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looks thru a glory hole & sees a train coming straight towards me

#this is sort of my head all of the time actually #📌#theo callixton’s mutuals only blog

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can i be honest. having a sex life is literally so scary i feel like i’m doing something wrong literally all of the time

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it is really hitting me how much i feel like i should be killed for this 😭 i don’t think that’s normal

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aro or no i am still always into deep pining and the catharsis of seeing that resolved…..

#i may not want to stick around in the story to see the aftermath #but luckily plenty of people write abt those exact moments anyway #🪐

can i be honest. having a sex life is literally so scary i feel like i’m doing something wrong literally all of the time

#i thought i was doing being w the shame and fear But Um!#its also that i’m trying so hard to be brave and ask for what i want and i am mostly succeeding at that #it’s just that subconsciously i feel like i should be killed for it #🪐

i genuinely really enjoy when i read something for a kink i do not have but the author is able to depict what’s hot about it so effectively that i get it. like kink tourism

#like i’m not into feederism except ☝️ when it’s really well written comedy characters*#rpf is included in characters here tbh.#also also when that joshdonna fic made me think i have a piss kink. i don’t really it’s just an awesome story #🪐

can i not use grindr bc i have an adblocker installed. girl i’m gonna kill someone

#WHAT DO U MEAN 😭#🪐

listening to old chatterbox episodes and joe keery used to live in jpc’s old apartment ? wow the world is so interconnected

#and served. some sort of food to adal i’ve already forgotten what #they described him as the hunky guy with lots of hair 😭#there’s no real reason for me to use this account but it feels small and safe #which i guess is the point #🪐

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terrifying stressful conversation with my mom that went well as far as things in my control are concerned. but also she’s definitely going to spiral and drink all night and doesn’t get how that affects me

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bad conversation was sandwiched between pride month wins tho. so we’re okay

#shoutout gay bitches from feeld who like doctor who #🪐

terrifying stressful conversation with my mom that went well as far as things in my control are concerned. but also she’s definitely going to spiral and drink all night and doesn’t get how that affects me

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i thought about moving and leaving my dog at home earlier tonight and i was so upset i was like a few degrees off from crying. i don’t want to leave her behind :( i don’t think i could handle it not being temporary tbh that’s my baby and i will be bringing her with me once she’s better trained

#my old girl who i love so bad after only two months……#i’m also really worried she’s gonna have a hard time when i leave…. she needs more stability #🪐

incredibly deluded -> maybe this summer i’ll magically have enough energy to take the train to boston and meet a new person every weekend

#it’s not even a motivation thing or i would set a more reasonable goal of this my body just Cannot handle that right now :(#🪐

also i should’ve gone to sleep a while ago but i can’t bc my allergies r acting up and it’s sort of making me miserable 😭

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also. even outside of the aro thing, which obviously is a big part of this. i feel like i often can’t relate to what my friends are looking for in someone or what their bounds are for acceptable attraction at all. like idk man age is just one piece of this but i’m not playing abt liking dilfs and i don’t think it’s weird if someone in their mid thirties asks you (in ur mid twenties) out. it’s fine ur not into that! but like. idk the things i care about and prioritize and the things my friends do seem very different. and it does make me self conscious sometimes

#now i’ve never hooked up with an older guy and i do think extra caution is warranted #but at this stage in my life that caution is mostly that i’m really disabled and can’t drive. and i don’t want to get Stuck in a bad -#situation. not that the situation itself deters me #also most older guys aren’t into me :( and i don’t count grindr bc a lot of those interactions were chasers #🪐

thinking a lot abt meeting people etc between pride and being abt to move and no longer isolated but like. a major problem i have is that i love people so much like in general i find others so fascinating and love getting to observe and get to know them However. i don’t really get lonely, and so it takes so much out of me to set up the circumstances to make this happen. so i just don’t

#idk i’m back on the apps (just the one) and i think i really could meet so many cool people if i had the energy #it’ll come as it comes like it’s fine. i’m not upset i don’t get lonely yknow #but i do wish that i had like. any social battery for people who aren’t already close friends #bc often when i push i enjoy myself and enjoy meeting people! it’s just a push every single time and it exhausts me #and i’m already running on fumes physically so.#🪐

the catholic vs protestant guilt post going around is sort of annoying me Not bc the post is wrong bc in simplified terms it’s right but bc who is misusing catholic guilt like that….. i mean i’m sure it’s happening but why….. this is the suffering is sexy website stop messing that up….. i guess really i’m just annoyed that enough people r getting catholic guilt wrong for that post to have a reason to exist 😭😭😭

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-> oh cool someone on feeld who is dominant in a way i’m looking for and seems experienced/careful

-> match & get to see his hidden bio: ‘only into biological women’

ok awesome. what the hell

#i can’t dictate ur attraction but you explicitly say ur not into men. so. that means u don’t see me as a man #his bio said polysexual btw. and also i think it’s a little suspicious to put that in ur hidden bio prob bc you know trans people wouldn’t #- match with you otherwise #i’m not actually upset i’m just 😑#🪐

pride fit yesterday + my snoopy shirt today ^_^

#the pride fit is a little blurry bc i did fall in that picture. but whatevr #🪐

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