eyes as I toss the ball into the air.Â
The ball hits the table, ricochets off the edge, and disappears somewhere into the noise and bodies behind me. No one really reacts. The game keeps going like I didnât just lose track of what I was doing. I donât care. Or I pretend I donât. Because I can still feel it - his eyes. Loganâs. Burned into the side of my face even when Iâm not looking at him.
âAgain,â Luke says, sliding another ball toward me. I shake my head slightly. âLater.â My attention drifts before I can stop it. Across the room. And thatâs where I see him. James. Itâs like my brain lags a second behind reality, like it takes time to process that heâs actually here and not just some unlucky coincidence my alcohol is inventing. Except he is here. Leaning against the far wall, relaxed in a way I remember too well. Same easy smile. Same posture like nothing in the world has ever actually stressed him out. And next to himâ
Of course. A girl. Blonde. Perfectly curled hair. Short black dress, hand resting lightly on his arm like she belongs there without even thinking about it. Iâm not sure if this is the same girl Iâve been hearing about. Brooke.
Apparently, sheâs Jamesâ new girlfriend. The thought lands a second too late, like my brain was still hoping it wasnât real. My grip tightens around the edge of the table. Right, okay.
I take a slow sip of my drink. It doesnât taste like anything anymore. Just sweet and sharp and warm in the back of my throat. Alexa is somewhere behind me, laughing too loud at something. Livvyâs voice cuts through the music briefly, but it doesnât stick. Everything feels slightly too far away. And then I feel it again.
That weight. Loganâs attention. Still on me. He doesnât seem like the kind of guy who can keep his attention on something, or someone, for too long.
I donât know what expression Iâm wearing, but I fix it quickly. Flatten it out. Reset. Because I refuse to look like anything right now. James laughs at something the girl says. I catch it out of the corner of my eye and it hits worse than I expect it to.
Two months. Apparently thatâs all it takes.
âFaith,â Luke says, closer now. âYou good?â
âYeah,â I lie automatically. Except it comes out wrong. Too flat. Too late. I step back from the table. âI need another drink.â No one argues.
The kitchen is busier now than it was earlier, but I still push through it. Shoulders brushing past people I donât recognise, laughter bouncing off the counters, cups everywhere like no one plans on cleaning any of this up ever. I grab whatever bottle is closest. It burns a little more going down this time. Good.
Iâm not sure how many Iâve had at this point. Not enough to be gone, but enough that the edges of everything feel softer than they should. I turn around, leaning back against the counterâ
And there he is again. Logan. Like he just⊠followed. Heâs not leaning this time. Just standing there, hands in his pockets, watching me like heâs trying to figure something out without asking directly. âYou always disappear like that?â he asks.
I blink at him slowly. âLike what?â
âLike youâre about to bite someoneâs head off and then decide not to.â
A laugh almost comes out of me, but it dies halfway. âI wasnât doing anything.â
âMm.â He doesnât look convinced. Thereâs a pause. He glances past me, briefly, toward the noise of the party. Then back to me. âYou looked like you needed a break,â he says, quieter this time. That annoys me more than it should.
âIâm fine.â
âDidnât say you werenât.â
Another pause. This one stretches longer. Heâs too close in a way I didnât notice until now. Not invading, just present. Like he actually decided to stay in the same space as me instead of orbiting it like everyone else. And I hate that I notice that. Because I do. Outside, the bass shifts. Someone cheers too loudly. Glass clinks somewhere behind us. I finish my drink without thinking. Bad idea.
The room tilts slightly when I put the cup down. I steady myself on the counter again, slower this time. Loganâs eyes flick to my hand. âYouâre done for the night,â he says.
I let out a short laugh. âExcuse me?â
âYouâre done for the night.â
âI didnât realise you were in charge of that.â
âIâm not,â he says simply. âBut youâre not exactly steady right now.â
That makes something sharp flare in my chest. âIâm fine,â I repeat, but itâs weaker this time. Even I can hear it. He doesnât argue. Just studies me for a second. Then sighs like heâs made a decision.
âCome on.â
âNo.â
He raises an eyebrow slightly. âNo?â
âIâm not going anywhere with you.â
âFair,â he says. No offence taken. Which is worse somehow. âThen Iâll call you an Uber.â
âI donât needââ
I stop. Because I see him again. Not Logan. James. Still across the room. Still laughing. Still holding her hand like itâs nothing. And something in me just⊠tips. He hasnât even glanced my way once. Like I donât exist. Like what we had meant nothing to him.
I turn back to Logan too quickly. âYou know what,â I say, âactuallyânever mind.â
His brows knit slightly. âWhat?â
I step closer before I can think better of it. Too close. He doesnât move away. Which is the problem. Because now I can smell his cologne. Something clean. Something real in a room that suddenly feels too loud and too fake and too full of people I donât want to look at anymore. âNothing,â I say.
And then I grab his shirt and kiss him.
Itâs not graceful. Not soft. Not anything like it should be. Itâs messy and wrong and fueled entirely by vodka and anger and the fact that I just saw my ex with someone else. For half a second, he doesnât react. Then he movesâ
Not into it. Away. Carefully.
He pulls back just enough to break it, hands lifting slightly but not touching me. âHey,â he says, voice lower now. Steadier. âHeyâstop.â
I frown, blinking up at him. âWhat?â
âYouâre drunk.â
âIâm notââ
âYou are,â he says, not unkind. Just firm.
The words donât land immediately. Then they do. Heat crawls up my neck, embarrassment cutting through the haze for a second too sharp to ignore. He exhales once, like heâs trying to decide something. Then he nods toward the hallway.
âCâmon,â he says. âIâm taking you home.â
âI donât needââ
âYouâre going home,â he repeats, already turning slightly like he expects me to follow. And somehow, I do. Because the party suddenly feels too loud again. And James is still somewhere behind me. And Logan is the only thing that feels⊠steady enough to walk toward.
pairing: johnny storm/human torch x r!black cat/felicia hardy
fandom: marvel cinematic universe
word count: 1,7k (oneshot)
synopsis: enemies to lovers but he's a hero, and she's the villain
song aesthetic: talk by beabadoobee
You always liked rooftops.
High enough to stay hidden. Open enough to keep your options visible. The night wrapped around you like velvet â all shadows and silver moonlight â as you crouched on the ledge of a mid-rise apartment in Manhattan, eyeing your latest target through the skylight.
Diamonds. Vintage. Poorly guarded.
You sighed, bored already.
Then the air shifted. Heat bloomed at your back, subtle at first â like the opening of a kiln door â and your eyes narrowed before you turned, slowly, deliberately.
Hovering ten feet above the roof in a lazy, backlit arc of flame was none other than Johnny Storm. Shirtless, of course. Hair wind-blown and golden. Flames crackling at his fingertips like he thought it made him look cool.
It did, irritatingly.
âYou know,â he called down, voice smooth and bright, âmost people use the front door.â
You rolled your eyes. âAnd miss out on the cardio?â
He grinned and lowered toward you, landing a few feet away with a flick of flame that simmered into steam. He looked you up and down â leather, zipper, silver-lined gloves â and raised an eyebrow.
âWell, well. If it isnât the cityâs favorite cat burglar.â He folded his arms. âWhat are you stealing this time? High-end throw pillows?â
âTempting,â you said, standing from your crouch, your smirk sharp. âBut no. Just here to borrow a few trinkets. Iâll return them. Eventually.â
âYou know Iâm supposed to stop you, right?â
âYou could try.â
He took a step forward, flames licking around his boots. âI donât like thieves.â
You stepped toward him too, heel clicking against the concrete. âI donât like show-offs.â
He tilted his head, that cocky grin deepening. âGood thing Iâm incredibly charming.â
âAnd flammable,â you added dryly. âMust be hard keeping a girlâs attention when youâre one wrong touch away from setting her hair on fire.â
âOh, I keep their attention,â Johnny said. âJust ask anyone.â
You chuckled and slowly circled him, the way a cat might circle a bird â graceful, silent, taunting. âMm. I bet youâve got the phone numbers to prove it. All those poor women, so dazzled by the Human Torch they forget heâs got the emotional depth of a puddle.â
âThatâs offensive,â he said, mock-scandalized. âIâve got layers.â
He smirked. âExactly. Sweet, hot, and just a little dangerous.â
You rolled your eyes again â but it was harder this time to fight the twitch of a smile tugging at your lips.
âListen,â Johnny said, turning to face you as you paused near the roofâs edge. âYouâre not really gonna rob that apartment, are you?â
You shrugged. âNot if someone gives me a better offer.â
He raised a brow. âDinner?â
âCash.â
He laughed. âSee, now weâre talking.â
But his grin faded just a little, turning thoughtful. âWhy do it, though? Youâre clearly good at this. Why not use your skills for something that doesnât involve... felonies?â
You leaned in, your breath brushing his jaw. âMaybe I like things that sparkle.â
His throat bobbed, eyes locked on yours. âYou would.â
âI bet you do too,â you whispered.
There was a long pause.
Then Johnny stepped back â not out of fear, but restraint. Barely. âYouâre trouble.â
âAnd youâre late to the party.â
âYou know Iâm going to have to stop you,â he said again, voice quieter now.
You gave him a little wink. âThen catch me, hotshot.â
And with that, you backflipped off the edge of the building, a grappling line catching the nearest ledge as you vanished into the dark.
Johnny cursed under his breath and flared into flame, launching off the rooftop after you â not out of duty, not really. But because he couldnât help himself.
After all, nothing burned quite like curiosity.
The diamond sparkled between your gloved fingers, cool and perfect in the low light. You stood near the floor-to-ceiling window of a lavish, barely-lived-in penthouse â the kind rich people bought just to say they had. The place was still. Empty. Quiet in that expensive way, like money muffled sound.
You slipped the gem into the velvet pouch at your hip and turned, already halfway to the skylight, whenâ
âTook your time,â came a voice behind you.
You froze.
Then turned slowly â and sure enough, there he was.
Johnny. Leaning against the doorframe like heâd lived here his whole life, arms crossed, golden hair tousled, flame still faintly glowing beneath his skin like a low simmer. The soft orange flicker lit the shadows in his face, casting a halo over his shoulders.
You blinked, genuinely surprised. âHow the hell did you find me?â
He tilted his head, one brow arched. âPlease. Youâre many things, Hardy â quick, flexible, annoyingly smug â but not unpredictable.â
You narrowed your eyes. âYou stalking me now?â
âJust keeping tabs on a known criminal.â His voice was playful, but there was something sharper underneath. Something he was trying not to show. âDidnât think youâd be stupid enough to hit another target tonight.â
You smirked, stepping out from the window and into the ambient glow of the apartmentâs overhead lights. âI like to keep busy.â
âI noticed.â His gaze flicked to the bag on your hip. âSo. That what I think it is?â
âMaybe,â you said sweetly, walking slowly toward him â hips swaying, smile just a little too sharp. âYou here to take it back, Officer Storm?â
His eyes tracked your every step like he couldnât help it. âYou really want me to play the hero card right now?â
âWhy not?â you purred. âItâs what you do best, right? Punch the bad guy. Save the day. Flash a grin for the camera.â
His jaw tensed. âIs that what you think I am? Some fire-powered pretty boy who doesnât think past his own reflection?â
You didnât answer â not with words. Just stopped a few feet away from him and tilted your head. âYou tell me, hotshot.â
There was a beat.
A long, quiet, charged beat.
Then he took a single step forward. Close enough to feel the heat rolling off his chest. Close enough that you had to tilt your chin to meet his gaze.
âI think you like the game too much,â he said, voice low. âYou like being chased.â
âAnd you like doing the chasing.â
âOnly when itâs worth it.â
Another pause. Tension thick like honey between you.
Then your hand brushed his chest â not softly, not affectionately, but like a dare. Like you wanted to see if he'd flinch. He didnât.
âYouâre not gonna stop me,â you whispered.
âYou sure about that?â
âYeah.â You leaned closer, your lips nearly grazing his, your breath mingling in the space between. âBecause if you were really here to stop me... you wouldnât have waited until after I stole it.â
His breath caught â just barely.
Then, suddenly, he was touching you â hands at your waist, firm, grounding. His eyes didnât leave yours. âYouâre exhausting, you know that?â
âYouâre flammable,â you breathed, looping a finger into the collar of his jacket. âBut you still came back for more.â
Silence fell again â not empty, but dense with everything you werenât saying. You hated him. Or were supposed to. He was everything you werenât. Flashy. Loud. Good.
