Hello! I’m Rainy (25, USA), I use they/them pronouns.
This is my KPDH/Art side blog?? It will probably progress into being more of an art/fandom sideblog, but for rn the hyperfixations is KPDH.
My motto is don’t let imperfect be the enemy of posted, so I’m going to be posting as much art/fanfics as possible, even if it’s bad. Feel free to join in challenges with me, and tag me!
Here I post art, art challenges, fanart, fanfiction, and reviews for fanfictions I enjoy.
If you know me IRL, proceed with caution. I am not responsable for what you find out about me through AO3 😬
My Works:
If You Stay- (K-Pop Demon Hunters)
After the Idol Awards, Huntr/x is determined to start their comeback tour on a positive note. That is, until Rumi begins to have flashbacks.
Chapters: 1–2–3
Maybe With Time (The Owl House)
(Fic recs + guide to my tags below cut)
Recs:
(In no particular order)
The weight on her arms- Ae-overthinker.
@aetalle
(325k+ words) (453 Kudos) (Status: Completed).
Post movie, action, angst, hurt/comfort, (mostly angst I’m looking at you Ae 🫵) .
This fanfic, and all the other fanfics in this series are long. If you are like me- this could not be more of a plus. The series is still being updated so you have a lot of material to look forward to. This artist truly understands what a slow burn is, when the characters have problems, they aren’t resolved in a chapter or two. Try- thirty. Try- they get trauma they will always be working through, but maybe just maybe they have the girls they need to get through it.
(Also maybe- they are the ones who traumatized eachother to begin with).
My highest praise for this author is she doesn’t shy away from making her characters flawed and outright abusive at times that don’t feel out of character. The conflict is built up well, devastating, and borne of characters that aren’t afraid to be human.
This story is high stakes, high action, lots of mental illness and character relationships is where the story shines. There is so much to pick apart and analyze across all of her works, she doesn’t just write a story, she writes a puzzle. I’ve reread this almost twice and I’m still uncovering more layers!
One part in a several part series. I don’t even know how to explain the magic of the series, you just have to read it. And you should start here or on the Spotlight.
I’m rambling all over the place here- nothing I’m saying feels like I’m doing the author any justice. I will be writing a more in depth review about it later, but for now, just go read it!!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/69004936
A Melody for Three- Apencyl
(162+k words) (622 kudos) (Status: Ongoing)
Prequel. It’s not telling a grand, high stakes story. It’s just a gentle, raw coming of age story about three girls who aren’t alone anymore. They are all so incredibly girl, and vulnerable, it just tugs on all the right heartstrings. Lots of angst, lots of fluff. Im working my way back through it because I'm not caught up, but the fact I remember as much about this fanfiction as I do really speaks to its quality. There was this chapter about Rumi missing her friends that made me tear up. A scene with Zoey that really spoke to me, and a really wholesome take on Mira's teen self. Give it a read!
Shockingly, the author’s first fanfiction. Given that’s its cemented itself in my mind enough to highlight it on my side blog, you can imagine it only goes up from here for them. Fantastic work.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/69042321
if you can feel it (could you let me know)- Evo9
ev, she/her ev09 on ao3 :) come yell at me about kpdh
(100k+ words) (1049 kudos) (Status: Complete)
Holy fucking shit, my heart. I binged the entire thing in a day. This fanfiction is a prequel to the girls training, and it’s like my first and second rec had a baby. It’s everything. It’s soft, it’s girl, ITS FUCKING GAY, it’s vulnerable, and it’s angsty as hell. This author has been described as being a KPDH writer in disguise and that is just so accurate. I was completely immersed. It made me tear up, it made me laugh. I can not WAIT for more from this author. This work is completed, but it sounds like there is more work to be added for the series!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/67445966
More to be added I’m sure. Please check out all these writers and leave them lots of amazing comments to celebrate their work.
Tags:
I will add to my tags as I use them!
-Art (art reblogs)
-Fanfic (fanfic specific)
I will do tags by story, fandom, and author when relevant so that way I can find posts under that label when I want to reference them.
