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[ratfetish]

howdy

I’m Ham

24 yo afab

this is an ed/vent blog (12 years of suffering…where’s my badge?)

pls block instead of reporting

DMs are always open

tw I like horror

sw: 175 • cw: 160 • gw: 130 • hw: 185

[ratfetish]

guess who ate like shit and binge drank for two days and is back to where they started

[ratfetish]

finished my meal and immediately almost shat my pants ?

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dyed my hair rainbow again. I missed it.

fàsted for 50 hours. Made a chickpea, sweet potato, broccoli bake.

and even though I measure out my food and count all my calories. I feel so so guilty. Like I could and should have waited longer.

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my coworker brought me an entire fast food meal and I had to tell her I’m fasting. … instead of me saying I already ate or something normal. I totally panicked.

So she gave me the spiel that “stârving doesn’t help you lose weight” and comparing herself to me. Ugh. It soured my mood.

I didn’t eat any of it, though. I’m “clean”.

My hungover eating yesterday led me to gain a pound. But I’m not crazy worried.. after this fast I should be closer to 140 than 160.

[ratfetish]

extremely hungover today. slightly emo. washed my hair and doing a face mask. forcing myself to finish an awful book (haunting Adeline).

don’t wanna talk about what I ate today………I needed it…..

Starting a 72 hour fast tomorrow and hopefully I’ll be in the low 150s ♥️😩

[theprettiestpoison]

thought of this while i was smoking today x

[perfectispretty]

[ratfetish]

broke my fast last night for mediocre pizza……….will fast for 48-72 hours because I feel nasty

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I have a pair of standard black tights that are sooooo tight around my thighs that it hurts. And one of my goals is to be able to wear them without being in pain lol

I’m in the break room sipping coffee (I liquid fast bc I’m addicted to caffeine) waiting until I can clock in. Time is already going by so slow. Makes me scared because I barely got any sleep last night.

Oh RIGHT I started my cycle right before bed so I cramped and sweat for most of the night. Isn’t it so weird that once you notice you’re menstruating THEN you start cramping????

I hope everyone had a good valentines. And I hope you have a great day today. !!

[tawdryqueen]

Well, this is going to haunt my brain for a very long time.

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told my bf I’m gonna fast for a few days and he replied, “Well I’m gonna FAT for a few days”

at least he’s supportive

[seol-hwa]

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recap of my off day

I bleached some of my hair last night 😭 totally spur of the moment drunken decision but it looks soooooo cute I’ll take pictures soon!!!!!

my bf took me out to dinner and bought me new shoes! I put together a cute basket for him and then bought myself a mood ring and an onyx pendant (for energy and focus while I’m fasting)

Another 48-72 hour fast starts now!!

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new cw

honestly fasting is so nice once you get past the 24 hour mark….. and if I can shed so much weight by just fasting and my moderately rigorous job….. and not being a wittle piggy….. I’ll be at my gw in no time

[euphoricspam-deactivated2024021]

fasting has made me hate my body more tbh cause wdym i can go 72 hours without eating and be completely okay??? like my body can survive off of the sheer amount of fat on me and still be okay

[ratfetish]

If I get home and I’m out of the 160s……. I’ll celebrate by drinking and eating. Then I’ll start another 48-72 hour fast on Wednesday yay!!!!!!