But he looked at you like he saw right through all of it. And maybe, just maybe⊠you didnât mind being seen by him.
âYou gonna kiss me,â you asked, voice barely above a whisper, âor arrest me?â
He smiled, slow and wrecked. âDonât tempt me.â
Then he kissed you.
It wasnât gentle. Wasnât polite. It was heat and teeth and a weekâs worth of pent-up frustration â of games and chase and too many close calls. His lips crushed against yours like he wanted to win, and you kissed him back just to prove he wouldnât.
Your back hit the wall with a dull thud, and Johnny was right there with you â heat and tension pressed into every inch of your body. His mouth was hot and urgent, fingers gripping your waist like you were slipping through smoke and he didnât want to let you go.
You tangled a hand in his hair, tugging just enough to make him groan â low, dizzy, like it knocked the wind right out of him. Your teeth grazed his lower lip, and that was all it took.
He slipped his hands down, palms rough against the smooth curve of your thighs, and in one swift movement, he lifted you â like you weighed nothing. The wall was cool against your back, his body hot against your front, and every time he rolled his hips forward, a noise escaped you that you couldnât hold back.
He kissed you deeper, tongue brushing your lips, and you let him in, breath caught somewhere between a gasp and a moan. Everything about him felt like fire â consuming, hungry, unstoppable.
To your left, a velvet couch glowed dark red in the low light. Johnny broke the kiss long enough to glance toward it, then didnât hesitate. He pulled away from the wall, still holding you close, and practically threw you onto the cushions â like he couldnât get you horizontal fast enough.
You landed with a soft bounce, heart pounding, and before you could catch your breath or make a snide remark, his shirt was gone â flung somewhere behind him â and he was climbing on top of you.
His elbows bracketed your face, holding his weight as he hovered, eyes flicking over every inch of you like he was memorizing the moment. Then his lips crashed into yours again, no warning, no teasing this time, like he couldn't stop himself.
His hand came up to cup your cheek, thumb brushing your skin, and it was too much â too fast, too good â and not nearly enough.
And for once, you didnât pull away.
You didnât want to.
You broke the kiss first, just enough to breathe, your voice breathless against his mouth. âYou still gonna turn me in?â
He grinned, breath hitching. âMaybe.â
âYouâd have to catch me first.â
He leaned his forehead against yours, chest rising and falling like heâd just sprinted through fire. âGod, youâre impossible.â
âAnd you like it,â you said.
He didnât argue.
But outside, the city buzzed. Sirens in the distance. Somewhere far below, the real world called. You both heard it â and you both ignored it.
Because right now, in this stolen sliver of time, it was just you and him. Felicia Hardy and Johnny Storm.
was thinking about writing something about johnny storm x reader. maybe a short story w some chapters. i have some ideas but am gonna wait til i see the new fantastic four movieđđ
synopsis: what's more high school than parties, fights, and kissing in the rain?
song aesthetic: head over heels by tears for fears
The lunch table felt louder than usual.
Jake was going on about the party this weekend â some seniorâs parents were out of town, and the plan was to âabsolutely wreck the place.â His voice carried, animated and bright, and everyone around him laughed like it was the funniest thing theyâd ever heard.
You tried to laugh too.
Tried to nod when his arm slid around your shoulders. Tried to smile when he leaned in and whispered something that was supposed to be flirty. But the words bounced right off you, like you werenât really in your body today. Just hovering a little outside of it. Detached. Watching the scene like a movie you didnât remember auditioning for.
Jakeâs hand rested low on your waist, thumb tapping lightly against the side seam of your skirt. You shifted slightly, subtle, not enough for anyone to notice â but you did. And lately, that was happening a lot.
He kept talking, oblivious. âSo I told Coach, right? Like, I was the one who called the play, not Drew. Thatâs why it worked.â
Someone tossed a chip across the table. Jake caught it in his mouth. The guys howled, and someone clapped him on the back like heâd just performed a miracle.
You looked down at your tray. You hadnât touched your food.
âHey,â Jake said, nudging you with his shoulder. âYou okay, babe? Youâre all quiet.â
You blinked. âYeah. Just tired.â
He grinned, kissed your cheek, and went back to talking to Drew about something to do with basketball.
Just tired.
It was easier than saying you were bored. Or confused. Or starting to feel like maybe you didnât fit here as well as you used to.
The cafeteria buzzed around you â voices echoing, sneakers squeaking on tile, lunch trays clattering â and thatâs when the air shifted. Just slightly. Like something tugged at the edge of your attention.
You didnât even need to look to know who it was.
Eddie Munson strolled past your table, same as he did every day. Worn leather jacket, denim vest, combat boots thudding against the tile like a rhythm only he could hear. His walk was unbothered. Confident in a way that wasnât about who liked him or who didnât â it was the kind of confidence that said, I already know who I am. You figure the rest out.
You noticed the same things you always did. The way his curls spilled into his eyes. The scattered rings on his fingers. The binder under his arm covered in Sharpie scribbles â band logos, D&D symbols, little doodles of dragons and skulls. He was chaos in a school full of rules. And you⊠well, you were a rule-follower. At least, you always had been.
âJesus,â Jake muttered under his breath. âDoes that guy ever wash his hair?â
A few people at the table laughed.
âBet he sleeps in that same damn jacket,â Drew added.
You didnât laugh. You were too busy watching Eddie out of the corner of your eye.
He didnât flinch at the comments. Didnât pause. Just gave a half-glance back, eyebrows raised, mouth twitching like he could say something, but didnât care enough to waste the breath. His gaze skimmed over the table.
Then landed on you.
Just for a second.
It wasnât a long look. It didnât linger. But it held. Long enough for your stomach to twist in a way that felt inconvenient. Long enough for your heart to thump louder than the cafeteria noise. Long enough that you looked away too fast, hoping no one noticed the heat rising in your cheeks.
But Eddie kept walking. Smooth, unrushed, like he had somewhere better to be â and probably did.
âYou hear me?â Jake asked suddenly, pulling your attention back.
You blinked. âWhat?â
He frowned a little. âI said you should stop by before the party. Derekâs bringing tequila.â
âRight. Cool.â
Jake smiled again like nothing was weird, like you hadnât just been caught staring at another guy mid-conversation.
And maybe nothing was weird. You were still here. Sitting beside your golden-boy boyfriend, surrounded by friends, wearing the same uniform youâd always worn.
But for the first time in a long time, it felt like a costume.
Like maybe it never really fit the way you thought it did.
Your fingers picked at the edge of your lunch tray. Across the room, you could just make out Eddie at his usual table â feet propped up on a chair, deep in some conversation with the younger kids from his club. His hands moved when he talked, expressive and wild. The others laughed, clearly entertained. And even from this far away, you could see it â that look in his eyes.
Like he wasnât pretending to be anyone.
Like he didnât have to.
âBabe?â Jake said again, touching your leg under the table.
You smiled too quickly, swallowing the rest of your thoughts. âSorry. Just zoned out.â
âBetter not be thinking about anyone else,â he said, joking, but not really. His hand slid up a little higher.
You pushed it gently back down, still smiling. âJust tired.â
And again, he let it go.
You took another peek across the cafeteria.
Eddie wasnât looking at you anymore.
But somehow, it didnât matter.
Because you were still thinking about the way he did.
Jake leaned against your locker like he always did â casual, cocky, with that half-smirk he wore like a varsity jacket. The hallway buzzed around you, students flooding out from seventh period, chatter bouncing off the tile like static. You tucked your books into your arms, fingers tight on the spine of your notebook.
âSo,â he said, drawing the word out, âparty tonight. Youâre still coming, right?â
You nodded automatically, out of habit more than desire. âYeah, I guess.â
He leaned in a little closer, his cologne too strong, too sharp for the stuffy hallway air. âNot just any party, though. Derekâs parents are out of town. All night. No rules.â
His voice dropped low like it was supposed to mean something. Your stomach twisted.
âRight,â you said, and your tone was probably too flat, too careful.
Jake didnât notice. Or maybe he didnât care.
âI mean, câmon, babe,â he added, flashing you a smile like he was handing you something special. âWeâve been together a while now. Everyoneâs gonna be there. And Iâve been thinking, maybe itâs time weââ
You shifted your books in your arms. âI donât know, Jake.â
He paused, annoyed. âDonât know what?â
âI justâdonât feel like doing anything big tonight. I thought it was just a party.â
âIt is a party,â he said quickly, eyes narrowing a little. âDonât make it weird. Weâre just having fun.â
You tried to step back, but your shoulder hit the locker. His hand brushed your arm. It wasnât harsh, but it was heavy enough to make your spine stiffen.
âLook,â he added, âwe donât have to make it a whole thing. Just⊠donât overthink it.â
You didnât reply. Your throat was tight.
The bell rang for the final period, and Jake rolled his eyes.
âIâll see you after,â he said, and in the same motion, turned and walked away. His shoulder bumped yours as he passed, just hard enough to knock your notebook from your arms.
You bent down quickly, cursing under your breath, heart still pounding. But before you could grab itâ
A pair of worn boots stopped beside you. Then a hand.
Long fingers, silver rings. Careful.
You looked up into Eddie Munsonâs face, his expression soft â not smug, not laughing. Just steady.
âYou okay?â he asked quietly, already stacking your notebook with your other books, handing them back like you mattered.
You nodded, your throat suddenly too dry. âYeah. Thanks. I⊠thank you.â
He glanced down the hallway where Jake had vanished, then back at you. âHe always that much of a dick, or just when thereâs an audience?â
You blinked. A breath hitched in your chest. âI donât know.â
Eddie shrugged lightly. Not dismissive, not cruel â more like he didnât want to push. âGuess Iâll see you around, cheerleader.â
He didnât smirk when he said it. Just gave you the tiniest hint of a smile, like he was letting you decide what the name meant.
Then he turned and walked off, boots scuffing gently along the tile.
You stood there a second longer than you should have, your pulse roaring in your ears. Then you turned, barely remembering to breathe, and ducked into the girlsâ bathroom as fast as your feet would carry you.
The bathroom smelled like strawberry lip gloss and drugstore perfume â cloying, too sweet, the way it always did after last period. You were fixing your hair in the mirror when the door creaked open behind you, and in came Camille â Drewâs girlfriend. Blonde, tall, too pretty for her own good, with a laugh that could either pull you in or tear you apart depending on her mood.
She spotted you and smiled, the kind that didnât always reach her eyes. âOh my god,â she said, sliding up beside you. âWas that Eddie Munson I saw helping you earlier? Jesus.â
You flushed instantly. âI dropped my notebook. He was just being nice.â
Camille popped a piece of gum in her mouth and blew a tiny bubble. âNice?â she repeated, grinning like it was hilarious. âGod, heâs such a weirdo. Like â metalhead dungeontroll nice? Câmon.â
You looked back at your reflection, pretending to fix a loose strand of hair. âHeâs not that bad.â
âHeâs literally the definition of that bad,â she said, then leaned in like she was sharing something sacred. âDonât tell Drew I said this, but he gives me the creeps.â
You didnât answer. Mostly because your stomach was still twisted from earlier â from Jakeâs hand on your back a little too low, the way he leaned in and whispered about the party tonight like it meant something else. Like you already owed him something.
Camille, oblivious or just uncaring, leaned against the sink. âAnyway,â she said, popping her gum again. âI finally did it.â
You blinked. âWhat?â
âWith Drew.â She grinned. âLast weekend. His parents were gone, and, yâknowâŠâ She trailed off, making a face that said duh. âIt was really good, actually. Better than I thought.â
âOh,â you said, trying to sound casual. âCool.â
Camille looked at you out of the corner of her eye. âYou and Jake havenât yet?â
You froze.
Her tone wasnât cruel. Just curious. Like she was asking if youâd tried a new lip balm. But still â the question hit too close, too sharp.
âI meanâŠâ you started, fumbling for words. âNot⊠like that.â
Camille raised her eyebrows, chewing slowly. âSeriously?â
You laughed awkwardly. âItâs not a big deal.â
She shrugged, sliding her lip gloss back into her bag. âI mean â youâve been dating for what, like four months? Thatâs forever in high school.â
You stared down at the sink. âYeah. I just⊠I donât know. I want to wait, I think.â
Camille rolled her eyes, but not in a mean way. âYouâre overthinking it. Weâre literally teenagers. Itâs supposed to be fun. And Jakeâs hot â if you donât do it soon, some other girl probably will.â
You looked up at her, that familiar weight pressing against your ribs. The one that always came when people said this is what being a girl means. When they said this is whatâs normal. Whatâs expected.
