im finally home...

just returning to my hometown after over 10 years

[retroactivebakeries]

[i-am-a-fish]

I try my best to be optimistic for the future because I don't think I'll gain anything of benefit from being pessimistic

[zeldoodles]

A little kirby doodle :) Un pequeño dibujito de Kirby

[eletenshi]

Tumblr is free from my suicidal ideation

[sugarsylvie]

Eevee finally accepts the cone!

[randomwub]

[randomwub]

[leapfog1]

No Voice to Cry Suffering

[okavara]

[randomwub]

I am not really great with words.

Speaking always feels wrong. My tounges alway tied. Words never flow ,but stumble, break and fall out of my mouth. Its hard to describe,

it feels like im trying to press something big through a needle sized hole

Maybe thats why my throat hurts after speaking so much.

Like im running a marathon after sleeping all day

Anyway since im so bad with words im more a fan of music (also kinda art [like drawing and pictures] even though im as artistic as a pebble)

So today im sharing with whoever wants to listen a part of my soul or simply some music i like.

[randomwub]

Small addendum

[randomwub]

I am not really great with words.

Speaking always feels wrong. My tounges alway tied. Words never flow ,but stumble, break and fall out of my mouth. Its hard to describe,

it feels like im trying to press something big through a needle sized hole

Maybe thats why my throat hurts after speaking so much.

Like im running a marathon after sleeping all day

Anyway since im so bad with words im more a fan of music (also kinda art [like drawing and pictures] even though im as artistic as a pebble)

So today im sharing with whoever wants to listen a part of my soul or simply some music i like.

[randomwub]

For the last month i have been watching the anime Ashita No Joe or Tomorrow's Joe

And honestly it has really affected me

Like its been a long time since i could relate to a character. I mean not his upbringing or really his caracter, but his philosophy? Maybe?

As long as there are some embers left within me i will burn with my flame until there is nothing left but white ash (not a quote more of a paraphrase)

But honestly if never heard someone put it into words like that.

Thats how i live my Life

So until there is nothing of me but white ash ill continue writing into this journal? Diary? (or more realistically until i lose interest)

Some sidenotes im not willing to turn to full posts

The last time something affected me like that it was Dead Poets soceiety

[some parents kill their children and are to blind to see it. watch it before you choose to have children]

Also also i tried meeting new people learned i have way more issues than even i knew. Turned down someone who was interested in me. And maybe probably should go into therapy. Oh and im getting close to a big step in my life and im sosososososoososososososososososososo scared

So yeah (*´・з・)

Wish me luck, pray on my downfall, or ignore some random persons insane rambelings

[randomwub]

[bigasscockroach]

[paintpanic]

black hole sun

[randomwub]

I wanted to talk about something ,but i. just. cant.

Why cant i talk about my plight even when its on this poor excuse for a diary?

Theres a scream stuck in my throat and chains binding my hands.

And like always things i want to say sink and burn holes in my soul

Today like always the window is murky, soft light shines trough ,not that i feel it ,but it is there and maybe it is beautifull?

I cant wait for the day that my bones finally turn to dust. Until then looking out the window is acceptable a distraction.

[sil3nt-chaos-deactivated2026041]

There’s comfort knowing we all share the same moon

[randomwub]

The moon is beautifull today isnt it?