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I want to ask why you used "Rashkolnikov-ish" as your handle? And, how do you relate to him? Do you see yourself in him(not the murderous side but the thought that led to it, his dichotomous character)and what do you think of him?

I really want to know your perspective, as I really look up to you. Love your blog btw.

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Aaa never thought anyone was going to be interested 🫠

Ah, well I do have a God complex, not always but mostly. But that's not the sole reason, I resonate with his isolation, his cynicism and the way he takes pride in his intellectual arrogance. I feel dichotomies swirling inside of me and I am unable to move, I'm fixated, I'm rotting in my room, in my body as he was rotting inside his room except I do not have economic constraints like his.

I am a deeply insecure person, and perhaps my intellectual arrogance stems from my insecurity. I'm not comfortable within my own skin. There's something about me that is so ugly. Can't really point it. The way he was ashamed to be seen as weak or poor (when he used to avoid his landlady because he owed her rent) or in rags, I felt it. I'm kind of scared if people were to see the side of me that is sub-par in my head.

I'm sorry if I confused you. Can't really put my words right. Sorry. But yeah we could say, i resonate with pre-murderous Rashkolnikov. All the dark and insecure parts.

Also, I do think I have a reckless murderer side of me. Not that I am going to act upon it. But oof.

Wait, you look up to me? 😶🥲

#anon ask