She didnât notice your silence â or didnât care. She just fluffed her hair and threw you a wink. âSee you at the party tonight, okay? Maybe weâll both get lucky again.â
And just like that, she was gone. The door clicked shut behind her.
You stood there, staring at yourself in the mirror. Your lip gloss was perfect. Your hair was curled just the right way. But none of it felt like you.
You werenât sure who you were supposed to be anymore.
By the time you arrived at the party, the bass was already thudding through the walls of Derekâs too-big house, the kind with marble counters and no parents for miles. Camille clung to Drewâs arm, laughing too loud, and Jake kept his hand glued to the small of your back like it was some kind of claim. You let him guide you through the front door, blinking against the flashing lights, the scent of beer and cheap weed clinging to the air like fog.
Someone shoved a Solo cup into your hand almost immediately â tequila, warm and sour â and Camille raised hers like it was a toast.
âTo Friday nights and bad decisions,â she giggled, and threw her head back to take a long sip.
You smiled weakly and took a small sip, just enough to wet your lips. Jake was already on his second, talking with Drew near the kitchen. Camille stayed close.
âYou need to loosen up,â she said, bumping her shoulder into yours. âSeriously, one drink wonât kill you.â
You glanced around at the crowd â bodies pressed close, music shaking the floor, laughter and smoke curling in the corners of the room. You felt dizzy already.
âI just donât really like tequila,â you said, trying to keep it casual.
Camille rolled her eyes. âGod, itâs not like youâre gonna die. Just drink it.â
You took another sip, deeper this time. The burn hit the back of your throat, and you winced, eyes watering slightly. Camille giggled and topped off your cup before you could protest, the tequila sloshing dangerously close to the rim.
âJakeâll like it if youâre a little tipsy anyway,â she added, like it was some kind of helpful advice. âBoys like that.â
Your stomach twisted, but you said nothing. You just nodded, half-listening, and took another sip â smaller this time. You didn't even like the taste, Camille had mixed it with cranberry juice which somehow made it taste worse, but it was easier than saying no.
Camille clinked her cup against yours and downed half of hers in one go. âYouâve gotta keep up, girl.â
You laughed weakly and took another sip, then another. It burned less now. Or maybe you were just getting used to it.
Someone passed by and bumped your shoulder. The music was pounding harder, and the lights from the living room strobed in and out of the hallway. You hadnât even realized you were sweating until you touched your upper lip.
Camille wandered off after that, laughing at something Drew whispered in her ear, and you were left standing there â sticky cup in hand, head starting to float just slightly. Not dizzy. Not wasted. Just loose. Like someone had untied the tension from behind your ribs and let it spill out.
You stood alone for a minute, letting the noise blur around you. You didnât even want to be here. The music was too loud. The air too warm. The tequila too strong. You werenât that kind of girl. The one who knew how to flirt and sway and drink like it didnât matter what anyone else thought.
You drained the last inch of your cup anyway and set it on the nearest table, wiping your hands on your jeans.
You wandered toward the living room, hoping for a breeze near the sliding door, or maybe a quieter corner where the lights werenât so harsh â when Jake found you again.
His grin was wide. His pupils blown. His arm slid around your waist with the kind of practiced ease that made you wonder how many girls heâd held like this.
âThereâs my girl,â he said, pulling you against his chest. âYou having fun?â
You nodded, though your head felt light, your knees a little unsteady.
He kissed you, warm and sloppy. It wasnât bad â not at first. Just familiar. His hands slid down your back and you let him, tried to ignore the spinning feeling building in your chest.
But then his fingers curled under the hem of your shirt. Then up. Too fast. Too much.
âJake,â you said, pulling back slightly, âI donât⊠I think Iâm too drunk.â
He just smiled, like that was the point. âThatâs perfect.â
Your skin went cold. You stepped back, but he held your wrist.
âI said no,â you repeated, firmer this time, trying to twist free. âI donât want to.â
âOh come on, donât be like that,â he said, tugging you toward the stairs. âYouâre fine.â
âIâm not,â you said, panic rising in your throat. âJake, let go of me.â
He sighed, annoyed now. âWhy are you acting like this? You were fine a minute ago.â
âBecause I said no.â
You yanked your arm harder, stumbling slightly, the world tilting too fast â and then, all at once, a voice cut through the haze.
âShe said let go.â
Jake turned just as Eddie Munson stepped forward from the crowd, eyes dark, jaw tight, fists clenched at his sides. He didnât look scared. He looked ready.
The contrast couldnât have been sharper â Jake in his designer polo, hair gelled to perfection, and Eddie in his black band tee and ripped jeans, his fingers already curling like heâd been waiting for a reason.
Jake scoffed. âOh look, the freakâs here. What, you stalking her now?â
Eddieâs voice didnât waver. âNo. Just not a fan of guys who donât take no for an answer.â
âYeah,â Eddie said, stepping closer, âit does.â
âSheâs my girlfriend, Munson.â
Eddieâs eyes flicked to you â just a split-second, but enough to check. Enough to ask if that was still true.
âShe said she didnât want to go with you.â
Jake shoved him.
It was fast. A blur. But you saw it.
Eddieâs fist connected with Jakeâs jaw, sharp and clean.
The crack of it rang out over the music â loud, raw, ugly. Like the moment ripped straight through the party.
Jake staggered back, one hand flying to his face, eyes wide in disbelief. He hit the wall behind him with a dull thud, sliding slightly before catching himself.
âWhat the fuck?â he roared, blood blooming bright against his lip. âAre you serious, Munson?!â
Eddie didnât flinch. His shoulders were squared, fists still clenched, breath hard and fast like he hadnât even realized he was holding it. His curls fell loose in his face, wild and damp from the heat of the room.
âShe said no,â Eddie growled. âYou think that means keep going?â
Jake sneered, spit pink with blood. âYou donât know shit, freak. This doesnât have anything to do with you.â
âYou laid hands on her when she told you to stop,â Eddie snapped. âThat makes it my business.â
Jake lunged, his fists tightening, but Drew jumped between them â arms out, palms up, the nervous kind of energy that said he was used to fights but not ones like this.
âJake, man, no â not worth it,â Drew said, shoving him back. âYouâre bleeding. Youâre drunk. Just chill.â
Jake jerked his arm out of Drewâs grip. âDonât touch me.â
âThen stop acting like a goddamn asshole,â Drew snapped back. âJesus.â
âGod,â Jake laughed bitterly, wiping at his mouth, âLook at this shit. Are you serious right now?â Jake suddenly turned his attention toward you, it took you a second to realize he was addressing you. âRunning off with him?â
Your name came out like a curse.
You were still frozen. Still clutching the hem of your shirt like it might hold you upright.
âDonât,â Eddie said sharply, stepping between you. âDonât talk to her like that.â
Jake tilted his head, smiling without humor. âWhat, you gonna hit me again, freak? Gonna take her back to your little dungeon trailer and play D&D while she cries about how mean I was?â
Eddieâs jaw twitched, but he didnât move.
âBet sheâs just another little tease anyway,â Jake added, voice louder now, like he wanted the whole room to hear. âPlaying shy till someone actually tries to give her what she wants.â
You flinched. Heat flushed your cheeks, your ears, your neck.
âFuck you, Jake,â you said, your voice shaking but loud enough to carry.
He stared at you. Like he couldnât believe youâd actually spoken.
âI didnât want that. You didnât listen. Thatâs not my fault.â
Jake scoffed. âSure. Whatever helps you sleep tonight, princess.â
âLetâs go,â Eddie said gently. His voice dropped low as he turned to you. âCâmon, Iâll walk you home. You donât have to stay here.â
You hesitated. People were still watching. The bass still pulsed through the floor. You could feel the weight of every stare, every whisper already forming.
âIâI donât want to cause a scene,â you said softly, embarrassed.
Eddie gave a humorless smile. âBit late for that, sweetheart.â
You cracked a tiny laugh â the kind that tasted like shame and relief at the same time. Then you nodded.
âI just wanna go home.â
âYou sure?â he asked, searching your face. âWe can find your friendââ
âIâm sure,â you cut in, voice firmer now. âPlease.â
Behind you, Jake muttered something under his breath â slut, maybe, it might have been bitch â but Drew stepped in again, pushing him back with a rough shoulder and a hard glare.
âGet a grip,â Drew muttered to Jake.
Eddie wrapped his hand around your wrist â not tight, just enough to ground you â and guided you through the crowd. The whispers followed, but you didnât look back.
Not at Jake.
Not at the house.
Not at what you were leaving behind.
You only looked at Eddie.
And for the first time all night, you felt safe.
The front door slammed behind you as Eddie led you down the porch steps, his hand still lightly wrapped around your wrist like he wasn't sure you'd keep walking if he let go. The street was darker out here, quieter. The distant thump of music faded into nothing behind you, replaced by the rustle of wind in the trees and the gravel crunching under your shoes.
You walked in silence for a few minutes, your heart still thudding too hard, your hands too cold. Eddie kept glancing at you out of the corner of his eye, like he wasnât sure if you were going to break or bolt. He was quiet too, but it wasnât an uncomfortable quiet. It was⊠thoughtful. Like he was giving you space to breathe.
After a few blocks, he veered slightly off the sidewalk, nudging your shoulder. âCâmon,â he said, nodding toward the woods. âShortcut through the trees.â
You hesitated, glancing at the line of tall dark pines rising behind the houses. âSeriously?â
âItâs not haunted,â he promised, grinning. âWell. Maybe just a little. Depends on how cool you are with raccoons.â
You raised an eyebrow. âRaccoons?â
âYeah, yâknow. The masked bandits of the forest. Local gang. Might try to mug us for snacks.â He shrugged like this was a completely normal concern. âWeâll have to establish dominance.â
That made you laugh â small and real â and he grinned like he was proud of himself for getting it out of you.
It was ridiculous, honestly, how quickly the weight in your chest had started to lift. How just a few words from him made everything feel better. Like everything that had happened at the party wasn't so important anymore.
âItâs just trees,â he said, nodding toward the narrow dirt path between them. âYouâre safe with me.â
The words hit deeper than they shouldâve. Maybe it was the way he said them â not dramatic or flashy, not performative â just steady. Sure.
You followed him in.
The trail was overgrown in places, but the moonlight peeked through the gaps in the trees, casting everything in soft silver. It was cooler here, the air sharp against your skin. You crossed your arms, mostly for warmth, and Eddie noticed. Without saying anything, he shrugged off his worn denim vest and handed it to you.
âYouâll freeze,â you said.
âIâve got layers,â he replied. âYouâve got goosebumps.â
You took it, letting the worn fabric settle over your shoulders. It smelled like him â faint smoke, motor oil, some kind of cologne â and it was oddly comforting. Familiar in a way Jake never managed to be.
After a minute, you spoke quietly. âThanks. For⊠back there.â
Eddie looked down at you, brow furrowed just a little. âYou donât have to thank me.â
âI do,â you said. âNo oneâs ever really⊠stood up for me like that.â
He exhaled, slow. âYou shouldnât need someone to. That guy was a dick.â
You gave a soft, bitter laugh. âYeah. He was.â
Eddie kicked a branch out of the way and slowed his pace so you could keep up. âYâknow, Iâve seen you with him before. And I always wondered if he actually saw you.â
You glanced over. âWhat do you mean?â
He shrugged again, but it wasnât careless. âYouâre not just some pretty girl in a cheer skirt. Youâre funny. Way smarter than any of those guys realize. You have this little nervous habit where you twist your ring when youâre overwhelmed. You do that when you answer questions in class, too â not that you need to, youâre always right â but I donât think you even notice.â
Your mouth parted, but nothing came out. Your fingers brushed the ring on your middle finger, and you looked down in surprise. He was right.
Eddie noticed. Jake never had.
âYou always sit with your back to the windows, like you donât like people watching you,â he continued, rubbing the back of his neck like he hadnât meant to say so much. âAnd when you smile, like really smile, it kinda ruins me a little.â
You stopped walking.
Eddie did too â only a few steps ahead now, the leaves crunching under his boots, hair silver in the moonlight.
You swallowed. âWhy do you pay so much attention to me?â
He turned back to face you, and his voice was quieter now. Less teasing. âBecause I see you.â
The breeze rustled through the trees, and for a second, all you could hear was the sound of your heart thudding in your chest.