Examples: #ev09, #if you can feel it (let me know), #My works, #If you stay, #weight on her arms, etc
Well… less than ideal news from the doctor. Says it could be up to a year and a half of recovery… which is a long time to not have a fully functioning brain. I suppose this isn’t a mild concussion after all
Progress continues to happen! I’m up to three hours a day at work now. It’s kicking my butt just like 2 hours did at first, but I think I’m going to adjust well soon. Augh- I’m having a change of doctors, which I’m nervous about. My current one has been probably the best physician I’ve ever worked with, he always believed me and took me seriously. He, alas, did not leave me without weight-related comments (sigh) but what I will say is he did not allow weight related bias to influence his care over me, which is *significant*. He held me back when I wanted to plow forward, and believed me at every turn when I said I wasn’t ready for something. Very nervous the next person won’t be like that, but he’s given me a lot. I wrote him a card before he left.
Work is going good. I got the bi-annual promotion, and I’m now an RBT V. Working with even the two kids I’m allowed to work with has been amazing. I miss working with *all* of the kids on my team, but for the moment, this is enough. It’s hard not really feeling like a *full* member of the team, hell I wasn’t even at the team meeting today. But I get it. Some things feel normal, I led a social skills group today and felt like I did a good job, kept up. Needed to put on my headphones and felt unwell after, but was able to keep up. But earlier I was trying to train someone on piece of tech, which I have trained people on 1000 times. I’m somewhat known for my ability to train at this job, I like doing it for a variety of reasons. But it was like- incomprehensible when I was trying to explain it. I was so scatterbrained and kept forgetting my trains of thought. Wasn’t super coherent. Got it out and trained the person- but yeesh. Sometimes I feel normal, and then sometimes the head injury is suuuuper obvious. I’m also wearing my big headphones, which I don’t love because they are so bulky, but I already was someone who wore headphones around the center so it’s hard to be self conscious about it lol.
It’s been fun connecting to cotreatment providers too!! Working there a while you get to know the speech therapists and occupational therapists that come through, and they know you too. It’s a little thing, but I was glad they noticed I was gone. One of them said she hoped I didn’t quit, and I was kind of grateful she said that lol. Sometimes it feels like no one would notice if I wasn’t there, I was gone for so long, and life goes on. It was nice to know that people noticed.
It was a kiddo who gave me the concussion, and he’s now moved on from the program. I had no idea how I was going to feel, but it was honestly the hardest I’ve cried in a while. I wasn’t the only RBT in tears, but it’s hard. It’s different when kids graduate, and you know they are going somewhere better. For him, he had to move on for safety reasons, and there is so much apprehension about that decision, because who knows where he’ll go. You can only hope the next program will take care of him. There’s the loss, the missing of seeing the student around the center, but also fear for him, when he’s at programs you have no control over.
It’s also hard for me personally, since I’m 9000% sure my injury had at least something to do with him having to leave the program. I feel guilty, and also so so so sad that my last session with him ever was *that* session. I’ll never get another shot with him, that was the shot. And that’s all I’ll ever get with him. No one’s debriefed me about the incident. I don’t know if it was my fault, or if other people see it as my fault. What I can say is it was a situation that escalated very quickly, and I did everything I could to prioritize his safety, and should have just let him break my glasses, kept my hands free to block. Or put them in my shirt as soon as I knew we were escalating. There wasn’t time to call for help, or anything. It just happened. I don’t know what I could have done different, every way I can think it through in my head ends the same. But I can’t get caught up in the what ifs, I just have to keep moving forward. At the end of the day, it’s like I always tell new techs. Did you do your best to keep your kid safe that session? Then you did your job. You can try your best and it can go terribly, it just matters that you try and that you do everything you can to keep them safe. I kept him safe, and I upheld a reasonable boundary, and hopefully set up my team for success. If I would have known that doing that would have resulted in a head injury this bad? I don’t know if I would have made the same choice. I wanted to ask my BCBA about it in the moment, anyway. But there was no time, and I already used what information I had to make the choice I did. It would have probably turned out the same.
That morning we said goodbye, my friend (who also worked with him) was in the break room and I cried it out with her lol. She’s also pretty emotional about it, we talked. Ultimately I think it’s for the best, but it’s still so hard on everyone to have to let him go.
