ramaviva.

sway with me, everything sad — orquídeas marchitas #moi last.fm

[caveofthemorbid]

[catinfroghat]

Saturn Devouring His Son enjoyers rise

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the past few months have been too much. i wanna take a break.

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estaba hablando con mi hermano hace par de minutos porque devolvieron un paquete porque la casa se veia "abandonada". me trajo un montón de memorias, como cuando la gente me buscaba o dejaba en casa y me preguntaban si podían usar el baño y yo tenía que inventarme una excusa...y la vez que un amiguito de Pedro fue a visitarlo y él mintió diciendo que no tenía las llaves para que así no tuviera otra opción que no entrar, terminaron hablando a través de las rejas. anyway ese post es de/hoarding y es TAN parecido a mi experiencia pasada y presente.

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i've been recording my thoughts on audio tapes but I think Tumblr will work too.

so here goes:

feeling stressed bc partner is not doing well and based on past experience this is just the start and it is so hard to see him struggling.

close family member was recently diagnosed with cancer and with it being so aggresive they'll have a masectomy, radiation therapy and chemo in about a week.

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almost done with my master’s. quit my job back in April. Went on a trip, it was fun. Now I want to move to Portland and chill. Chill in the sense of living in a place where I have electricity and a public transportation system. I don’t ask for much. This island is too stressful. Everything is dysfunctional. Drugs are too easy to get, alcohol is the coping mechanism of most of the population. Suicide rates are high. Most people are too focused on what happens in the USA, e.g. school shootings, killing of black people. But they disregard the problems we have here, like corrupt government and police force. Discrimination against Dominican immigrants. I haven't been hospitalized but a close family member has been interned in the psychiatric hospital twice in 2018. This island is my home and I want to come back but right now I need a break. 

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[art]

“Early Morning”

Artist: Nate Armstrong

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weekend: fui a aguirre, lave ropa, limpie apt, ricky cambio las gomas

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i've definitely seen better days

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i do the same thing every day im so fucking angry i feel like scratching my eyes out, smashing el maldito keyboard or simply pouring a cup of hot coffee over my head

[ramaviva]

theblues (estar en el hospital no es fun)

[moonemojii]

[flopkween]

me

[themorallycorruptfayeresnick]

[kaatnisseverdeen]

[i-like-tubbs-okay]

He’s just hungry!!!!