âI saw you even when you didnât see yourself,â he added. âThat first week of school when you sat behind me in English, I thought you were gonna laugh at me. But you just asked to borrow a pen. And then you said thank you. That was it. That was the moment.â
You stepped forward, the words catching behind your ribs. âThe moment for what?â
He gave you a crooked smile. âThe moment I realized you werenât like the rest of them.â
You looked at him then â really looked. At the way his lashes curled long and dark over his cheekbones, the scar on his eyebrow, the softness in his eyes that didnât match the way people talked about him in the halls.
You had no idea what to say.
So you did the only thing you could think of.
You reached for his hand.
And he took it like heâd been waiting forever.
The world paused for a heartbeat â your hand in his, your pulse like a drum â and then the first drop landed. Soft. Cool. Right on your cheek.
You blinked up at the sky.
Another. And then another.
A few seconds later, it was pouring.
âShit!â you gasped, a surprised laugh bubbling up in your throat as the rain turned fast and sudden, soaking through your hair and clothes like the sky couldnât wait another second.
Eddie laughed too â a startled, real, chest-deep sound â and tugged your hand tighter. âCome on!â
You ran.
Your sneakers slipped slightly in the grass as you both sprinted toward the road, water smacking against the pavement and splashing up from puddles you couldnât dodge in time. You were soaked within seconds â hair plastered to your cheeks, makeup probably running, your shirt sticking to your skin â but you were laughing, and so was he.
It wasnât a perfect run. You tripped once and nearly lost your balance, and he caught you by the elbow, steadying you with a grin that made your stomach flip. You clutched his arm, breathless, dripping.
âThis is so gross,â you said through a laugh, rain catching in your lashes.
âGross?â he echoed, squinting at you, curls dark and flat now against his face. âThis is peak cinematic romance, sweetheart. I think this is where Iâm supposed to say something poetic and then kiss you like weâre in a John Hughes movie.â
You raised a brow. âYou mean, like... Pretty in Pink?â
âMore like Sixteen Candles. Rain, angst, unrequited love⊠Except Iâve got way better hair than Jake Ryan.â
You let out a laugh, half-shocked, half-swooning. âYou wish.â
And then you were both laughing again, so breathless you had to stop just before the sidewalk that led to your house. The porch light glowed a few yards away, blurred behind the curtain of falling rain.
You turned to run again â but Eddie didnât move.
You felt the tug first â his hand pulling you back â and then his arms sliding around your waist, warm even through the damp fabric of your clothes. Your breath caught as you turned to face him.
His eyes searched yours â wild, soft, all at once â water trickling down the curve of his jaw, over the tip of his nose, his lips pink and parted.
âIâve wanted to do this for a long time,â he murmured.
You didnât even have time to answer.
His mouth met yours in a kiss that was anything but soft. It was full of everything unsaid â every second heâd watched you from afar, every time he bit back a thought because he didnât think he deserved to say it out loud. It was hungry. Careful. Real.
Your hands flew to his shoulders, gripping his soaked shirt as you kissed him back. He tasted like rain and mint and something a little bit like courage. He tilted his head slightly, deepening it, one hand cradling the back of your neck like he was afraid to let go.
The world around you disappeared. No rain. No trees. No porch light. Just him.
The kiss broke for half a second â barely â and you gasped for air, your forehead pressed to his, both of you laughing breathlessly, dripping with rain and something that felt dangerously like love.
âYou realize this is insane, right?â you whispered, your voice shaking with adrenaline.
âYeah,â he breathed, brushing his thumb across your jaw, his smile lopsided and beautiful. âCompletely. But you kissed me back.â
You swallowed. âI know.â
And then you kissed him again.
Softer this time â less like lightning, more like a promise â and his fingers curled into your waist, pulling you closer.
Rain soaked you both down to your skin, but neither of you cared. Not even a little.
When you finally pulled apart, still grinning, still dizzy, he nudged your nose with his. âLetâs get you home before you melt.â
âToo late,â you said, laughing as he laced his fingers with yours again.
And this time, you didnât let go.
did you guys miss me??<33 i know it's been ages and im sorryyy, but im back ! w a long one too, excuse the mistakes it was written at 3am
will i ever stop writing about eddie x popular girl? probably not. maybe it's cause i was a cheerleader in high school and fell in love w the guy who introduced me to metallica and black sabbath
would love another warfare sam story from you! maybe one focusing on him and the others coming home/recovery. or one focused on the squad's deployment and dynamic before the events of the film?
Safe Now | Sam | Warfare
pairing: sam x r!girlfriend
fandom: warfare
word count: 1,3k (oneshot)
synopsis: a wounded soldier returns home to the girl who never stopped waiting
song aesthetic: here comes the sun by the beatles
The door didnât creak like it used to.
Sam paused with his hand on the frame, expecting the groan of old hinges, but there was only silence â soft, calm, unfamiliar. You mustâve oiled them. Or maybe replaced them entirely. He wasnât sure. All he knew was that everything felt slightly⊠off. Not in a bad way. Just different.
The kind of different that happens when time moves forward without you.
He stepped inside slowly, his boots brushing over the rug, his duffel bag still slung over one shoulder. The house looked just the same â familiar pictures on the wall, that dent in the floorboard from when you dropped your old stereo, the way sunlight drifted in through the living room blinds like it had nowhere else to be.
But it was quiet.
No shouting in the distance.
No hum of diesel engines or crackle of radios barking out orders.
No sandstorm in the air. No pressure in his chest.
Just the faint scent of rosemary and garlic. Something was simmering on the stove.
Sam let the bag slide from his shoulder. It hit the floor with a muted thud. His leg â the right one, the one that still ached on cold mornings â protested slightly as he shifted his weight. The doctors had told him it would keep healing, that he'd walk fine again eventually. But what they didnât say was how it would feel. How foreign it would be, moving through a world that no longer demanded survival from you every second.
His eyes scanned the space â the coat still hung on the hook, your sneakers by the door. There were flowers in a chipped vase on the table. The ones he always forgot the name of. Youâd told him once, on a lazy Sunday. You were wearing his hoodie, your hair twisted up in a messy knot, sitting cross-legged on the couch while reading out loud from some magazine article.
And now he was back. And you were here. Somewhere in this house, humming under your breath, like no time had passed at all.
Sam closed his eyes for a second. Took a deep breath. Let the warmth wash over him.
Thatâs when he heard it â your voice.
Not words. Just that little tune you always hummed when you were distracted. Off-key, endearing, the same one you sang while folding laundry or watering the plants. It floated through the air like the house itself was whispering:
Youâre safe now.
He turned the corner, breath caught in his chest, just in time to see you in the kitchen â towel in one hand, hair up in a twist, wearing one of his old shirts like it belonged to you more than it ever did to him. Which it did, in every way that mattered.
You looked up, expecting a quiet night. A pot on the stove. A moment of peace.
And there he was.
Sam. In the doorway. Thinner, yes. A bit pale. Shoulders straighter than you remembered â like he still hadnât unlearned the posture of a man on high alert.
But he was here. Whole.
The towel slipped from your hand. You didnât even realize it. Your breath caught. âSam?â
He smiled, slow and tired and completely undone. âHey, baby.â
You crossed the room without thinking. One heartbeat, two â and then your arms were around his neck, holding onto him like youâd collapse if you let go. He smelled like dust and sun and something vaguely metallic, but underneath it all â he still smelled like him. Like home.
âJesus,â you whispered, pulling back just enough to touch his face. âYouâre really here.â
âI told you Iâd come back,â he said softly, resting his forehead against yours. âYou never believed me.â
âI did,â you said. âI just didnât think it'd be so soon.â
He laughed. A real one, low in his chest. It made your heart jump. âIâm not going anywhere.â
Your fingers threaded into his hair â shorter than before, buzzed close, but still him. You touched the scar near his temple, your thumb brushing over it gently. Proof. Evidence. You didnât flinch. You didnât ask.
âI made soup,â you whispered.
Sam smiled. âOf course you did.â
âI burned the first batch.â
âWouldnât be home if you didnât.â
He let you lead him into the kitchen. You were so careful with him. Your fingers brushing against the sleeve of his jacket. The way you noticed his slight limp and adjusted your pace without saying a word. You tucked a pillow beneath his leg before he could ask, then wrapped his hand in yours like if you stopped touching him, he might disappear again.
He didnât say anything for a while. Just listened to the way the soup bubbled, the sound of your voice humming again, the soft clatter of silverware. He memorized it. All of it. The quiet, the warmth, the safety.
âYou oiled the door,â he murmured suddenly.
You blinked. âWhat?â
He glanced toward the hallway. âThe front door. It didnât creak.â
You looked surprised for a second, then smiled. âIt was squeaking like crazy. Figured it could use a little help.â
He nodded. But you saw the way his eyes softened â like it meant more than just a quiet hinge.
Dinner was slow and quiet. You sat beside him, knees touching under the table. Every time he winced, you noticed. Every time he smiled, your eyes lit up.
After, you pulled him to the couch. He stretched out carefully, back against the cushions, and you curled beside him, your head resting just over his heart.
âI used to lie here and picture this,â you whispered. âLike maybe if I imagined it hard enough, it would come true.â
Sam kissed the top of your head. âMe too.â
His fingers traced slow lines over your spine. You tucked your feet under his legs and leaned closer.
Outside, the last of the daylight melted into dusk. The trees swayed in the breeze. The radio played something soft and nostalgic. Time seemed to pause.
âIâm not going back,â he said after a while.
You froze. Lifted your head to look at him. âWhat?â
Sam looked at you â really looked. âIâm done. No more tours. No more sand or blood or sleeping with one eye open.â
âBut⊠I thoughtââ
âIâve thought a lot about it. About what matters.â He exhaled. âI know now.â
Your eyes filled. But your smile came easy. âYouâre staying?â
âFor good.â
You leaned forward and kissed him â slow, reverent, full of the months youâd lost and the life you still had ahead.
Later, when the world had gone quiet and the sky turned violet-gray, you led him upstairs. Helped him out of his shirt. Tucked the blanket around his waist. You kissed the scar on his chest like it was something sacred. Then you turned off the light and crawled in beside him.
The bedroom was warm with your shared breath. Outside, a storm threatened in the distance, but it didnât matter.
You pressed your cheek to his chest, listening to the steady beat beneath your ear.
His arms wrapped around you.
âCold?â he murmured, voice half-asleep.
âNo,â you whispered. âJust⊠happy you're here.â
He smiled against your hair. âMe too.â
A breeze slipped in from the window, lifting the curtain, brushing across your skin. Goosebumps rose. You closed your eyes and let it pass over you like a promise.
And when you looked at him again â this man whoâd left for war, whoâd been broken and rebuilt and still managed to smile at you like you were his whole world â you knew it would be okay.
Not perfect. Not easy.
But okay.
Because love had survived.
Because the storm had passed.
Because you were safe.
Together.
And outside, just beyond the glass â the sun was rising.
a little shorter than usual, hope u enjoy anon<3 lmk if u want this scenario for any of the other warfare boys
synopsis: an Iraqi med student is forced into a war she didnât choose, and falls for the soldier who never meant to stay
The afternoon sun slanted through the hospital roomâs half-closed blinds, casting long shadows over the cracked linoleum floor. The soft beep of machines and muffled footsteps outside were the only sounds that filled the quiet space. Layla sat close beside Samâs bed, her fingers gently brushing the blonde hair that had started to grow out away from his forehead.Â
His face was pale, almost translucent, the purple bruises around his eyes stark against his skin. His right leg was wrapped in layers of bandages â a heavy weight that tethered him to the bed. But in his eyes, there was a stubborn glint, the same fiery determination Layla had seen since the moment they met.Â
âYou think Iâll ever walk again?â Samâs voice was hoarse but laced with hope.Â
Layla smiled softly, trying to keep her own fear locked away. âI believe you will,â she said, her voice steady. âYouâre stronger than you know. Iâm here. I wonât leave you.â
He turned his head slowly to look at her, as if committing her face to memory. âLayla,â he whispered, âI donât want to lose you.â
Her chest tightened. It was the kind of moment sheâd never expected â in a war zone, in a hospital in the middle of chaos, with blood and pain all around them.Â
âIâm not going anywhere,â she promised, reaching out to clasp his hand gently.Â
The room seemed to hold its breath with them. The sharp, relentless world outside faded away for a while â just the two of them, fragile and real, holding on to the tiniest thread of hope.Â
Suddenly, the door creaked open.Â
Laylaâs hand slipped away from Samâs, almost instinctively. She turned slowly, heart tightening.Â
Her mother stood hesitantly in the doorway, her face etched with worry more than anger. Her dark eyes searched the room, finally settling on the two of them.Â
Layla rose carefully, stepping toward her mother, while Sam looked on.Â
Her motherâs voice was low but trembling, heavy with fear.Â
âLayla, maatha tafâaleen?â Layla, what are you doing?