It all sounds pretty negative, but it’s not all bad. This year is a very big mixed bag of good and terrible things. I’m moving to an awesome apartment, my grandpa’s funeral was this weekend (and i wasn’t there)(he’s homophobic and it’s a whole thing). I’ve gotten into sourdough, and I am fighting with workers comp to get paid and can’t get ahold of anyone. My friend’s taking over my old lease (yippee!!), and they’re putting my childhood cat down soon. I’ve got a sick new instrument, and my grandma has dementia. I live across the street from my best friend and get to see her all the time now, and I’m still rocking this very fun head injury, and will be for some time. I’m getting used to all of these things, and overall and starting to feel more normal. It’s not that everything is great- but that I’m not in limbo anymore. I’m feeling all the emotions, pleasant and otherwise, and that’s good. That’s better than stagnation. And it’s been long enough I’ve reached a state of acceptance with my injury, I’ve figured out how to live with it with how everything is set up right now. And in spite of all the things it’s STILL better than 2025, because that was a truly crazy year. I’m only now starting to accept it’s summertime, because in my head it’s still March, March before the injury. Time’s passed, and I think as I accept it, I’m able to not see this time as a loss, but just as an odd period of my life. It was supposed to be a 2 week disruption, max, and now it’s a canon event. I’ve made of it good and bad things. Mostly good.
I’m sitting in the living room of my new apartment. There’s no couch, just a camping chair and some blankets on the floor. There’s crumbs on the ground because I don’t have my broom moved over from the other place yet, I still have more to move and more to clean. I’ve got a man fridge of mostly drinks and like, no money because of the two rent and reduced income situation. But it’s good, really good. It feels romantic that I’ve made a home carved out in this weird timeline I’ve found myself in. I can see all the cats in the neighborhood from my window, and when I made bread this morning, my best friend walked across the street and had breakfast with me. My world is filled with question marks right now, but I’m grateful to be me, and to be feeling more like myself. Life is okay. And it’s great writing material- hilarious I’m living the fanfiction I had already planned to write, I’m questioning is I should tag my journal entries as spoiler lol. Grateful the dust is settling.
Im going to take a bath (in the bathtub I have now!!) and go to bed (in my big room!!). Tomorrow I might do laundry (because I have a washer and dryer now!!) and make bread (my sourdough starter is thriving).
Questioning if I should take Layla out of the fridge….
Well… less than ideal news from the doctor. Says it could be up to a year and a half of recovery… which is a long time to not have a fully functioning brain. I suppose this isn’t a mild concussion after all
people who don't experience hyperfixation don't know what it feels like to hyperfixate so much on something that it becomes not only your subject of obsession but also your source of happiness and literally the main reason why you still keep going; literal source of strength and life.
shoutout to my favorite fictional characters, favorite people, favorite ships, favorite movies, favorite tv shows, fanfics and archive of our own
i do think it’s funny when you’ve been into a thing long enough that you’ve done all the serious analysis you can do so now you’re mostly just thinking up looney tunes scenarios to put the characters in
I’m so happy to be back I almost cried at work 😭😭 my kids all remembered me and were going around telling people that i’m back. A girl who I thought would be indifferent to me was happy to see me and asking me to be her next teacher. MY KIDS!! I LOVE THEM!!
Realizing as I’m revisiting old warriors amvs… the whole Celine, Rumi’s dad, and Mi-yeong thing (as is often written like a love triangle) is just. Lmao- Squirrelflight, Brambleclaw, and ashfur’s whole thing. I’m screaming, especially when you adhere to the plot idea where Celine kills Rumi’s dad from instinct, but secretly about jealousy. Ashfur much?? Obviously plot points differ. But it’s the spirit of it
hi i'm back in the building to recommend an author who spends so much time giving to the community and uplifting people that i think it's fair we spend some time giving back. as a heads up all of dream_paladin's works are locked so you do need an Ao3 account and to be logged in to view them! but it's well worth it, i assure you
i've already given up on myself twice [T] [Polytrix] [Complete]
rumi doesn't let people take care of her
i love a good fic about injuries and this is exactly that, Rumi hiding injuries from Mira and Zoey. it's a bitesized fic and yet it's so packed full of characterisation for all three of them, and Celine too!
