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i don't remember the last time someone has asked me how am i doing or if i'm ok. if there's anything going on with me. the last time someone wasn't disappointed in me. like i'm always fucking up. exactly why i always tend to push people away cos being alone is easier so i don't have to worry people or be afraid to cause disappointment. like i know if i was to leave this world i would be fine know i didn't cause anyone any hurt or give them a reason to remember me so i can just go in peace. like i really think the worlds better off without me sometimes cos i'm just a burden and people would just be happier without me. i won't have to worry about people talking behind my back or hiding my true self from everyone including my mains. i know they wont see this cause we don't even use tumblr anymore. but i guess i just want to be left alone and just forgotten even by them. i know im an emotional wreck and it seems like im crying out for attention but maybe its because i am. at this point i dont even know myself. only person im hurting and im alright with it is me. cos no one else is involved.

So the Army Life is pretty chill. Im not certified as a real soldier yet but i will be soon. i will be and army combat mechanic. i will be rolling with infantry but i am highly thinking about going active. im really about to make this my life career. i am actually going back to school when i get back and becoming an officer. i will be changing my MOS (JOB) to a pharmacist cos that's what i will be going back to school for. The military is really paving the way for my life. Helping my family and for the future that comes with it. I want to make my family proud and i have been. I have one foot in the door already and i just need to walk through it and fulfill what i want in life. this life wasn't to be easy but it sure seems like it. idk the future has a lot in store for me and whatever happens happens. im just thankful and glad i can serve my country for the people i love and for the other future soldiers i will one day have under me and help guide them like how all my superiors have guided me. A long way to go but so worth it. I will make the Esquejo name proud and the US ARMY on my sleeve and be professional while im in be it i serve more than 20 or less. im glad to be serving in the worlds greatest and being apart of the worlds greatest. Through this portal the greatest soldiers are made and come from the best. HOOAH! i cant wait to be up there one day.