Laylaâs throat tightened. She swallowed hard, trying to keep calm.Â
âAtakallameen maâahu? Hal taâarefeen annahu Amreeki? Huwwe âaduwwana.â Youâre talking to him? Do you know heâs American? Heâs our enemy.
Samâs eyes flicked between them, puzzled by the sudden tension.Â
Layla took a slow breath, stepping closer to her mother. âUmmi, huwa laysa âaduwwi. Laysa li.â Mama, heâs not my enemy. Not to me.
Her mother looked down for a moment, the worry softening her features.Â
âWalidik maat fi hadhihi al-harb. Kaifa yumkin an tansa thalik?â Your father died in this war. How can you forget that?
Laylaâs heart ached. She reached out as if to explain, but words felt too small, too fragile.Â
She spoke gently, âAna la ansa. Lakin Sam laysa âaduwwan. Qad qataâoo maâakum, maâana.â I donât forget. But Sam isnât the enemy. They fought with you, with us.
Her motherâs eyes filled with sorrow, her voice barely a whisper now. âAl-harb akhadhat minna katheeran. Al-hubb fi hadha al-waqt al-alam.â The war has taken so much from us. Love at this time is painful.Â
Layla nodded, feeling the truth in those words â the pain, the loss, the fear â but still, she couldnât stop the fragile hope rising inside her.Â
She looked back at Sam, who was still watching silently, too young and confused to understand.Â
âIâm not afraid, Mama,â she said softly in Arabic, though Sam couldnât hear. âLaysa akhaf, lahu, wala min hadhihi al-harb, wala min ma sayati.â Iâm not afraid, not of him, not of this war, not of what comes next.Â
Her mother reached out and touched her arm, a silent gesture of both warning and love.Â
âKuni hadhira, ya Layla.â Be careful, Layla.Â
Layla smiled sadly. âI will.â
The door closed gently behind her mother, leaving Layla alone with Sam once more â two souls caught in the storm, holding onto something fragile and real.Â
Layla stepped into the hallway, her head still full of her motherâs words. The air felt heavier somehow, like the weight of everything unsaid lingered in the spaces between.Â
She needed a moment. A breath.Â
Quietly, she padded down the corridor, past the rooms lined with thin hospital curtains, until she heard a burst of laughter â light, unburdened. Familiar.Â
Peeking into one of the open rooms, she found her little brother sitting cross-legged on the floor, crayons scattered around him, a sheet of paper smudged with bright red and green. Across from him, lying on her stomach, chin in her palms, was Allie.Â
âWait, wait,â Allie was saying with exaggerated seriousness. âYouâre telling me this is a dragon? No way. It has bunny ears.â
Samir laughed, a full-bodied, boyish sound that felt like sun on old stone. âNo! Itâs a special dragon. It listens with its ears.â
âOhhh,â Allie nodded solemnly. âThe hearing dragon. A rare species.â
Layla leaned against the doorframe, a smile tugging at her lips despite herself. She had no idea Allie spoke Arabic. And the Iraqi dialect, too. The brunette didnât seem like the type to bother learning someone elseâs language. But then again, most people in Ramadi didnât speak English.Â
She looked towards her brother. It had been so long since sheâd heard Samir laugh like that â not the brittle kind, not the nervous kind. A real laugh.Â
Allie looked up and spotted her.
âThere you are!â she said brightly in English, her eyes crinkling with warmth. âYour brotherâs a better artist than me, and Iâm very bitter about it.â
âI told her my dragonâs real,â Samir said proudly, still in Arabic, holding up his drawing like a flag.Â
Layla stepped into the room and crouched beside them. âThatâs the best dragon Iâve ever seen,â she said sincerely, brushing a hand over his hair.Â
Samir grinned. âIâm gonna make one for Sam next. With armorâ
Laylaâs smile faltered just a little. âI think heâd like that.â
Allie watched her, quietly, then patted the spot beside her on the floor. âYou okay?â
Layla hesitated, then sat. âJust a lot on my mind.â
âThatâs the definition of being alive right now,â Allie said, her tone still light. âThough, to be fair, your life is a whole lot crazier than mine. And I grew up with six siblings and one bathroom.â
Layla laughed softly. âThat sounds worse.â
Allie nudged her shoulder. âThanks for earlier. With Mina. Youâre kind of a badass, you know?â
âIâm just trying to help.â
âWell, you do. You helped a lot of people. You helped us. I think Samâs still breathing because of you.â
Layla looked away, a little overwhelmed. âIâm not used to people saying things like that.â
Allie tilted her head. âYou should be.â
There was a pause.Â
âI thought you were naĂŻve at first,â Layla admitted suddenly, looking down at Samirâs dragon. âWith your smile, and the way you talk about America.â
âI am naĂŻve,â Allie said cheerfully. âThatâs how I survive.â
Layla laughed again â real and warm â and for the first time in a long while, she didnât feel quite so alone. She didnât know what to say. No one, none of them, had even tried. Not the translators assigned to them, not the ones who passed through the hospital. They barked orders. Pointed. Assumed.Â
Allie had learned. She took care of the children, played with them.Â
âWill you stay?â Samir asked, looking up at them both.Â
Allie grinned. âIf your sister lets me.â
Layla met her eyes, then nodded. âYeah. Iâd like that.â
â name: rainđ§
â age: 21
â pronouns: she/her
â nationality: i am norwegian but live in london
â likes: anything vanilla, lip gloss, sunsets, iced coffee, billie eilish
â hobbies: writing (clearly), making playlists, romanticizing everything
â studying: currently doing a bachelor in sociology
â fave tropes: slow burn, mutual pining, enemies to lovers, hurt/comfort
â currently writing:
âł Stranger Things (Eddie, Steve, etc.)
âł Warfare (military/war romance, angsty love stories, Sam, Erik)
â vibe: angst, romance
đ tell me something about you<3
thought it was about time i did one of these, esp since ive been getting some new followers lately
summary: best friends with his little sister, youâre stuck hiding a secret crush on Eddie - the âblack sheepâ older brother who never sees you as more than family
best friend's brother | summer romance
1 | 2 | 3
Julie had fallen asleep before the movie was even halfway through.
One minute sheâd been ranting about how ridiculous the villain was, legs tucked under her, bowl of popcorn in her lap â and the next, her head had dropped against the couch cushion, mouth slightly open, the softest snore leaving her lips.
You watched her for a moment, smiling to yourself, before carefully standing. The house was quiet, cloaked in the kind of thick silence that only came after midnight in Hawkins. The TV flickered shadows across the dark room, and somewhere outside, a car passed with its headlights sweeping briefly across the wall.
You shouldâve gone to bed too. Slipped into the covers and shut your eyes like it was any other night.
But insteadâŠ
You wandered down the hallway.
Eddieâs door was cracked open just enough to see the soft amber glow of the lamp on his nightstand. It spilled golden light across the floor, a sharp contrast to the silvery moonlight spilling in from his window.
The same window that overlooked the Munsons' big backyard and the willow tree youâd always loved â its heavy, sweeping branches shivering gently in the night breeze.
You hesitated outside his room for a second, heart knocking too loud in your chest. Then, before you could talk yourself out of it, you pushed the door open with a soft creak and peeked inside.
He was lying back on his bed, arms crossed under his head, one leg bent at the knee. His dark curls were a mess against the pillow, and his shirt had twisted up slightly at the waist. The radio was on low, some dreamy track playing that you didnât recognize â all slow guitar and murmured lyrics.
Eddie turned his head when he saw you, his lips twitching into a smile.
âWell, well,â he said, voice low and soft. âJulie conked out already?â
You nodded. âOut cold. I didnât wanna wake her.â
He sat up a little, propping himself on one elbow, and gave you a look. âSo you came to hang with me, huh? Must be real bored.â
You smiled shyly. âMaybe.â
He patted the bed beside him, smirking just enough to make your stomach flutter. âCâmon, princess. Sit.â
You hesitated. Then â without quite knowing why â you stepped fully inside and quietly pushed the door closed behind you.
Eddie raised a brow.
You didnât say anything. Just crossed the room and perched on the edge of his bed, fingers curling into the hem of your shorts.
Outside the window, the willow tree rustled. The moonlight poured in, painting the bedsheets silver, casting soft shadows across his posters, the scattered picks on his desk, the black nail polish bottle left uncapped by his amp.
âDidnât think youâd come in,â he said, after a beat.
You shrugged. âDidnât think I would either.â
Eddieâs gaze flicked to yours. The warm lamp lit his cheekbones, made his eyes look darker, softer.
âYâknow,â he said, âyouâve been coming around here for years, and I donât think weâve ever actually talked like this.â
You laughed under your breath. âWell, you were the weird older brother.â
He made a face. âStill am.â
âMaybe,â you said, looking down. âBut⊠I donât think thatâs a bad thing.â
The quiet stretched again â not awkward, just⊠full.
Full of something you didnât know how to name.
Eddie reached for the edge of your blanket, tugged it gently. âYou really think Iâm weird?â
âI think youâre you,â you said, voice barely a whisper. âI think youâre funny. And smart. And really⊠kind.â
You could feel the way your pulse stuttered in your neck.
âAnd,â you added, a little braver now, âI think people donât see that. But I do.â
When you looked up, he was already watching you.
His eyes were wide. A little stunned.
âYou notice more than I thought,â he said, voice rough around the edges. âAll these yearsâŠâ
âI guess I always did,â you whispered.
He reached for your hand then â slow, gentle. His fingers brushed yours, testing the water. And when you didnât pull away, he laced them together.
Your breath hitched.
âIâm glad it was you,â he said. âOut there. That night. At the movies. Anywhere, really.â
âEddieââ
But then he leaned in, so close you could see the speck of gold in his eyes. The freckles across his nose. The scar on his chin.
And when his lips met yoursâŠ
It was soft.
And then not soft.
Like falling. Like summer rain. Like something youâd waited your whole life to feel.
He kissed you like he didnât want it to be over.
Like heâd been holding onto it for a while now.
You shifted, crawling closer, your hand coming up to rest on his chest. His heartbeat thudded under your palm. Your knees brushed his thigh, and then he was pulling you gently into his lap, like it was the most natural thing in the world.
You settled there, heart racing, eyes half-lidded. Your hands found the soft curls at the nape of his neck. His fingers pressed against your spine, keeping you close.
âYou okay?â he whispered between kisses.
You nodded, lips brushing his.
âBetter than okay.â
The radio kept playing something sweet and sleepy in the background.
Outside, the willow leaves danced.
And in that moment â in the hush of moonlight and tangled limbs and all the things you didnât say â it didnât matter how wrong the timing was.
You were exactly where you wanted to be.
With him.
The first thing you felt was warmth.
Not the kind that made you sweat or twist the sheets away â but the soft, slow kind. Like being wrapped in sunlight.
The second thing you felt was his heartbeat.
Slow and steady beneath your cheek, thudding gently against your ear like a grounding rhythm. Like a lullaby youâd accidentally fallen asleep to.
You blinked your eyes open.
It took a second to register where you were.
Not Julieâs room.
Not her bed.
But his bed.
His room.
And he was still holding you.
Eddie Munson, of all people.
You stayed still for a while, afraid to move, afraid to break whatever spell the night had left behind. The sun had barely risen, but it already painted the room in gold. Slants of morning light poured through the open window, falling across his record shelf, his posters, the floor strewn with tangled jeans and tossed shirts.
Your bare legs stretched just beneath the blanket, one tangled with his, the other sliding forward until your foot reached the window.
The sill was cool against your toes.
You stretched, just slightly, and nudged the window open a little wider with your heel.
A breeze swept in â light and crisp, the first breath of morning air. It rushed across your skin, kissed your knees, slipped under the oversized shirt youâd pulled on sometime in the night. Goosebumps rose along your legs. You didnât mind.
You tilted your head, listening.
The leaves in the willow tree outside rustled, whispering quietly. Somewhere, a lawn sprinkler started ticking in the next yard over. Birds chirped, and the smell of cut grass and warm earth filled the room.
Your eyes drifted to the boy beneath you.
Eddieâs hair was a mess of curls against the pillow, fanned out in a halo of dark brown. His lips were slightly parted. One arm was tucked under his head, the other wrapped around your waist like he didnât plan to let go anytime soon.