it's extra impressive because there's no dialogue. it's pure introspection from Rumi while she's going about making these choices, a real deep dive into what leads a person to behave like that. excellent work.
i wasn't there (but i know) [G] [Polytrix] [Complete]
Zoey and Mira have their own things to work through about the Idol Awards
the idol awards weren't just traumatic for Rumi and i adore it when any fic looks into the impact it had on Mira and Zoey. i love it when it's not brushed over. they're all so hurt by what happened, and this is an excellent look at how their individual flaws and trauma responses make it so difficult for them to take care of each other.
(don't) handle me with care [T] [Polytrix] [Complete]
Rumi has a nightmare about the Idol Awards and their aftermath. Mira and Zoey don't let her run away again.
me, liking a 'Rumi has nightmares' fic? say it ain't so.
it's hard to believe this is the first time the author has written a poly relationship cos it just feels so natural. i love all the little details put in that aren't directly brought up but really inform you of Rumi's emotional state before, during, and after the events of the movie. it's so cleanly interwoven into the narration.
you'd have me down, down, down (on my knees) [E] [Polytrix] [Complete]
Polytrix smut, with pre-op and post-op Rumi
maybe this is my own ignorance showing or just a fact of previous fandoms i've been in but i've never seen a fic go into such loving and clear detail about the pre-op to post-op journey of transwomen, especially as it pertains to sex.
the trans part of the narrative is so tightly woven into the canon story around shame and guilt and they work together so beautifully to form an incredible story that only enhances the message of the movie.
i went into it expecting smut and i definitely got that (good grief did i definitely get that) but i also got all of the emotions around it, and left with a genuinely better understanding of how that journey can feel
i don't like comparing fics but if you like the medical accuracy and unflinching detail of lonely lavender bones i really, really recommend this.
on top of being a fantastic author she's also a wonderful person to be around and someone who always makes an active effort to uplift the people around her, either through art or just avid support. the comments she leaves on fics kill me dead every single time.
I keep making posts about short fics, and I'm going to continue doing so because on every short fic post I make, I get people who love short fics but I also get authors who feel guilty because they don't write "full fics" or "complete stories"
Short fics are complete. Short fics are full stories. There are more tales in the world than just novels. There are more ways of sharing your idea than creating an entire world to go along with it.
You can tell a complete story in 100 words. You can call a fic complete and full and fleshed out, even without all of the context or history or world building in your brain.
Your readers have imaginations, just like you do. Have faith that they'll be able to fill in any blanks on their own. Trust that they'll enjoy what you put out, even if it's short.
Stop measuring yourself with a ruler that doesn't even matter. If you want to write a long fic, that's wonderful. I wish you well.
But if you don't want to write novels, please stop apologizing for that. You have nothing to feel bad about. Be proud that you can capture a moment or a feeling or an idea in just a few words. Not everyone can do that.
We wrote flash fiction in our short story club today. It was a blast. Each one was a full, complete story.
None of them were over 500 words, and the lowest was 286. We could've gone even shorter with different parameters or if we'd tried. You can accomplish a lot in 100 words.
It's ok to write short stuff. I gravitate to short stories for fanfiction because that's what I have time for. Novels are exhausting and not everyone gels well with the writing process for them. That's ok. Different people write differently, and you'll have different lengths you like for different things! It's great!
Huntrix not hiding their relationship at all and doing the most gay ass things in public but people still thinking they're just really close friends is one of my favorite hcs, it's just so funny.
The poly factor emphasizing it and making people think that it's just how they are with each other and not that they're actually dating
Rumi kisses Mira in public and everyone is like "OMG RUMIRA REAL???" for a second and then Rumi kisses Zoey right after and people are like "ah, no, i think that's just how they are with each other"
They'll do the most sappy declarations about each other and say that they love them and that they can't imagine a life without the other two and people are like "Such beautiful bonds between these bandmates"
