this world is not my home

i’m just passin’ through

[callixton]

profile pic by @poisivey

hi i’m theo! 24, aro, transfag. he/him. director, writer, etc.

i like theater and art and shakespeare and classics (mostly studied in ancient greece but am trying 2 expand my horizons). and tv shows. mostly er/noah wyle’s other work at the moment, but also leverage and doctor who. sort of always the west wing and the mighty boosh and daredevil. normal about 4 time tony loser raùl esparza.

generally prefer for this account to be 16+ if i don’t already know you. i don't typically tag nsfw but i do use #minors dni for personal posts. & if you know me irl and i haven’t personally shown you my account and you follow me anyway i will honest to god probably stop being friends with you. ok that’s all xo

ao3. storygraph. spotify.

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[dapperseoul]

[callixton]

all i care abt is a messi world cup win i wouldn’t be this invested otherwise. but i am instantly so stressed

[callixton]

i know he has ftr. i just want him to win everything always

[callixton]

all i care abt is a messi world cup win i wouldn’t be this invested otherwise. but i am instantly so stressed

[callixton]

forgot to keep up w the final until like ten minutes ago and these stats r making me want to kill myself. girl please

[rpfofficial]

hi essi i’m exploring 90s rock/alt/punk bands for a musician au me & my dnd party is writing and pulp has caught my eye….. do u have any recommendations for getting into them

hi theo my friend theo i will happily give u recommendations for pulp. quick disclaimer i wouldn't consider pulp to be alt rock or punk, theyre much more pop & synth rock, more influenced by rave music than rock and roll, but theyre adjacent to the alt scene and theyre indie and theyre seminal to the 90s sound. the albums i think you'd get the most out of for what youre maybe looking for are my two favourite albums, his n hers 1994 and this is hardcore 1998 !! hardcore is especially important and amazing and beautiful, it's all about the trappings of fame and the falsehoods and curses of celebrity, told through the concept of pornography and the way sex symbols and porn stars are treated as completely disposable being a metaphor for stardom in general. and it's suuuuuccccchhhhh a rich and interesting alternative sound, it has some really fucking gorgeous songs, and a couple of their more rock-adjacent songs :-) their discography isn't huge and all of it's amazing, and different class 1995 was the peak of their career and also a perfect album, and maybe technically the best introduction to them, but i think starting with his n hers and this is hardcore is good. it's important. i think you will LOVE them.

[nukacoola-quantum]

Life for the Lone Wanderer is so brutal and lonely. None of the companions can really become your friend or are interested in being such. Two of them are slaves and one is a robot you own. None of them show much genuine positive feeling towards you except maybe Butch, and he bullied you violently throughout your entire childhood. Even your Mr. Handy robot (should you get the house in Megaton) is constantly making comments on how annoyed it is with you under its breath, which it can’t really do cause it’s a robot so the insults are definitely audible. Your only family left you and will eventually die in front of you for a cause he deems more important than you.

Even people who are nice to you want something from you and will try to extort you for it. Even the good people like Three Dog or Victoria Watts or the kind people like Moira or the people of Oasis constantly asking you for things, dangerous things, difficult decisions, you can never really catch a break. You’re trying to people please and help and feel some sort of, any sort of, connection to anyone because you are so, so lonely, all while dealing with this horrible new world you’ve been unwillingly and traumatically thrust into plus the loss of everything and one you’ve ever known.

Even Amata rejects you in the end. I can’t imagine the absolute devastation of knowing that you will never be allowed back home and that you have lost everything, every friend, every relationship, and no one is interested in fostering new ones. 

There’s just nothing to cling onto for support, and did I mention throughout it all you are a 19 year old baby? Rough stuff

[bberry005]

yeah okay okay so charlie young goes in for a job as a runner and then gets tapped by josh lyman to be personal aide to the president and he denies the job about a dozen times before taking it. and then it turns out the job is great and he's met some really cool and awesome people and he started dating zoey and there's the threat of violence looming in the background, but maybe it doesn't seem quite so real. and then one day he offers the president of the united states something to say during a town hall type meeting. and then the president actually says it and attributes it to charlie by name. charlie goes up to josh and says josh was right you don't ever get used to the feeling, the very feeling that convinced charlie to keep the job back at the beginning of the season. and then he walks outside and white supremists try to kill him but instead of him they get the president and josh, the two people who charlie looks up to most in that workplace if not his life (not including his mother). and then months later he's walking around the white house looking at a little kid. that kid was charlie once. a long time ago, back before charlie lost his dad and his mom and took this job and got shot at by white supremacists. and that kid's dad tells charlie "if they're shooting at you, you're doing something right." and charlie says "yeah" multiple times as he's wrapping his head around the idea. his mom died in the line of duty. she died while getting shot at doing what we assume is the right thing. maybe if charlie didn't take this job, he wouldn't have gotten shot at. but he also wouldn't be part of the bartlet administration. he wouldn't be part of trying to change things for the better. so maybe he is doing something right despite it all.

[bobdylanyaoi]

have we ever considered that fame is a gun and i point it blind

[medievalthymes]

how it feels to read 85 pages of a book in one sitting

[callixton]

never before have i cooked so hard

[future-crab]

The key to writing good fanfiction is to harbor a deeply humiliating desire, and the trick there is that even pretty basic and societally-accepted desires like “being held” and “being wanted” CAN and WILL be humiliating if they’re intense enough. Become so estranged from human connection that the idea of someone playing with your hair fills you with yearning so deep you feel like you’re going to throw up and you will write some banger fanfiction. It might have some other consequences too but idrk about that.

[t4timekeeper]

people of colour deserve to be able to enjoy fluff and escapism and transformative media and silly fandom stuff the same way that everyone else is allowed to, i think. there’s a lot of unexamined hostility toward anyone who isn’t white; sometimes it’s subtle, and sometimes it’s not. there needs to be far more love and support for poc, and far less defensiveness and tolerance regarding racism in spaces like these.

[iamaine]

repeating this to myself as a list of daily affirmations

[fanonical]

welcome to the eighth doctor we've got

pain

horny

horny pain

painful horny

amnesia

blowing up gallifrey AGAIN

[finndiseicla]

7. eating rats

[callixton]

can’t stop having dreams trying to parse the morality of this fucked up situation

[valyrfia]

psa number 50739 from this tumblr user to keep rpf away from everywhere except tumblr/ao3 or some plucky journalist trying to write clickbait articles for a living will take your rpf and put it on blast for the world to see and everyone has to live with the consequences