You smiled without meaning to.
Youâd never been this close to someone before.
Not like this.
Youâd never woken up in a tangle of limbs and sunlight, the steady rise and fall of someoneâs chest beneath your cheek, his breath fanning gently across your forehead.
You shifted a little, just to see him better.
And he mustâve felt it, because his brow furrowed slightly â then his eyes fluttered open, slow and sleepy.
They met yours, heavy-lidded.
And then softened.
âMorning,â he murmured, voice still rough with sleep. A little raspy. A little Eddie.
âMorning,â you whispered.
He blinked up at you, clearly still waking. But the way he looked at you â like the sun had come up just for this â made something flip over in your chest.
His hand slid up your back, slow and gentle. His thumb brushed the curve of your spine through the fabric of his shirt.
âYouâre still here,â he said, more to himself than to you.
âI am.â
âDidnât dream it?â
You shook your head, smiling against his skin.
He exhaled, eyes closing for a second as he tilted his forehead toward yours.
âGood.â
You tucked your hand beneath his shirt, palm pressing lightly against his chest. His heart was still beating under your fingers â still that same steady rhythm youâd fallen asleep to. The room smelled like him. Like cedarwood and old records and something warm and familiar.
You moved your foot back from the windowsill, brushing it against his calf.
âCold?â he asked, half-smirking.
You shrugged. âNot really.â
His smile was lazy and perfect.
âI should probably let you go,â he said. But his arms didnât move. âBefore Julie barges in and murders us both.â
You laughed, burying your face in his chest. âSheâd probably drag me back to her room by my ponytail.â
âSheâd do worse to me,â he mumbled. âIâm her weird older brother, remember?â
You pulled back just enough to look at him â his sleepy smile, his ridiculous hair, the faint scrape of his stubble.
âYouâre more than that,â you said.
His smile faltered just a bit. âYeah?â
You nodded. âYouâre⊠kind. And smart. And really, really not what people say you are.â
He didnât say anything for a beat. Just looked at you, something unreadable in his eyes.
Then: âNeither are you.â
You blinked. âWhat?â
âPeople think youâre sweet. Quiet. Julieâs straight-laced best friend. But youâve got a little bit of fire in you, donât you?â
Your breath hitched.
âI see it,â he whispered. âYouâre not scared of anything.â
âI am,â you admitted.
He brushed your cheek with his thumb. âYeah, well⊠me too.â
The breeze picked up again, sending the leaves outside into a soft frenzy.
He leaned up, kissed your shoulder, then your jaw, then the corner of your mouth.
âLetâs stay like this for a little longer,â he said, voice muffled.
You let out a soft, content sigh and melted back into his arms.
The day could wait.
The questions could wait.
For now, there was nothing but sunlight, sleepy smiles, the scent of honeysuckle drifting in through the screenâŠ
âŠand him.
You mustâve drifted off again. Only for a few minutes â long enough for the sun to climb higher, warm your skin through the window, settle in golden patches on the sheets. Eddieâs breathing had slowed, and your head still rose and fell with the rhythm of his chest.
Then a voice broke the stillness.
âThere you are. Thought you left.â
You blinked your eyes open again. The warm bubble around you popped.
Julie stood in the doorway. Barefoot. Hoodie zipped halfway up. Hair messy from sleep. But her voiceâher voice wasnât casual, not really. It was careful. Neutral in a way that felt unnatural.
Eddie stirred beside you. He sat up slowly, rubbing his face with the heel of his hand. âShit,â he muttered under his breath. âI was gonnaâyeah. I should shower.â
He moved to stand, already looking for a shirt.
Julie didnât budge. âYouâre not going anywhere.â
Eddie froze.
She crossed her arms, shifting her weight. âWhat are you guys doing?â
There wasnât any malice in her tone. Not yet. Just confusion. A sharp kind of disappointment, like she didnât know where to aim it.
Eddie looked at you for a second. His eyes softened. Then he sighed. âIâll let you two talk.â
And then he slipped past her, one hand brushing her shoulder gently. She didnât react.
When the door clicked shut behind him, the room felt heavier. Julie walked over and sat on the edge of the bed â not too close, but not far either.
You sat up, the blanket slipping from your shoulders.
For a second, neither of you spoke.
Then, quietly, Julie said, âIâm not mad.â
Your throat felt dry. âJulieââ
âIâm not.â She shook her head. âIâm just⊠surprised, I guess.â
You tried to find something to say, something to make it better. But the words got stuck. You couldnât read her expression. She wasnât angry. But there was something else there.
Hurt, maybe.
âYou know,â she added after a beat, eyes fixed on the comforter between you, âI always thought you and Eddie were like total opposites. I didnât think youâd everâŠâ She trailed off.
âI didnât plan it,â you said, voice small. âIt just⊠happened.â
Julie nodded. âHeâs better than Matt.â
You blinked. âMatt?â
âNickâs friend. From the movies.â She gave you a flat look. âThe one who tried to grab your leg and then called you stuck-up?â
âOh,â you said. âRight.â
âEddie may be a lot of things,â she continued, âbut heâs not that.â
You nodded slowly.
âI justââ she sighed, pushing her hair back. âI wish youâd told me. Even if it was him. I mean, heâs my brother, yeah, and heâs weird and annoying, but⊠youâre my best friend.â
You looked down. Guilt twisted low in your stomach.
âI didnât know how youâd react,â you admitted. âI didnât want to make things weird.â
Julie didnât answer right away. She picked at a loose thread in the blanket.
âI get it,â she said finally. âBut still. I just⊠thought we told each other everything.â
âIâm sorry.â
She looked at you, really looked. And she wasnât mad. Not exactly. Just⊠disappointed in a quiet way.
âIâm not mad,â she said again, softer this time. âI just donât want to lose you to him.â
You reached for her hand. âYou wonât. I promise.â
She raised a brow. âEven if he starts inviting you to every band rehearsal?â
You laughed, relief flooding your chest. âEven then.â
âGood,â she said, squeezing your hand once before letting go. âBecause if you start ditching smoothie nights, weâre gonna have a problem.â
You smiled. âNever.â
From the hallway, the shower turned on.
Julie stood and stretched. âIâm making pancakes. Donât make out with my brother while Iâm gone.â
You threw a pillow at her as she left, laughing.
But once the door closed again, the smile faded just a little.
Because even with her forgiveness⊠something had changed.
Something real.
And you werenât sure if you could ever go back.
You sat there for a while, legs tucked under the blanket, listening to the water running through the old pipes. The faint sound of birdsong filtered in through the open window. The willow leaves shifted in the breeze, casting shadows across the wall.
You stared at your hands in your lap. You werenât exactly scared. Just⊠aware. Aware of the lines youâd crossed. The ones you couldnât uncross. You didnât regret it, not even for a second â but the weight of it, of what it meant, still sat with you. He wasnât just your friendâs brother anymore. And you werenât just some girl he teased when he passed by in the hallway.
The door creaked open behind you.
Your eyes lifted.
Eddie stepped into the room, towel around his shoulders, curls still damp and sticking to his forehead. He wore a faded Iron Maiden shirt and jeans that hadnât fully buttoned yet. He looked like someone who belonged exactly here â messy, half-dressed, warm from the shower and the summer light.
But when he saw your face, the casual grin he usually wore softened into something quieter.
âHowâd it go?â he asked, shutting the door behind him.
You let out a slow breath. âI think itâs gonna be fine.â
He nodded once, then crossed the room and sat beside you on the bed. His thigh pressed against yours. His shoulder brushed yours. He didnât say anything for a moment â just stared at his hands, fingers fiddling with the edge of the towel.
âI didnât mean for it to happen like this,â he said finally, voice low. âMe and you. I know itâs messy. And I donât want to screw anything up between you and Julie.â
You turned to look at him.
He still wasnât looking at you â just kept picking at a thread in the hem of his towel.
âI justâŠâ He cleared his throat. âI donât know. Youâre her best friend. Youâre not supposed to beââ
âSomeone you fall for?â you said softly.
That got his attention.
He looked up, brows raised, mouth slightly parted.
You gave him a shy smile. âI know.â
He let out a quiet breath â like relief, like maybe he hadnât realized just how scared heâd been.
You leaned into him a little. Shoulder to shoulder. Close enough to feel his breath when he finally whispered, âBut I did. I do.â
You didnât answer. Just tilted your head and looked at him â really looked at him. His eyes were warm, wide open. Vulnerable in a way you hadnât seen before.
Then you reached up, brushed a wet curl away from his cheek, and kissed him.
Not rushed.
Not frantic.
But soft. Intentional.
Your lips pressed to his like a secret youâd both been keeping, the kind you finally had the courage to say out loud. His hand found your knee, fingers curling around it gently. The other lifted to your cheek, thumb brushing your jaw.
He tasted like toothpaste and something sweet â like orange juice or syrup, maybe from earlier â and you kissed him again just to make sure you hadnât imagined it.
When you finally pulled away, his forehead pressed to yours, and he let out the smallest laugh.
âWhat?â you whispered.
He shook his head, eyes still closed. âNothing. Just⊠I think this might be the best morning Iâve had in a long time.â
You smiled against his mouth. âEven with your sister looking to kill us?â
âEspecially with that,â he said, grinning now. âAdds a little thrill, donât you think?â
You laughed quietly and leaned your head against his shoulder.
Outside, you could hear the sizzle of pancake batter hitting the skillet and the sound of Julie and her father speaking.
Inside, it was just the two of you. Warm skin, morning light, the slow quiet that comes after something brave.
And for the first time in a long time, you werenât afraid of what came next.
summary: best friends with his little sister, youâre stuck hiding a secret crush on Eddie - the âblack sheepâ older brother who never sees you as more than family
best friend's brother | summer romance
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Julie was buzzing all day.
Not in the normal, bouncing-around-with-a-new-tape kind of way â this was different. The kind of buzz that only came when a boy asked her out. A real date. A maybe-date. A movie, anyway.
"You have to come," she said, standing in front of the closet mirror, trying on her third outfit of the hour. Her lip gloss was already on. You could smell the vanilla from across the room. "Nickâs bringing his friend. He's cute."
You raised a brow from where you were lying on her bed, thumbing through a copy of Sassy magazine.
Julie turned. "Seriously. Heâs not like super annoying. He's kind of funny."
You hummed. "If you have to convince me heâs not annoying, he probably is annoying."
Julie threw a pillow at your head.
But you agreed. Mostly because Julie asked and because she was your best friend and because saying no would mean spending the evening alone, eating leftover mac and cheese at home while her night unfolded into something romantic.
You got dressed. Nothing fancy. Low-waisted jeans, your favorite worn sneakers, a navy tee. A little mascara, maybe. Just enough to feel like you could be on a date, even if you already knew you didnât care.
The Hawk Theater was buzzing when you got there â popcorn smell thick in the air, flickering marquees overhead, teens spilling out from the arcade side of the lobby. Nick and his friend, Mark or Matt or⊠Mike? â whatever his name was â were already there. Julie waved when she spotted them.
Nick leaned against the pinball machine like he thought he owned the place. His friend looked you up and down like you were on some kind of test. You forced a polite smile and stayed close to Julie.
The movie started â something dumb, a horror comedy that didnât commit to either genre â and you sat through it trying not to make it obvious you werenât having a great time. Julie giggled a little too hard at Nickâs jokes. Nick whispered in her ear and she shushed him playfully.
Halfway through, the guy next to you â the one you were supposed to be with â leaned a little too close. You caught the smell of bubblegum and BO and whatever cheap body spray boys used when they were trying too hard.
His hand brushed your thigh.
You flinched.
He didnât notice. Or maybe he did and didnât care.
A few minutes later, he tried again. This time his hand actually landed on your leg, fingers curling like he had any right. You froze.
"Donât," you whispered.
He leaned in, smirking. âRelax.â
"I don't want you to." You pushed his hand off.
He rolled his eyes. âGod, donât be so stuck-up.â
You didnât say anything â your heart was thudding too hard. You turned toward the aisle, considering getting up, maybe even walking out. Youâd done your part. You came for Julie. You played nice.
But then a voice â from a few rows back:
âDidn't she say no?â
Your head whipped around.
Eddie.
He was slouched in a seat, arms crossed, legs kicked out â and somehow still managing to look like he might leap out of it at any moment. Next to him sat Jeff and Gareth, both half out of their seats too.
