[defolu]

[forevertheobserver]

I fear that this is me

[gondwana]

Winter is for listening to the same music you were listening to at 15. Unfortunately

[ashstfu]

having so much love in your heart is beautiful and amazing right up until you’re alone in your bedroom clutching at your chest and whimpering like a wounded dog

[randombraindump]

i’ve been single since april 2021. sometimes i miss having a significant other (the physical intimacy, having someone who loves you and cares for you in a way that’s different from your friends) but the thought of potentially going through another breakup terrifies me. maybe that’s why i refuse to put more effort into trying to meet someone as well.

i’d like to think that if i did go through another breakup that i’d be in a better place mentally to heal. i have hobbies that i can distract myself with, friends that i trust and can spend time with, a job that i actually enjoy, coworkers that i can talk to. but the painful truth is that no matter what, a breakup is going to suck the life out of you and hurt like a bitch.

i am terrified of letting someone into my life and have them learn everything about me, my past, my family/friends, because there’s a chance that one day they just won’t be in it anymore. this is the reason i didn’t go “no contact” with either of my exes. i just couldn’t fathom suddenly cutting everything off when they had been in my life for a year and a half straight. but i was basically torturing myself because i was constantly dissecting every snapchat i got and every story they posted to hear whose voice was in the background, whose arm was slightly showing in the pic. i kept overthinking about everything, the way i would if i was in a situationship. and this was before the term “situationship” was even a thing (i think).

i’ve been on and off the apps since freshman year of college. i quit them all earlier this year but redownloaded them whenever i was traveling solo. it’s a little humbling to see people that i’ve seen when i was 18 who are still on the apps. i’m not any better if i’m still on them as well.

i joined a kickball league but it got rained out 4 weeks in a row that i lost interest in going. i thought i was being smart by choosing a saturday league but in reality, saturdays are my lazy days. i should’ve chosen one during the week. i might do that actually. anyway, i joined it in hopes to meet new friends so maybe when i decide to join another, i will actually go.

anyway, i’ve been talking to two people that sent me likes when i was in chicago for arc. they seem nice but i already know it won’t go anywhere because we’re not in the same state. well maybe one might become a friend because he goes to many festivals around the states. regardless i’m enjoying the conversations.

i wonder if i’ll be able to meet someone “organically”.

[escuerzoresucitado]

[flowinds]

life's tough a moodboard

[catcrumb]

[glassbonespaperskin]

what is the meaning behind your url?

my life story, I was born with glass bones and paper skin. Every morning I break my legs, and every afternoon I break my arms. At night, I lie awake in agony until my heart attacks put me to sleep

[1eos]

what’s the point of ~sexy~ pajamas? bitch go to sleep

[arandomthot]

I’ve had this same dilemma too many times

[carpbiker]

[february-deactivated20160722]

casually going about your day when you realize you had homework

[wreckfull]

how do people sneak out of their house??? I could be going to pee in the middle of the night and my mom will be like what tf you doing 

[botanize]

[auckie]

My parents just switched me from wet to dry food and it’s fucking ruining my life

[babelien7-deactivated20150727]

the signs from most to least funny

[meta-xylene]

Yield Stop Railroad Xing Wet Floor No Parking Do Not Enter Exit Open Toll Booths Ahead Register Closed Trucks Use Low Gear School Zone

[cakejam]

this lemur didn’t seem pleased that i was taking photos of him

[actionables]

so done

with you and your rude shit