The guy next to you straightened, confused. âWho the hell are you?â
Eddie stood. He didnât raise his voice. Didnât shout. Just spoke slow, clear, and with an edge sharp enough to cut through the buzz of the theater.
âShe said no,â he repeated. âAnd when someone says no, you listen.â
Julie turned around too, eyes wide.
Nick looked between Eddie and his friend, obviously weighing his odds.
You stood before it could escalate â you hated attention, hated scenes â but Eddie didnât look at you. He didnât need to. His eyes were locked on the boy still sitting beside your now-vacant seat.
âLetâs go,â you said, grabbing Julieâs hand. She hesitated only a second before following you into the aisle.
Behind you, you heard one of the boys â maybe Gareth â mutter, âDickhead.â
Julieâs hand tightened in yours.
Outside, the air felt cool and sharp against your cheeks. Your heart was still pounding.
Eddie and his friends came out a few minutes later. He looked at you briefly, then at Julie.
âNext time Nick wants to take you out,â he said flatly, âsay no.â
Julie frowned, pushing hair out of her face. âI didnât know him and his friend were gonna be such assholes.â
âNow you do.â
It was quiet for a second. Then Julie let out a laugh â half embarrassed, half relieved. âOkay, yeah. That was⊠not great.â
Eddie smirked a little, then nudged her shoulder. âThatâs what big brothers are for.â
It was strange, in a way. Eddie didnât usually act like a brother. Not in the stereotypical way. He didnât lecture Julie. Didnât go through her things. They werenât close. But in that moment, you saw something click into place. An older sibling standing between her and the world.
It made something ache in your chest.
You walked with them for a bit. Julie was quieter than usual, and you were still a little too stunned to say much. Jeff and Gareth talked about the movie like nothing had happened. Normal conversation. Comfortable.
Eddie, at some point, fell into step beside you.
âYou alright?â he asked, voice low.
You nodded. âThanks.â
He shrugged. âDidnât do much.â
You gave him a look. âYou stepped in. Thatâs not nothing.â
He didnât say anything for a moment, just looked ahead.
âYou shouldnât have had to deal with that,â he said eventually. âThat guyâs a dick.â
âYeah,â you whispered. âHe is.â
The way he glanced at you then â quiet, serious, almost gentle â made you want to stop walking altogether. Your cheeks flushed. You looked away.
The group split at the corner â Jeff and Gareth heading one way, Julie and you the other. Eddie hung back, hands in his jacket pockets, like he wasnât in a rush.
As you walked away, you turned to glance back.
He was already watching.
Julie was unusually quiet on the walk home. The neon lights of the Hawk sign still cast a faint glow behind you, buzzing like an afterthought.
She finally broke the silence.
âOkay⊠maybe you were right.â
You raised an eyebrow. âAbout what?â
âNick,â she sighed. âHe is kind of the worst.â
You nudged her. âOnly took you two weeks to figure it out.â
She groaned. âIâm never gonna live this down.â
You laughed. âYouâll survive.â
She glanced at you sideways. âHeyâŠâ
âYeah?â
âYou okay? Back there?â
You nodded slowly. âYeah. Just⊠glad your brother was there.â
Julie rolled her eyes dramatically. âGod, donât tell him that. His egoâs big enough already.â
But you couldnât help it â some part of you wanted him to know. Because it wasnât just about him saving you. It was about the way he looked when he did. Like you mattered. Like he saw you.
And for a moment, you wondered if maybe, just maybe, you werenât invisible to him after all.
The sun had baked the wooden deck so thoroughly that every step made the soles of your feet sting.
It was mid-July, and Hawkins was in the middle of one of those heatwaves that made the pavement shimmer like it was sweating. Julie had dragged two lawn chairs into the patch of shade near the fence, claiming it was âthe only habitable part of this hellhole,â and you were both sipping smoothies she made in the blender, watching the condensation drip down the plastic cups.
Your thighs stuck to the chair. The back of your neck burned. You didnât care.
The Munsonsâ backyard was quiet except for the buzzing of cicadas and the occasional bark of the neighborâs dog. You could hear the faint sound of a guitar from Eddieâs window upstairs, but you hadnât seen him in a week â not since the night at the theater.
Not since he stepped in and made your heart trip over itself.
Julie nudged you with her knee. âOkay. Youâre thinking about him again.â
You blinked. âWhat?â
âThat stare. Itâs the same one you had when I played the new Madonna tape on repeat. You hate Madonna.â
You laughed and looked away. âI wasnât thinking about him.â
Julie raised a brow. âMhm.â
Of course Julie didn't know who Him was. She had just assumed you were daydreaming about some guy you'd met at the corner store your parents owned.
You were saved from further interrogation by the creak of the back door. Eddie stepped out onto the deck barefoot and squinting in the sun like a vampire who hadnât seen daylight in years.
Your breath caught a little in your throat. He had a towel slung over one shoulder and a garden hose in the other hand. His jeans were ripped, as always, and there was a smudge of black on his cheek, like heâd been fixing something in the garage.
âChrist,â he muttered. âItâs like walking on the surface of the sun.â
Julie groaned from beside you. âTell me about it.â
Eddie looked over, grinned â and without warning, lifted the hose and sprayed.
Water hit your legs, then your chest, and you screamed as the cold shocked your skin.
âEDDIE!â Julie shrieked.
You dropped your cup, laughing as the smoothie sloshed onto the deck.
âIâM GONNA KILL YOU!â Julie shot up, dripping and furious.
Eddie doubled over with laughter.
You were soaked. Your shirt clung to you in all the wrong places, your hair plastered to your neck, and somehow, you were still laughing too.
Julie lunged toward him like a cartoon villain, threatening to hug him with soaking arms. He dodged her, hose still in hand, but then his foot caught on the hose itself and he stumbled.
âYouâre a menace,â Julie muttered, wiping water off her forehead.
âIâm keeping you cool,â he said innocently, flicking a drop at her. âYouâll thank me later when you donât melt.â
âI will thank you,â you said, breathless. âWith revenge.â
His eyes flicked to you then.
Really looked.
You felt it down to your stomach.
Julie rolled her eyes. âWhatever. Iâm going inside to get towels before I strangle you both.â
She grabbed the sliding door and disappeared inside.
And suddenly⊠it was just you and him.
The garden hose fell to the deck with a lazy thud. You could still hear it dripping.
You wrapped your arms around yourself, not for modesty â the shirt clinging to your skin was already a lost cause â but to keep your hands from fidgeting.
âI really am sorry,â he said, nodding toward your shirt. âDidnât mean to completely drench you.â
You gave a half-shrug, heart thudding. âIâve had worse. Besides, itâs hot. Honestly, thank you.â
That made him smile â not the teasing, smug grin you usually saw, but something smaller. Warmer.
âYouâre not what I expected,â you said before you could stop yourself.
His eyebrows raised, curious. âYeah?â
You nodded, pushing damp hair behind your ears. âI mean⊠youâre different than people say.â
A beat passed. His smile faded into something more unreadable.
âYeah,â he said quietly. âI get that a lot.â
You looked at him â really looked. The chipped black polish on his fingers, the little scar under his jaw youâd never noticed, the band tee that had been washed so many times it clung to his frame like second skin. He was nothing like what people said.
He wasnât scary. Or gross. Or some loser hiding in a basement.
He was just a guy. A guy who played guitar and told stupid jokes and sprayed his sister with a hose on a July afternoon.
âYouâre a good brother,â you said.
He blinked. âThat might be the first time anyoneâs ever told me that.â
âSheâs lucky,â you added. âEven if she doesnât always act like it.â
Something flickered in his eyes then. You didnât know what it was, but it made your stomach twist.
And then, just like that, the space between you shifted.
His eyes dropped to your lips.
Your breath caught.
And maybe he leaned in. Or maybe you did. Either way, it was close. Too close. You could smell his skin â sweat and cheap cologne and the faint trace of engine oil.
The corner of his mouth lifted. âYouâre not what I expected either.â
The door creaked open.
Julie stepped out, arms full of towels.
You both jumped apart like youâd been caught stealing something.
She didnât seem to notice. âYou guys are useless. You better not get smoothie on the couch.â
Eddie muttered something about grabbing a drink and disappeared through the garage door without another glance.
Julie handed you a towel. âOkay, what was that?â
You blinked. âWhat?â
âEddie,â she said, like the name itself was suspicious.
You wrapped the towel tighter. âNothing. He was just being⊠Eddie.â
She squinted. âWeird Eddie. Hose-wielding Eddie.â
âExactly.â
You didnât meet her eyes.
And when she went back inside to change, you sat on the deck a little longer, still dripping, still flushed.
Wondering what might have happened⊠if she hadnât come back so soon.
summary: best friends with his little sister, youâre stuck hiding a secret crush on Eddie - the âblack sheepâ older brother who never sees you as more than family
best friend's brother | summer romance
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The sound of pencil scratching was the only noise in Julie Munsonâs room â besides the quiet hum of her Lisa Frank radio tuned to a Top 40 station and the occasional sigh from your side of the bed. You were both knee-deep in algebra, legs tangled in fuzzy blankets, notebooks spread out like an academic crime scene.
âI swear,â Julie groaned, flopping back dramatically, âif I ever use the quadratic formula in real life, Iâll personally mail Mr. Lawson a handwritten apology.â
You smiled, erasing a wrong answer. âHeâd probably thank you for it.â
Julie laughed, tossing a gummy bear at you. You caught it in your mouth.
It was easy, being her best friend.
Julie was the kind of girl who knew every word to every Avril Lavigne song, had glitter nail polish on rotation, and wore way too much strawberry-scented body spray. You were different â a little quieter, maybe not as sure of yourself, not as pink-and-sparkly. But with Julie, it never felt like too much or not enough. Just⊠different.
Thatâs probably why you spent more time here than anywhere else.
The Munsonsâ house was warm in the way older homes were â all creaky floors and mismatched furniture. There was something comforting about the chipped paint on the banister and the smell of laundry detergent mixed with whatever candle her mom had burning downstairs.
The only part that didnât feel warm was Eddie.
Julieâs older brother. The infamous weirdo.
He was two years ahead of you â a senior now â all chains and boots and hair too long for your parentsâ taste.
Julie called him âa total freak.â You werenât supposed to listen to his bandâs tape. âToo loud, too weird.â
But sometimes, when Julie was in the bathroom and you were waiting, youâd press play on the worn tape deck near her desk. Just for a second. Just to hear the sounds he made.
Youâd never say it out loud â but you thought it sounded like something real.
Tonight, the house was unusually quiet. Their parents were out. Julieâs mom had made lasagna and left it in the oven with a note: âDonât burn the house down. Be nice to your brother.â
You didnât ask.
Julie leaned toward the window. âIs that his van?â
Sure enough, the rumble of a familiar engine pulled into the driveway. The headlights swept across the front lawn, briefly illuminating the floral curtains before going dark.
Julie groaned. âUgh, he better not stink up the hallway with that gross cologne again.â
You hid a smile, scribbling the last answer on your worksheet.
Heavy boots on the stairs.
A door creaked open â then slammed.
His, definitely.
Julie rolled her eyes. âSwear he was adopted.â
You shrugged. âYou donât look that different.â
Julie gagged in response. âGross.â
There was a pause. Thenâ
âIâm gonna grab something to drink. Want anything?â
âWater?â
âComing up.â
Julie padded out, leaving the door ajar.
You sat back against her pillows, stretching. The hallway light spilled into the room in a soft line across the carpet. You could hear her footsteps downstairs, faint.
And then⊠another door opened.
You glanced up.
Eddie.
Fresh from whatever band thing heâd been at â hair messy, boots unlaced, rings glinting in the low light. He was halfway down the hall, a towel thrown over his shoulder, rubbing at a spot on his jaw that looked freshly bruised.
He didnât see you at first.
And when he did â when his eyes landed on you, half-tangled in blankets and bathed in glow-in-the-dark stars stuck to his sisterâs ceiling â he paused.
For once, no smirk.
Just a blink.
âDidnât know you were over,â he said, voice low and rough from yelling over amps or maybe from late nights and cheap cigarettes.
You tried to sound normal. Cool. Unbothered. âHomework night.â
He nodded slowly. Leaned against the doorframe.
âYou like math?â
âNot really.â You shrugged. âJulie hates it more.â
That got a grin. âNo surprise there.â
There was a beat of silence.
You couldnât stop your eyes from drifting â the fading bruise, the string of bracelets on his wrist, the band tee you didnât recognize.
âNew shirt?â you asked before you could stop yourself.
His eyebrow ticked up. âNoticed that, huh?â
Your cheeks burned.
God.
âLooks⊠cool,â you added, trying not to sound like you cared.
âThanks, Princess.â
The nickname had no bite to it tonight. Just something soft. Familiar. Almost affectionate.
Julie came thudding back up the stairs, breaking the moment. She glanced at Eddie and scowled. âDonât you have a dungeon to crawl back into?â
Eddie gave you one last look.
âIâm going,â he said, backing into the bathroom. âDonât spill glitter in the hallway again, I swear to god.â
Julie huffed and shoved the door closed.
Your heart was racing and you didnât know why.
No â you did.
You just didnât want to admit it yet.
You don't fall asleep right away.
Julie was out the second her head hit the pillow â muttering something about how algebra had personally wronged her. Her breathing evened out quickly, soft and rhythmic, and you lay there next to her, staring at the glow-in-the-dark stars she never bothered to peel off the ceiling.
They looked more real with the lights off.
The hum of the house was different now. Calmer. The occasional creak of the floorboards, the low whir of the box fan in the corner. Outside, crickets sang like they didnât know tomorrow was the last day of school.
You thought about Eddie.
You didnât mean to.
It wasnât the first time youâd stayed over. Wasnât the first time you heard him come home, the way the whole house seemed to shift under his boots, like he moved in a different rhythm than the rest of the world. But tonight was different.
He hadnât called you Princess in weeks.
And somehow, it made your chest feel weird.
You turned toward Julie, asleep in her pink unicorn pajamas, mouth slightly open.
âHey,â you whispered. âYou awake?â
No answer.
You reached for the tape player beside her bed and hit play. Madonna, soft and muffled. You turned it down to almost nothing.
Somewhere in the hallway, a door creaked.
Then shut.
Maybe he was still awake.
You turned over again and stared at the ceiling until the sun started rising.
It was hot by the time you left school.
Sweaty backpacks, melting lip gloss, pencils snapped in celebration. You and Julie walked home in a tangle of limbs and laughter, shoes kicking dust up off the sidewalk.
âThree whole months,â she said dramatically, flinging her arms out like she might fly. âThree months of no Mr. Lawson, no homework, no waking up at 7am â this is better than Christmas.â
You smiled, tugging your ponytail tighter. âYou say that now. By August youâll be bored out of your mind.â
She shot you a glare. âBlasphemy. I have plans.â
âOh yeah?â
âUh, yeah. Pool days, mall trips, making out with Nick if he ever calls me backâŠâ
You laughed.
âAnd,â she added, âyou, me, and Hawk Theater. Every weekend. Deal?â
âDeal.â
By the time you reached the Munson house, the sun had turned the metal railing by the steps too hot to touch. You followed her inside, backpacks thunking onto the floor. The place was quiet â her momâs car gone, probably at the store.
Eddieâs boots were by the door.
Julie noticed too. âUgh. He better not be hogging the living room again.â
You opened the fridge, grabbed two root beers, and bumped it shut with your hip.
Julie flopped onto the couch, feet kicked up over the armrest. âWe should go see that movie I told you about â the one with the aliens?â
You raised a brow. âThe one thatâs definitely rated R?â
She grinned. âMy cousinâs older than he looks. He can get us tickets.â
You handed her a drink. âSo, illegal?â
âTotally worth it.â
From the hallway, the sound of footsteps. You looked up just in time to see Eddie â shirtless, towel around his neck, water bottle in hand. Hair messy like heâd just showered.
You froze. He glanced your way and smirked.
âLadies,â he drawled.
Julie groaned. âDo you own shirts anymore?â
âNot in summer, I donât.â
He didnât linger. Just grabbed something from the counter and disappeared back toward the stairs.
Julie cracked open her soda. âYouâd think he was auditioning for a Whitesnake video.â
You didnât say anything. Just took a sip and stared at the blank TV screen, hoping your face wasnât red.
That night, you stayed over again.
Julie had begged. âWe have to start summer right.â
So you packed a bag. Again. And she let you steal one of her extra toothbrushes. Again. You both ate popsicles on the porch in the fading light and made a list of everything you were going to do that summer:
Pool days (minimum 12)
Mall runs (must include frozen yogurt)
Sleepovers (non-negotiable)
Secret movie nights
Maybe find cute boys
That last one was Julieâs idea. She wrote it in big capital letters. You didnât argue. You just bit your lip and thought about how she'd react if you had put Eddie's name next to it.
By the time the moon was high, the list was taped to her mirror, and you were curled up under the same blanket, your feet pressed together like you were twelve again.
You heard him come upstairs.
Felt the quiet of his steps this time.
Not stomping. Not clunky. Just⊠slow.
You closed your eyes and pretended not to listen.
And when you dreamed, it wasnât about the pool or the mall.
It was the hallway.
The soft knock on your door that never came.
The sound of your name whispered like a secret, just once.
The door opening.
And his eyes.
Always his eyes.
The pool was packed.
Lawn chairs cluttered like forgotten furniture, kids cannonballing into the deep end, boom boxes wheezing out Van Halen and Madonna in equal measure.
You were still toweling off your legs when Julie returned with two giant Slurpees and a fresh wave of indignation.
âI swear to God,â she huffed, flopping down beside you on the cracked white chair, âNickâs gonna give me a brain bleed.â
You took your drink without protest.
âWhat happened now?â you asked, already smiling.
She sucked her straw dramatically. âOkay, so first heâs all âwe should hang out laterâ â like, okay, duh, itâs summer. But then heâs like, ânot sure what time though, my cousin might come overâ and Iâm like⊠is this a date or a group project?â
You laughed. âMaybe heâs just awkward.â
âAwkward I can handle,â Julie said, adjusting her sunglasses. âBut this is mixed signals. This is Morse code from hell.â
You hummed in agreement, barely listening now â because across the pool, just past the diving board, Eddie was laughing. Shirtless, wet curls tied back, black swim trunks clinging low on his hips. His tattoos looked darker in the sun, like theyâd soaked up all the heat and made it part of him.
His friends were with him â a blur of noise and long limbs. One of them did a backflip off the diving board that earned an actual applause.
Eddie didnât notice you watching.
But Julie did.
She followed your gaze, peeking over the rim of her shades. âUgh. Them.â
You blinked. âWhat?â
She nudged you with her elbow. âYou need a summer romance. Like, real bad.â
You choked on your drink. âI do not.â
âYou do too.â She kicked her feet up. âWe should find you a guy. Not Nick â heâs too flaky â but like⊠someone who plays guitar and has good hair.â
You stared down into your cherry slush.
âAnd definitely not Eddie,â she added without missing a beat. âBecause, ew.â
You smiled like it was funny.
Like it didnât sting more than you expected.
Julie leaned back and closed her eyes like the sun might solve all her boy problems. âGod, my life is so tragic.â
You didnât answer. Not right away.
Your eyes flicked back to the far end of the pool, where Eddie now sat at the edge, bare feet in the water, hair dripping down his shoulders. He leaned back on his hands, laughing at something the guy next to him said, and your stomach flipped like someone had kicked it off the diving board.
Youâd told yourself it was nothing. Just a phase. A dumb little thing â the way your ears perked up when he talked, the way you remembered dumb things he said weeks later, the way he smelled like tobacco and shampoo and something warm underneath it all.
But sometimes⊠sometimes you wondered if it was more.
And sometimes, like now, it hurt to know heâd probably never see you that way. Not when you were just Julieâs friend. The one who wore matching pajamas and snuck Oreos from the kitchen at midnight.
You were the hallway he passed through to get to his room.
Not a destination.
You took another sip of your drink and stared straight ahead. âYeah,â you said finally. âDefinitely not Eddie.â
But your eyes betrayed you.
And across the pool, his met yours â just for a second.
And then he looked away.
And you tried not to hope that maybe, just maybeâŠ
âŠhe was thinking about you too.
The house was quieter than usual.
No TV humming from the living room, no pots clanging in the kitchen, no Julie yelling your name to help her pick an outfit sheâd already decided on.
You padded barefoot down the upstairs hallway, arms crossed against the muggy air.
The A/C was busted again. Mr. Munson had sworn heâd call someone about it, but the only thing colder than the vents was his sense of urgency.
Youâd gone in search of something cold to drink â maybe a popsicle, maybe something sweeter â when you passed by Eddieâs door, half-shut between the bathroom and the linen closet.
And stopped.
There was music playing low inside â Sabbath or Dio, something murky and metallic â and a faint golden light spilled onto the hallway floor from the cracked doorframe.
You shouldâve kept walking. Shouldâve gone straight to the kitchen.
But then you heard the pencil.
Scratch, pause, scribble.
Curiosity tugged at your heel.
You stepped closer, careful not to creak the floorboards, and peeked inside.
Eddie was hunched at his desk, back to the door, a foot tucked under him, pen moving in frantic little bursts across a notebook. His hair was down again â dark curls brushing the collar of a faded Corrosion of Conformity shirt â and his stereo crackled faintly beside him, the low buzz of guitar filling the room.
You opened your mouth without thinking.
âIs that⊠a goblin with a mohawk?â
He didnât startle much. Just turned, slow and curious, pencil still in hand.
âTechnically,â he said, tilting the page your way, âitâs a bloodthirsty goblin prince with a tragic backstory and a taste for vengeance.â
You laughed softly, leaning against the doorframe. âAh. My mistake.â
His smile pulled easy and crooked â not the kind he gave at school, all performative and exaggerated. This one was quieter.
âJulieâs friend. You're here again.â
You arched an eyebrow. âEddie. You're also here again.â You said in reply.
He gave a mock gasp. âYou remembered my name. Iâm touched.â
You rolled your eyes, but your smile stayed.
There was a pause. Not awkward. Just full.
The kind of silence that made you feel like something was about to happen â even if it didnât.
âWhatâs it for?â you asked. âThe sketch.â
âCampaign,â he said. âNew storyline Iâm working on. Politics, cursed forest, lots of weird magic shit. Should keep âem busy for a while.â
You let your eyes drift to his desk â the notes, the tiny painted miniatures, the barely-hanging-in-there shelf above it stacked with books, cassette tapes, and a photo cracked along the frame. Him and Julie. Probably first day of school. He had the same wild curls even then, just shorter. Less tamed.
âYou ever play?â he asked.
âI tried once,â you said, snorting. âThere was this group at the library. One guy made me a wizard and then got mad when I wouldnât pretend to fall in love with his elf.â
Eddie barked a laugh â loud and honest.
âOh, hell no,â he said. âYou deserve reparations for that. On behalf of all Dungeon Masters, I offer you free snacks and a proper character arc.â
You grinned. âIâll consider it.â
He watched you. Not in a creepy way â just kind of⊠curious. Like he didnât expect you to still be standing there.
âYou always this funny?â he asked.
You shrugged. âOnly when Iâm not being called Julieâs sidekick.â
âThatâs unfair,â he said, tilting his head. âYouâre more like her secret weapon. Don't know how she'd survive without you.â
The compliment caught you off-guard. And the fact that he had noticed.
Your gaze dropped to his hands â ink-stained fingers curled around the edge of his desk.
âI like your room,â you said. Quietly.
He blinked, surprised. âMost people say it smells like weed and paint thinner.â
You smiled. âIt does. But itâs still cool.â
A moment passed. And then another.
You didnât want to leave.
He didnât ask you to.
But then you heard the crunch of tires in the driveway, the unmistakable squeak of Julieâs voice through the open front door.
You stepped back fast, heartbeat loud in your ears.
Eddie stood up, like his body moved before his brain could catch up.
He looked at you. You looked away.
The bathroom door opened behind you, and you ducked around it quick, already pretending you were on your way down the stairs.
Julieâs voice was louder now â something about how their mom nearly hit someone with a shopping cart, and how Nick finally said heâd call her after work.
âThere you are,â Julie said, spotting you in the hallway. âWhatâve you been doing?â
You paused. âWas gonna get a drink.â
You followed her to her room, your pulse still high.
You didnât look back.
But you could feel it â Eddieâs gaze at your back. Like the brush of static.
And that night, long after lights were out and Julie was talking half-asleep about the outfit she wanted to wear when she saw Nick again, you brushed your teeth and stared at yourself in the mirror.
Not Julieâs friend.
Just a girl with her heart lodged in her throat.
And a crush that was getting way too hard to hide.
a little summer romance fic for u<3 inspired by my current vacay in spainđ song aesthetic: bad omens by 5 seconds of summer